that she’s an orphan

“Anne with an E” and the antidote to toxic masculinity

Okay, so I’m loving Anne with an E a ton anyways, but Gilbert, y’all. THIS Gilbert Blythe is showing boys how loving a girl is done, son!

1) We already know all these school kids think Anne is an “ugly orphan.” But then Mr. I’ve-got-popularity-privilege Blythe is all, “she’s cute and you are all nimrods.” 

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2) His reaction to her poetry reading in class. Everybody else is either laughing or mortified, but Gilbert gets her. He sees past the dramatics to see she is really into her poetry and f*cking loves it.

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3) He went too far with the whole hair-pull and carrots thing so she straight-up bitch-slapped him with her slate. How does he react? He f*cking smiles! He genuinely looks impressed at her actions. Not offended in the slightest, and probably realized he deserved it.

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4) He admires her in the middle of competing against her in the spelling bee. He loves her intelligence y’all!

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5) Other boys: You’ve gotta show that ugly orphan that she’s not smart. Gilbert:

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6) Literally the first time he sees her after her weird “I would make a terrible wife” comment he’s like straight up overwhelmed with feels. Like her just being her isn’t weird at all to him.

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7) He comes back after months abroad. She just had to cut her hair. Everyone else is laughing, but he doesn’t say a damn thing about her hair. Ever. Not even to another person on-screen. And he’s still all heart-eyes for her.

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8) The way he says “oh yeah” in this scene. It’s like he genuinely forgets how often people misunderstand her–hence her need to apologize a lot. 

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okay, so we all know this quote that floats around tumblr:

“Making Ronan Lynch smile felt as charged as making a bargain with Cabeswater. These were not forces to play with.”

but do you REMEMBER what adam did to make ronan smile?? because i sure as heck didn’t until i started re-reading the raven king.

the gang is taking freshly manifested orphan girl to cabeswater to live with aurora lynch, and the whole scene is quite magical… with ronan protectively carrying orphan girl through cabeswater like she’s his family, orphan girl manifesting a song from cabeswater to brighten ronan’s mood like he’s her family, and gansey turning falling leaves into little fish that tease blue for him – and cabeswater literally nudges adam and tells him, “happiness,” and he is like, “nah, i’m good,” so cabeswater is like, “no seriously HAPPINESS,” and adam relents and decides to put out some intention of his own, and what decides to manifest?? RONAN LYNCH’S MUSIC. gansey and blue are all, “ronan you douchebag stop it!!” but ronan looks at adam like ??, and adam’s mouth does like 20% of a smile, and ronan breaks out into his “reserved for his sweet and precious lovable matthew lynch” smile. for adam. because adam’s idea of happiness is drowning in ronan lynch and his terrible music and his poor soul hardly even knows it yet oh my GOODNESS

Oh, you’re gonna see one in season five. I’m not gonna tell you the episode but I can tell you the camera goes around Cosima and Delphine [motions 360°] and when you see it [smug grin], you’ll know. It’s beautiful. It’s a beautiful scene.
—  Evelyne Brochu (giving me palpitations) and answering what scene she’s loved shooting @ Paley Fest with Red Carpet Exclusive.
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They cooked and devoured Gryla’s son first, her only child, and then the other witch broke their pact. Devasted, Gryla spent the last thousand years trying to replace her lost babe. She’s forever adding children, particularly orphans, to her so-called family.

I have a lot of feelings about this episode, but what I want to talk about is Anne and Diana’s fight and the implications it has about Anne’s sense of self worth. Now, I love Diana and Jerry, but I didn’t like how Diana was treating Jerry in this episode, and I think he had a right to be upset. I also think Anne’s feelings not only of betrayal but also of abandonment are understandable in this scene.

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In this scene you can see all of Anne’s insecurities come to light. Some people might say she’s overreacting to Diana’s one trespass, but speaking as an orphan who didn’t have the love and security of a family as a child, let me just say that those feelings of not being good enough stick with you. You’re always afraid that those you love will leave you again, so you push people away before they can hurt you. Right before this scene, Anne accused Diana of waiting to get rid of her (Anne). This is a typical fear of most people, but it is amplified in Anne’s case (as well as mine) because we have “proof” ie we were left before and we’ll be left again. It’s like you’re just waiting for someone to realize that you’re not good enough, and then they’ll leave you too.

You can see other instances of Anne’s belief that she’s unloveable, like in ep 6 when she says

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Because the thing about not growing up loved is that you always think that maybe you’re not worth it. Maybe there’s something wrong with you, that you’re so broken no one could ever love you. And you constantly run this thought through your mind, never thinking that you’re good enough and always blaming yourself for your abandonment. And you don’t hold out hope that someday someone might love you, because you won’t believe them anyways. You can never believe that anyone could love you.

In ep 2, Anne says

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Being an orphan leaves with you all of these questions, the biggest one being why were you left? And the only answer that you can come up with is that you just weren’t wanted. You weren’t good enough. So even after the trauma, you can never believe people when they tell you that they love you, that you’re good enough. How could you? Because that would leave the question, why didn’t someone love me before?

And that’s why it’s so important that in this episode, Anne tells Josie

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You are always worthy of love. You were worthy of it before, and you are worthy of it now. And nothing anybody can say or do will take away your worth. You don’t have to be “good enough” to be loved. You are enough, just the way you are.

No one but you is allowed to dictate what you’re worth.

And you are worth so much more than you believe.

Okay but hear me out…

Jaal joining the crew of the Tempest and realizing that he thinks he likes Ryder more than a friend; that he’s starting to fall for her. He talks to her more, he starts making her a new gift that he’s put infinitely more thought into than the last one, and he starts corresponding with his True Mother more often.

She asks about this Sara Pathfinder, where she came from, what her family is like… and that’s when he realizes he doesn’t know what her family is like, does he? He’s never met her father or her mother, or knows if she has any brothers or sisters or cousins… Ryder doesn’t talk about them, and he never thought to ask.

After a mission, it left Jaal feeling particularly alone, missing his family… Ryder came to him to talk, the topic was brought up in conversation. She told him her mother and father are dead and her brother is in a medically induced coma, that she’s basically an orphan. It makes his heart hurt, he was surrounded by people, by family, always no matter what… to be so completely alone and frightened and overwhelmed in a new galaxy 600 years away from your home… he can’t imagine it. He immediately emails his True Mother.

He tells her Ryder opened up to him, told him about her family, and how it made him feel sad. He deeply cared for Ryder, he wanted to help her… He had to help his darling one. “So bring her here! Introduce us, we will be her family.” Sahuna tells him. The idea entices Jaal, especially considering the recent events with Aksuul…

He suggests it to her, and they take the shuttle to meet his family. He introduces Ryder to everyone, despite his embarrassment from the praises of his True Mother. Ryder is smiling with stars in her eyes, loving every minute. She missed the family atmosphere so desperately, she loved being surrounded by it again. He was so glad he helped her, made even gladder by the confession that she felt the same way about him that he did about her.

… a first, for him.

I’m kind of excited about the whole season, I feel like we’ve always been in a spiral and right now we’re at the center, and it’s gonna go real fast. There’s a specific episode for Delphine and Cosima that I particularly loved shooting. It was episode five. It was very meaningful. I felt very lucky I got to have a chance to play those scenes with Tatiana.
—  Évelyne Brochu on what she’s excited about season 5 of Orphan Black 

I thought we were past this!

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I’ve seen that a lot (and even said it myself) about the relationship regression in The Rise of Skywalker.

Rey and Ben do fight constantly in TROS and it looks like a regression, right back to mortal enemies like they were before The Last Jedi. But, what if the fighting was not from anger, but from love?

Consider the old tropes: I Want My Beloved To Be Happy and Break His Heart To Save Him.

Both of these tropes are built around someone wanting their love to be happy, even at the cost of hurting their love or themself. One of the finest examples of the former is when the Beast let Belle go, and the latter is best seen when Satine sends Christian away to save his life.

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Both of these tropes cause one or both of the lovers to feel extremely sad, but it’s for a reason. So what does this have to do with Reylo?

When Ben’s hand was rejected by Rey, that cemented all of his worst views of himself. He was too evil at the core to be loved by his family, so they discarded him and then he feels like Rey has done the same thing. He’s found validation for his self hatred in Rey’s rejection because, after all, who could ever learn to love a Beast?

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When Rey was offered Ben’s hand, she’s presented with everything she ever wanted. A home, a name, a family. She’s a desert gremlin with no fame, no family, an orphan and she’s receiving a proposal from a dark prince. Literally the guy of her dreams. But looking at him, at Ben, she still sees that Kylo Ren has hold of this man she loves and she knows that that’s baggage that she can’t change - only he can. And in that moment, she knows for a fact that she can’t save him.

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So this woman whose entire life has been hungry, homeless, and lonely has to look in the eye of the person she wants and tell them no - breaking his heart to save him (and herself) from the darkness of Kylo Ren that still holds him.

But their connection is extremely intense and one little breakup won’t sever the connection forever, right? They both know this.

Ben is in terrible pain because he thinks that he is unredeemable and unlovable, and he feels that Rey is proof of this since he doesn’t know that she rejected him to help him - she does love him more than he knows.

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Rey is in terrible pain because she knows that she did what had to be done, but her entire life has been about grasping what she can lest she starve to death, always scavenging and scrounging because she doesn’t get what she wants and she only gets what she needs sometimes. And to save them both, she had to look directly at her desires and walk away. She probably also still feels her own lack of lineage and somewhere inside she doesn’t feel like she deserves a prince AND the Skywalker family!

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Their pain is intensified still by the ever present “What if…?” that they can’t get out of their heads. You don’t meet a soulmate every day. So the only thing you can do is try to make sure that this breakup is real and permanent.

So you push them away. Actively. Violently.

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The movie The Garden of Words has a part where one character, feeling rejected by the other, screams something like, “I hate you! Tell me I’m a failure, tell me you hate me! Tell me I’ll never be enough, tell me I’ll never achieve my dreams! Say it! Say you hate me!” in an effort to push her away and validate his self doubt and hatred.

I think that’s exactly what our loves were doing. These What Ifs were too much to stand and the lingering presence of their connection and love were just too painful. So they fought. They pushed each other away to protect one another and themselves. Distance the cause of your broken heart and sometimes healing can happen but if the cause of your broken heart is always with you, healing is a lot harder.

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I’m probably giving CT and JJA too much credit and they just wanted to include lots of fighting and action, but this is how I choose to view their fights. Not as regression, but as a desperate (failed) attempt to push the other away to protect and heal. In a situation like that, there’s not much else that two damaged people can do since they can’t put their feelings into words.

I like this viewpoint because it at least means that everything from TLJ wasn’t discarded, but that TROS was us viewing both of them trying so hard to eliminate those What Ifs because they know that they were presented everything they really wanted and neither one was able to accept it.

They were both in so damn much pain all through The Rise of Skywalker. So much pain caused by so much love.

rainbowfoxes  asked:

I see your marivengers and posit this: Maribat, wherein Bruce Wayne sees this black haired blue eyed kid in spandex running around stopping crime and it activates his Dad Senses. She spontaneously finds herself getting scholarships from the Wayne foundation, a bunch of "anoymously" (is it really anonymous if everything is bat shaped or labeled?) gifted gadgets, a Very British Butler giving her advice on time management, and a gaggle of over protective older siblings.

Maribat is perfect. She’s not an orphan but she’s like batgirl, could use some superhero guidance.

Just getting scholarships she never applied for and is now in Gotham Academy with some weird kid called Dick showing her around and wanting a selfie, with some blonde girl apologising because he does that to everyone.

Before she knows it she has a utility belt the her yoyo sits on top of. Just has something for every occasion.

Joker weirdly loves Ladybug because he sees the lucky charm as chaos or a cosmic joke that it cold give her anything and gives her a rubber duck. He tries recruiting her which goes badly.

This is during an off moment of their relationship so Quinn talks to Ladybug about it’s ok to say no or work through a few things. Self-esteem mostly and confidence. They with Ivy go shopping and Marinette convinces them to actually pay for things.

Riddler hates her because like Batsy she can solve his riddles ridiculously quickly.

She hates Mr Freeze because of all the puns. 

First meeting she thinks Catwoman could have the miraculous, then realises she doesn’t but for a moment Marinette was worried.

Penguin she’s still trying to figure out.

Edit: If I haven’t said it already I’m saying this now. When I was asked this I was not aware maribat was already a thing. I think it’s @ozmav and @maribat-archive you should go to if you want to see more from people who actually understand it better. They’re doing good stuff, so if you like this crossover idea head over to them

The Doctor isn’t the same after Spyfall

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After the events of Spyfall, the Doctor’s attitude has changed. After seeing the aftermath of her best friend destroying her home planet, again, she’s become a lot more…angrier.

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Rightfully so, as she should be. This is a dark side of thirteen we haven’t fully seen yet, and while I’m excited for this arc I’m also scared that we’re going to lose her hopeful, kind, optimistic side. The Master should be very afraid of the next time they meet, I have a feeling 13 isn’t going to hold back!

Even just from Orphan 55, we can see she’s acting a lot more distant with team tardis, and still keeping things from them. I think the lack of openness is going to cause a rift within them, as I have a feeling they’re going to start questioning the Doctor and start to become skeptical of her.

This is the second time this season she’s withheld information from them, and I think they’re starting to get curious, when really all the Doctor needs is a friend, a family to talk to.

She’s clearly becoming a lot more shorter with people, I think what’s happening here is the Doctor is clearly hurting from Gallifrey, and is bottling up all her emotions and venting it out on other people. I hope that it doesn’t go too far, and that she’ll finally start opening up to the fam, otherwise I think she’s going to snap and break. Perhaps the fam will leave her? Betray her unintentionally? Who knows, I hope not…

But who knows what will happen in future episodes?

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anonymous asked:

Happy Pride Shana!!!! Could I have Zuko and Azula family moments? Maybe something with Toph as an additional little sister for Zuko?

“She’s an orphan,” Azula points out, “What does father want with her?” 

“I’m blind,” their new little sister says crossly, “not deaf.” 

Zuko nudges Azula in her side until she drops her scowl, then holds out a hand towards Toph. To his surprise, she takes it without prompting, like she can really see it. “Be nice. Maybe Dad just didn’t want you to feel lonely being the only girl.” 

The skeptical, suspicious looks they both level at him have him suppressing a sigh. They’re already far too alike for his sanity.