We joke sometimes you know.

-“Never a dull moment with Louis”

-“Being a Louie is stressful”

-“Drama and fuckery is always following that kid around”

-“He may be a little shit but he’s our little shit”

Sometimes it’s funny, honest and entertaining, and I enjoy the banter. And other times it’s just patronizing.

Louis is a grown, intelligent man, and his life isn’t a fictional lifetime drama. Not his son, his career, his grieving family, his love life or his pap run-ins. But it’s a shame that the fandom and tabloids treat him as a meme or an open buffet at times. The headlines today were pretty disgusting, and they cast him in a terrible light for those who have written him off or who won’t care to dig deeper.

My ass learned a lesson in real time about how easily shit gets twisted and shared. The articles today had a belligerant Louis slamming a pap to the ground and physically intimidating minor female fans, and the exact opposite happened on video. It had every fan extreme reaction possible - shallow memes, haters gloating “my fave would never”, tinhats cheering actual physical violence, stans excusing what would have been problematic behavior and finally people coming together as the truth of a complicated, messy situation revealed itself.

I waited this one out and gave Louis the benefit of the doubt because violence is SO out of character for him (“character” being his public persona we’ve seen for over half a decade), but I can’t help but think about other scenarios where I had a knee jerk reaction or where I easily joked about something personal in his life.

Most recently, I side-eyed how fast the Eleanor reunion came to be. Like who fucking cares? Who am I to judge? What harm is there in two exes reuniting? How does them being a couple have any bearing on how I approach being a Louis fan or fandom in general? And then I see Louis pretty much getting hit with charges all for running to her rescue, and Eleanor literally risking her safety as she gets her second initiation to this fandom. Jesus. Lesson learned. Loyalty and love runs deep. Eleanor, Oli, Steve, Niall and Louis will make a fantastic polyamorous family, and I will do better to keep an open mind and to process and question my reactions in the future. ❤


It’s one AM and these kinda just popped into my head LETS GO

• Connor fails his suicide attempt, Zoe finds him in his room about a minute after Connor swallowed a fuck ton of pills

•Evan hears about this cause Connor is always a main source of gossip at the school

• especially for Jared

• Evan thinks about when he failed his suicide attempt and knew, at least partly, how Connor felt

• Evan, knowing he wouldn’t be able to just walk up to Connor and start talking, starts writing letters

• Dear Connor Murphy, I heard what happened and I want you to know, I failed as well over the summer

• Evan always signing them as Sincerely Me

• Connor getting the first letter five days after he leaves the hospital, two days after he goes back to school

• Connor reading it, and thinking

• maybe I’m not completely alone

• Evan writes Connor a letter every Tuesday and Thursday

• Whenever Connor ditches school he makes sure it isn’t a Tuesday or Thursday

• Evan mentions things that go on in his life, how he wishes he could stand up for himself, how he wishes he could help his mother, how he wishes he could talk to the girl he likes

• Connor starts to develop feelings for the mystery writer but ignores it cause

• A. Who would like him

• and

• B. I don’t even know who writes the letters, how the fuck can I be in love

• Evan slowly starts to make sure Connor is doing okay when ever Connor actually shows up to his math class

• Evan slowly starts to realize that he doesn’t like Zoe as much, but why?

• Evan shoots up in bed one night thinking

• Fuck. I like the school stoner

• Evan then slaps himself cause that’s not all that Connor is

• his mom hears him talking to himself and asks if everything is alright

• Evan quickly shouts back a yes, and gets back in bed, still thinking of Connor Murphy

• the last day of school before Christmas Break, Evan leaves a small gift at Connors locker and a note even though it’s Friday

• he’s surprised to see that Connor also left a gift at his locker for the mystery writer

• Evan puts it under the tree

• Heidi asks where it came from and Evan starts blushing and stuttering and mumbling about how he writes letters to Connor Murphy

• Heidi sees the light in her sons eye that hasn’t been there in years

• She bakes cookies for Evan to give to Connor

• Evan brings the cookies to the Murphy’s house, rings the door bell and runs

• Cynthia opens the door to see a plate of cookies and card saying ‘Dear Connor Murphy, have an excellent Christmas, sincerely me’

• Cynthia is super excited cause she believes that Connor has an actual FRIEND

• Cynthia takes the cookies up to her sons room

• Connor opens the door, glaring at his mother, and then he sees the cookies and the note card

• he picks it up and reads it quickly before blushing and grabs the plate, shutting his door

• on Christmas Evan opens Connors present last and is very happy to see that it’s a tree encyclopedia with a note that said ‘you always talk about how you love trees so, here’ and on the other side is a beautifully drawn tree


• Connor opens his gift in his room, and is surprised to see two new black sweatshirts and a bottle of black nail polish, the saying ‘Dear Connor Murphy, your sweatshirts seem to have a lot of holes, I didn’t know if it was for comfort or what but I got you a new one. Oh and I really like your nails so here’s some more polish, sincerely me’ Connor actually smiles, and he feels all warm inside AND WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THIS WHAT THE FUCK

• Jared eventually finds out that Evan writes Connor letters cause he saw the tree on the wall while Evan was getting snacks and flipped it over and read the note

• he immediately asked Evan who it was from

• Evan blushes and mumbles Connor

• Jared demands a wider explanation

• he doesn’t stop teasing Evan about it

• At school Jared starts acting funny around Connor and Connor starts to freak out cause


• but he calms down for a second when Jared accidentally spills the beans

• Connor was reading another one of Evans’s notes, Jared walks up to him with a shit eating grin and says

• 'Another love note from Evan Tree Boy Hansen I see.’

• Connor is instantly relieved they’re not from Jared


• Connor corners Evan after school

• Evan is nervous cause he thinks Connor hates him.

• he is pleasantly surprised when Connor gives him a quick thank you before dashing off

• Connor then starts to write Evan letters on Wednesdays and Fridays. Monday’s are the chill day

• Connor finally accepts that he totally loves Evan but he still thinks that Evan could never like him that way, especially since the guy Evan mentions in his letter can’t be him

• beautiful brown hair? Nope

• gorgeous blue eyes that seem to have a hint of brown in the left one? Well yes but they aren’t gorgeous, his are hideous

• a face that was crafted by God himself? Absolutely not

• Evan starts to wonder if Connor wants to be friends with him and asks him exactly that in a letter

• Connor replies with a 'no shit’ and his phone number

• Evan was ecstatic when they hung out for the first time

• so was Connor

• and their moms

• at the end of senior year, Evan tells Connor that he has to take a gap year to save up money

• Connor decides he’s not going to college without Evan as he doesn’t know how to make friends and he was just fucking lucky with Evan

• They were hanging out at Evans house the next winter and they both had a few drinks cause what 18 year old doesn’t drink. Evan isn’t THAT innocent guys

• they both tell each other that they like one another and share a small kiss that they both have wanted for a while

• they fall asleep on the couch, holding each other

Imma stop there. Feel free to add on, that was insanely long and I might write an actual thing for this?

anonymous asked:

Could you please draw a pastel goth kirigiri? I love this sort of mini series you've been doing and your art style is just such a lovely thing to see on my dash! Thank you so much for taking the time to do all of these requests and uphold such a positive and kind manner in responses. Thank you again 😊

yes, wow, thank you so much!! 

Hi! I’ve recently hit 200+ followers and I just want to say “THANK YOU SO MUCH!” to all of you so I decided to make this follow Follow Forever plus its been 6 months already since I joined the fandom, a decision I will never regret cause I met so many amazing people who I can call friends, I love you all so much!!!  ♥

First I will mention the people whom I talk to the most, and who have become like sisters to me (my real sister included):

@anhappyfangirl - @banghim-baby - @koiiha - @sparklechanup - @hana-bunny - @holyjongbutt - @7tobap6 - @sudikshajt23 - @b-124a-p-224

Thank you all so much for being the most amazing people I know. I love you!!  ♥ ♥ ♥

And now to all the people I follow, who literally make my dash, Thank You so much!

Italic - Mutuals

Bold - Most Fav Blogs


@2bangyongguk - @4dreamcatcher - @95siyeon - @a-trash-of-bap - @ab1004 - @ababyz5ever - @actualyoungjaetrash - @aegyo-chan - @ailevgel - @allbap - @aokinsight - @asvang - @babycassiopeian @babymato94 - @baematoki - @bangdaeforlife - @bangedhim - @bangsojin - @bangxster - @bangyongguktigger - @bap-goddess - @bap-paboppas - @bap-time - @bap0s - @bapassion - @bapfeelsthings - @baphae - @bapland​ - @bapobsessedwithnoregrets - @bapofficial - @bapquality - @bapscrt - @bapstime - @bapsujusechskies - @bbangception - @bookshelfofwonder  @bookwyrmling - @brainboxercheetos - @brainboxy - @brigidandarrach - @btobros - @btobsmelody


@childofdemon - @cosmoqueen - @cynthiabang - @daefluffs - @daefsoul - @daehdream - @daehnii - @daehyuns-beautiful-golden-skin - @daehyuns-noona - @daehyunsgiggle - @daematos - @daewhyun - @daeyeup - @damisponytail - @dc-siyeon - @dcnightmare07 - @ddonggeun - @debeny - @diamond4yamv - @diamondbap - @doitforbangyongguk - @dreamgukkie - @dyoptics - @emotionsrevolution - @everydayborntobeat - @fae-hyun - @fareehamasroor - @featzelo - @feelsogukk - @fluffybbang - @fluffyzelo - @gahyeonn - @handongiee - @handongsgirl - @helbi - @himchanslaugh - @himdaes - @holycowbrowniekitty - @hydrascarlet


@ijustlikedogsncoffee - @iljaes - @imey-chan - @jayzchanelle - @jello-baby - @jellynely - @jion-a - @jiyous - @jojokim - @jongupinpink - @jongupism - @jonguppuppy - @jonqups - @jungdhyeon - @junhnq - @junhongiee - @kimchans - @kitty-dae - @kkeke99 - @kona-chan101 - @luxingjae - @marionette17 - @matokibap - @memechanie - @milkamoon - @minheota - @minhyuq - @mirrorworld-junhong@mochithebae - @moon-jongups-thighs - @moonyeyedwalrus - @moonjongupsays - @mun-hyeobchan - @mybusannampyeon - @mybutterflyfact - @nevalium - @notapillowfight - @nuisancehelicopter - @puhniel - @reallysassyzombie -  @reiji–san - @reinbownom - @ribbon-in-the-rose - @roses-for-jongup - @ryonely - @rhythmofmyheart@ryuutsubasa 


@s-kydive  - @sangily - @seoeunkwang - @seonies - @serya-chan - @sevendreamsofme - @shesthekiller - @shut-the-jongup - @shut-thejongup - @siyeon - @sol-the-sun - @solosorca - @sonrisasurlemur - @squirrel-minhyuk - @stanbap - @stardust-showtime - @starsean - @sub-celestial - @subbiesface - @sungjaes-melon-smashing-skull - @thediebutterfly - @tigerbaby - @torasj15 - @vanillajae - @weiwei-mepgoreg - @wonwoww - @xxrinniexx - @y-ngguk - @yongguk-hell-chyeah - @yoohyeeon - @youngjaaes - @z-e-lo - @zainbap - @zellestial - @zelo-wink - @zeloswaffles

I will mention the shadowhunters blog I still follow, even tho I’m no longer in the fandom nor watch the tv show, they all seem like nice people and make/reblog really nice gifs that I enjoy seeing on my dash:

@takemystrengthtoo - @bloodyinspiredmalace - @harry-daddario - @malecwings - @harmonization @harry-shum - @daddarios 

oh jesus I just turned 18. I welcome myself to the gates of hell aka adulthood.

this is an appreciation post for the 100+ blogs I followed since that tragic deactivation of my account last year. because I was drunk and. well. shit happens. those were the good times. anyway, thank you for making my dash as aesthetic as Francis Abernathy. this is not in alphabetical order so I hope to God I tagged you all. 

“I love you, even if there isn’t any me, or any love, or even any life. I love you.” —  Zelda Fitzgerald

@mrozova . @asteriea . @thaleias . @patrochilles . @enjolrahh . @kazrietveldt . @achililes . @clairertemple . @anubls . @baeonia . @monetts . @conceptvals . @eirenelle . @empyrreal . @hcsperrhodos . @hecvbe . @ronankavinskys . @beuvolio . @thoodleoo . @monte-cristos . @ryhysand . @metvmorqhoses . @malglories . @minyardl . @adrasteiax . @kingagamemnon . @keelmeah . @nehmesis . @zcbini . @wildhvnt . @knjikishimoto . @writingletterstoshakespeare . @hecubas . @iluminacje . @soracities . @pelhamgrenville . @astraera . @dostevsky . @czerny . @lleotolstoy . @dolcegf . @fallingkingdoms . @histhory . @thragedy . @haermes . @glendower . @andromaque . @dcnnatartt . @saintjoan . @shrinemaidens @j-desesseintes . @metavoia . @bacchanaliah . @feralmermaids . @solasm . @aryasnow​ . @bibliochor​ . @dearorpheus​ . @mashamorevna​ . @lachansondelanuit​ . @satellitesoul​ . @catherinedefrance​ . @vvilde​ . @francoiseabernathy​ . @narcissiste​ . @ilyarepine​ . @calliophies​ . @apolloe​ . @tsarkoshei​ . @mithia​ . @therepublicofletters​ . @illuminosity​ . @oydssey​ . @medaeas​ . @narwen​ . @apollonic​ . @nicaises​ . @englishpearl​ . @tartt​ . @mermaeid​ . @sunflowrlesbian​ . @antigonick​ . @eurycide​ . @drunklesbian​ . ​@tiberian . @vergilliusrex .​ @corpsroads . @divinefruit . @hemingsways . @provst . @rosetoiles . @moody-poet . @petrichorals . @theladyintweed . @aradeia . @laviensroses . @chattevache . @dhupas . @lennuieternel . @liithi . @abrenathy . @shakepaere . @michelangehoe . @paedme . @aegeane . @poisonousgrl . @bellusisterror . @alwaschon . @ganceys . @yourfavwolf @softhomme @jingyans

I hope I tagged everyone. I love you all. Lana loves you all. xoxo  — Ardeth