what is it with this day and white people pissing me off lmao. this mayo jar asked if i had watched iron fist and i said i did and i didnt like it, plus they shouldve cast an asian lead. and he was like “but the girl is asian” and i. i deadass laughed at him and i just smiled at him until he turned away like um? dont speak over asian people about asian representation, aka smthn we barely even get in western media. you could argue about an asian lead going against source material but lets be absolutely real here, no white character’s story is tied to their race. if youre gonna argue that its “hard to find someone who fits the role” well then thats just fool talk theres tons of buff asian men that could’ve been chosen (ludi lin, harry shum jr, fucking jackie chan for fucks sake). having one (1) asian character in a show isnt going to solve our lack of representation, and its definitely not going to stop my bitterness. dont speak over us when it comes to this issue thanks
i am everything i’ve learned and more, still it calls me… and the call isn’t out there at all - it’s inside me! it’s like the tide, always falling and rising! i will carry you here in my heart, you’ll remind me; that come what may, i know the way! i am moana!
You will totally space out while your friends are talking.
When someone jokingly says “wake up” you might have an anxiety attack because you aren’t sure if you’re awake (and to my lovlies reading this, yes you are awake, you’re breathing and moving and alive).
When you ARENT disassociating, one of two things will happen:
-you’ll feel completely numb and unattached; not dissociating, more just not feeling
-EVERYTHING IS HYPER REAL AND ITS spinning BECAUSE IT’S SO INTENSE AND YOU NEED TO SET THINGS DOWN (tbh I call this disassociating even though it’s technically the opposite. It’s losing a grip on reality.)
Disassociation makes you:
very sleepy very fast
Feel like you have NO control over your limbs
Hear silence as an actual thing so bad that it hurts your ears
Actually freakishly well able to imagine exactly what you look like from across the room because tbh you feel like that’s exactly where you are, watching your body
feel like your surroundings are super small or super big or just different
Seriously, you will forget objects and people that you’re familiar with. I’ve had to stroke my pencil case for like, ten minutes to understand what I was holding during an episode.
See people’s faces blurred or not at all. Also might see missing parts on people or see extra parts, the scariest of all.
You might have hallucinations as a side effect.
You will CONSTANTLY be questioning reality.
Your grasp on time is zip. A day flies by in two seconds and an hour is three years and aghhgaKSJ
You might feel very, very small, physically, or incredibly huge. This is related to seeing yourself from across the room, I think; a different point of view.
During an episode, if it is bad enough, you will lose your balance and topple over and sometimes, everything is too dream-like for you to have enough control over your body to be able to get back up.
People’s compliments and good wishes tbh like? You’re so numbed out and just not there most of the time that you hardly process them.
You lose your train of thought easily because you feel like reality is constantly shifting, like it would in a dream.
Books are very hard to read because the words keep moving and swirling around.
Those jokes also that are like “You’ve been in a coma wake up blahblah”? THOSE WILL USUALLY SEND US INTO A FULL BLOWN PANIC ATTACK DO NOT SAY THAT EVER TO SOMEONE WHO DISASSOCIATES,
That’s all I can think of atm but if you disassociate, please feel free to add more. I want more people to understand this because it’s taking over my life badly.
And sweetheart, if you do disassociate, here’s your daily reminder that you do exist. That’s your heartbeat beating in there, it’s YOU breathing that air with YOUR lungs, YOU are thinking and breathing and thriving and alive and awake.