thank cherry

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Thank you, October & Hello, November

コスモスの花が散り
冬桜が咲き始める季節。
ピンクの花の
つつましくも可憐なリレー☆
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The wind made Cosmos fall.
And winter cherry blossom begin to bloom.
Season has been changing gradually from autumn to winter :-)
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(11/01/2016)

Look what fabulousness my favourite tall girl in the world @charliebowater got me – now my home can smell like the Buzzard Prince Consort of Terrasen and the Illyrian Baby High Lord of the Night Court! She is the best <3

Title: Rivals

Relationship: Furuya Satoru / Sawamura Eijun (Furusawa)

Rating: Mature

CW/Triggers: sexual content, some mature language

Summary: Furuya, upset at Sawamura’s recent distraction from their rivalry, tries to find a way to get his attention back. Still, a kiss wasn’t exactly the answer he’d been looking for…

Authors: @dietsoba@miyukikazuya [FIC LINK]

Artist: @seijinom [ART LINK]

This was part of the 2017 @daiya-no-bang! We hope you all enjoy~

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Thank you for your message!
If possible, I would be happy if you can respond by linking pages etc.
Also, the same illustration is also posted on Twitter for the most part.(@sleeping_chick)
I’m so happy for you loved my arts!!
Thaaaaaanks…<333

[Translation] 100% SKE48 vol.1 Matsui Jurina x Nakanishi Yuka

Back with 100%SKE48, it’s time for Jurina and Nishishi.

A long but precious interview. Hope you enjoy reading!

*Please note this interview was done last year*


Because times have passed, so I can say

Jurina, just go without hesitation!

In Spring 2015, Nakanishi Yuka, former SKE’s captain who was the main support for Jurina left Nagoya.

Now, 1 year has passed, positions and surroundings have changed a lot.

What will two of them talk about?

The conversation has gone far longer than 8 years history.

Matsui Rena graduation

Nishi: Jurina, long time no see.

J: long…not at all! I still went to see your stage play recently.

Nishi: Yeah, right. Thanks for coming.

J: “Cherry Boys” at Ginza Hakuhinkan Theater, right?

Nishi: How was it? I played the pregnant wife role.

J: leave that aside, I was impressed having a chance to see Nishishi’s stage play. Even some scenes that weren’t so touching, I still felt “ahhh this is good” You were really sparkling. I couldn’t hold my tears.

Nishi: I’m glad. Next time when there’s a stage play, you should try reviewing it. You would help promoting this way *laugh*

J: Well, though I’m younger but I feel like I’m your mom.

Nishi: Though we have 8 years gap but it doesn’t feel weird.

J: Yeah. I also think like that. It’s because we are in the same gen.

Nishi: But I have twenty-something mind.

J: You are overexaggerating *laugh* but you were really sparkling. Maybe, that’s because it’s what you wanted to do.

Nishi: That’s not it. It’s still too far from my dream.

J: Seeing Nishishi like this makes me want to do what I want.

Nishi: However, after graduation, I felt that I could utilize what I have learnt from SKE!

J: Because it had to be perfect, right?

Nishi: Since I was praised about dancing, my chance got higher.

J: This is great.

Nishi: Enough with my stuffs, let’s get to the point! I graduated in March last year. Then, how were you and SKE48? Still suffering from “Rena Loss”? (t/n: impact from Rena graduation)

J: “Rena Loss” *laugh* I saw it from Rena-chan’s twitter. It’s interesting.

Nishi: I saw it, too. *laugh*

J: Since Nishishi and Nee-san graduated, 1st gen had only 3 left (Jurina Rena Masana). Though I always said “so lonely” but actually, Rena-chan was also thinking about graduating.

Nishi: I see. She just hadn’t determined the time yet.

J: The time when we three being together was short. For me, I wanted “we three, let’s try our best together” so, when Rena-chan announced graduation, I felt really lonely.

Nishi: So, this is the reason of “Rena Loss”

J: Right. The pillars graduated continually.

Nishi: But you still have Masana, right?

J: Um, when we have discussion, I started to feel that I’m being like Masana.

Nishi: There are also other kids, right?

J: like (Kitagawa) Ryoha and Goto Rara-chan, right?

Nishi: I missed 7th gen.

J: And also Kuma-chan (Kumazaki Haruka) as I see these kids growing up, I am happy. They are the reason I can rise from Rena Loss.

Niahi: For Jurina, nurturing these kids is like seeing bright future of SKE48, isn’t it?

J: Yes. 1st gen has only 2 left. There are also not many left in 2nd gen. Up until now, many SKE’s main forces graduated one after another. It’s so lonely.

Nishi: I graduated almost a year, during this time, is there anything changed? I want to know.

J: I remember when Nishishi and Nee-san graduate, you said “we hope that members, who have realized that we won’t be here anymore, would come out and take part” When they heard that, they got enthusiastic like “I have to do something for SKE48” not just for themselves but for group. It was a pleasure to see. They got fired up just like when 1st gen got in the group, like “We have to make SKE48 better” the atmosphere was like that time.  

Nishi: I see. I started to feel lonely a bit. Did everyone forget us already?

J: No way! For example, Suzuki (Rika) and also many others, they said “Nishishi and Miepi aren’t here anymore!” *laugh*

Be your support

Nishi: After suffering “Rena Loss” for a while, you were saved by 7th gen. In March this year, Miyazawa-san also graduated, right? You must be lonely.

J: Yeah.

Nishi: And worried?

J: Yeah. For me, Sae-chan is my first Senpai in SKE48. If only we have her, we feel secure. Not only me, but everyone also thinks like that because of Sae-chan existence. Of course, we were confused both when she decided to graduate and when before her graduation stage started…though we wanted to smile for her, there were kids crying.

Nishi: For Jurina, you felt worried or insecure, which one?

J: I felt insecure. At first, I thought I wouldn’t cry in graduation stage but my tears fell down when I was speaking.

Nishi: You’re also a senior.

J: Um, I would like to have Sae-chan graduates with atmosphere that is full of happiness, so I didn’t want to cry. Sae-chan is essential. Although I said like this, I still can’t be as great as her.

Nishi: It can’t be exactly the same. If your goal is to be like that, I think you are forced yourself too much.

J: I’m overwhelmed with the feeling of wanting to be support for everyone but I may not be good enough to say that.

Nishi: That’s so? Jurina is kind of person who lead everyone just by letting them look at her back. I think you’re showing juniors that everything is okay. Meanwhile, we also had concert tour and performed “Wimbledon e tsureteitte”

J: I got to do a roleplay with you and Masana, too.

Nishi: You want to sustain that condition, don’t want it to end but you couldn’t. You must be very anxious.

J: Now, I have no one to rely on.

Nishi: How about Yuasa (Hiroshi, SKE theater manager)? He’s just like one of 1st gen. You can talk to him about absolutely everything.

J: Yeah, I can talk to him about everything. He also has experience as AKB48 manager. His comeback would make SKE better.

Nishi: You know it when you were on concurrency, right?

J: That’s why he understands when I ask him ‘would doing like this be good for SKE?’ it’s good that he’s back.

Nishi: For me, in fact, I didn’t know that he’s back. Is there any change?

J: The love for SKE48 has increased.

Nishi: I see!

J: He’s doing many things for SKE48 even when members don’t see him.

Nishi: Yuasa wouldn’t tell these things to members. He might be misunderstood easily. He should let them see sometimes.

J: You’re right. Yuasa-san also has weakness. But however, he’s trying to find the way for SKE48. He’s working, anyways.

Nishi: This may be because Jurina’s perspective has broadened? You started working 7 years ago, now you’ve grown up, right?

J: I think so, too. Yuasa-san is also not young.

Nishi: Right. You’ll be 20 next year? You entered when you were 11. As we speak, Yuasa-san must not be quite young *laugh*  

Nakanishi’s this 1 year

J: Hey, how about you in this past 1 year? I want to know, really want to know.

Nishi: I got roles in 3 stage plays, got accustomed to it a bit. Though I can’t compare with other actors but being in new environment, living my life actively, I think I’ve grown a lot in this past year. I started to live in Tokyo alone, signed with new agency, did what I never do, gained more experience. There are more things I accomplished by myself, but I also feel lonely.

J: I see!

Nishi: In those 7 years, there were only things I do with members, right? Now, I’m alone. Feel so lonely.

J: Hahaha it’s incredibly lonely, right?

Nishi: Yeah, very lonely.

J: Has anything changed after you graduated?

Nishi: In SKE48, there were only younger people. Now, colleagues who play in stage plays together are all older. I’m still studying how should I communicate with them.

J: Have you met former members?

Nishi: I met Shawako (Hata Sawako) often, at least once a month, we would go have dinner. She insisted to come to see my stage play because we are in Venus Project together and maybe because we are in the same agency.

J: What about current members?

Nishi: I went out with (Deguchi) Aki, Masana was also there. *laugh* and Ha-chan (Ono Haruka), too.

J: all 1st gen!!!

Nishi: I met Masana many times after graduate.

J: Did you talk about SKE48?

Nishi: Of course, it was about Jurina * laugh* like “recently, there’s something like that” or “she cancelled concurrent position” Around half month ago, I also met Isohara (Kyoka). I got to know that she was about to move to Tokyo. She got agency and would come to work in Tokyo.

J: That’s great! I’m happy to know about graduated members.

Nishi: Suzuki (Rika) also contacts me a lot. (Inuzaka) Asana, too. Asana, she really believes in you.

J: Where did you hear that from?

Nishi: from me *laugh*

J: I’m so happy.

Nishi: right! I also met Kuwabara Mizuki. We went out to eat with (Kato) Rumi.

J: I also met her a lot.

Nishi: For Mieko (Nee-san), though we haven’t met but we talk a lot.

J: SKE48’s bond is so strong. Especially 1st gen, you still keep in touch even after graduate. I’m glad.

Regarding juniors

Nishi: my life is just like that recently. Talking about you cancelled concurrency, you also sent LINE message.

J: To Ikkimuchi LINE group, what did you think? (t/n: Jurina, Rena, Masana, Nakanishi, Mieko aka Ikkimuchi)

Nishi: I think “ahh is that so?”

J: just that? *laugh*

Nishi: Even though I didn’t say it out but I can give you some advice if you need. I think it’s good for your health. You would go back and forth between Tokyo-Nagoya less.

J: Not at all, though.

Nishi: No? *laugh*

J: To be honest, I didn’t cancel it because of this.

Nishi: but I think I understand why you did that.

J: What you said is just like what my fans said to me.

Nishi: During this time, I already turned to be your fans. *laugh*

J: That’s right. Nishishi and Nee-san graduated, Rena-chan graduated, then we faced with “Rena Loss”. For SKE48, this is really huge. I, myself, felt that if I don’t do something, SKE48 would be over.

Nishi: About this, I knew it from LINE.

J: So, just as I said earlier, the ones who saved me were 7th gen.

Nishi: I don’t know much about 7th gen, tell me what they’ve got.

J: so much that I can’t explain it all *laugh* First of all, 7th gen has to perform “Party” stage. I went to see them practice and rehearsal. I felt nostalgic.

Nishi: like looking at ourselves in the past?

J: Yeah. I sat in the front row, watching them practice, seeing those sweat, hearing stomping sound “bang bang” that kind of feeling.

Nishi: Full of young spirit.

J: Yes, this feeling is SKE48. But AKB48’s “Party” stage and SKE48’s “Party” stage are different, right?

Nishi: That’s right. SKE48’s “Party” stage is full of SKE48 characteristic. It has Anna-sensei’s style.

J: When 7th gen performed, they still gave out AKB48 feeling. I wanted to put SKE48 soul into it, so I went to practice with them. There’s a song called “SKE48”, right? There’re famous places of SKE48 in this song. If they don’t perform it with SKE48 soul, it can’t be right. I just told them like “let’s change a bit here and there” Though I don’t know much but I did it with the thought of how would we like the fans, that have been supporting us since the beginning, to feel when they come back to see us.

Nishi: I see. How’s Goto Rara?

J: The moment I saw her for the first time, I felt that this is the feeling of SKE48.

Nishi: Heh? What do you mean?

J: She has aura, looks reliable.

Nishi: I’ve never talked to her. The day I graduate was the day 7th gen debut.

J: To other 7th gen, I would be like “do your best!” “it’s not correct here” but to Rara, there’s nothing like that at all.

Nishi: Has that much fighting spirit?

J: Yeah, she’s good.

Nishi: but being like this means we set very high barricade for her.

J: Is that so? I also think that it puts her in trouble.

Nishi: This is also what Jurina had been through.

J: Um. She is really like me. I went to see Shonichi rehearsal and once again after that. Rara wasn’t cheerful at all that time. She seemed anxious and kind of lonely. When performance ended and sending off audiences, she mostly kept her head down. There might be some fans said something harsh to her. It was the time when she’s in 3rd position in “Mae no Meri”, there may be quite a number of fans that objected against it.

Nishi: There are always this kind of fans.

J: Once it ended, I rushed to her. Though she didn’t say anything but I could see her painful eyes. So, I said “I know what you want to say” At the time of Oogoe diamond, I also went through these things, like skipping me at handshake event. I knew well how Rara felt, I thought I have to encourage her.

J: Jurina became Onee-san *laugh*

J: At first, I thought fans would accept it but it wasn’t like that. Whoever stands on the front must put guard on, no matter with members or fans.

Nishi: but if you couldn’t get through these things, you wouldn’t be able to shine. Like Jurina being Jurina nowadays, I think it’s a step you need to step over.

Regarding SKE48

Nishi: What does Jurina think about SKE48 from now on?

J: I want us to be like Chunichi Dragons. People living in Nagoya say “If you think about Nagoya, it must be Chunichi” that’s the reason they support, right? It’s just like that. We need to pay more attention to locals. Both staffs and members think like that. There are still many people who don’t recognize SKE48. I want people no matter near or far to come to see SKE48. However, the current SKE48 has only little exposure in local. So, we want to go and perform in many places.

Nishi: This is also involved with cancelling concurrency, right?

J: Right. I want to have people say “If you think about Nagoya, it must be SKE48”

Nishi: This issue remains since SKE48 established in 2008. Since we can’t achieve it, we need to continue on.

J: When Rena-chan was still here, we were in AKB48 Senbatsu together. We agreed to “try our best to let people recognize SKE48” but recently, only one SKE member in AKB senbatsu is me. If there is only me in that place, people would see me as AKB member. This thought always lingers in my mind. So, once concurrency ended, I can proudly say “SKE48” out loud

Nishi: if there’s someone come to see you and think that you’re good, I’m sure they will come to know SKE48.

J: Yeah. But if I’m still in concurrent position and talk about SKE48, they would be like ‘what?’

Nishi: Of course, we also like AKB48.

J: Yep. AKB48’s single this time, Ryoha and Rara entered senbatsu, too.

Nishi: ah! 44th single, right?

J: Um! This made my heart grows. Even though SKE48 was the no.1 group in last year general election, but after “Halloween Night” Sae-chan, Aya-chan, Churi and Kaotan were not chosen. It’s so frustrated. Though we were looking forward to make SKE48 be more recognized.

Nishi: That’s difficult. Only one member power can’t do anything.

J: That’s right. We also can’t blame staff-san.

Nishi: So, it’s about how will you create chances for SKE48 to be more popular. But recently, you started to use twitter.

J: Yes. I started on my 19th birthday.

Nishi: I think this can help people know more about SKE48.

J: But I’m not good with internet.

Nishi: Sure, you are *laugh* however, Kamata (Natsuki) is now invading Shogi world. She got calendar from Shogi association and posted it on twitter. Jurina, you can post more of your selfies.

J: I can?

Nishi: Absolutely! Everyone can see cute Jurina. Twitter really has power of spreading. If members show what they can do, it would help spreading more.  That aside, you always push yourself too much. You should know your limit. What if you get sick, it wouldn’t be the same.

J: Okayyy. In that case, I hope there will be a lot of members say “you can reply on me”

Nishi: Up until now, though they have “next generation” tag on them, but I think they shouldn’t be bound by that. I think we all have to take responsibility.

J: Um. Now, I feel that everyone is really solidified.

Nishi: That’s good. If everyone keeps the thought “I will pull it forward” in mind, it would be great, right? Jurina is also considering “who should come and help pulling SKE48?” This is the best way. If anyone can stand as the center of SKE48 without hesitation, that would be nice, right? However, there might be the case that you expect too much from them that they got awfully pressured.

J: That’s true.

Nishi: See, your working schedule is already that full. For example, if you get sick and no one can replace the center position in that complicated situation or only this child can do gravure…something like that, what should we do?

J: For me, I also want SKE48 to have Kami7.

Nishi: That happens spontaneously, doesn’t it?

J: That doesn’t happen spontaneously. I think releasing a single with few members is one way to do.

Nishi: “Gomenne Summer” also has 7 members. It has really good balance.

J: The single released in last autumn also has 7 members.

Nishi: Love Crescendo, is it? I think it’s very challenging because you would never know how it will be.

J: The single released in March “Chicken LINE” me, Ryoha and Rara are on the front row. Though I don’t have authority to determine this but I think it’s the image of SKE48. This is good although I want many members to stand at the front. When people say “thinking about SKE48, it must be this girl” and that face pops out in their mind. If we could have more SKE48 faces popping out, we would be stronger.

Nishi: Yeah. In order to make people remember, we need regular TV program.

J: Correct!

Nishi: That’s the most important!…though we just surmise it *laugh* but to utilize SKE48, we have to form MC team.

Jurina’s feeling

Nishi: judging from what we’ve talked so far, the feeling of wanting SKE48 to be better comes out all the time. You’re not changed at all. I think Jurina’s love for SKE48 is greatest.

J: I always think of how I can spread SKE48 further. It’s what I always worry about.

Nishi: If you ask me, I think it’s not the thing that you have to carry too much. There are things that Jurina alone can’t do, right? All of that turns out to be “I have to do something”

J: Umm this is exactly what I can’t do *laugh*

Nishi: Just leaving it to Yuasa-san is enough. Let staff-san handle it. There are a lot of staffs that love SKE48. There may be things that we can’t do right now but it’s okay. If Jurina wants to do it, just tell staff-san “This kid has this outstanding point” wouldn’t it be good? Just tell them to notice others’ good point.

J: Um, I see.

Nishi: This way, it will be like “our Jurina said that” *laugh*

J: If I say it, will I be able to persuade?

Nishi: Manager-san can’t see members before they changed into costume. Members, when they are in front of managers, get so nervous that they can’t express well. So, if Jurina can tell them “that girl is really good at telling jokes”, maybe when they contact with comedians, they would see this point. Have you tried talking with many persons? For example, talking with BUBKA-san that “This girl has perfect body” or “This girl is really fired up, please invite her too” Oh! In the past, you also told BUBKA-san that you want them to shoot me in swimsuit. Though they didn’t really make the photoshoot, but you did it. *laugh*

J: Fufufufu but I’m still not quite confident in my thought.

Nishi: That’s alright. I can guarantee, have some confidence.

J: Is that so? It would be better if I’m not that serious, right?

Nishi: Yeah

J: Then, in order to do that, I have to know more about members. I want to meet members more often, talk about SKE48 more often.

Nishi: I can’t help you with that *laugh* but Sae-san also graduated. SKE48 is getting to the next chapter, right? No matter it’s big or little issue, you need to think it through though you still can’t see the result.

J: You’re right. SKE48 right now has a good sign. In Sae-chan graduation concert, I said “SKE48 is in a pinch” but now, I don’t feel anything bad. That’s because juniors are so active. Everyone wants to do something for SKE48. So, I think promising future is waiting for us.

Nishi: That’s good.

J: One thing without a doubt is that although member graduates, fans are still here. Just like when I said “SKE48 is in a pinch” the fans replied me “SKE48 will be alright” “let’s do our best together” I’m happy hearing that. SKE48 are driven by fans. Members, fans and staffs, we hold hands and go together. Though there are members graduate, the heat is not cool down at all. So, I’m looking forward to this coming general election.

Nishi: It’s coming soon, do your best!

J: Since I cancelled concurrency, I face with anxiety ‘what I should do’. So, having a chance to talk with you today, I feel that my perspective has been broadened. I want to go forward!

Nishi: Whoa! That’s good.

J: It’s a bit sad but I’m the type that if there’s anything I can do by myself, I would try. I can’t stop.

Nishi: How many times have I told you that don’t overdo it *laugh* eat properly, sleep properly, health comes first!

J: You’re just like my mom *laugh*

Nishi: When you face any problems, come to talk in Ikkimuchi LINE group. Mieko would be the first one who replies. *laugh*

J: You always reply late.

Nishi: Yeah. If you wait for me to reply, you would just change the topic already…about this, just forget it! For me, I want you to stay childish forever.

J: But I’m 19 already.

Nishi: What are you talking about? Kuwabara Mizuki is almost 25 but she’s still childish! She still says “…yaki!” *laugh* So, you just continue being like this.

J: Um, understood! Thank you for today!


As this birthday winds down, I wanted to give a shoutout to everybody who made it so amazing. I am honestly blessed with the kindest, most awesome group of fandom friends a person could ever ask for. Y’all are so sweet and nice and wonderful.Thank you for all the B-Day love and support, and the support you show me on a regular basis.

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This one was not requested. I want to say thank you to all the the people apart of the The Outsiders fandom. It’s been a while since I found a place where I could truly fit in and I’m so glad to be around so many amazing people. ☺️☺️