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The DM experience

Sitting down with your players, thinking you have everything under control

Your players immediately start doing The One Thing you didn’t think of

i’ve been thinking a lot about smol ambiguously biracial harry and the mirror of erised.

because he’s spent his whole life with the dursleys in their proper square house in their proper square neighborhood with their uniformly manicured lawns and their contempt of anything other.

his aunt glares at him when the barber fails to tame his hair and yanks at it too hard when she takes her own scissors to it later. he sees the brief flicker of surprise in the eyes of the teachers at school when they find out he and dudley are cousins. he looks at his pale blonde aunt and vaguely wonders how her sister could produce someone like him (olive skinned? that’s what an old woman at the grocer’s called him once anyway) but he doesn’t dare to ask these questions. it’s just how it is, harry thinks, maybe he’s just different (he’s used to being different).

when he’s ten he gets a letter addressed especially to him, and when he’s eleven he looks up into a strange mirror it feels like he was meant to find and he’s looking at his parents for the first time in his life and his mother is the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen, prettier than he’d even imagined, and his father…his father looks like him. james is darker and taller and sharp with adulthood but his hair sticks up at the back and his hands are so very familiar and his cheekbones are the same ones harry’s seen in the mirror every day of his life and something deep inside him falls into place.

because he doesn’t look exactly like his mum and he doesn’t look exactly like his dad but now he knows why. he looks like a bit of both of them and it’s proof that they lived, that they came together and made him, with his dark hair and light eyes and skin that he’s never felt quite comfortable in.

and maybe he never belonged with the dursleys and maybe that hurts more than he’s willing to admit but he suddenly thinks it matters just a little bit less, because now he knows for certain that he damn well did belong to james and lily potter.

figuring out you’re asexual is like trying to find a nonexistent needle in a very large haystack except people keep trying to convince you that you’re just not looking hard enough or you’ll find the right needle eventually but the needle just isn’t there and yet everyone else’s is and then you wonder whether or not you actually have a needle and then you spot something that might be a needle but nope it’s just another hay strand and everything is confusing and now the haystack is on fire

Man I remember the last 413. I was drawing, the clock was counting down. I was constantly checking MSPA every few minutes for no reason.
I was so nervous by midnight I couldn’t concentrate on what I was drawing. Things were fucking tense.
 
Then the upd8 dropped. 

damn it was fun tho. 

bangtan as good feelings

jin: feeling like everything in the world is alright when you’re in someone’s embrace, the feeling of satisfying a craving, the feeling of peace.

yoongi: feeling utterly exhausted but deeply contented, but also feeling like you have unlimited energy when doing something you love, the feeling of passion.

hoseok: the feeling of the warm rays of sunshine on your skin, the feeling of laughing with someone, the feeling causing laughter, the feeling of liberation.

namjoon: the feeling of being at peace with yourself, feeling your heart beating and your body radiating heat after a run, the feeling of adrenaline.

jimin: cheeks hurting from laughing too much, the feeling of the cool breeze while you stand under the starry night sky, the feeling of happiness.

taehyung: feeling someone’s love for you, feeling complete adoration for someone, the feeling of stroking the soft fur of animals, the feeling of love.

jungkook: the feeling of watching the people you adore laugh and smile, the feeling of wearing a freshly washed hoodie that smells of fabric softener, the feeling of achievement.

PSA

Allosexual = Person that does not ID as ace-spec

Alloromantic = Person that does not ID as aro-spec

IOW, they assume nothing about anyone’s sexuality or romantic life, they only assume a person does not ID on the ace or aro spectrum.

That’s it, that’s all, the end.

They harm literally no one.

#BoostAceVoices #BoostAroVoices

¿Un ciclo que nunca cerró?

Hace unos días me encontraba algo absorto de todo, en esos momentos que de un pronto a otro te pones a pensar y analizar muchas cosas. Me acompañaba un buen café y bastante frío; sabía que tenía que hacer varias cosas pero preferí pensar. Me dí cuenta que aún recordaba mucho viejas experiencias, mejor dicho, ciclos o etapas que para mí ya están superados.

Llegué a la conclusión que un ciclo jamás se cierra ni se olvida de manera absoluta, púes quizá solo se minimizan o hacemos a un lado, incluso, en algunos casos los evadimos(por miedo)… la cuestión es que siempre estarán ahí, de una forma u otra, ya sea como un viejo y agradable recuerdo o una mal momento en nuestras vidas.

¿Por qué digo esto?

Bueno, algo muy típico en nosotros es que nuestra apreciada mente se “aferra o apega”  a esos momentos que, por decirlo de alguna manera, forman parte de esos ciclos, los cuales sabemos que ya quedaron atrás pero siguen afectándonos en el ahora, dado por el vinculo emotivo que hay en esos momentos (sentimientos o personas).

Anduve leyendo un poco por ahí en la web, y como tal no se trata de olvidar o cerrar, más bien es buscar la forma de seguir avanzando pese a lo sucedido en ese momento, recordar  con afecto y no como una necesidad de nuestro presente. Tener en cuenta lo que fue y no lo que pudo “haber sido”. En resumen, ver ese ciclo o etapa como una experiencia de la que podemos aprender y crecer, y no como algo que nos obstaculiza.

En fin, creo que es muy importante darnos cuenta de todo esto. Por lo que investigué, puede llegar a ser bastante complicado si no nos hacemos cargo; puede afectarnos de maneras que no logramos siquiera imaginar. En mi opinión personal , ahora que somos jóvenes y pasamos por montones de experiencias que nos hacen vulnerables, dónde sentimientos y pensamientos salen a flote, debemos enfrentarnos a todo eso y no temer, puede que de esta forma, en futuro, no sea “algo” que nos detenga.

PD: ¿Les gustó que escribiera algo así?, me encantaría saberlo, pues quiero escribir más entradas, si es posible, compartan el post :)

11/04/2017 7:00pm