that out of all i've made so far

anonymous asked:

You don't need to respond I just needed to say a thing. I find it a little childish for so many people to assume that dan will/should come out. As far as I've read into it I feel like he's "come out" as much as he ever will. He's talked about attraction to all genders. I feel that he's made it clear that his sexuality is what it is and he's going to be attracts to someone no matter the gender. People think he needs to make a video about being bi/pan but really he's made clear that he's existing.

the question i receive more than any other on this blog is some variation of “when/how do you think dnp will come out/tell us about their sexualities or their relationship?” and i’ve never answered it. for a number of reasons, but primarily because so many people in this space operate under such a specific definition of what coming out means and what it should entail. i’m wary, always, of subscribing to a uniform standard for what queerness looks like and how it needs to present itself in order to be taken seriously or treated as valid, and i think the discourse and speculation and constant obsession about dnp’s potential future coming out process does exactly that. in my view the culture around coming out as it exists right now is a relic of cultural norms in which queerness was differentiated and encoded into law and language and social thought as explicitly and intrinsically Other. the socialized obligation to not only categorize and label one’s sexual/romantic preferences but then to announce them to the world at large is only cast on queer people specifically because, unless announced otherwise, society’s working assumption of a person is that they are cis/straight. queer people need to tell the world they are queer precisely because it is different, because it is a deviation from a socially enforced “norm,” and the term “coming out” itself denotes that someone was once hiding themselves and now they aren’t.

for some people (many people) labeling and coming out make a lot of sense. we’re not in a post-heteronormative world. the stark reality is that people DO operate with ingrained cis- and heteronormative frames of thought and it can be tiring to deal with people always making assumptions of your preferences that don’t fit who you are and what you like. labeling your preferences and making sure people know them is a way to avoid those mistaken assumptions. it’s also a way to find other people like you, to ally yourself with a community that is still so marginalized and oppressed in myriad ways, and join in the movement and the fight and take pride in an aspect of yourself that many people would try to deride or malign. but an alternate school of thought is that the gender you prefer having sex with or that you fall in love with is no more a part of your identity that merits announcement and discussion than, say, your preference for masturbating three times a week or your preference for only having sex in the missionary position or any other personal detail about what you do w your genitals in the privacy of your bedroom. it doesn’t have to have a bearing on identity in the most nuclear and concentrated sense of the word, it doesn’t HAVE to be labeled and addressed in a way that automatically reduces and categorizes it and neatly packages it as an object for the public to talk about and weigh in on. the notion of labeling your sexuality and then “coming out” is a construct in the most literal sense, and for some people, who perhaps don’t feel the need to correct everyone’s heteronormative assumptions of them, or who don’t feel the need to find other people with non-hetero preferences, or who think the reality of the life they live since they blatantly/openly share it w someone of their same gender is already pretty suggestive of their preferences, coming out widely and publicly isn’t a priority or a necessity (and in some cases can obviously also be a discomforting, stressful, scary, or even dangerous prospect!!!) for literally thousands of possible reasons.

we can guess that dnp align themselves more closely to this latter outlook. in both of the recent times that dan has discussed sexuality explicitly he talks about not wanting to label it for a public audience. in his diss track he directly addresses his own comments about attraction to more than one gender (j law –> evan p), and then says that it’s hard to put him in a box because he keeps “it” (his sexuality) so blurry. he’s bluntly saying that he doesn’t want to be categorized. in an interview with the sunday times in late 2015 promoting tabinof, the interviewer directly asks dan if he’s gay. dan references tom hardy’s answer to the same question and says that he and phil do not believe that their sexual preferences are something the public has any business knowing–he then delineates the purpose of their role as public figures. they are entertainers and what they seek to offer their public audience is the content they make. that’s it. looking to tom hardy’s actual quote sheds even more light: “I’m under no obligation to share anything to do with my family, my children, my sexuality — that’s nobody’s business but my own…It’s important destigmatizing sexuality and gender inequality in the workplace, but to put a man on the spot in a room full of people designed purely for a salacious reaction? To be quite frank, it’s rude. If [someone] had said that to me in the street, I’d have said the same thing back: ‘I’m sorry, who the fuck are you?’”

as far back as 2009, both dnp were talking about attraction to men and following it with the refrain that they don’t like labels. and that is VALID. it’s transgressive, even, to take a look at all the heteronormativity out there, all of the assumptions that people make about sex and gender and everything else, all of the demand that straights place on queer people to announce their otherness as loudly as possible and categorize themselves as being different, and then to say no, reject all of that pressure, and turn your back on it. refuse to comply with everyone’s expectations and just be happy in liking what you like and loving who you love. just existing, as anon put it so beautifully.

but if a queer person chooses this outlook, chooses to shirk labels and a formal/public statement of their preferences, the default assumption SHOULD NOT be straight. heterosexuality shouldn’t be an assumed sexuality for anyone, regardless of the statements they may or may not have made, but it especially should not be the assumption for two men who did publicly label at one point as bisexual, and who have repeatedly voiced attraction to men. in an attempt to move towards a society that doesn’t make assumptions at all, a world in which coming out is completely obsolete and unnecessary and people stopped giving so much of a fuck about the genders people have sex with, it’s on all of us to change the way that we think about sexuality and unlearn our own biased thought. the burden shouldn’t fall on dnp to correct our thought or go out of their way to tell us that they fuck or that they’re in love–doesn’t that cheapen everything that they are? doesn’t that demand something of them that they’ve said over and over they do not want to give? and haven’t they done enough to tell us about how they experience attraction? it’s on all of us to take those comments seriously and to validate and acknowledge their experiences as they relay them to us, and to contextualize them in the complex textures and nuances of who they are as people.

who they are and what they’ve already chosen to share with us is pretty damn radical in itself: they’re two boys who have shared and built a life together for nearly eight years and who rely on each other on so many levels. they’re two boys who speak of the love and respect they have for each other in numerous ways, perhaps without stating those words specifically, but making it clear through actions and stories of their time together instead. they’re two boys who don’t know how to be without each other, who don’t merely coexist and work together but who have consciously interwoven their lives to the point that all of their experiences are shaped with and through each other. the argument can be made that they’re “out” in the sense of not hiding who they are from us, in the sense that both of them, and dan especially, have taken conscious measures to talk about how much they like boys. the argument can equally be made that they still hide to some degree–they won’t hold hands or hug, they’ll separate beds if they’re showing us the inside of their hotel room, they’ll not say the words i love you in front of us. but to me none of that even incrementally eclipses the glowing reality and warmth of the life they share–it’s as much info as i think they will ever feel okay giving us and it’s more than enough, for me at least, to look to them as models of deepest mutual love and respect (yes between two men!!) and of the comfort that can arise when you find someone to just exist with, outside world and their asks of you be damned

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anonymous asked:

As an elf, I've had over a hundred and fifty birthdays, so I don't really celebrate them other than, like, the big milestones? Apparently Angus detectived his way to figure out that today was my 167 somehow and got me a gift and gave me this whole speech about "Birthdays are a fun and cheerful way to celebrate life and how far you've come since the last one!" An eleven year old kid made me cry. Also: I'm now having a late birthday party in a couple days and you're all invited.

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I am done.

This blog has really been stressing me out. I’m done with it. I’ve overwhelmed myself (my fault) and certain die-hard fans have me finally worn me down. Well fine. You got it. I don’t have the energy or motivation to continue this anyway.

So, everyone else who actually enjoyed this blog, thank you for sticking around, being interested, and all the great support. I’m sorry I couldn’t do better or get as far as I wanted to. I’m sorry I couldn’t show you more. I’m sorry for finally giving in. I’ll leave this blog up this time in case anyone wants to review old content or what was suppose to be.

(I may do more chocoboys au art on my main art blog from time to time @sunxiii ☆ so feel free to check it out sometime)

Thank you.

anonymous asked:

Hi Anne, sorry to bother you, but I wonder if you know what happened today with NJ? As far as I've heard he made a VLive for CH+ only because he felt bad that people paid, so he wanted to give them something in return and a few ARMYs got angry? Is it true that someone left the streaming out of anger (though they should have actually been grateful, since they were the ones who paid) and that people with no CH+ went to the public chat and called him rude and greedy or something like that?

How do you even know all of these details like??? As far as I know there’s no drama. There are only a lot of people I’m seeing who are grateful for namjoon since he was thinking of those who paid for ch+ and joon asked for other people to understand. So what if someone left the stream out of anger? lmao. How do people even know that detail?! Why is namjoon rude/greedy for doing a live on ch+? I feel like I’m reading fanfiction, someone enlighten me about this please. Is this from bts amino app?! lol

What I got from Joon’s CH+ is that Jhope’s studio (Hope World) smells so good he preferred to do the vlive in there.

So like I’ve had the Batter show up in my dreams at least 5 times and each time he’s been different so here’s a concise list of dream Batters I’ve encountered:

  • Some really small, pixelated Batter… reminded me of the scenes in the FC worlds of Yume Nikki.  I was walkin’ him around the purified zones and this music that sounded like a cross between “Not Safe” and the Lavender Town theme was playing in the background; it was freaking me out so I woke myself up.
  • A King!Batter who ruled over a jungle.  He was frustrated that Zacharie’s antics would embarrass him in front of some visiting foreign diplomats, but he’d kind of already embarrassed himself b/c they walked in on him eating some dead varmint that wasn’t even skinned and it was pretty gross.
  • A Batter exploring this sewerlike platform-game structured maze that looked like an H.R. Giger painting.  At some point something bad happened to him that upset him so much that he hid naked in a bathtub and yelled for a while, but he eventually stopped..?  He also started like, assimilating some of the weird sewer monsters and spectres into his body to boost his stats… it wasn’t healthy and he knew it.
  • Some poor Batter who couldn’t tie his shoes and was stuck constantly stumbling over his laces.  I was puppeteering him but couldn’t help him fix his shoes and I felt pretty bad about it.  He wound up staying with some science guys on a wrecked spaceship because he needed to be with people who could tie his shoes for him.
  • Some Batter who was some sort of successor to the first one, and the zones might have been remakes… it wasn’t clear on that.  Everyone was referring to this Batter as a “she” or “it,” but I don’t think she even had a gender?  She dressed in all white and had a short skirt– but otherwise appeared identical to the original.  She was real strong and real nasty, to the point where she probably only had the bat for show.  She had sharp teeth, and mostly spoke to whisper threats right next to your face.  She was carving a path of destruction and the guardians were desperately trying to figure out how to stop her, but I woke up before I heard their full plans.  She may or may not have harmed Zacharie, too.

And them’s all the dream Batters I’ve seen so far.  I haven’t dreamed about him recently but I often wake up thinking about him so *shrug*?

anonymous asked:

I really hope that in your fic Ris gets to show of how beautiful she is even though she has small breasts and exotic eyes. I'm not gonna lie but a huge pet peeve of mine in the shonen manga is this constant theme of bullying small breast girls. One of my oldest friends is on the smaller size (a b cup ) & she has the sexiest legs & back (I didn't know backs could be sexy till I met her). And while it sounds funny that they mistake her for a boy post time skip. It's really irritating & insulting.

Oh yeah, Riskua’s not gonna be happy about the whole ‘boy playing her Strawhat impersonater’. And neither is boyfriend Ace

Riskua will get her time to shine as beautiful, I promise.

I don’t know about anyone else, but for me there are two type of beauty. There’s the instant 'oh, they’re gorgeous’, and then there’s the kind you have to be exposed to over and over before you really see it.

You see, I didn’t think Cara Delevingne was very pretty at all when I first saw her. But now, after so much exposure, I think she’s beautiful.

That’s the kind of beauty I want Riskua to have. Where you’ve been blinded by the sun for so long that it isn’t until you really look that you see how damn gorgeous the galaxy of stars are. A subtle kind of beauty that build and builds then hits you all at once.

Ace is gonna have that 'punch-to-the-stomach shit-she’s-beautiful’ moment when they next meet up. Promise.

yeah insecure lance is good bc it’s #relatable but also like…he actually does matter a lot

every one of the paladins has a talent and lance’s is social skills. like. he brought everyone together and is (from what i’ve seen) the most relatable paladin and represents all the good things you associate w humanity.

personally?? i want to see insecurities from the other paladins too. there is a significant amount from shiro to be fair, but not the others. things like keith feeling that he doesn’t have anything real to add to the team, he’s just an ok pilot/fighter. expanding on pidge’s doubt in episode one that she’s not even a pilot?? and also way younger than the others and thinking all she has is her intelligence. hunk not realizing how much he contributes to the team with his own genius and friendliness.

idk it just feels like lance’s contributions are made out to be lesser and they’re really really not :(

badinfluencer-deactivated201708  asked:

Are there any anime series or movies you'd recommend? I feel like manga horror is more robust than it's animated counterpart, and I'm trying to find something to scratch that itch. I thought Parasyte and Attack on Titans started really well but just turned into shonen action, and stuff like Perfect Blue and Magnetic Rose are the best thriller/horror stuff I've found so far.

That’s the big rub with horror anime always. I get hooked by the first 5 episodes and then the shonen tropes come in hard.

My standard answer is always go through everything Yoshiaki Kawajiri ever made, though judging by your avatar you’ve probably already seen then all. Wicked City, Demon City Shinjuku, Vampire Hunter D Bloodlust, Cyber City Oedo, etc.

I think the third Berserk movie is excellent on its own terms too. The previous two movies miss out on too much to really recommend, but The Advent is gold.

The New Laughing Salesman airing now is really good too. Not exactly horror, but has the morality of a horror film more than many of these new shonen horror shows do.

You know how when Simm was announced I said I hoped he was in Extremis rather than the finale (back then those were the only episodes we knew Michelle was going to be in)? I’m honestly glad I was wrong about that, because so far I think it works better this way. My big fear was that he would overshadow Michelle, but because all the early content has only been her, she’s been getting the attention she deserves. And it’s given me time to get used to the idea of Simm!Master returning—in fact, because they’re dragging it out so long, I actually want him to finally appear. I want to know how he’ll be handled, even if I end up hating him just as much as I did before.

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“I always get happy when the sun’s out, shining. I’ve always had a thing about that. Like, I hate it when it’s like raining. But when the sun’s out, I can’t help but be like smiling.” x

Happy Birthday, Alexander David Turner - January 6th 1986

Does anyone know if the Russians put out any kind of statement or sent condolences after Apollo 1? I know after Komarov’s death the U.S. made a couple public statements and offered to send Gordo and Frank to the funeral, but I don’t think I’ve read anything about the Russian reaction to the fire

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I’ve got a bit of artblock today so I might not be able to get any sketches up, so I thought I’d share one of the other things that’s been taking up a lot of my time lately. That being, I made Tommy Jarvis in Fallout 4 and it’s been far too fun running around the Commonwealth with my tricked-out shotgun. (Seriously, the thing was one-shotting super mutants earlier today.) And of course I had to give him a machete for those rare times I need melee combat. :3

Random Lyric Starters (Part Two)
  • "They don't want me to know."
  • "Lately I just wonder where you're at."
  • "You and I are young."
  • "The streets are talking."
  • "Don't outsmart your common sense."
  • "I'm 'bout to rock your world."
  • "You tell me I'm a wreck,"
  • "Now you're just a memory."
  • "She wants to make every stray a pet."
  • "Jesse's gettin' ready."
  • "I gave some guy my car."
  • "My kids think I'm a joke."
  • "Been my best friend since I was sixteen."
  • "I'm crazy for you."
  • "Break out your dancin' shoes."
  • "Somebody's gotta wanna hold his hand."
  • "Every time I ran, I ran to you."
  • "I prayed real hard."
  • "Would you love me if I was crazy?"
  • "You got a big mouth, and you should've shut it."
  • "Just friends."
  • "I'll do anything that you want me to."
  • "We're just alike,"
  • "I miss you being here."
  • "We were seventeen and invincible,"
  • "I got a shiver down to the bone."
  • "I know your name."
  • "I just wanna blow your mind."
  • "You know I don't think before I talk when I got a good buzz."
  • "Please help me help my stupid self."
  • "There's no need to complicate it."
  • "I can't take another second of this god damn town."
  • "You can't say that I never tried."
  • "It'll only take a minute to tell you everything."
  • "Somebody's gotta be the one to flirt."
  • "We can stay this way forever,"
  • "I tried my best to care about you."
  • "If you wanna know what I'm made of, just look at my truck."
  • "I keep you in my heart, in my own way."
  • "I wish that I could press rewind somehow."
  • "She wants a cabin in the woods."
  • "Just breathe."
  • "I'm gonna hook up with your mom."
  • "I can't stand to hear her heartbreak."
  • "Can I marry you?"
  • "I'm 23 and invincible."
  • "I just wanna be alone with you."
  • "I still believe in you."
  • "Tequila makes me do dumb things."
  • "I knew this wouldn't last."
  • "I don't know why you don't take me downtown anymore."
  • "I need a saving grace."
  • "You're all talk."
  • "This is what brothers are for."
  • "You're still here, and I'm still here."
  • "High school can be so rough, can be so mean."
  • "I blacked his eye the night after our daddy died."
  • "Have a nice life."
  • "I don't have to meet your mother."
  • "I miss our pillow fights."
  • "No matter what you'll never be alone."
  • "We're never gonna be as young as we are tonight."
  • "I meant it every time I said I loved you."
  • "Baby, come give me a kiss."
  • "I'm sorry if I upset you."
  • "That's all she wrote."
  • "I'm gonna put your shit out on the lawn."
  • "I feel a sin coming on."
  • "I've never seen a hearse with a trailer hitch."
  • "I don't have to take your heart."
  • "As long as I'm breathing I'll love you to death."
  • "If I told you I loved you, would it make you wanna stay?"
  • "Sister's got a boyfriend daddy doesn't like,"
  • "The highway don't know you're alive."
  • "We're really not that far apart."
  • "I couldn't do a damn thing."
  • "Now she's got a boyfriend, and I've got a rock band."
  • "You say that I'm a mess."
  • "Time is running out."
  • "Take me into your loving arms."
  • "I've been watchin' you."
  • "Guess nothing really ever goes the way it's planned"
  • "Hold onto your innocence."
  • "I can feel you breathe."
  • "I don't wanna wreck your Friday."
  • "You come back, ya hear?"
  • "At least I made you laugh."
  • "I can't live without you, baby."
  • "A little messed up but we're all alright."
  • "It started with a pointless argument."
  • "You know I say a lot of things when I've been drinking."
  • "We're up when the rooster crows."
  • "I'd sell my soul just to see your face."
  • "Everything was gonna be alright"
  • "Everybody in here knows your name."
  • "I was just too far gone and all alone."
  • "I know I wasn't fair."
  • "There were so many things I wanted to say."
  • "I've taken a ride in the devil's Cadillac."
  • "I guess you never knew me at all."
  • "Tomorrow we'll do it all over again."
  • "Do you think of me at night?"
  • "It's always been you."
  • "I wanna do everything you do."
  • "When it's all said and done you can walk instead of run."
  • "I don't wanna change your mind."
  • "I just don't get it."
  • "I was a little out of my mind."
  • "I still wish we could've made it right."
  • "I just wanna take your time."
  • "We don't have anywhere to go but up."
  • "At least I could be honest about that."
  • "We all know why we're here."

anonymous asked:

hi I'm new to reading fanfic, I've only read two so far. can you suggest a few explicit/sexual Clexa fanfics if you have any to suggest? (#noshame) lol sorry

No shame at all fella! And welcome to fanfic!!! :D it’s a black hole, you are never getting out of it.

The Chronicles of Sexually Frustrated Clexa — this is so so so good

Jealousy — Lexa is jealous, basically :p and when she gets jealous, things get steamy haha

(Blood)lust — post-Mountain smut, basically, and it’s good ;)

Reciprocating — well, Lexa reciprocates a massage Clarke made her earlier. Only this time… It includes front and upper body too ;)

And I also made a post some time ago:

http://100hearteyes.tumblr.com/post/132031796552/favourite-smut-fics-ty

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It has always really bothered me when people make assumptions about my personality based on my silence. They think all they can see and hear is all that’s there, but they know nothing about me or who I am. I harbored so much anger and hatred for the people I went to school with and how they made me feel. It rose to some really disturbing levels, but no one would ever imagine ‘cause as far as I know they only thought of me as kinda weird, quiet, and generally nice. I guess it just really bothered me that no one thought I was anything more. But I like this song because I really relate to feeling this way. You know, back in the day.

I want you to know the thoughts
My mind contains
I want you to feel the rage
Pulse through my veins

I want you to see the anger
In my eyes
I want you to feel fear
For your own life

I want to see the tears
Fill up your eyes
I want to see you beg
And apologize

I want to walk behind you
Without a sound
I want to burn your body
To the ground

Don’t let my silence
Bother you
I’m only seething
Don’t misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There’s an explosion
Inside of me

I want you to know the depths
Of my disgust
I want you to learn
The emptiness of trust
I want you to rue the day
That you were born
I want you to feel the fury
Of my storm

Don’t let my silence
Bother you
I’m only seething
Don’t misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There’s an explosion
Inside of me

I want my silence to keep
You up at night
I want you to know the hatred
You incite
I want you to sit and listen
To me scathe
I want to dance upon your
Sorry grave.

Don’t let my silence
Bother you
I’m only seething
Don’t misconstrue
Silence as safety
As security
There’s an explosion
Inside of me


You say I did unspeakable things to you
You say I was abusive
You say all these lies
Yet you pushed me away
You never let me in
You never told me what hurt you
You shut me out when I tried to help
You made me worry if you’d be alive the next morning
I cared about you
But I don’t feel you felt the same
I feel used
I feel like an idiot
I’m sorry for what I’ve done to hurt you
But you aren’t sorry for hurting me
And I guess that’s okay
Because I don’t blame you
I’m a tsunami
I’m a lot to handle
You’re a lot to handle as well
We are both destructive storms when we are together
But a mild storm apart
Please find peace with your demons
Please forget about me
I want you to forget my name
Just as I hope to one day forget yours
Good riddance,
May your life not be riddled with pain

Hello everyone.
  • I found out I was pregnant on November 9th. I didn't want to say anything to anyone until I was out of miscarriage range. The pregnancy made it to 7 weeks. Second miscarriage in a row.. In the past couple months I've been going back and forth between getting pregnant or waiting because I'm not sure if I can deal with another loss right now. I will be considered high risk when I do get pregnant again. My period is due on the 14th and I spotted this morning. I've had implantation bleeding with all of my pregnancies so far. I'm torn between jumping for joy that I could be expecting again and wanting to cry because I don't think I can handle another loss. I'm such an optimistic, right? I can't believe that my body is doing this to me. I can't believe that I do everything right and still can't keep a pregnancy past 8 weeks. I know I'm suppose to be an advice giver on here and maybe even a leader, but all I want right now is prayers. Prayers and good thoughts for not only me but all mother who have lost babies, all mothers who are struggling to conceive, and the fathers/partners involved as well.
  • With love and baby dust,
  • Jess. Xoxo