Life will hit you hard in the face, wait for you to get back up just so it kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air.
the further away from my cycle, the more frequently i selected moods like “focused, motivated, excited, energetic.” the week before my period was when id start frequenting my mental health apps more. when i started to overthink more. when i started questioning my relationships more. “motivated” turned into “stressed, anxious, confused, lethargic.” not even just physically, cause that’s expected. but my brain gets foggy. my days are a blur. im unsure about all my decisions. it sounds awful but it’s the one time of the month that im fully in touch with my emotions. this is when i have a chance for catharsis. all the emotions i suppressed for the sake of productivity and functionality teem until i have no choice but to finally confront them. they usually manifest in an ugly way (im still trying to get a hold of this) but the end result is me ending this month’s cycle with a clean slate and no emotional baggage. then im back to regular scheduling.
Image: Amy Adams stars as a linguistics professor in Arrival. (Jan Thijs/Paramount Pictures)
The new film Arrival
is based on a 1998 short story by Ted Chiang, a soft-spoken, 49-year-old
technical writer based in Seattle. Every few years, Chiang comes out with a new
short story that sweeps science fiction awards, including the Hugo and Nebula.
But he’s only published 15 short stories since 1990.
“Fiction writing is very hard for me and I’m a very
slow writer,” Chiang admits. “I don’t get that many ideas for stories.
… And I like to take my time when I do get an idea for a story.”