My sincere advise…
Feel the excruciating pain. Shout it out from the top of your lungs. Cry your heart out until your eyes hurt. Have time for your unending flashbacks. Let it be. Don’t suppressed it. Let your emotions burn your whole system. Let your mind ignites it more. Let your feelings burn to ashes. Endure it until it makes you numb. Until you have no choice but to let it all flow. You need time to feel this. Reminisce everything until your head aches. Drown yourself of tears until you fall asleep. Do it for yourself because you need it. Do it as you wanted to, do it until you get tired and you have no choice but to breathe from that suffocating place you have been.
Your heart have been tortured numerous times that it kills you figuratively.
You deserve more than that.
Your life doesn’t depend on that someone. You have your family and your friends. You are loved. You’re precious.
You’re a lovely living creature. Too lovely that, that someone can’t handle you. It’s not your fault. It’s not that someone’s fault either. It’s the universe choice.
Because everything happens for a reason, we may know it know but soon we will. It’s either to save us from someone who’s not good for us or better than that. Let’s be thankful of this pain, it makes us feel alive. It makes us who we are in the near future.
Those negative emotions? Kill that too. Burn it with your whole system for you to be able to start new.
Keeping grudge is no good. Bitterness won’t take you somewhere. Regrets won’t take back time. Despair and loneliness won’t change anything. Don’t depressed yourself on something that had happened. Instead, be thankful and let it be the reason for the better version of you.
After burning all those emotions, make sure that there’s no debris left. Forgive even that someone is not sorry. Not because that someone needs it but because it will help you feel at ease. Have peace for yourself. Don’t let it consume you but don’t forget the lesson you’ve learned from it.
Most especially, take time for yourself. No one is pressuring you to move on that fast and you don’t have to pretend that you are. Time won’t heal scars but it will help you realize the significant things in life.
Don’t be hard for yourself.
— caruslacrimae //for those people who got their heart broken