tell-me-it-was-worth-it

hurt meme.
  • “ i got you. it’s gonna be okay, you’re going to be okay.”
  • “i feel like everyone’s miles away from me.”
  • “my mind is a dark place. you don’t want to be there.”
  • “i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.”
  • “don’t close your eyes, please don’t close your eyes!
  • “i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.”
  • “please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.”
  • “you don’t care, nobody cares, just leave.”
  • “you’re my friend, of course i fucking care.”
  • “i can’t give up on you, so please don’t give up on yourself.”
  • “i love you so much, i forgot what hating myself felt like.”
  • “i fucked up, why do you not care?
  • “i can’t walk, just go on without me.”
  • “you have broken ribs, take it easy.”
  • “i have no idea how to do cpr.”
  • “whose blood is that?
  • “apply pressure to the wound, don’t let go.”
  • “don’t you dare fucking let go!” 
  • “what the hell happened to you?” 
  • “are they dead? did you kill them?” 
  • “do you know what you’ve done?” 
  • “you’re either with me or against me.” 
  • “who the hell did this to you?” 
  • “are you alright? you hit your head pretty hard…” 
  • “i can’t see!! what’s happening to me?” 
  • “when was the last time you ate?” 
  • “what do you mean you’re fine? you are not fine!” 
  •  “i’m fine, it’s just a flesh wound, i’ll be okay.” 
  • “for how long? how long were you bottling this up?
  • “there’s so much blood, you won’t last.” 
  • “are you… throwing up in there?” 
  • “why aren’t you eating?” 
  • “just breathe… you’re okay, i promise, just breathe.” 
  • “i can’t breathe, i can’t –” 
  • "i woke up, & you were gone.” 
  • “just tell me something, was it really worth it?” 
  • "it’s okay to hurt & breakdown. you don’t have to be strong all the time.”

Stiles: I can’t believe you didn’t tell me anything about this.

Stiles: not a word, not a single word.

Lydia: first of all, I didn’t wanna lose you again. Also none of us wanted to lose you. What’s the point of dragging you in this when you have a chance of staying alive by staying out of it? Your dad didn’t want to drag you in this either because of everything you’ve been through. If anything happens to you, Stilinski will lose his son, Scott will lose his brother and I will lose my reason to live. So you tell me, was telling you worth it?

Lydia: but the writers didn’t give me this line so imma say the original line.

Lydia: [reading smudged writing on hand] we had raisins….reasons.

“i just want to know why,” she says without looking into his eyes because she knows if she lifts her head and looks into his beautiful brown eyes, she’ll forgive him no matter what he says.
“can you please just tell me why you decided it wasn’t worth fighting for, why we weren’t worth fighting for?” she asks him, yet all he does is remain silent.
‘JUST SAY SOMETHING! TELL ME YOU DON’T LOVE ME ANYMORE, OR THAT YOU’RE TIRED OF ME, JUST SAY SOMETHING!’ she wants to scream at him, but instead, she picks herself up and walks away because sometimes, fighting for something, no matter how hard you fight, isn’t worth it when the other person doesn’t put in any effort.
All of my friends keep telling me that you’re not worth it. They keep telling me to stop wasting my time. I start to listen to them and cut you off but somehow you creep your way back into my life and I crawl right back to being in love with you.
—  8:16am//h.h

Ok so…THAT WAS THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE. Let me tell you I’ve never done anything so spontaneous, been more excited or felt so special in all my 25 years on this earth 

first of all let’s go back to last Wednesday when I got a message from taylor nation while sitting at my desk at work and literally SHIT my pants?? not sure how anyone is supposed to process that kind of correspondence alone in a padded room LET ALONE in an office full of professionals ANYWAY I very calmly sent them all the information they asked for including my bank balance, blood type and organ donor status and NOT SO CALMLY AWAITED THEIR CALL like no offence but did they realise i was from australia…?? WHAT THE FUCK WAS THIS ABOUT i was torn between thinking they messaged me by mistake and they only wanted my details so they could send me merch

fast forward to thursday after i had managed to keep this news to myself for an entire 24 hours (…) there i am at my desk.. in the middle of working 9-5 like dolly herself.. when I receive a call from a US PHONE NUMBER i quickly make my way to a quiet room while my internal organs are literally escaping out of my ass in an orderly fashion and i legit answer like “h h h h hello” SPIT IT OUT BITCH anyway i spend the entire conversation like giggling and squealing trying to pretend like i don’t know EXACTLY why they’re calling..THE.. first of all she tells me this is all top secret blah blah blah then SHE ASKS ME TO CONFIRM MY SOCIAL MEDIA HANDLES which is when the toesmut fiasco happened.. seriously the fact i made poor innocent taylor nation say “your twitter is …. toesmut … ? t-o-e-s-m-u-t …?” is going to haunt me for THE REST OF MY LIFE

anyway SHE (the lady from taylor nation who’s name I did not catch any of the 3 times she called me because i was hysterical) informed me I was invited to a secret event in LA which was taking place on Sunday and asked if me if i would be able to come … UMMM HONEY I DON’T KNOW BECAUSE IT’S THURSDAY AND YOU’RE ASKING ME TO FUCKING MAKE IT TO LA BY SUNDAY any way i was like “hehehe i don’t know it’s short notice ummm I’d really like to come but i need to like figure out the logistics” and she was like “ok i can call you back in an hour and a half and you can let me know what you decide” SJNDFJKSDHF  ok sweetie SURE anywhere else you’d like me to be by sunday?? antarctica? i spent my entire lunch break SWEATING i called my mum and my sister (PS I REALISE YOU AREN’T SUPPOSED TO TELL ANYONE BUT I WAS ABOUT TO MAKE A SPUR OF THE MOMENT TRIP TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD) and i was like “I HAVE TO GO THIS IS A ONCE IN A LIFE TIME OPPORTUNITY” and they were like “CAN YOU TAKE SOMEONE” and i was like “I DON’T KNOW” anyway i make my way back to work a MESS and wait for TN to call me back..WHEN THEY DO she’s like “so have you made a decision?” and I’m like “asoi;fjsdjlfghjdlfhjgsliduhfg can I bring my sister I’m coming such a long way and it’s really short notice and she’s such a huge fan it would mean the world to me if she could come sdjfkjdhfs” and she was like “hmmmm I don’t know the answer to that I’ll have to call you back tomorrow” and in my head I’m like “TOMORROW???? ASJHDFSJKDHF TOMORROW IS FRIDAY THE EVENT IS ON SUNDAY AND I’M IN FUCKING AUSTRALIA BITHC???” so i said “ok that’s fine”

asjknsdfksnk let me tell you I had the worst sleep of MY LIFE like whether I was going alone or with my sister i now had less than 24 hours to plan a trip to the u.s. TO MEET TAYLOR SWIFT AND LISTEN TO HER NEW ALBUM IN HER FUCKING HOUSE

LONG STORY FUCKING SHORT she calls me back at like 10.30 on FRIDAY (THE EVENT IS SUNDAY AND I’M GONNA BE CATCHING A FLIGHT ON SATURDAY) and tells me that YES my sister can come (!!!!!!!!) sO i shit my pants for the SECOND TIME in 48 hours because i realise not only am i absolutely meeting taylor fucking swift in 72 hours with my sister at her house in LOS ANGELES i need to book flights, accommodation, apply for a visa waiver, purchase us currency and buy a bunch of other essentials BEFORE THE DAY IS OVER anyway I DID IT AND MANAGED TO GET MY ASS OUT OF BED AT 4.15 SATURDAY MORNING TO CATCH A 14 HOUR FLIGHT TO LA

so we spend the entirety of our first day in LA looking for outfits because like??? we are about to have the most important conversation and take the most important photo of OUR ENTIRE LIVES anyway we ended up finding something cute then we decided to go to in n out for dinner because we wanted to look our absolute best for the big day 

THE FUNNIEST THING about the beginning of this trip was we were doing so much touristy stuff that WE COULDN’T EVEN POST ABOUT ANYWHERE because nobody could know we were in LA like i was at santa monica pier sending snap chats to my mum and nobody else it was KILLING ME like we were having the BEST TIME and NOBODY KNEW we were just doing so many DAMN ACTIVITIES like on the sunday we literally got back to our hotel an hour before we needed to be at the meeting point because my sister insisted we had to eat at the cheesecake factory for the second time in 24 hours?? let me tell you it was worth it 

so we get ready and catch an uber to the meeting point and my sister and i finally start to realise like HOLY SHIT WE ARE GOING TO TAYLOR SWIFT’S HOUSE i’m suddenly filled with like so much nervous energy i can’t stop moving i’m like running on the spot and ringing my hands SHIT i was so excited OH by the WAY everyone was SO NICE and pURE like spending an afternoon with 50 plus people who love taylor swift as much as you do know that you’re ALL going to be meeting her soon is honestly the most magical shit EVER 

ok let’s talk about THE EVENT first of all the property was GORGEOUS i felt like a VIP like ME hanging out in beverly hills like it was nbd??? there was food, water, soft drinks, everything was custom like THIS BITCH (taylor) is so extra I ADORE HER everything was so well planned like i didn’t feel stressed at all BUT BOY WAS IT HOT IN THAT ROOM i mean lucky i was having so much fun and was too distracted by the fact i was about to be listening to reputation to worry about the fact i was about to meet taylor swift and i was sweating like a pig 

THEN she walks in..and let me tell u..that shit is breathtaking bro..i have never in my life seen someone so beautiful?? flaws?? ms swift has never experienced that emotion..and if her gorgeous face and body weren’t enough SHE. HER. SHE. decides it’s a great idea to bring danielle and alana haim, ruby rose, jack antonoff and OTHERS in with her to listen to the album  

obviously i can’t talk much / at all about what took place in that room but let me just say i’ve spent every second since i left that house thinking about how much i need to listen to that album again..so different and so much more than what i was expecting and taylor is SO PROUD OF IT i could tell it meant the world to her that we loved it because this music is obviously really important to her..y’all are going to love it i mean it 

after we listened to the album taylor left the room to ..idk..make herself look even more gorgeous than she already looked?? we got to look at the reputation magazines and they are PERFECT i know not everyone has the means to buy a copy for themselves but if you can GET ONE you won’t regret it..and those poems 

so we all lined up to meet her and let me tell you watching people have their moment with taylor is so special man like everyone is SO excited before they walk in there and NOBODY leaves disappointed because not only is taylor the warmest most personable human being on planet earth she puts so much effort into knowing who each and every person she’s invited into her home actually is .. i can’t stop thinking about it she’s an incredible human being 

anyway on to ME i honestly didn’t know what to make of the fact she came directly to my blog on both days i was in the US before the event..like was it possible..she knew me?? turns out it WAS which was great because i literally didn’t plan what to say AT ALL i’m such a dumb bitch..anyway i walk in there and give her the biggest hug and she’s like “aww how are you doing?” and i was LITERALLY this gif

but i said “umm i’m doing pretty good” THEN..ladies THEN she said “i’m so glad you could come danielle” and she turns to my sister and she’s like “and you’re annalie right” and let me tell you..annalie dropped dead..NOBODY GETS HER NAME RIGHT. THERE IS A WOMAN AT HER WORK WHO HAS CALLED HER AINSLEY FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS. then…we had a conversation..taylor swift..and i..had a conversation? she told me i was THE funniest person and that she would check my blog everyday..she said..when she was having a bad day..she would search “screamedsooloud” because she knew she would see something that would make her laugh..let me tell you at that point i KNEW i was fucking dead 

she told me i was funny and we told her she was the funniest person we’d ever met and she laughed like it WASN’T TRUE?? she said she knew who i was as soon as i walked in and i was like “you are so amazing” that’s not a fake quote by the way or some internal dialogue i actually said that..she referenced all the posts i made asking “WHERE IS SHE” at the start of this year..and i was like “i just really needed to know” she was like “i wanted to say JUST WAIT I’M COMIING” AND I WAS LIKE “I KEPT TELLING PEOPLE I KNEW YOU WERE UP TO SOMETHING and i was right” AND i was like “i can’t believe you saw that” and she was like “oh i’ve seen everything”.. she knew i had deleted my blog and she said she had tried to refollow me but she had reached follow limit..after she told me i was funny another 15 times we took a couple of photos (WHERE ARE THEY BY THE WAY) then we talked a little more and she asked if they’d let me know with plenty of time that i was invited and i was like “NO I ONLY FOUND OUT ON THRURSDAY” and she was like “oh my god you’ve been on a list for a year” i CHOKED and she was like “i told them to tell you early because you were coming all the way from australia” and i was like “WELL THEY DIDN’T” and she was like “see i don’t have that much pull guys” and i was like  “jkhsdfskdfghsg” then she told us how much she appreciated us coming and we were like thank you so mcuh we love you so much and she said she loved us and then we took our merch and our dignity and got the HELL OUT

i..still can’t believe any of this happened and i don’t know if i ever will..it was the greatest day and week of my life and it’s all because taylor is the most generous, thoughtul, hard working person in the world..i love her so much and i hope all of you get the chance to tell a story like this some day 

Some people lament about how this world will drain you and it’s true. I had no meaningful friendships until I was fourteen and my stepmother constantly tells me that my only worth is my intelligence even though, hell, I don’t feel smart anyway. I’ve never been kissed and I’ve never had someone love me and I’ve always felt like I am a waste of a life but that doesn’t matter. I am rough and ugly but this world is beautiful and every day I promise myself I will throw myself into it with earnest.

I read somewhere that when you go outside and get cold, your small body is trying to heat the whole world. I want to warm this entire world with everything I do, even if it drains me and even if I get cold and tired. I don’t care if life hurts me or if I always fall in love with people who can’t love me or if people use me. I’m gonna keep trying to warm up the whole world and I’ll keep believing people are good and love is real. I want to give everything I have without expecting anything in return. My body is small and I don’t have much warmth to give but I will give it my all anyway. I won’t let my bad experiences turn me cold. I hate myself but there is so much love inside of me; love for the way the light streams through the trees and love for the color of a dusty sunset and love for my beautiful best friend and the way she laughs, all bright-eyed and earnest. I will let everyone and everything feel all the love that I have; I will warm all that I can.

The first thing that Ron does on realising they are in danger is -Push Hermione out of harm’s way. He doesn’t pull out his wand to defend himself or duck or do anything else. HE PUSHES HER OUT OF HARM’S WAY. 

And read the next sentence: The force of the Death Eater’s spell shattered the tiled wall where Ron’s head had just been.

His basic instinct is to save her at the cost of his own safety.

Don’t  f*ing dare tell me he is not worth her.

I’m a product of a society that openly tells me my life isn’t worth anything. In any other country with any other skin color, I would have been a great lawyer. I would be Tom Cruise in The Firm. But in America with Black skin, I’m just Tupac, the cop-killer dude. You know, I’m a revolutionary. I’m straight thuggin’ out here.Thuggin’ against society. Thuggin’ against the system that made me.

Happy birthday Pac, we love you and we miss you.

On March 16, 1991, 13 days after the videotaped beating of Rodney King, a 15-year-old girl named Latasha Harlins stopped by a liquor store near her home in South Los Angeles. She walked to the back of the store, grabbed a carton of orange juice, and stuck it in her backpack. The woman behind the counter, Soon Ja Du, assumed that Harlins was stealing the juice. As the teenager approached the cash register, Du grabbed her sleeve and yanked her across the counter, trying to snatch her backpack away. Harlins fought back, punching Du in the face four times and knocking her down. What happened next depends on who you believe: either Harlins threatened to kill Du, or she told her she just wanted to pay for the juice. In any case, Du grabbed the gun her husband kept behind the counter and pointed it at the girl. Harlins picked up the orange juice, which had fallen to the floor during the scuffle, and placed it on the counter. As she turned to walk out of the store, Du shot her in the back of the head. When the police arrived, they found Harlins dead, clutching two dollar bills in her left hand. (The orange juice cost $1.89.)

Six months later, a jury convicted Du of voluntary manslaughter, a crime that carried a penalty of up to 16 years in prison; many thought that Du would face the maximum punishment. Instead, Judge Joyce Karlin sentenced Du to time served, plus 300 hours of community service and five years’ probation. It was one of the most lenient sentences handed down for a gun-related crime in Los Angeles County that year.

The community was outraged and boycott on Non-Black businesses in the Black community was organized. Latasha’s death was one of the main catalyst for anger in the Black community that led up to the Los Angeles Riots. On August 17, 1991, while Du was awaiting trial, a small incendiary fire occurred at her store but the store wasn’t badly damaged. During the Los Angeles 1992 riots, Du’s store was burned, and it never re-opened.

Rapper Tupac Shakur was deeply affected by her death and dedication many songs to Latasha throughout his career. “Keep Your Head Up” was dedicated to Latasha, as well as “Something To Die For” in which Tupac said in the interlude, “Latasha Harlins, remember that name… ‘Cause a bottle of juice is not something to die for”. In “I Wonder If Heaven Has A Ghetto” Tupac says, “Tell me what’s a black life worth / A bottle of juice is no excuse, the truth hurts / And even when you take the shit / Move counties get a lawyer, you can shake the shit / Ask Rodney, Latasha, and many more”

Latasha should’ve been turning 40 tomorrow…..

Dance, Carmen!

I finally finished Persona 5 ( at 3 am after playing 1 whole week non-stop and so investigated 1/3 my holidays with it, and let me tell you it was totally worth it, good game, good game)

You know what’s scary about good games? To know that they have to end at some point

Dang, Bill cannot just catch a break can he?

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I…I have no words as to why I made this.

It’s most likely an overdone meme, but…

Scalene Triangle anyone?

dear australians: if you vote no, no matter what you tell yourself your ‘reasons’ are, all you are saying is that your relationships and your life are worth more than mine.

it has nothing to do with religion (have you ever heard of not forcing your religious beliefs on others?), nothing to do with damaging the sanctity of marriage (if this is your ‘argument’ you better not associate with any divorced people), nothing to do with ‘i just don’t like change’ (do you remember when howard changed the wording of the marriage act just a few years ago and you probably didn’t even give a shit?) and nothing to do with ‘marriage has been around for centuries, why should we mess with it now?’ (how many goats did your father sell you for at your wedding, debra?)

allowing same sex couples to marry will not affect you, straight people. your life will not change. your marriage will not be made defunct. you will not even be stopped from spouting your bigoted, outdated hate speech online and in the street, as you are so keen on doing.

all this is about, is ensuring that every member of our society has the same rights.

if you vote no, all you are saying is that LGBT+ people like myself don’t deserve the same rights as you, simply because you don’t want us to have the same rights, simply because you think that my feelings and my love are not worth as much as yours. 

if you vote no, you are telling me, “you are inherently worth less than a straight person and, as such, must be treated as an outlier in our society. why would you want your relationships to be given the same legal and social weight as ours? why would you want the same rights as us? you’re different, and you are lesser, and you need to be reminded of that every day.”

if you vote no, you’ve voted wrong, and there is no excuse.

unspoken fears
  • Aries: "I'm so rough and crazy, will anybody ever handle me and still love me?"
  • Taurus: "I have everything I want but I can't find why I still feel empty."
  • Gemini: "I'm going through so many thoughts to find the right one and I'm scared of getting tired of trying."
  • Cancer: "My emotions go up and down and all over the place and I'm scared of drowning in them."
  • Leo: "If people don't tell me I'm worth it, am I still worth it?"
  • Virgo: "There are so many details and reasons why I don't deserve praise even though I work so hard for it."
  • Libra: "I wonder if the love I find on the outside will calm the inner storm on the inside."
  • Scorpio: "Just because I am in tune with the darkness doesn't mean people will come in and stay in the darkness with me... and that scares me."
  • Sagittarius: "I know that I can run from my problems during the day, but I can't hide from them at night."
  • Capricorn: "I fear that my work, sweat, and tears are never going to be enough."
  • Aquarius: "I can get people to work happily together, yet I still feel like an outsider."
  • Pisces: "The world is beautiful and cruel, and I'm scared of what I'll exactly pay when I choose to put on the rose-colored lenses."