tears on the face of abby wambach

my future baby: m..ma…

me: mama? come on u can do it! say mama!

baby: m…..m…. mo…. morgan in the box wambach in the box… here comes the cross……. oH ITS IN!!!!!! ALEX MORGAN HAS DONE IT! BARELY 30 SECONDS TO GO! ITS 4-3 TO THE UNITED STATES! TEARS ON THE FACE OF ABBY WAMBACH… ALEX MORGAN HASNT SCORED SINCE THE OPENING MATCH AGAINST FRANCE AND SHE JUST MAY HAVE PUT THE UNITED STATES IN THE GOLD MEDAL MATCH AGAINST JAPAN ON THURSDAY 

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THE REMATCH

“Being true to yourself is a beautiful thing.” - Megan Rapinoe

I’m crying, and I’m shaking as I type this.

My mom was watching Megan Rapinoe’s mini-documentary downstairs and I was watching it upstairs. She yelled at me to come down, and once I got in the room she’s like “Did you know this girl was gay?”

And of course, I was like “No! That’s weird.” And she’s like, “Yeah, Amy Wambach” (to which I’m like “You mean Abby”) “and Ali Kieger are gay, too.”

And to which my dad says, “You like them as athletes, not personally, right? You don’t approve of their lesbian lifestyle, right?”

To which I said, “Of course not, dad,” as I rolled my eyes to show how un-lesbian lifestyle I am. But as soon as I’d turned away from them, I could feel tears coming down my face and I tried not to make any sounds as I walked upstairs quickly.

I’m now sitting in my room, and I think I just had my first panic attack in 4 months.


Fuck you, mom and dad. I love you, but that hurt like hell. Before you ruined the moment, I was so fucking happy that a gay woman was getting so much press coverage. I was so fucking happy that Megan Rapinoe is proud of who she is, and was thinking of how I wanted to be like her.


But you know what? I don’t have to listen to your homophobic bullshit any longer. I hate how you make me feel like I’m a mistake. Even if you don’t mean to, I still hate how you make me feel disgusted at who I am.

But you know what? I’m my own fucking person. I don’t care what you think. You homophobia might have hurt me in that moment, but as I’ve been writing, I’m getting more and more clear-headed. I was fucking proud in that moment for Megan. It’s her birthday, and she’s one of my heroes on that team. You want to know something? People like her, who aren’t afraid to stand up and be who they are, unashamed, are the reason I’m still alive. All those women you made fun of? They are my heroes. 

I’m tired of your homophobia. 

To quote Megan Rapinoe… 

“This is who I am and I’m totally fucking proud of it.”

People are joining us all the time.
You’ve missed, if you haven’t seen much of this game, an absolute classic.
But what you may be about to witness is the first ever penalty shootout in a women’s soccer match at the Olympic Games if somebody in the final sixty seconds can’t grab a fourth and ultimately winning goal.

Wambach, space on the righthand side for Heather O'Reilly.
Morgan in the box, Wambach in the box.
Here comes the cross.
Oh it’s in!
Alex Morgan has done it!
Barely thirty seconds to go!
It’s four-three to the United States!
Tears on the face of Abby Wambach.
Alex Morgan hadn’t scored since the opening match against France, and she just may have put the United States into the gold medal match against Japan on Thursday.

—  Arlo White, 2012 London Olympic Semifinal Match USAvCAN
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People are joining us all the time. You’ve missed, if you haven’t seen much of this game, an absolute classic. But what you may be about to witness is the first ever penalty shoot-out in a women’s soccer match at the Olympic Games, if somebody in the final 60 seconds can’t grab a fourth and ultimately winning goal. Wambach, space on the right hand side for Heather O’Reilly. Morgan in the box, Wambach in the box, here comes the cross… OH, IT’S IN! ALEX MORGAN HAS DONE IT! BARELY 30 SECONDS TO GO. IT’S 4-3 TO THE UNITED STATES. TEARS ON THE FACE OF ABBY WAMBACH.