This scene was so heartbreaking. It didn’t need dialogue. The changing expressions on Steven’s face as a thousand thoughts about what happened, what he should do, and what it all means race through his mind. It’s amazing visual storytelling and I was watching with bated breath.
I love you so much, Lorna. But you know…you can’t just, like uh, keep doing whatever the fuck you want and then thinking it’s gonna be okay. *stutters* And the days of this, uh…crazy being quirky and cute… it’s past. It’s sad, ya know? I mean, you need help, and I can’t help you, ‘cause I need to help myself. Or maybe, uh, what if you go see the prison therapist, right? See what she has to say about it. I’m pretty sure she’s gonna tell me…*stammering* She’s gonna call me a dumbass sucker crazy person for letting me do this again. And then tell me to never, ever, ever do this again, right? And this time, I’m gonna listen to her…'cause she’s the expert, right?
Can we take a moment to talk about Jace this episode? He finds out that he is the “morning star” that is able to touch the mortal sword, deactivating it, but in the result killing himself because he too has demon blood. He was willing to kill himself to prevent Valentine from killing the downworld, he was ready to die, then and there. He was willing to leave his parabatai, his family, and his new found family (Clary). But what happens is what breaks my heart. It was all a lie, he went through Aldertree, his other shadowhunter comrades, and the Clave looking down at him for what he had no control of. For something that Valentine did. And to find out that Valentine not only lied about the demon blood, but lied that Clary is his sister, and then the last blow, that this whole time, Valentine was never even his father. And to think he was willing to die, but that willingness killed the downworlders in the vacinity. Then when his parabatai, his brother comes in to find all the downworlders dead? The look on Jace’s face when he speaks up and tells Alec that is wasn’t Clary that activated the sword, but it was him that caused it, the amount of heartbreak on his face. The sadness of possibly causing the death of someone that Alec cares about. The person that has made Alec happier than Jace has ever seen him. I just really love Jace, he isn’t perfect, but he tries…he really tries.