that on the flipside is very insecure

i don’t think miranda speaks english very well

i think she never really had a reason to learn english and so she’s been trying to learn it since she joined the order

i think lavi knows that and is appealing to that in the above image by acting out the word ‘dog’ - but he’s a dork and doesn’t realize that the problem with her understanding that wouldn’t be the word 'dog,’ but the idiomatic connotation of the word

so, i’m gonna go ahead and say that miranda often doesn’t know exactly what’s being said. she knows conversational english because she’s been immersed in it, and she knows occupation-specific words (meaning words that she’d probably never need to know otherwise, like innocence, parasitic, etc.) but a lot of times people talking quickly or using idioms or words she’s never needed to know goes over her head.

she speaks with a heavy german accent, but since she’s centered at the european branch that doesn’t tend to be a problem, because a lot of people at the order are from germany, so people don’t really have a problem understanding her

however, she’s still pretty shy, and is insecure about her accent when speaking english. she opens up more when speaking german, although there aren’t too many people with whom she feels comfortable speaking german besides marie.

that’s one of the ways marie and miranda became close: marie speaks german, and his english is a lot better than hers, so he’s able to translate for her. he’s very patient with her, and that’s something that not many other people in the order have been able to do. as for marie, he really appreciates being able to talk to someone who’s similar to him in how she thinks.

basically i’m saying that miranda’s english isn’t very good and she ends up relying on marie for a while, but even after her english improves and she doesn’t really need marie to translate for her, she keeps asking him for help because she continues to feel insecure about her english.

also miranda not understanding english a lot of the time is so cute i mean. come on. come on.

anonymous asked:

In your opinion, what are the best and worst qualities about Eric?

That’s a very interesting question, thank you! I’m going to name the three best and three worst qualities as far as my opinion about him is concerned and give a brief explanation as to why. (I’ll try to keep it brief, anyway. *laughs* I could detail a lot more and name more qualities, but that would lead to a “10k words later and still not close to done”-situation at minimum..)

Three best:

Intelligent – Aside from getting very decent grades throughout his school years, Eric also demonstrated an interest in varying subjects (history, science, weaponry, game design) that he pursued on his own. He participated readily in class and pitched in with his opinion on subjects he found interesting. He mentioned voluntarily sitting down to watch a program on Discovery channel about radar etc, showcasing an interest that went way beyond anything he was obligated to study. Similarly, his journal and the rest of his material are interspersed with pop culture references and the knowledge he amassed over the course of time. A lot of it is unpolished, naturally, given his age, but the intelligence shone through the rage all the same. (Plus, he was very witty and had a way with words that has still made a lot of us laugh over the years.)

Goal-oriented determination/follow-through – I’d consider this to be the absolute no-brainer quality that anyone interested in Columbine would be able to recognise in Eric. Whatever the hell else your opinion on him may be, one cannot deny that he was really good at setting himself goals and committing to them 100% until he got them done. It’s a quality that mostly has a negative connotation when it’s paired with the amount of effort, time, and money he put into making NBK reality. Yet, I can’t help but think of it also as his strongest suit. Eric demonstrated a bucketload of willpower and a get-shit-done mentality without which we wouldn’t even be talking about Columbine at all. Just think for a second about what he could’ve achieved if he had refocused that drive on something positive in his life..

Adventurous “dream big”-style – This is the flipside of one of his worst qualities, but yet also one of the best he had. It’s the fuel behind the determination I just mentioned: this is what gave Eric his vision. I’m not just talking about the adventures he got up to as a kid, riding his bike around the area with friends or playing at games of war in the woodlands, but also talking about his tendency to not stop at the sky as his limit. Eric dreamed big, visualised with ease, created his own reality through the power of his imagination. That kind of thing is so innate that it’s hard to learn how to use it – it’s either there or it isn’t, and most of us lose the ability the further we grow up. In one small way, I’ve always much considered Eric to be similar to Peter Pan: there is a refusal to grow up hiding in the elaborate machinations of his dreamscapes as well as in his decision to die.

Three worst:

Problems with emotional control – That’s a no-brainer, again, though a trickier one to really explain well by far. On one hand, Eric was the calmer one of the duo and was prone to approaching things logically with a clear head. I think there were always things that didn’t faze him one bit, which allowed him to hide so much for so long and spin lies about it if necessary. However, he was also someone who flew off the handle at the least provocation and spent an entire lifetime channeling his feelings of hurt into his anger. Eric built up a very strong emotional façade that acted as a deterrent and shield to prevent himself from getting hurt and to prevent anyone from seeing the insecurities and pain he hid underneath. I don’t think he ever learned how to handle things like sadness, not really, and on occasion that mask slipped off and showed how deeply alone he really was. There is so much I’ve written about it already and so, so much I can write about it still.. but suffice to say that this is the crux of all his issues right here.

Impulsive – This is the flipside I was talking about. With that kind of “dream big”-quality he had, it would stand to reason that not every plan of Eric’s would be the most thought-through construct in existence. Even in NBK, there are gaping holes that show there was virtually no contingency plan in case anything went wrong and that nothing had really been tested out much beforehand. There was an impulsivity to his actions at times, varying from picking fights with the likes of Brooks to his soccer game meltdown, that was fueled by his emotions taking over his ratio. When emotions begin to fuel that tendency to dream big, there is a point when it all becomes recklessly irrational.

Clingy – This is the one I suspect some people will agree on, whereas others won’t see a problem with it at all. It’s something that calls up an immediate “nope”-response in me. I’m personally not equipped to handle any kind of clinginess from other people – I am by and large allergic to having people want me to be around them 24/7, to always be emotionally available to people when they have need of it, to having someone always need to know what I’m doing when and where I am and who I’m with. Eric was that type of person in his relationships. He was the kind of guy who practically threw a fit over a girl not being home when he called, for crying out loud! He was the type to get jealous (another shitfest quality there), to throw a hissyfit about something small, to practically exhibit stalker-like tendencies that tend to suffocate a person. It’s the yikes to end all yikes as far as I’m concerned, haha.