I wanted to tell you, but I was afraid it would open old wounds.
I saw toxic masculinity, and felt prompted to share a thing. Recently broke up with my SO of 4 years. Every time I start to feel the tears coming, it's like some wall just.... Holds. Like however much I want to cry, there's just some mechanism built in that won't let me cry. I don't think I've had a proper cry in... Too long. And I've had plenty of reasons to. But I can't. Because even being aware of the mechanisms, doesn't allow me to overcome them. That's toxic masculinity.