You don’t have to punish yourself for being mentally ill or disabled.

Growing up, many of us heard a variation of the sentence “if you can’t go to school, you can’t watch television either!” - and the idea that we have to “punish” ourselves by refraining from doing things we enjoy when we can’t do something that we are expected to do has stuck with many of us. This can be a very toxic way of thinking, especially for disabled and mentally ill people.

This is me telling you that you do NOT have to punish yourself if you’re unable to live up to societal expectations.

You don’t have to “earn” the right to do things you enjoy by living up to societal expectations.

You don’t have to feel bad or guilty for being unable to live up to societal expectations.

You’re not any less worthy of good things for being unable to live up to societal expectations.

You’re allowed to make your days a little more enjoyable however you can.

Dammit, us mentally ill, disabled people who cannot manage a job or an education deserve a day curled up in front of the telly with our favorite snacks, binge watching our favorite series on netflix as much as the person with a college education who’s working a 9-5 job!

Lazy, rainy afternoons at 221B, John and Sherlock tangling up together on the sofa in their pyjamas, turning on crap telly and snacking absently on junk food, tickling each other along the ribs as they try to find the comfiest arrangement, budge up, I can’t see over your massive head, laughing and kissing whatever spare bit of shoulder or neck or ankle happens to be handy, arguing about what to watch next, Sherlock winning but falling asleep halfway through his boring documentary anyway, and John just shifts his bony elbows into a more comfortable position and kisses the top of his head, reveling in the scent of his curls and the warm weight of him, soft and secure and peaceful, and John just closes his eyes and breathes, and breathes, and breathes.