ten years from now

“I just can’t wait to forget how much it hurts,” she said. My little sister, 17 and naive and so in love, had woken me up at 2am, crying because her boyfriend had broken up with her. “I never want to remember what I’m feeling right now.”

I pet her hair back as her head laid in my lap. “But you will remember it,” I told her. “You always will. Even ten years from now, when three other boys have come and gone since him, you will remember it. Because this is the only time you will have believed every word he said. This is the only time your whole heart will get involved. This is the only time you will be blindsided.” I swallowed the lump in my throat. “You’ll remember this pain for the rest of your life. But pain is natural. It’s how we protect ourselves.”

—  excerpt from an unfinished book #133
I needed this and i know this is for our own good. I am already drowning, i no longer know myself. And i think i’m lost. I need a space, i need time for myself.And i need to distance myself for a while.I know you think that we were meant to be together, and I believed that too, for a while. But i think there are instances where two lovers needs to give a space for each other because the loads are getting heavier. I can’t be myself when i’m with you and i guess it’s not healthy to stay. I need to be on my own, and i know i can do this without anyone. I will be thinking about you ten years from now, wondering how things would have been if we could have made it work. Maybe one day, we will get back on each others’ arms and i’m sure at that moment, we will never let go of each other.
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Happy Birthday, Harry! (February 1st, 1994)

Aquarius ➡ Shy and quiet , but on the other hand they can be eccentric and energetic. In both cases, they are deep thinkers and highly intellectual people who love helping others. They are able to see without prejudice, on both sides, which makes them people who can easily solve problems. An Aquarius sees the world as a place full of possibilities. Their biggest problem is the feeling that they are limited or constrained. Because of the desire for freedom and equality for all, they will always strive to ensure freedom of speech and movement. An Aquarius is capable of perceiving the future and they know exactly what they want to be doing five or ten years from now. They feel good in a group or a community, so they constantly strive to be surrounded by other people. 

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I was feeling terrible because I forgot to commemorate my cat’s eighth adoption anniversary, but I just learned that tumblr will make gifs from videos! So here are some pics of my imperious kitty while he’s trying to go to sleep despite my interferences.

freshman advice for the signs! (take all of it though)
  • aries: in doubt when it comes to making friends? join all the sports!
  • taurus: JUST! GO! TO! THE! DANCES! ALL OF THEM! AND THE FOOTBALL GAMES TOO!
  • gemini: who do you think you are???? putting off that essay till the night before???? DONT DO THAT
  • cancer: keep a diary for the duration of your high school career because it will be a joy to look back on
  • leo: it's VERY, VERY okay to ask teachers for help get over yourself and just DO IT
  • virgo: don't do things just so that your college application looks nice and shiny because that isn't the point
  • libra: be yourself :) do you :) value your happiness :)
  • scorpio: your crush won't matter ten years from now
  • sagittarius: have a planner and actually use it
  • capricorn: don't let that stoner in the back of bio copy your notes
  • aquarius: you not solving algebra problems #2-34 on purpose won't change the state of our education system at all so you might as well do it for the easy points
  • pisces: don't listen to the haters and kiss up to the teachers as much as you can because it WILL pay off
When you are asked ten years from now to define love, I hope your palms get sweaty and your mind turns hazy; I hope your stomach churns in a lovely yet disastrous way and you realize with such fierce regret that you want to say my name
—  // b.k. // Maybe we’ll fall apart but please remember me