that doesn't want to be her friend

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The idea came faster than I thought XD

I don’t know if I‘ll make this canon but I though this would be a super cute thing lD

Glitter Gal belongs to @cruddyart
Naja belongs to me :V

If you can’t read my writing you can click on the images for captions :V

My friend only talks to me when she wants to ask me for rides and while taking her home the other day she told me my OC looks like bruisedapple cucumberdance and I don’t think we can be friends anymore.

anonymous asked:

I have a friend whose half Chinese and she included her Chinese name on her business card. I felt really weird about it because she identifies as Chinese but doesn't speak Mandarin. I just don't think she should use her "Chinese-ness" to promote herself. I don't want to hurt her feelings but idk how to tell her it's wrong?

shut the fuck up

-janna

the signs as people from my university
  • Aries: That girl who loves partying and socializing with people, she's a fangirl of so many buffed-up singers and she's so pretty. She's kinda judgmental and she's homophobic but she follows so many gay people and likes their posts and nobody in my generation really understands why. She can be really impulsive sometimes and she hates classes but she's a good friend and a funny person
  • Taurus: That girl who is always late, she has social anxiety and she's silent af. Grades are not her forte'. She tries to socialize very hard and everyone is annoyed by the fact that she tries to discuss things that she really doesn't know shit about. She is afraid of some professors, she is christian af and she is kinda lost, but she's a good girl who believes in the supernatural and she always invites us to coffee at her place
  • Gemini: The girl who loves spending time with people, she always loves to discuss about every topic, she knows so much about many things, she's doing great with her grades and she's among the top 5 students in the entire generation. Also, she has PERFECT, sonorous American accent and everybody loves it. She always initiates coffee gatherings but nobody really comes because she's not that much of a leader and her voice is so soft so nobody could really hear when she's talking. She's also a passionate gamer AND in the same time she finds time to maintain her grades and social life
  • Cancer: That (jock) guy who's the tallest one, he's blonde, buffed-up and he's the definition of a straight white boy. He's childish as fuck and he can become very boring sometimes. Once, my colleagues have shooed him out of the cafeteria because he was bothering them. He also tells so many stupid dad-jokes and laughs at his own jokes, flirts with some professors, has been single since forever (not that he's ugly - he's average looking but he's so much boring sometimes because he doesn't have any real friends and he gets excited about people so he doesn't know WHEN to stop). He literally flirts with every single female human being that he can find and he pushes them all away because he's pushy af. He's also introverted and doesn't really know his way with girls
  • Leo: That girl who's one of the top students in the generation. She's always smiling, she has the best grades, she always tries to present this "perfect" image of herself. She is very intelligent and she loves reading, she gets drunk like every second day but that doesn't stop her from maintaining her perfect grades. She's very successful and she's a good leader, she knows all the fresh gossip and she always sits in the first row with her best university friend. In fact, she and her best uni friend are hated by everyone because they're just so successful and everyone's jealous of them. She also secretly hates everybody and gossips with her best uni friend. She and her friend have tons of screenshots ready to blackmail people if anyone says anything against them lmao. But everyone (every zodiac sign) in this generation pretends we like each other so...
  • Virgo: That professor who's VERY detail-oriented and she's a big perfectionist but she can't fix her awful handwriting. She's very successful and she has TONS of potential, she literally KNOWS EVERYTHING about her subjects but sometimes she can really drain us physically and emotionally. She gives us tons of assignments and homework and she always gives us lectures on the most difficult courses. Jfc she behaves like we study in Cambridge / Oxford. But don't get me wrong, she's NOT a bad person. She's actually a VERY good person and at the end of each semester she buys us coffee and tea, she talks with us about our experience with the course and she just wants us to learn some things that we should learn, that's why we perceive her as "difficult" and "problematic"
  • Libra: That girl who loves hugging, has great communication skills and is a social justice warrior. She thinks that she's everyone's friend and she always tries to criticize everyone's opinion, thinking that she'll seem and sound more intelligent. She also listens to rock and metal, she loves children and she smokes a lot, she's very sensitive and she's very friendly. Once, on the Facebook group of the university, she tried to accuse Pisces of something he didn't do and he literally ruined her in front of all those people, that was one of her biggest mistakes she's ever done in uni because she didn't know that that guy can be pretty evil when someone tries to insult/hurt him. The next day in uni she was on the verge of a mental breakdown because that guy really hurt her with his words, making her look stupid and pretentious, and everybody stopped talking to that guy for like, a month or two
  • Scorpio: That girl who's late in class 90% of the time, and those 10% she's not present in class. She is very quiet and she doesn't show particular interest in anything. She doesn't have a taste in fashion and style, unlike most Scorpios that I know. She just wants to go home all the time and nobody knows what she's doing in her life, she's so mysterious and she's not a good teamworker because she doesn't really care about her grades
  • Sagittarius: That girl who can't stop talking and she's always arguing with someone but we all love her. She's very communicative but she's insecure at the same time. She has tons of likes on Facebook and Instagram. She's a VERY open-minded girl, she hates racism, homophobes, nazi scum and racists. She's a really good friend with Leo and Pisces but Capricorn is her bff and her roommate. She has an excellent taste in fashion, style and music and she has S_L_A_Y_I_N_G eyebrows. I think that she's bi/lesbian but maybe she's closeted. She always hugs Capricorn and gets beaten by Capricorn because Capricorn can't stand people touching her
  • Capricorn: That girl who loves vintage notebooks, loves taking studyblr photos and uploads them on tubmlr and Instagram, she loves journeys and we haven't heard her talking for THREE GODDAMN YEARS. She is very antisocial and introverted but she has excellent taste for art, film, music and she's like 24/7 on her phone because it's obvious that she can't stand most of us but she's always sweet and supportive when someone approaches her. Sometimes she doesn't want to talk and she just smiles as a response. She's Sagittarius' best friend and roommate and they've became really close friends. She also loves journeys and she's a daydreamer but she's very intelligent. Her grades are not that good, she's not an attention whore and she tries to be "invisible" but she simply can't
  • Aquarius: That guy with his cockney accent who has insane memory and loves football. He's actually a loner, he's a bit creepy and weird, le loves britpop and indie nd he was one of the best students in the first two years of uni but his grades dropped. He's like, very secretive and he can be pretty arrogant and you just can't sit next to him because he's telling jokes all the time which takes your attention away. He is a loner and once he publicly told us that he used to have cyber sex with his girlfriend because she lived in another country and they've never met in real life (I mean, who tells such things omg Aqua get your shit together). He tries to insult people and he tries to be sarcastic but he can only be sarcastic with the stupid ones. He also thinks that he's a know-it-all and that he's the most intelligent person in the world. He can be really judgmental sometimes and he pushes people away with that
  • Pisces: That guy who always sits in the first row with his best university friend and is one of the top students in the generation. He's also a model, nerd, gamer, works out and whatnot. He is sweet to everyone and talks to everyone but he can be very sassy at times. He was the one who had a verbal fight with Libra because Libra triggered him and he destroyed her verbally. He's really skinny and dreamy and he has a very deep voice and an excellent taste in fashion and style. His style is kinda dark and he's so aesthetic. He listens to some music that no other people in the world listen to but he also listens to some mainstream music. In fact, he listens to whatever he wants and he doesn't really think about what other people think about him. He tends to roll his eyes a lot and he cares about his physical beauty more than he cares about his love life. He's too egotistic and self-centered and he's extremely picky, which makes him single most of the time.
How the Hamilton Fandom sees our favorite historical figures vs the actual historical figures
  • Fandom Hamilton: Smol, willing to fight everyone, also willing to fuck everyone, the most flaming bisexual to ever walk the earth, 5'7" of pure rage. On Twitter.
  • Actual Hamilton: Founding father. Founded the national bank and was the first treasury of the secretary. Not actually Lin Manuel Miranda. Probably never made out with John Laurens but definitely did send him suggestive letters that were censored by his grandson.
  • Fandom Aaron Burr: adorable, loved his umbrella, probably gay, Leslie is adorable too, hit his head on the same pipe twice, spent his money "like an ass," in love with Hamilton
  • Actual Aaron Burr: actually shot Hamilton. He also graduated from Princeton at the age of 16 and a bunch of other cool stuff but he literally shot the guy we're all obsessed with why do we like him
  • Fandom Laurens: The Gayest of the Gays. Has a dick father. Is actually Anthony Ramos. Very cute. Likes turtles. Dating Alexander Hamilton.
  • Actual Laurens: Probably still very gay. He had a wife and kid though. He did draw very nice turtles. Not Anthony Ramos (cry). Not that cute.
  • Fandom Eliza: A pure cinnamon roll, too good for this world. Way too good for Alexander Hamilton. 1/3 of the Schuyler Sisters.
  • Actual Eliza: A pure cinnamon roll, too good for this world. Way too good for Alexander Hamilton. 1/3 of the Schuyler Sisters. Wore pretty dresses. Told his story.
  • Fandom Angelica: Badass Feminist. Will cut your dick off. Actually Renee Elise Goldsberry. Actually incredible. WARNED Eliza.
  • Actual Angelica: Is not Renee Elise Goldsberry. Is a dead white woman. Probably never rapped at her sisters wedding. Probably still a badass feminist. Probably still did warn you, Eliza.
  • Fandom Peggy: ...and Peggy!
  • Actual Margarita (Peggy) Schuyler: Protected her family from a mob of men carrying tomahawks. A badass. I love her. Not somehow secretly in love with Maria Reynolds.
  • Fandom Lafayette: America's Favorite Fighting Frenchman, actual baguette, yes yes my name is Lafayette, he came from afar just to say hello tell the king fuck off who's the best? It him.
  • Actual Lafayette: literally in love with America Lin did a good job with him. He had American soil taken back to France to be buried under it. He named his son after George Washington. The purest French bread.
  • Fandom Mulligan: cLoThInG and FUCKING HORSES
  • Actual Mulligan: he was a tailor who spied on British people he was cool he doesn't get enough love let's all love mulligan ok
  • Fandom Thomas Jefferson: Probably in love with James Madison, wears heelies, invented the swivel chair, fucks macaroni. Also, actually the worst.
  • Actual Thomas Jefferson: Actually the worst. He owned slaves. His bed was in the middle of a hallway. Look it up.
  • Fandom James Madison: a smol bean, in love with Thomas Jefferson, a southern motherfucking democratic republican.
  • Actual James Madison: a founding father. Pretty sickly. Doesn't get enough respect either.
  • Fandom Maria Reynolds: is either loved or hated fiercely, has one of the best voices in the show, somehow sleeps with everyone in fanfiction even if not historically possible.
  • Actual Maria Reynolds: was being abused by her husband and just wanted to get away for a while. Hamilton is at fault too. She had a sad life.
  • Fandom George Washington: dad friend to the whole country, everyone has a daddy kink bc of him (why), Alex's actual Dad, literally anything to do with Dad
  • Actual George Washington: the actual father of our country. The first president of the United States. Stop disrespecting him this way. Get the washlaf off of my dash.
  • Fandom Philip Hamilton: "MY BABY." Doesn't exist in 1/2 of fanfictions and is still killed in the other 1/2. Looks an awful lot like John Laurens.
  • Actual Philip Hamilton: Really hot. Died young. Tragic.
  • Fandom Charles Lee: The Worst.
  • Actual Charles Lee: The Worst.
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AMC presents … Into The Badlands

  • what I say: I'm fine
  • what I mean: honestly it looks like the writers have been setting this up from the beginning; there was no other important point to have Ivy at the Sirens party in 3x05 other than to have her see Oswald for the first time in person and see Ed and Oswald's intimate moment after Ed saved the Mayor from Butch so in the future when she's working Oswald she could understand that once Ed had saved his life and feels immensely for him so she can be justified in using her perfume to show both of them the truth that they both love each other like I'm sorry but this is genius she wants to help Oswald be happy because he's her friend and she knows Ed makes Oswald happy and Ed doesn't hate him he loves him back kill me
  • What she says: Star is jealous of Marco and Jackie's relationship
  • What she means: Star is so overtaken by jealousy and negative emotions to the point where they affect the way her spells are cast. They become much more powerful and destructive as seen when she sends one flying towards the Love Sentence sign and DEMOLISHES it effortlessly. She was bottling up that kind of frustration as she talked to Marco and assured him that everything was alright, which was an amazing cover-up of how she really felt. And it's no surprise that she feels like this if you really think about it: Marco is her BEST FRIEND. They live together, ride the bus to school together, walk home together, fight monsters together, and have developed a friendship that works amazingly well. They're earnest with each other, support each other, and they work out their problems in a very healthy way. But Jackie throws an unintentional wrench into their dynamic by dating Marco, because Marco has someone else to do all those things with now. Jackie is the girl of Marco's dreams, and a girl who he is getting to REALLY know after admiring her from afar for so long. He finally has a chance to become someone important to her, and to cherish her like he always wanted to and their relationship will pave the way to doing all the things that Marco was able to do with Star and MORE. While that does not mean friendships are worth less than romantic relationships, it does mean that Marco will inevitably feel more attached to Jackie and carry that obligation to treat her the way a girlfriend should be treated. This obviously interferes with Marco's attention to Star, because he will spend less time with her and more with someone else who he deems a significant other. Now Star has to pretend that everything is okay since she doesn't want to admit that she's upset while her best friend is happy with another girl. It's something she can't help but feel, but because she feels too ashamed to tell that to her best friend of all people, she continues to put on a fake smile in front of him and vents in other unhealthy ways.
New Fave Headcanon

Zarya’s always the one pushing D.Va hardest to keep up the streaming, make it to the competitions, keep her in the spotlight she loves as much as she can.

And she’s the one there cheering the hardest, making and bringing her snacks during the streams, and just listening to her talk about games and her life for hours on end.

Because Zarya knows what it’s like to give up your career and the fame you deserve to protect your people, and she’s not willing to let Hana do it.

anonymous asked:

Do you think bringing in all the different girls, is so not one of them is more prominent and easier to attach committed love songs too? Because his personal ones are about a committed relationship? I just think if he wants to keep his private life private he doesn't need Kendall and Taylor, and Tess, and Townes.

He doesn’t “have” Kendall, Taylor, Tess, and Townes. 

Kendall is a friend, has been, will be.  She’s also dating ASAP Rocky I believe, so she’s not in the picture. She wasn’t even at the gig last night.

Taylor is… Taylor. She’s written songs implying heavily that they were about him, he co-wrote one with 1D that was a Syco cash grab “reply” to 1989 that made her out to be in it for the publicity. 

And now, he’s not denying that Two Ghosts is about ANYONE (he leans towards no on Louis after a very inappropriate question. Way less firm than NOOOOOOO!!!! about Taylor, yeah?) because once he starts confirming or denying, he’ll have to answer for all of the songs. And clearly, blatantly, Harry is not looking to alienate any of his “shipper” fans which honestly, I think is nice of him.

The media is dead set on making it about Taylor because she’s the only “confirmed” ex-gf he has other than Kendall (even though he has NEVER confirmed any girlfriend). And fans are just eating that up and making it way more about her than they should be. The song mentions red lips and blue eyes, then goes on to talk about a long term relationship which clearly Taylor and Harry were not, no matter what story you believe.

Townes is a friend of a friend that agreed to pose as a background muse. She’s dating someone, she’s not claiming to have ever been anyone truly important to Harry.

And Tess?  IDK what that is, but he’s sure not trying to convince anyone of that one, no matter what Paige 2.0 is doing.

So this massive “het push” that everyone is claiming is happening, really isn’t. It’s just more het than we were expecting, so even relatively low key het trolling is grating on people like it’s something major.

But to me, we’re seeing more of who he really is than we have since 2011. 

Some of who he is is acting like a dumbass guy around other dumbass guys. Some of him is a rainbow unicorn frog baby. Some of him is an iconic artist in the making. 

And some of him is a shrewd, intelligent, ambitious man in a cutthroat business where you have to think two steps ahead of anyone else just to keep up.

We forget about that last part to our own detriment.

anonymous asked:

I don't think it's weird that Mani is the one talking "good" about Camila. Dinah can't say a thing because it'd confirm they're still friends n ruin the official narrative. If Lauren says smth, Camren hell would break lose. Ally is the one that (in my pov) didn't seem to like Camz all along so maybe she doesn't want to talk about her. Mani and Camz seemed less tense n began interacting again Sept to Dec, so maybe they didn't end in bad terms. Therefore she is the "safest" to reference Camila

Why do people think Ally doesn’t like Camila? Where does this come from? Camally is fucking glorious!

anonymous asked:

Could you do prompts for a female villain who was the childhood friend of the female hero but the hero never picked up on any of the hints and now they're meeting for the first time in like 6 years and the villain still loves the hero and the hero doesn't recognize them.

1) “Why did you spare me!?” The hero nearly howled in her rage, feeling like her lungs and heart might burst right out of her chest with the force of her grief. She couldn’t stop shaking. She couldn’t stop crying, even if she didn’t want to give that monster the satisfaction of her tears. 

The villain stared at her, expression frozen. 
“Because once, you saved me. I was trying to return the favour.” 

The favour, as if any of this had been a favour! 


2) “But you,” the hero spat. “No one would ever yield to the likes of you! You know nothing of kindness, or loyalty, or love.”

“And of course you are the expert of recognizing love and loving things. You have me all figured out. Clever you.”


3) A body flung her out of the way to safety, knocking the breath out of her, warm and armoured on top of her. Arms covered her head, as the shrapnel of the explosion missed them by inches. 
“Thanks.” She rolled over, expecting - not them. She stiffened. For a second, that unreadable, masked face seemed to study her. Fingers trailed over her lips with a tenderness not suited to either villainy or war. Then the villain was up and gone.


4) “So, they sent you to negotiate with me.” 

“I’m told I’m very persuasive,” the hero flashed a smile. 

“Yes, I’m sure that’s the reason they sent you. No.” The villain rose to her feet. “How dare you?”

She hadn’t even suggested anything yet!


5) “Do you know who I am?” 
“Someone who needs to be stopped.”
The villain laughed, then - an oddly cracking, broken sound. 

anonymous asked:

May I ask you something that's not so much in Mor's favor? Don't you think that she should have told Az that she doesn't want him that way? She didn't need t come out to him in order to do that. Another reason to add how this whole plot was done horribly. It made her seem.. Not a great friend. She also said that she likes things the way they are to Feyre, she doesn't want to change things, it's comfortable for her (Az, her, Cass thing). I just.. Wish that all of this is different completely.

Right *rubs temples* we have finally reached a point I have been struggling with with this whole Mor…fiasco which is the tension between my desire to drag sjm through the mud for the way this was written…but also my intense desire to protect Mor’s choices as a queer character having agency with her own identity. This ask is going to be dedicated entirely to the latter (okay maybe not ENTIRELY but when I’m talking about  how Mor acted I’m going to do it in such a way that’s just ‘I wish all of this hasn’t happened how it did but it has and I’m working with what I’ve got here’) Clunky disclaimer out the way, let’s pick this apart… 

Right, first off,I would like to point out that it’s canon that Mor did actually try to talk to Azriel about this after he found her in the Autumn Court. However he wasn’t really listening and was doing some babble-confessing of his own at the time and she panicked. She was seventeen years old and the boy who just saved her life, who she knew she couldn’t be with, tried to tell  her that he loved her and she had no idea what to do so she panicked. After that it’s not really surprising she struggled with trying to explain things to him. 

Then  I think it’s important to remember a lot of things about the dynamic between Mor, Cass, Rhys and Az early on in the series when she knew Az and might have told him. So she’s only known Cassian and Azriel for two weeks when the whole Incident happens. The situation Mor is in is a  hell of a lot more complicated than ‘I slept with this one dude and this other dude loves me but I’m queer I’m not sure how to tell him’ (which is complicated enough in itself) 

Mor owes her life to all three of them at this point. Azriel saved her from the Autumn Court. Cassian and Rhys got her out of the Court of Nightmares and then proceeded to keep her out. So not is she indebted to them for saving her she is also completely reliant on them for her freedom. At this point in the canon we’re dealing with an extremely vulnerable queer girl who has been brutalised beyond belief and has only just been able to get out of her abusive situation. If the relationship she has with Cass Az and Rhys deteriorates she has nowhere else to go but back to her emotionally abusive homophobic family. 

Factor into that that she’s recently had sex with Cassian, largely because of Az and his jealousy over the two of them, and then walked away from that and the fact that she knows Azriel is in love with her but that she can’t reciprocate…I’m not surprised she’s terrified of telling them the truth. She’s grown up being told people like her are selfish and awful and that they should be forced into marriage and breeding regardless of how they feel about it, she probably believes that’s how Az and Cassian definitely, since she’s only known them about 3 weeks, will react to her. And Rhys grew up with them, they’re his brothers, she’s probably petrified of telling them the truth about her and having them all reject and abandon her which leaves her with nowhere to go but back to her father. I don’t blame her for not telling them. 

Then the War happens and she’s away from them all for a while and falls in love with Andromache and she has to go through losing her (twice) completely alone because no-one knows and she can’t tell t hem. She says herself that there was no-one for a few decades and like..Those aren’t circumstances where I’d feel like adding a whole  heaping pile of angst on top when she still isn’t sure how the boys will react so she just bottles things up and hides them away again. 

And then…Things settle out a little bit. The dynamic between her and Cass and Az finds something like what we see now, the three of them all tied together and loving each other just in different ways. And then she has to start trying to accept herself (Andromache was her first female lover and after that fell apart Mor was alone for decades, it’s hard to talk to people about something you barely understand or accept yourself) 

She has to unlearn the vile homophobia that she grew up with, she has to coax herself into trying to be with a woman again after what happened before, she has to try and explore this part of herself without letting anyone know…That’s hard. And so she finds Velaris, she finds Rita’s and at last she has a little safe place, a place where she experiment and be herself and so she does.  But that’s a safe place, a place that’s just hers, a thing that’s just hers, that no-one has yet managed to take away from her or destroy, and she feels this desperate urge to keep it safe because it’s all that’s kept her from breaking at times, knowing that no-one has ever truly known her

All of this takes time. Mor is healing and I know she’s a strong, confident woman when we meet her in ACOMAF and she’s had while to process all of this but…Abuse and that sort of homophobia and the trauma she was subjected to on top of then losing the only person she’s ever truly loved…That takes a lot of healing, that takes a lot of time to slowly build up an identity and a self-worth and by the time that happens…She needs the people around her. She has a support system in place and she deeply loves all of them. 

If she suddenly reveals that she’s queer that’s going to mess up her relationship with everyone in the Circle (except, perhaps, Amren) But everything will change and she’s only just managed to find herself and a place where she belongs and she has NEVER had that before. Cassian and Azriel both had difficult childhoods but they also both had Rhys and Rhys’ mother. Mor has not had a single positive, mutual, respectful relationship before Rhys, Cassian, Azriel and Amren. That is so fucking important for her recovery and her stability and I cannot find it in myself to shame her or hate her for wanting to keep that whole. 

Not to mention the fact that she knows this will hurt Azriel. And she loves him. I don’t care what bullshit that coming out scene spouts about her not being able to love him ‘the way he deserves’ because of her sexuality (which I have issues with) because she loves this man in a very deep, unconditional way and this will hurt him and she can’t bear that. 

So there are a lot of pressures surrounding her keeping her sexuality hidden. She’s petrified of her family, of the homophobia she grew up surrounded by and she wants to keep this one tiny piece of herself hidden from them, so they never truly know her and therefore can’t own or break her. She’s petrified of losing the Circle, who she owes her life, freedom, power and stability to, they’re her support system and the only truly positive relationships she’s ever known. of course she’s terrified of losing that? And she’s scared of hurting Azriel and wrecking her relationship with someone that she truly and genuinely loves, even if she doesn’t want to be with him romantically. 

Also I think, when you mention that she didn’t have to come out to explain things to Azriel I think….In this case it’s complicated by them? She’s already walked away from him once while he was trying to tell her that he loved her…If she just goes to him and tells him that she can never ever be with him without the context of her sexuality…That’s going to ruin him? And she knows that. She knows how he sees himself and she’s probably terrified of offering up that rejection because the Circle is Az’s safe space and support network too and she loves him. She cannot just say ‘I don’t want you, I never will’ because then it will just…sound like he’s not good enough for her and he never will be? It’s going to sound like a ‘him’ problem than it just being the way that she is and she knows that would shatter him. (You can argue all you like that this is an Azriel problem and it’s not on her to fix or attend to his insecurities, and it’s not, but that doesn’t mean it’s easy for her to just shatter him like that? This is the reality of their situation) 

Also, on the subject of her not wanting to change it…I want to make it clear that I don’t think this is actively good for her. Like, I’m sorry, but if you think that Azriel, a straight man, is suffering more for Mor not feeling like she’s able to come out, feeling ‘petrified’ of facing him with this, than she is…I don’t know what to say to you. 

Being closeted is not fun. It’s not a little ‘straight passing’ card that you get to wave around so you can blend in with the normal people and not get noticed, it’s hard. It’s painful. It’s frightening. It’s constantly having to censor yourself whenever you’re talking to people, constantly worrying if they’ve figured it out even though you’re not ready, this constant paranoia and this guilt that builds up and the frustration and the hurt at not being able to be yourself. 

This situation is harming more exponentially more than it is Az and when she says that she doesn’t want it to change that’s not her being selfish. at all. 

(Especially when, as Mor told us herself in ACOMAF, she could peel her clothes off in front of Azriel and he wouldn’t move. He isn’t ready for this relationship anyway. He could have gone to her as well at any point in these 500 years and approached her about this and he hasn’t. Mor is not the only one maintaining this stasis between them and telling herself it’s ‘good enough’ this thing is mutual. 

Azriel isn’t technically losing out on anything by this because he hasn’t tried to make a move or talk to her about it and isn’t ready for the relationship himself? Maybe he could have moved on if she’d given him a concrete no but like…After five hundred years…He could have damn well just decided to move on for himself, like I’m sorry. A man should not need a flat out rejection from a woman (which, you could argue that he’d gotten when she walked away from him when he told her he loved her) to move on with his life, okay. 

He could have made that choice for himself she is not stopping him making that choice and she is not ‘stringing him along’ either, she isn’t hinting that oh maybe some day this might happen, not today but maybe tomorrow, she’s avoiding the subject and she has Cassian buffer them ffs to try and protect her from this. That’s not stringing him along, like, sorry) 

“Whenever Azriel makes his feelings clear, like he did with Eris … It’s stupid, I know. It’s so stupid and cruel that I do this, but … I slept with Helion just to remind Azriel … Gods, I can’t even say it. It sounds even worse saying it.”

“To remind him that you’re not interested.”

“I should tell him. I need to tell him. Mother above, after last night, I should. But …” She twisted her mass of golden hair over a shoulder. “It’s gone on for so long. So long. I’m petrified to face him—to tell him he’s spent five hundred years pining for someone and something that won’t ever exist. The potential fallout … I like things the way they are. Even if I can’t … can’t really be me, I … things are good enough.

Right, regardless of how you personally view Mor’s sexuality (bi/gay/queer/whatever you wish) the fact of the matter is that, in canon, Feyre states THREE TIMES that Mor did not enjoy sleeping with Helion and that she got no pleasure out of it. She’s described as ‘pale and vacant’ the next day and during the coming out scene Feyre actually thinks of her as looking ‘tortured’ okay, she is not enjoying this. The fact of the matter is, Mor is repeatedly having sex with men…For Az. To keep him at a distance. This is…Like I’m sorry but if you can’t see how fucked up that is (for HER) I don’t know what to say to you. She’s repeatedly putting herself in sexual situations she may or may not want that she does not seem to enjoy…For Azriel. 

She is suffering here, okay. She is closeted, that’s painful, that’s hard in itself but she also has this to deal with. Azriel’s affection has kept her closeted (in part) all these years and she is PETRIFIED of facing him with this?? How can this possibly be purely selfish on her part? How is she the only one getting flack for doing what she needs to do to keep herself safe

Especially when it’s hurting her like? ‘Good enough’ it’s just..It’s like Lucien’s situation in the Spring Court. That was ‘good enough’ for him, yes he was being abused  horrendously, no he didn’t have any real agency or power over himself or freedom or love or respect but it wasn’t the abusive shithole he was trapped in all those years so it was ‘good enough’. 

That’s what this good enough is, okay. She cannot be herself. She cannot openly love who she wants to. She has to suffer heartache and grief alone and isolated because she can’t tell anyone how she feels. She is ‘petrified’ of facing Azriel. She is closeted and that hurts. She is also GUILTY AS FUCK. She’s doing all of this, hiding herself, hurting herself, sleeping with people she doesn’t get any pleasure out of, and has been doing this for five  hundred years and she still feels horrifically guilty about this. She’s said in that coming out scene too that she wants to be able to love Azriel the way he deserves but she can’t. She’s tried to change herself and has hidden herself and hurt herself all for this relationship that she doesn’t want, that makes her uncomfortable? 

She likes things the way that they are  because these are the first people who accepted even a part of her. They love her and they respect her and they treat her with dignity and gave her basic fucking needs from a relationship and that is ‘good enough’ for her. Because she grew up with emotionally and physically abusive homophobic parents who accepted no part of her, who treated her like an animal, or worse, and then she found this…She found this love and respect and of course she doesn’t want to change it. Of course she doesn’t want to lose it. Of course she’s terrified of telling them and seeing that same hatred that lived in her parents’ eyes. Even if she knows it’s irrational that doesn’t matter. She’s a terrified queer abuse victim and she is suffering, she cannot be herself, but that’s good enough because what choice does she have, really? 

Mor is a closeted, scared, vulnerable, abuse survivor who is petrified of losing the only safe space that she’s ever had just because of who she is. She is suffering 100 times more from this situation than Azriel or anyone else in the Circle. I will not sit here and call a queer character selfish or a bad friend or any of it for doing what she feels she has to to protect herself. Especially not when most of the things that she’s doing are more damaging for her than they are for anyone else. I love Azriel, I relate to his character a lot, but I’m not going to sit here and prop up this ‘oh no poor boy’ while Mor gets thrown under the bus because she is afraid. 

Her identity is her own and this choice, revealing this part of herself to who she chooses, is one of the only pieces of ultimate agency that she has ever had. I won’t say she was wrong to keep it hidden, keep it safe, if that made her feel okay. Mor’s situation is not ‘good enough’, Mor’s situation is deplorable and painful and I refuse to call her selfish for maintaining something like this because she is absolutely terrified of the alternative. 

Queer people have the right to be in the closet for as long as they need to be in order to feel safe. It is not for anyone else (especially not straight characters a la Feyre) to tell them when they should come out. They are not ‘liars’ for being closeted. They should not feel guilty for being closeted and keeping themselves safe. That’s a disgusting way of looking at things and it’s an incredibly damaging mentality to have. 

‘Out and proud’ is great, okay, but it’s not possible for everyone. A queer person’s safety comes first and if they feel that they need to keep their sexuality hidden in order to do so that is their choice. And it is not up to anyone, especially those who have no way of understanding what this feels like, to judge them or shame them or guilt-trip for that. It’s not selfish to want to protect yourself and not risk ruining the relationships you have with those around you for the sake of telling them something they do not have a right to know unless you choose it. 

In the end I will chose validating and defending a queer person’s decision to keep their identity hidden for their own personal reasons and safety over the feelings of anyone who feels like they might have been entitled to know this every. Single. Fucking. Time. 

soul eater typing styles
  • maka: she lets her phone autocorrect most things, and while she's a fan of proper punctuation, she doesn't really bother to capitalize things unless she does it for Emphasis. when her syntax is perfect, however, you know she's pissed.
  • soul: this boy must hate holding a phone. he shortens all his words, abbreviates a bunch, and is generally extremely inconsistent w/ his style. most people think he's crytyping because he doesnt bother to correct typos. uses the word "prolly" a lot.
  • black*star: this kid will hurl every fucking emoji at you dont even test him. the 100 and laugh-crying emojis are his favorite. caps lock is his best friend. you'll never want to read the phrase "MAD GAINS" again after talking to him.
  • tsubaki: generally, a warm and welcoming typing style! she loves to use exclamation points and typed emoticons, such as ":0" and ":)". sometimes she shortens words, but not very often. replies very late.
  • death the kid: proper syntax, also he doesn't understand shortened abbreviations one bit. what does LOL mean? google is his best friend.
  • liz: cattiest damn typing style ever. she loves the word "binch" and over-uses the side-eye emoji. she wont capitalize even if her life depended on it and often doesnt really use punctuation.
  • patti: XD i maed u a cookie but i eated it O.o
  • (no but seriously. she puts up this typing shtick sometimes to rile people up, sometimes because it's fun. she can be pretty damn intelligent with her typing if you let her, though.)

anonymous asked:

Okay, it's officially time for the boy squad to adopt sana. Jonas would be the dad friend, calmly watching and making sure sana is okay. Even would order her the right pizza and want to have deep discussions about Islam. isak would distract her with biology or something because he knows she doesn't like to be overly emotional about things. And Mahdi and Magnus would try to make her smile. Like it's time now.

this right there,,, isak just like “let’s get you to the 6 instead of the 5 what do you think”, deep discussions about Islam or religion in general with even, and mahdi and magnus making stupid jokes to make her smile, yes i like that

Rose: And then ate all that sugar..?
Eskel: Oh no, we used the sugar to buy potatoes and tried to brew our own vodka.

I made an OC, I decided the best way to introduce her would be through a comic, so here. Her name is Rose because she’s a thorny bitch. She’s a cat witcher and she might think Eskel is a bit of a weirdo.

anonymous asked:

I've just read about Tony feeling unwanted and man, it breaks my heart! Could you write something about Tony having enough? Like, he feels that Team Cap thinks they don't need him, they don't appreciate him and they never did. So he leaves, he doesn't stop being an Iron Man, but leaves Avengers. Maybe he has his own team with Rhodey and Spidey and whoever else. Maybe he helps Defenders from time to time. Maybe he works alone. (1)

But the point is, even if Avengers think that they don’t need him, they really do. Because he did so much for them all this time. Like, when SHIELD fell, he and his company invested them, repaired their equipment and made new one, took care of PR and media. And they never even knew, or just never cared, until he left. Now they have no one to replace him and to be as efficient as he was. They’re just too close to failing apart.(2)


I can and I most certainly will! All those angst-filled headcanons from yesterday didn’t just make me want to curl up under a ton of blankets to hide from the world, they also, they also reminded me how freaking bitter I still am. So yeah, hope you don’t mind, anon, but I thought your ask would be the perfect way to kick off bitter Sunday!

Because we’re talking about Tony Stark, guys. We’re talking about the man who build a suit of armour in a freaking cave. Who got kidnapped by the bad guys and blew his own way right back out. Yes, he’s hurt. Yes, he’s fucking heartbroken. Yes, most days the weight of his own mistakes and failings almost crushes him. Yes, being confronted with the team he was never allowed to belong to he lost is rubbing salt into the slashing wounds that still haven’t healed, bleed sluggishly from time to time.

But.

There’s a line he’s drawn into the sand a long time ago, back when he first became Iron Man, and it matters. He does what is expected of him. Shakes the returning Avengers’ hands. Smiles for the cameras. Is quoted stressing that he supports the UN’s decisions, that with the new and revised Accords in place, there’s no room for old grudges and vendettas. And he means it. What he doesn’t say though, is that there’s no room for old friendships and favours either.

Truth is, Earth needs as many heroes as possible. It needs them in once place, with stable communication channels, capable of working and strategising and organising together. The exiled Avengers are a rare resource they can’t afford to waste. There is also the fact that being trust back into the limelight limits them in a way working from the shadows doesn’t, forces a vague but still present sense of accountability on them that Tony may or may not take a great amount of pleasure in.

But here’s another, much more fortunate truth: they don’t need to be a team to save the world. It’s a truth that’s been hanging over them from the beginning, back when Iron Man wasn’t a part of the Avengers because he didn’t have to be for the plot to work. In retrospect, Tony can appreciate Fury’s actions for the well-played moves they were.

So he does what he would have done years ago, if not for sentimentalities and a misplaced sense of loyalty holding him back: he cuts the wire.

With the new accords has come a committee and a new governmental agency in charge of handling the nationally and internationally operating enhanced strike teams. Tony uses this development to his advantage, separates his business from the agency entirely, because really, a billionaire shouldn’t own parts of an organisation designed to keep him in check.

Tony signs the new agreements and as Iron Man he is to be deployed whenever necessary, but he is no longer part of any team. And he makes a point of proving that time and again.

When members of his ex-team are involved in a fight he wasn’t, he refuses any comment on the actions, they are none of his business after all, and really, shouldn’t you ask the people who were actually there? He doesn’t get involved in group press conferences unless there are more than just the ex-Avengers present because presenting a united front as enhanced humans is one thing, presenting a united front with them is another thing altogether. 

He doesn’t build weapons, suits and other improvements for anyone but himself and the people he deems worthy of his gifts either–those designs have always been too dangerous to be allowed into the hands of a government agency, and none of his former team mates make the cut onto the trusted list anymore. 

He doesn’t interact with them anyways, unless it’s on the comms during a fight or via a representative or his official email account (his private contact information is no longer available to them). All his employees knows better than to give them access to anything non-public without a properly scheduled meeting, and even Pepper doesn’t disagree with him on this one. She’s the one that usually shows up on these meetings anyways, and she doesn’t give them an inch, because there’s a reason Tony hired her in the first place.

And it might have started out as simple avoidance and being petty but you know what? Tony’s doing pretty damn well on his own. He doesn’t need the team, he’s always known that, but proving it to himself ends up feeling surprisingly good. Empowering. Freeing even. 

Because even though it feels like that in the very beginning, Tony isn’t actually alone. He’s got Pepper, with whom he’s slowly working out the post-failed-relationship-awkwardness, and Rhodey, who’s recovery is a slow, painful process but still a process, and loyal, steady Happy. He also has Peter, who’s too eager and reminds Tony too much of himself, but who doesn’t leave or get bored by Tony’s enthusiastic rants. He’s got Harely with whom he face-times at least once a week to science and chatter.

He’s got people who care about him and enjoy spending time with him, and the more time passes, the more Tony realises how not-okay his relationships with his former team have really been, how not-okay he’s been. And he still misses them, from time to time, but it’s the fleeting yearning for a missed opportunity, not the heartbreaking free fall into a bottomless darkness it used to be.

The point is, Tony is in a good place. Without the team that never wanted him. 

(And on days he still feels a little down, watching that Youtube clip of a tiny, three-year old girl in an Iron Man t-shirt throwing her ice cream at Steve Roger’s face with devastating accuracy, the one that cuts off right as the older brother is shown laughing so hard tears are streaming down his face and assuring his indignant little sister that yes, he’ll get her a new ice cream, he’s very proud of her standing up against bullies, is surprisingly cathartic.)