i wish i can understand you better. i find you perplexing and interesting at the same time, and it’s so frustrating to not be able to catch your motion of thoughts or pick up on your emotions quickly. or make the right responses to your words, or smile at the right time, or laugh at your jokes appropriately.
i feel so inadequate for some reason, and as i’m writing this down, i can feel the tears that want to come out.
trying to understand a person is harder than i thought it would be. i know you have high expectations and here i am flunking some of my papers, and i can’t even decide how to start off a conversation with you without sounding awkward.
i guess we’re just that, then.
here’s a goodbye to a possibility-