Sorry for the late post. I wanted to post it when we hit 17 mil, but you know I’m shy about my art and also I slaved over this for two days please be gentle
This was a pretty fun one to work on. My health is the same as always, so straight lines are absolutely still not a thing I can do, but I’ve been trying to embrace the messier aesthetic and I’m really quite pleased with how these turned out.
I know it still leaves a lot to be desired, but comparing it to similar things I have done in the past, like the 7 Million Sub art (which also has a dog) or the unholy mess that was the 8 Million Sub art (which I’m trying to give myself a pass on since I was at the hospital that day, but c’mon guys, that was bad) I am definitely improving.
If you’ve followed me for a while, you’ll notice that my art and myself dropped right off the face of the planet for a year, almost two. I had no confidence in myself or in my work, and I let that take me away from what I love to do. It was Mark who brought me back into it. As I mentioned in this post, a lot of things changed for me after I watched the video where Mark talks about how he is excited for failure, because it helps him to grow. Directly after that, simply because one of my roommates put it in the queue on the Chromecast, I watched Mark’s Draw My Life. Although our circumstances are very different, I saw myself in him. I saw myself in the lost person who switched college majors all the time and didn’t know what he wanted. As weird as it sounds, that gave me some hope, which is something I desperately needed. If he can pull himself out, why can’t I?
So here’s the truth: I am in school for advertising, but what I really want is to be a writer. It’s my dream, and my passion is art. I quit both for a very long time, because I couldn’t accept the fact that my illnesses are chronic. I couldn’t accept that I will never “get better”, and that made me stop trying, because why live a broken life, anyway? But just because I’m fractured doesn’t mean I have no value. My brain thinks some terribly sad things, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t write beautiful ones. My hands may be unable to draw straight lines, but that doesn’t mean they can’t draw pretty ones.
So thanks for helping me learn that, Mark. I know you’ll never see this, of course. I’m not delusional. But I’d much rather have a thank-you unheard than a thank-you unsaid, y’know?
So thank you.
Because of you, I’m trying again.
As always, you can find these pieces of art on my Redbubble here. (x) (x) (x)
If you made it this far, thank you for reading my ramble. I know it’s irrelevant to you guys, but it helps knowing that I might not just be shouting into the void.
buck if the avengers were animals what animals would they be???? thank you
i assume you mean based on personality, and not which avengers have been turned into which animals lately.
what has happened to my life that that is even a question i have to ask??
anyway, steve would be a dog. everyone is right on the money on that one; hed be big, fluffy, loyal as hell, appetite the size of rhode island and love to play fetch. and also have the bite power to sever a mans hand if he was so inclined. you would trust him with a baby but also to eat the face off anyone who threatened that baby. well. maybe not EAT. he does have SOME standards. theoretically.
tony would be a raven. reputation associated with death, but personality of a class clown–likes pranks, messing with people, and trying new stuff. dedicated to family and intelligent as hell. chatty. tool user. did you know ravens can people-talk? if they couldnt, im sure tony would figure out how anyways.
nat would be a swan. beautiful, graceful, but at the top of the do-not-fuck-with list in most animals books. mates for life and more loyal than you would think, with a take no shit and no prisoners attitude. i have a healthy terror of swans, as does any sane human being.
clint would also be a dog, but not like steve. hed be one of those scrappy little terrier mutts that descend from a working breed that are supposed to do things like kill rats. just as loyal and smart and fun-loving as the big guys, but makes up for lack of size with pure tenacity. and so scruffy its cute.
bruce would be an elephant. smart and social, with strong emotional bonds, generally calm and compassionate, but never something you want to be standing in front of when it gets pissed. also really enjoys peanuts?
thor would be a lion. content to chill out most of the time, and more social than most cats, but also totally down to throw down on a moment’s notice. pretty smart but not somebody you ever wanna cross. majestic as anything.
i would be a bear. likes a lot of food in large quantities, and i would love to sit in a river and let dinner fling itself into my mouth. asleep like half of the time. big and badass but generally pretty chill, and smarter than you might think. also a faster runner than you might expect (that’s not really about me, bears can just run at like 35 mph which is a thought to keep you up at night.) and if theres one thing everyone knows about bears, it is that you do not mess with what they are protecting.
also they are opposed to forest fires?? not sure what that has to do with anything, but i guess i can get behind it
i’ve seen a lot of these posts but none of them really aligned with my experience. so here it is, how to survive freshman year from one of many sophomores in this community. please take everything here with a grain of salt.
before school starts:
you will not need nearly as many notebooks as you think you do. please, save yourself the time and money and hold off on buying them until you know how many you need.
try not to get stuck in the school’s mindset of what classes you need. for example, most freshmen in my school (on a trimester system) take Bio 1, Chem 1, then Chem 2. i took all of those classes, but i really didn’t need to take bio 1 because i’m planning to complete my bio credits with AP Bio (and also bio is one of my stronger subjects). chem 1 and 2 are the only prerequisites for AP Bio, so what i should have done was drop Bio 1 and take a fine arts class instead to fill up those requirements. tl;dr: play to your strengths and don’t listen to the school when they tell you something is “highly recommended”.
if you’re doing a sport, please know when you have to turn in paperwork to play. don’t miss the deadline or put off your physical.
when school starts:
try not to pack too much in your backpack on the first day. paper, writing utensils, a jacket, water (reusable bottles will save your life), your lunch/money, and your student id!!! (very important) should cut it.
take a picture of your schedule on your phone. if you get a map mark where your classes are and take a pic of that too. chances are that flimsy piece of paper dictating your entire day will get torn, crumpled or lost. i’ve seen people say it looks horribly freshman-like if you carry around your schedule all day, if that’s a thing you worry about.
if you get a class you don’t like (that’s not a required class), switch out of it asap. don’t try and suffer through it for the credits. it will suck.
it’s not a big deal if you need to drop or raise a level. do what’s best for your gpa. don’t feel horribly inferior if there are freshmen taking 2 APs when you’re taking none (like me) because they probably took classes over the summer. they’re not geniuses, i promise.
PLEASE, try not to carry too much stuff in your backpack. at my school we don’t have lockers and my shoulders suffered because i thought i could bring a 1L bottle, three reading books, my thick jacket, and two large pencil case along with all my school stuff.
YOUR SCHOOL ID IS YOUR LIFELINE. try your best not to lose it, and if you do, replace it as soon as possible.
if you have the extra money, buying two sets of pe clothes is incredibly helpful. trust me on this.
don’t stress too much, it’s really not as bad as it seems.
once school is well underway:
don’t freak out if you do badly on a test. one of my friends got a d on her midterm and ended up having an a in the class. you’ll have time to pull it up.
at the same time, don’t slack either. people say freshman grades aren’t that important, especially if you show improvement in later years, but don’t let your grades go to the dogs. freshman year is the time to build good habits, and colleges really like to see unweighted 4.0s (or so i’ve heard)
be nice to your teachers. even if they’re demon spawn. my friend had a much nicer time than i did with our hellish english teacher simply because she talked to her a lot while i barely spoke at all. if your teachers like you they might be more willing to round your grade up or give you extra credit work.
do your best to always be prepared and have your stuff with you. it’s not fun having to ask around for stuff.
join some clubs. it helps with meeting new people and finding things you love. if they have competitions, it doesn’t look bad on your resume if you win any.
if your school offers the PSAT to freshmen, take it. it’s a good way to look at where you are versus where you want to be come junior year when you’re eligible for the NMSQT.
volunteer! get those hours in when you still have time. weekends are great if you aren’t too busy then.
try to have the phone number of at least one person in each of your classes. group chats are also great, because people aren’t online all the time and you can ask a bunch of people for help all at once. don’t let them distract you, though. a lot of my group chats like to wander off topic and talk about other things.
homework is gonna take a lot longer than it did in middle school. utilize the time you have effectively and do what it takes to make sure you’re ready to get to work. for example, one of my friends would always nap right after school for a few hours, and then do her homework later. i usually grab a snack and go on my phone for a few minutes to revitalize.
if you have time during school, try doing your homework then. you’ll still be in the school mindset and people will be around for you to ask for help.
try not to stay up past midnight. you really won’t need to, and you’ll be glad for the extra sleep. if you have to choose between finishing a small math assignment or going to sleep early for a test tomorrow, take the hit for the assignment and get some sleep.
people and relationships:
dating in freshman year tends to be quite ephemeral. if you don’t, good for you. no one will judge you. if you do, good for you. don’t prioritize it though, and be prepared for your friends to constantly tease you about it.
don’t date people older than you, especially seniors. i know this has been said a thousand times, but for good reason. please. do not.
making friends with people in higher grades is always a good thing, though! in my experience, juniors love freshmen and are probably the easiest to make friends with. they’re really good if you need some advice and you don’t have to worry about them leaving next year. seniors will honestly not care about you unless you see them often. sophomores have a reputation of bullying freshmen (at least in my school), but a lot of them are nice and will be in some of your classes.
for me, high school actually had more drama than middle school. don’t be afraid to drop friends and don’t be worried if you lose any; you’ll make better ones later.
a lot of the kids in my middle school went to a different high school, so i was basically starting from Ground Zero regarding friends. don’t be too concerned if you don’t click with people right away; i found most of my current friends during the second and third trimesters.
bring a charger or a power bank to school if you know you’re gonna need it. you’ll be able to charge your phone during class (if your teacher is ok with it) and if you ask around for one chances are you won’t get it.
bring snacks. most teachers are pretty chill about you snacking during class, and it’s better to have your own stuff than mooch off your friends.
the rules are more flexible. you can use your phone in class depending on the teacher, they even let you listen to music while they’re teaching if you have earbuds.
go to the dances if you want. i didn’t go to any because i’m lazy and also i like to spend my money on other things, but a lot of my friends consider it an important part of the high school experience. football games can be fun too, even if you don’t like football (like me). there’ll be band and cheer and dance if you’re into that, and you can also hang out with your friends (the ones from the school your school is playing too!) and eat really unhealthy snacks. same with pep rallies, except no food.
if your school has a newsletter or weekly news videos, pay attention to them. they usually have important information on where new clubs are meeting, spirit weeks, deadlines, events, etc.
everyone is really spirited the first month or so and then after that they don’t care. follow their lead.
talk to your teachers if you need help. they’ll do their best to work something out for you.
there’s gonna be that one person who thinks the world revolves around them and gets on your nerves. chances are everyone else hates them too. be nice to them, but don’t hang around them.
you’re not alone. everyone else is just as worried as you. have fun, and don’t sweat it.
If there is anything Stiles has learned from being forced to watch romantic comedies with Lydia since Freshmen year, it’s that when you begin to fall for someone, it usually starts with their smile. Or their eyes. Or even their ass. What all those hours do not prepare him for is falling head over- why-am-I-getting-a-boner-from-this- heels because of a blush.
Derek does his best to get out of the party, but despite his best efforts Erica somehow manages to convince him anyway. (The fact she mentions that Stiles Stilinski is going to be there, probably in tight jeans, is irrelevant.)
Derek finds himself roped into a game of ‘Truth or Dare’ at a party and is dared to kiss Stiles.
so i was thinking about another modern au where the greek gods have had to adapt to modern society and so they’ve picked up mortal jobs and hobbies and interests and i got really into it.
hermes is a late night comedian, since that’s the way that most information is transmitted nowadays, and he still gets to poke fun at his siblings.
poseidon is a high powered eco lawyer. he works on high profile cases along the lines of the bp oil spill. he has beach-side houses all over the world and enjoys thrill-seeking outdoor activities like cliff jumping and cave diving.
hades teaches high school english, along the lines of the dead poets society. he lives near his school and brings his dog to school every day. he loves teaching british literature like shakespeare and john donne. his wife comes to visit him and they eat lunch together every day in his office, which always has flowers in it.
apollo works as a librarian at a university, and he moonlights as a slam poet. he teaches archery at the local YMCA and stays in on weekends with a mug of tea and a good book or movie.
vesta makes ceramics professionally. she feels most at home among the wheels and glazes and kilns of her workshop. there are always candles lit in her apartment that don’t seem to go out. she loves hosting dinner parties for her friends, who are her true family.
dionysus works as a bartender. he owns a vineyard on the side but lets other people handle the corporate side of things. his favorite part of acting mortal is getting to know the people who come to his bar and connecting with them. he never forgets a face and he has a wall of pictures of his favorite customers behind the bar.
athena teaches middle school social studies/history because she’s discovered that she really enjoys working with children. at this age she can impart wisdom upon them and teach them logic and reason before they are too swayed by the opinions of the world.
zeus is a con artist and art thief. he never stays in a city for more than a week, but he has someone new in his bed every night. he frequents casinos and clubs and owns a villa out in California which is filled with more famous works of art than he ought to have.
hera is a very bitter and sarcastic wedding planer, like james marsden in 27 dresses minus the journalism bit. she is most famous among celebrity circles for having just the right “touch” when it comes to decor and menu planning and floral arrangements. she charges a ton but can work magic, from short-term planning to getting the bride’s wishes just right. she doesn’t believe in the sanctity of marriage but it has bought her summer homes in hawaii and costa rica so she’ll sell the idealized vision.
aphrodite runs several dating sites like eharmony and okcupid, but also some like ashley madison that facilitate affairs because she rules more over the sexual side of things than the love side, despite her image to the former. she loves rap and hip hop and takes kick-boxing classes and always looks like she has makeup on. she anonymously supports planned parenthood because she wants to support safe sex and allow people to find the information and resources they need.
artemis owns a climbing gym and leads outdoor climbing adventures for her clients and also her buddies. she has tons of tattoos and piercings and a secret love for pop punk music like fob and p!atd. on the weekends, she runs lgbtqia+ support groups for children and teens in her neighborhood, and always lets them climb for free in her gym.
hephaestus owns a tattoo parlor and has a reputation for the most lifelike tattoos that always seem to be exactly what someone had in mind, as if he magically could see their thoughts. he’s a total teddybear and has a penchant for classical music and teaches at-risk children in his city how to repair bikes and cars on the weekends.
Rika is back and MC gets sick at the same time she feels abandoned. Part 1 (x) | Part 2 (x) | Part 3 (x) | Part 4 (x) | Part 5 (x)
Some say that people experience 3 different loves throughout their lifetime
The first: the young, idealistic kind of love that looks right but may not feel right
The second: the hard love; where lessons are learned and the kind of unbalanced love where making it work is more important that if is actually should work
The love we wished was right
The third: the wrecking ball; the one we never see coming and teaches us why the rest didnt work out
Looks wrong; but feels right and lasts
Not always will each be experienced in close age gaps following another; some never experience all three
Others are fortuante and only experience one or two
and others believe they have experienced all three in another life
But sometimes love is only a concept and not real for some people in the sense that love only has to be sexual or romantic and not familial
Whatever the case you need to acknowledge the different loves
Because love is more than just romantic or classified;
Not always will they be romantic or have enough power in them to stir a storm in you, but there is always a level of light within each love
Sometimes, it can be hard to realize, accept, and even move on from; but sometimes it’s best to move on from them, even if they are your family
You don’t think you can move
The sounds of blades ripping through the air make your ears hurt and pop
Someone is caressing your head
and someone else is gripping your hand
You don’t know where you are or why
But you don’t feel like you should be there
The voices are distant and unlike anything you can understand
Sometime later the loud blades stop and you’re being lowered by a few people and wheeled away
You hear people arguing and yelling and you still can’t open your eyes
Why can’t I see?
You can’t move either
You feel needles entering you
Machines all around
And feel nice, clean oxygen enter your nose through tubes
Am I in trouble?
You still cant hear well
But you can feel
You feel someone squeeze your hand and someone kiss your cheek
You don’t know where they went but after a few minutes they all left
— Jahee —
She can’t believe it
Not at first, not until V explains
He explains that Rika had always been sick
that she needed to save everyone and help in anyway she could to feel needed and loved
V explained how she could only help them by hurting them and by making MC the middle person
But he didn’t think she would hurt MC
Not in a way that would kill her way at least
By the request of Mr. Han
Jahee had both lawyers and psychologist at the standby ready
But her main concern was MC
She thought MC was gone, that she left without goodbye and was hurt
But no; she was wrong
MC was the victim
What will become of her, she didn’t know
She wondered if anyone felt like she did bc no one seemed to think that Rika and V needed to be held accountable
It was a game of pointing fingers and “If MC dies what then?”
She needed something more awakening and filling than coffee atm
She needed MC to be okay
— Yoosung —-
He was livid
How could V blame everything on Rika? She would never do this!
After he saw the messages he threw his phone
He went to Zen to be caught up and both went with Jahee to the hospital where Jumin and Seven were waiting for MC
He needed to see Rika though
Neither Jahee nor Zen complied
He asked Jumin to take him to see Rika but Jumin just looked at him with an unreadable expression and if he asked Seven, Seven wouldnt have answered since he’d have been busy on his laptop
He almost gave up but then saw Rika in a separate room with V
He couldn’t stand V
V did this; by allowing this to continue he hurt MC and RIka
He would never ever forgive him
—- Zen —-
The surgery was long and tiring
He canceled everything and stayed in the waiting room Jumin had set up for them rich kid problems
He really had a need just to smoke all his stress away but didnt want to knowing that MC wasnt a fan of the smell and he didnt want her to say that when she woke up from the surgery
He had it all planned out
“Forget Rika and the rest, let’s go and travel without responsibilities MC”
And he hoped she’d agree and maybe even offer to take them all to visit her home and family and
he was excited that the pet she had was a dog and not a cat bc poor bby cant sneeze and have fun at the same time
But he knew he just needed to ask for trust fund over there for some help and once MC was out of here hed propose the idea to her and the other members
BUt first he’d need to know how they found her and everything because V was vague and it irritated him how they kept secrets
He thought they were all family; is this how a family should be?
He really just needed a smoke
—- Seven —-
It’s an endless nightmare for him
Hacking into the system worked up until he couldn’t continue to watch her stats drop
He didnt want to imagine what damage would befall onto MC
AFter flatlining a few times, he was sure that the doctors would call her time of death but they kept at it
Until finally MC stabilized
When the doctors told the rest the news he didnt think he could breathe until he saw for himself that MC was okay and not taken away again by an occult-following quack of a doctor
So he kept an eye on her through the video
He read on the reports the doctors and nurses were inputting into the system but all he could think about was who Unknown was
V would know, but he didnt trust himself to go to V to get answers
Not at the moment anyways
They must have been good to have helped MC
And isn’t there some saying that if a dog likes a person, it’s because they are good?
You can hear and feel and think
But you can’t see
Am i even moving?
You being to wonder where you have come to that you don’t understand anything anyone is saying
You panic because you feel people touch you,
but you can’t see anyone or anything and it scares you because they cant hear you to know to stop
You try to hear out for your mom or dad
You feel hands on your face and you panic because you dont want anyone touching you there; you cant stand anyone touching you anywhere
You feel something cold run up your arm and then you fall back to calmness…
—- Jumin —-
He couldnt look at her let alone hug her
He wanted to know that she would forgive him
BUt at the moment he really wanted to know that she would overcome this and wake up and smile
Just to see her smile would make everything else fall into a prefecture of being able to breath easy
The doctors said that she would have to continue on the medication and get on a clinical trial that can possibly help her we all know Jumin pushed for her to be in one
But Jumin didnt think everything would ever be the same
They wrapped her face becasue of the medication that Rika gave her, that caused some deformities in her eyes
They got to her in time to save her eyes, but she won’t be able to see for a few days until she fully recovered
They said she would be groggy when waking up and even confused, which should go away in time
They gave her a sedative to relax her so she wouldnt further injure herself
But it made him confused that she didnt understand them at all or know who was talking
Or how she was feeling all over herself, which caused her to think someone else was touching her and which caused her to panic even more
He knew he should go and see Rika and V but he couldn’t atm, not while MC was like this
Jahee left to get coffee and to make sure the lawyers were ready for whatever was to come:
Either RIka and V are held accountable or not, or if MC decides to leave everyone and order a restraining order- whatever she wanted, he was sure to deliver
— Rika —
“It was all for the sake of everyone”
she chanted over and over, not knowing that she was mumbling to herself as V and her cousin stood by watching her from the doorway
Some time had passed, not knowing what day it was, or what happened after the girl… the one with the sin… after that sinful girl was taken it all went blank for Rika
She tried to remember but she couldn’t push past the hazy clouds of incoherent memories she didn’t trust anymore
There was one doctor she liked that she saw
He was a man of his word and talked to her about religion and even let her explain how that sinful girl made her way into hurting everyone
and how it was only possible becuase she and how it was only possible becuase she let it happen
If it had not been for Rika, no one would have met MC
No one would have been saved!
No one would have been liberated from the tribulations and trials and suffering that came with life had it not been for Rika allowing MC into the RFA
And the doctor understood that.
Rika didnt ask for updates on the sinful girl bc she wanted to know that it was all worth it in the end to save everyone
“She woke up and scared everyone when she didnt understand them” V talked to Rika as she continued to mumble her chant
“Thankfully Jumin is fluent in English and was able to talk to MC for the few moments she didn’t remember Hangul”
Rika slightly upset that she failed
Hearing the angels mock her as she sat there listening to V talk about that sinful girl made her angry
She didnt want to be mocked by the angels anymore
— V —
He felt guilty in ways that he knew were sick and twisted
He shouldnt have defended Rika or he should have gone to seek help for her
He let Rika’s condition continue and grow until she no longer was the same Rika he first met at the gallery all those years ago
He was too scared to meet everyone face to face after all that had happened; he didn’t want to see anyone out of fear and shame
MC woke up confused and only understandable through English
The only thing that kept V sane was the small conversations Jumin would have with him
granted they were mainly one-sided, he felt warm and almost forgiven when Jumin talked to him
He didn’t know if he would ever recieve forgiveness from MC
at this point, he wasnt sure he even deserved it
But to know that MC would turn out fine despite all he had done and let Rika do would give him comfort for the rest of his days
Jumin calmly explained how you were not in America anymore and that you were in South Korea
He helped you remember things you already knew but you didn’t want them to know you knew
You figured it would make things easier if you let them think you forgot the majority of everything
From them abandoning you to the drugs and to the now; you wanted them all to think you forgot the major events
You did, however, let them know that you did not forget Paco poor bby was sad until he saw you
You found it hard to lie to them for the first day and then went to slowly ‘remembering’ Hangul
It was not hard to pretend to be weary around them bc they did abandon you and thought you left them without having known you better
You wanted to forgive them for having left you and forgotten about you
but you couldnt find it in you to forgive them
Try as they might, you could not go back to before Rika resurfaced
Zen offered a trip to the States to visit your family, and Jumin ofc said he would pay for the trip for everyone
Jahee provided a lot of amazing coffee for you to indulge in such the coffee whore you ever are
Yoosung would stop by and cry for a few seconds each visit and then leave the room in an uncomfortable manner
and then there was Seven
You dont know why but you couldn’t find it in you to ever stay mad at him
You did want to ask him about Saeran, bc you weren’t sure if you should expose Unknown’s identity to a hacker who works for bosses that dont seem to be the best runner-ups for ‘Boss-of-the-year-award’
Would he get in trouble? What if by exposing his name, I’d get him in trouble? I don’t want Saeran to be involved. He shouldn’t have to hide either. Where did he go? Would Seven keep this a secret if I asked him to?
— Unknown —
He watched MC convey confusion and watched how she reacted towards everyone
How she was at ease with Saeyoung and Jumin the most out of all the RFA
How she smiled when the secretary would give her coffee and when the red-eyed boy would smile back at her after he would helplessly flirt
Or how she would tense up when the young blonde boy walked in sad and left sad, but how she would fondly smile at the boy when he was not apologizing
Saeran felt like he was part to blame for what happened to her
Maybe one day he will come back and see how things would work out if he could find out more about Saeyoung
He felt like he was making all the right choices and for all the right reasons, that is until MC and Paco became his mission, making him loose the game and goal he set out to win
His primary concern was how to come back to face Saeyoung without malicious intent
until then, he figured he would go to America and see how things were for a few weeks how convenient that it would be during their trip to visiting MC’s home town
You didnt know if Yoosung would ever look at you the same
it bothered you slightly how the one person who you thought would have stayed by your side would leave you a lot more than the rest
But you knew
you knew how this must have all been confusing for him to have discovered what mental issues his cousin was dealing with
You just wished that he didn’t blame V for everything
bc it wasnt V, it was all Rika
You know you should forgive and forget but you couldnt
It didnt feel right to lie to Seven and Jumin
but you got the sense that they knew you knew
Somehow it a silent agreement between the 3 of you to pretend that you dindt remember most of the past few weeks
You were scared of leaving teh hospital because you didnt want to be alone anymore
but you were scared of the hospital from the beginning since most of everything started with the hospital
Jumin offered you the best lawyers and doctors and space as an apology
while Seven kept you company and when he thought you slept, you could hear him profusely apologize
You agreed to Zen’s idea of a vacation only after V admitted Rika into the psychiatric ward
Yoosung wouldnt talk to you for days or to anyone, but you felt like maybe he needed to take time to re-evaluate his thoughts
You enjoyed it when Jahee would bring in a good cup of coffee and talk to you like you used to before
No one mentioned the illness you had or the Rika events
It made you happy to not think about the stress or heartbreaking moments
but it made you sad too because it was your life
and no one was acknowledging it at all
You did, however, receive only one letter from Unknown who asked you to keep his real name a secret until the next time you would meet
He reminded you that you could still talk to Paco about the part of your life everyone was okay with omitting
And you understood why they wanted to omit that bit of your life, but omitting it doesn't completely mask the fact that it happened
Maybe this will all catch up and resurface some day to where everyone would come to terms with it all
and maybe then Rika would be back to how everyone said she was but you found it hard to believe and less thrilling to picture
But until then you figured out to slowly let them into your heart instead of you into theirs, things could be different
Maybe you would learn to forgive them and learn to trust them as they did to you before Rika
But you figured it would take time
A person can only hold out so much before they crumble after having pieces of them chipped and filled away to make space for other people to fit with them
Maybe if you had stayed home instead of venturing for adventure, you wouldnt have become terrified of the dark, needles, and strangers so much
Maybe if you didn’t answer those messages you wouldnt have become so traumitized by a group of people you considered family
But maybe if Rika didn’t go crazy on you, you wouldn’t have formed such bonds with people
And you know that there was still a lot of more to discover of each member of the RFA before you could ever think of leaving your family
For the moment you would settle with: Rika staying far away from you,
everyone hovering including the ever so distant smoll angry Yoosung,
the constant suppression of events you wanted to make everyone feel guilty about but couldnt bc they did that on their own,
and the knowledge that this dysfunctional group of misfits would be your final, unforeseen, and third love.
~ flying instructor (first years)
~ he gets along AMAZING with lil kids, and gets excited every year to see new faces that he’ll be teaching
~ is very patient w/ the first years, never yells and acts sort of like a father to them
~ every Friday he lets the kids come up with their own games and play around the quidditch field where he watches them in amusement
~ is really quiet so you won’t see him hanging around many other professors, he prefers the fresh air where he eats his meals quietly near the field
~ charms professor
~ oh gosh he has the cutest lil grin when his students perfect a simple spell, and applauds them so loudly that the whole school can hear
~ goes out of his way to demonstrate the flicking of his wand (lmaooo) “see you bring it UP like this, then flick it to the right :)))”
~ gets really sassy when students interrupt him, and he does that sulky face until they quiet down
~ won’t stand to see any bullying, and will call you out if you were cheating or blatantly flirting with someone and totally embarrasses you
~ astronomy / Divination on the side
~ though his profession at hogwarts is astronomy, he still goes and does entertaining “fortune teller” presentations for Divination class
~ is always so dreamy and looks dazed 24/7, esp when he’s talking about his favorite stars
~ every other student is in love w/ him bc he’ll give extra credit for any assignment and always hands out good grades and weird tasting candy
~ people have spotted him sleepwalking/strolling ??? Through the woods hella late at night and no one knows what that’s all about but it’s professor Zhang so
~ transfiguration professor
~ will make his kids turn anything and everything into furry cute little animals
~ if you hear screaming and excited laughter coming from a classroom, it’s probably Mr. Byun acting a fool as always
~ is really clumsy and disorganized, one time he even turned a student into a corn dog without anyone realizing for 2 whole days
~ takes his whole class to unnecessary weekly trips to the forest only bc he wants to watch and observe the magical creatures aka observing Mr. Park
~ arithmancy professor
~ if anyone can make numbers fun and entertaining, it’s him
~ has really fun debates with his students, discussing the class work yet also gossiping lmao and everyone has whiplash bc he changes the subject so quick
~ uses really cool methods to teach the class his difficult subject, and cries like a baby when some actually get it
~ has a special spot for those who always try to outdo each other when it comes to answering questions, bc it feels like they’re fighting to get his attention lmao
~ care for magical creatures professor
~ yes, he’s been bitten and scratched at and almost died a hundred times and yes, he still works there willingly
~ wants his students to really connect with the creatures instead of feeling afraid, which probably resulted in lots of accidents yikes
~ puts on really old music when he’s feeding his giant birds and snakes, and wiggles his butt along to the beat
~ has definitely referred to one of the animals as his child, and you could almost hear baekhyun awwww'ing from across the castle
~ herbology professor
~ everyone would’ve gotten the wrong impression of him on the first day bc he was so obsessed with those strange plants
~ but he’s so nice and a really shy teacher, so he appreciates it when students don’t ask him to speak too loudly
~ if anyone interrupts him or sasses him tho, they’d wish they never been born tbfh it’s scary
~ spends a lot of time hanging out in the green house and extracting medicine from certain plants bc that’s his hobby
~ defense against the dark arts professor
~ has petitioned many times to the headmaster to start dance lessons in hogwarts bc it’s like torture that he can’t be a dance instructor as well
~ gets really worried if any of his students get injured from a spell, so he mostly sticks to learning from books
~ moonwalks across the classroom for no reason, he just likes to remind everyone he’s hip
~ acts like a personal therapist to the students who go to him for help, and many have cried on his shoulder aww
~ potions professor
~ definitely not as gleeful as Slughorn, but totally not as depressing and sulky as Snape
~ stares everyone down on the first day, just to establish dominance bc he knows if they see the real him then they wouldn’t take his goofster self seriously lmao
~ talks really slowly and sometimes forgets what he’s saying when other students give him flirty looks
~ will never admit that he hates working in the dungeon bc he’s always needing to bring like 8 sweaters and his blood is made of hot tea at this point
The star-wrangling DJ takes Kanye’s meltdown and Bieber’s moods in his stylish stride at Luca
Is Nick Grimshaw still cool? This is, after all, precisely the reason why he was hired by the BBC in 2012 to host The Radio 1 Breakfast Show, taking over from the old, unfathomably uncool Chris Moyles. He certainly looks pretty cool as he hops from the back of a cab outside our lunch destination, all teeth and sports luxe.
Navy suede bomber, blue tailored trousers, black Vans and dark shades. He’s trendy yet clean, sort of Shoreditch via a bath, if you will; a hipster who’s made some decent wedge. The idea that authenticity (what young people think of as cool nowadays) can be upgraded for Joe Public via a little luxury befits our location, Luca, on St John Street in Clerkenwell. It’s run by the same team who run The Clove Club, a restaurant that brought sophisticated food - rather than just triple-cooked chips with aioli - to Shoreditch several years ago. This is their attempt at a posh Italian.
We begin by talking about Justin Bieber. Grimshaw and I - only school kids call him “Grimmy” - have something in common in that we both adore gossiping about famous people we’ve interviewed. Bieber, Beyoncé, Beckham, he’s done the lot. I tell him my worst interviewee by far was Christina Aguilera during her Stripped period. She was wearing so much fake tan that she left a trail of brown radioactive sludge wherever she perched. At the time, I remember thinking she resembled an enormous melted orange crayon.
“I’ve done Bieber every year since he was 14, so I’ve probably had deeper conversations with him than I’ve had with my own family,” he chuckles. Is he a terrible brat? “He used to be. But then every teenager is a dickhead, aren’t they? This year he came into the studio for a prerecord and he was monosyllabic and disinterested. I stopped the interview and asked him what the problem was. He told me he was hungover. So I got him a pint and a Nando’s. Celebrities are just dogs who need petting. Show them some love and they’ll be humping your leg before lunch.”
Speaking of which, we’ve ordered already: shaved fennel with pear salad and carpaccio of Hereford beef with oyster emulsion to start; for mains we choose pasta entrées: garganelli with pork sausage, tomato and anchovy (for him) and tiny pheasant milanese swimming in a peppery, sepia-coloured broth (for me). We drink lager and pale ale and agree the food is, although refined, broadly unexceptional.
Getting back to the gossip, I want his take on Kanye West - meltdown or precision press strategy? “Kanye might be having a nervous breakdown or he might just be really bored.” He’s bleached his hair, I say. Like with Britney Spears, extreme grooming is always a cultural cipher that indicates a celeb is one sad-face emoji short of self-immolation. “I like Kanye, or I like his music. I asked him once if he got lots of free stuff sent to him and he took it as an insult. ‘Do you think I’m cheap?’ he shouted. 'I drink champagne all day. Do you?’ No thanks, Kanye. It gives me dog breath.”
You can see why stars like Grimshaw. He’s brilliant fun, smart and utterly self-deprecating. “What I do isn’t work - it’s talking to myself in a room really early in the morning.” He doesn’t take talent, or himself, too seriously, thus he’s able to sweetly pop celebrities’ ego bubbles and talk to them like a normal person, something the swarming teams around megastars all too often are unable to do.
“I hate a kiss-ass,” he agrees. “Any celebrity that comes into the studio at 7am in the morning to be grilled by me and tells me how happy they are to be here is lying.” His realness has meant he’s been able to make friends with some of those he’s encountered along the way, Harry Styles, for one. Has he heard from Harry recently? “Sure, we texted this morning. He’s worried I won’t like his new solo record. He recorded it in Jamaica so I am praying it’s some awful white-man reggae.”
Cool? Yes, Nick Grimshaw will always be cooler than his employers -always has been, always will be. That’s why he didn’t fit in with Simon Cowell on The X Factor: “Everyone told me not to do it as it was so naff. Simon had weird energy: very Machiavellian.” So what happens when he eventually leaves The Radio 1 Breakfast Show? Where do DJs go to die? The pub? “I’m doing an internship,” he confesses proudly. “With Es Devlin, who designs huge stage sets for Adele and Beyoncé. I’ve been using a glue gun! I’ve always liked three things: music, nice shoes and good lighting. I’ve ticked two of those boxes, so why not the last?
"I’ve reached a point in my life where I know all that celebrity stuff is, ultimately, nonsense. What I need to think about is this: am I happy, am I healthy and am I being nice to my family? I guess it’s about being present.” Which is the least cool, but most honest thing Nick Grimshaw says all afternoon. GQ
Surf Instructor AU Idea: Bodhi works for Imperial Resort, Cassian works for Wave Guardians’ Surf Shop
“We can’t all be beach bums like you,” Bodhi says, leading the attractive trespasser and his trouble maker dog back out before they are caught and he gets fired. “I’m going to take that as a compliment. You always wear the spandex when you go out?” Cassian asks. “Regulation,” he shrugs, he hates it, missing the warmth of the sun on bare skin. “What about after work? I’d love to see you out of it,” he says making Bodhi blush fiercely. “You look a little red there.” Cassian smirks going through the gate as Bodhi sputters. “Sunburn, I should go,” Bodhi answers quickly wanting to bolt. “Well, you should definitely get some calamine on that…and come find me if you’re ever free,” he says backing away from Bodhi before winking and running off with his crazy dog. Bodhi can’t help but think about him for the rest of the day.
Hello everyone, I figured I should make a post compiling sample images of the commission work i’ve been doing over the past month ^^
If anyone is interested COMMISSIONS ARE STILL OPEN (i’m keeping another 5 slots open) please refer to this post here for details… A huge thank you to those who have already commissioned me, it’s been really fun :D
On another note, THANK YOU SO MUCH for over 4K followers this fanart blog, I kinda just opened my follower count and was like 0_0…. for a while (bless you all, thank you for enjoying the fanart dumps :’)
So it was about the stickers. Anyway, how are you Stan? And how's Kyle? Like, how are you two doing generally? By the way, you are growing a nice beard ma man!
STAN: Thanks, and it’s going awesome! STAN: We talk on the phone every day, I come and visit him most weekends when I’m not working. STAN: Today we’re going for lunch and then we’re gonna hang out for a while. STAN: There’s also presents involved. Multiple, I’m told. STAN: Because Kyle is seriously the best. STAN: And I really love my job, too. I get to pet dogs like, every day, and know that I’m helping keep them off the streets. STAN: It’s fun, and it makes a difference!
This is my fic for @teamfreewill-imagine (AKA Jamie) and her 21st birthday celebration (happy birthday doll!!) It’s an AU profession challenge so I picked painter/decorator/handyman with Dean!
Word count: 1,080
Characters: Dean x Reader, mentions of lawyer! Sam xJess Moore, Bobby Singer
Warnings: a fair bit of swearing, dirty thoughts, implied smut
Tags for signal boost/people who actually want tagging in my work are at the bottom! Feel free to jump on my particular brand of nutty by sending an ask! And of course vice versa :)
This was really not your week.
First the dog had gotten out one evening, meaning you had spent three long hours searching for him, only to eventually find him knee deep in someone’s trash. Bath time had not been fun.
Then your car had broken down on your way to a meeting. You’d had to spend a small fortune getting it towed and of course you’d been horribly late which wasn’t a good way to start things off with new clients.
And now there was this.
“Fucking god-damn bollocks.”
You’d been round at your grandma’s last night, joining in with her weekly lasagne and poker night (because nana and her friends were ‘not that old yet that we’re going to start playing bridge thank you very much’). A bit too much wine and you had ended up passing out on her couch, which is how you now found yourself staring at the massive hole in your ceiling from the pipe that had burst overnight, flooding the place until the pressure had become too much.
How would you go about writing a character (villain) that is becoming more insane as the story progresses? Kinda starts off sympathetic, but it becomes increasingly harder to sympathize with said villain
Hi! I love the idea of this kind of character arc by the way.
Here’s what I’d gradually change:
• Motives- At first, the villain has an understandable motive, like avenging a dead relative by killing their murderer. It’s still wrong, but it’s reasonable. Then, the motive morphs into something that isn’t justifiable. Using the previous example, perhaps the villain is now set on killing the entire, innocent family of the murderer.
•Actions- In the beginning, the villain does illegal/immoral acts that aren’t considered to be terrible in the scheme of things (theft, fraud, etc). If the villain needs to start off more intense than that, then have them do obviously bad things that readers are pretty desensitized to because they’re common crimes for the villanous/bad characters (assassinations, arson, mild torture, etc), but not emotionally repulsive (ex: abusing a dog). Then, work the villain up to doing blatantly, disgusting crimes that readers can’t help but hate to the bottom of their heart.
• If you really want a villain that’s hard to sympathize with, then don’t hold back.
•At the same time, you still need an explanation behind the way that villain is acting/thinking. Sure, they can find it fun to cut off butterfly wings, but why? Do they like destroying beautiful things because it subconsciously elevates them? Do want the attention they receive when others see the wings? Does it make then feel powerful and in control?
• Research clinical insanity and related mental disorders along with their roots.
• Little clues or events will help contribute to the feeling that the character is getting worse. For example, they break their favorite object in a fit of rage. They are envious of other criminals/bad people and their actions. They show emotions inappropriate for the situation ( ex. there’s a dead deer on the road, and they feel a spark of joy). Their emotions are more touchy and more strong, regardless of what it is.