teacher workshop


Christian Borle at Broadway Teachers Workshop - unfortunately it’s just short clip

There were so many students in my room that I had to take a panorama to fit them all in the frame.  I was able to get a local women’s shelter to come in and talk to my students about healthy relationships.  My GSA kids and the Women of Power club (plus some extras) gathered together to talk about issues and ask questions.  It was fabulous. 

anonymous asked:

Sorry this may be too personal, but I was wondering, since you give great advice and have such a good grasp of the human condition, do you ever fall into the same follies of your askers? Do you have trouble applying the theoretically “correct” action to situations even though you understand dynamics so well? How do you reconcile such a high degree of self-awareness with sometimes making mistakes anyway? I just want to know if it’s possible to reach a point where life is easy because of knowledge

This is a common line of inquiry that comes up when one reaches a certain point in development and I’ve touched on it a little here and there. I can tell you about the experiences of many, not just my own. Throughout my life, I’ve encountered a lot of people who might consider themselves “spiritual truth seekers” in terms of wanting knowledge or answers that would, in one way or another, make life easier. I divide these people roughly into two camps: 1) those who had all they needed materially but were still deeply dissatisfied with life and didn’t understand why, and/or 2) those who sought relief from their long-running psychological issues (perhaps depression, addiction, abuse, etc). I cannot claim that I was as deeply dissatisfied with life as them (though I had my unhappiness) or that I suffered as much as some had (though I’ve had my pains). I was more of an observer because I am interested in studying how people construct meaning in life. Many of them had spent a lifetime reading books, listening to teachers/gurus, attending workshops, communing with fellow seekers, roaming the world on spiritual pilgrimages (if they could afford it). Yet, with all the claims I heard of having “learned so much” on their journey, for many, their problems never really went away or got that much better, and the act of “seeking” itself came to define their identity as it gave them purpose in life when they couldn’t quite find what they were looking for. I won’t criticize these people because I empathize with their motivation; doesn’t matter who you are, pain and suffering are not easy to deal with and it makes sense to seek a remedy.

The more time I spent around such people, examining their ways, beliefs, values, and emotional motivations, the more I realized that many of them were not truth seekers but actually “light chasers” - they wanted the “light” of knowledge to overcome the “darkness” of suffering. Some people may argue that “light” is the same as “truth” because “truth shines a light”. In theory, that may be correct. However, in practice, light chasers actually live in delusion because they only want to acknowledge what is “good” or “positive” in life and hope that this will somehow magically sweep away what is “bad” or “negative”. They believe in what is essentially “mind over matter”, that you can somehow wish away the badness. This often results in splitting oneself down the middle in order to get rid of the “bad” half. They construct a persona that is, for example, full of “lovingkindness” and strive to be it, and there is nothing wrong with wanting to be a better person, but what happens in those inevitable moments when you are most definitely NOT full of lovingkindness? I believe that how a person behaves in those moments is when you finally see the full truth of them; you not only see the light that they hope to be but also the darkness that they try to suppress. If you only understand the self in terms of “light” or “strength” or “intelligence” or whatever “positive” trait, it is like trying to know what the moon is by looking only at the lit side, the result is that your self-knowledge is only half of what it could be and there is another half that you disavow and thus have no awareness of. 

I’ve witnessed groups/communities of so-called “enlightened” people devolve into infighting, jealousy, backstabbing as soon as real disagreements arose, on par with office politics in any toxic corporate environment. Then the members would withdraw in extreme confusion and existential crisis, their entire world shaken because they could no longer avoid the fact that they were not the enlightened people they believed they were. Light chasing easily turns into a destructive impulse because you eventually want to violently “force” or “cut” the bad things out, to exorcise what you define as “evil” in yourself and the world. The world is unforgiving in that it does not hesitate to reflect the truth to you, which is why light chasers often confine themselves to like-minded social bubbles. But, eventually, a light chaser is confronted with the reality of darkness and they feel compelled to eliminate it in order to preserve the illusion of light that they have dreamt up. The more you try to push away darkness, the more it creeps over you until it consumes you in your weakest moments (this is what inferior grip is all about).

Therefore, if you want to pursue self-development, you cannot leave the dark side of yourself unexamined. Some people thank me profusely for giving them hope for the first time in a long time, while others accuse me of being too negative/critical and tell me to f**k off. I fully own both assessments and both are true, because I personally believe that you cannot achieve real lightness of heart without confronting the real darkness of the soul. Dancing around a problem or trying to transmute it into something more palatable to one’s sensitivities is just stalling or evasiveness. I believe that the real learning begins when your sensitivities get triggered by uncomfortable truths about yourself because then you are facing down your dark side. However, not everyone is at the stage of ego development where they are psychologically stable enough to handle seeing the truth of themselves, so I often say that the ideas on this blog are not for everyone. If you had approached me at 15 and revealed to me the full extent of my dark side, I might be in a prison or mental hospital today - there is a natural course of development that should be honored. Most people stubbornly want to see themselves in a positive light because ego is a fragile thing and it is much much easier to build heavy defenses around oneself than to forge real self-esteem. To really grow as a person requires nurturing strength and humility, a very tough combo to pull off. Strength is the willingness to bear the burden of knowing darkness but without succumbing to it. Humility is fully admitting ignorance so as to be completely open to learning the truth.

Self-development is not the same as striving for a perfect ideal. Thinking that you know what is “perfect” is like claiming omniscience, it is somewhat arrogant to believe that you (and only you) know what is the best path or the best way. You can always try your best or work to the best of your ability, but it is not useful to believe that you know what is The Best. Perfectionism is just another form of light chasing because it involves building a persona to hide your cracked self-esteem and/or trying to bully the world into being whatever makes you feel good in the moment - all about ego. Perfectionism easily devolves into a destructive impulse that violently strikes at whatever one deems “imperfect”. There is a subtle difference between trying to contort yourself or the world into an image of perfection versus trying to become the person you are meant to be. The former is fakery or delusion that makes almost everything into your enemy, it is a constant struggle against the tide as you deny darkness, and it leads to psychological fragmentation and a hateful attitude as you gradually succumb to darkness. The latter is discovering the truth of who you really are in this world, becoming mature enough to know that light and dark are two sides of the same you, and it leads to a deep sense of wholeness and empathy.

Jung basically believed that confronting individual darkness was the solution to collective evil. You are both the light and the dark. If you see the wisdom in this statement, there is nothing to “reconcile” because the dark will not feel as though it “haunts” you unless you only want to see yourself in the light. For instance, the prospect of making a mistake will not loom over you and produce ever-present fear and insecurity unless you desperately strive towards the image of “a person who never makes mistakes”. Ironically, the more you fear making mistakes, the more likely you are to make mistakes because your mind is too riddled with dark emotions to see clearly. When you fear making a mistake, you fear seeing your imperfection, you even fear feeling fear, then all of your effort is spent on trying to keep your inner darkness away - your ego becomes a black hole that sucks away your mental energy. When you accept that bad exists, then your mental energy is freed to think about how to handle it, as opposed to wasting energy on things like regret, rumination, complaining, or beating yourself up. As you say, my advice to others proves that I am well aware of the many pitfalls that people (which includes myself) can trip into, in fact, I could not possess some of the knowledge I possess without having fallen flat on my face time and again. Why is falling a “bad” thing if these situations yielded me so much useful knowledge? Because falling is painful? Yes, but not all pain is bad. Some kinds of pain are self-inflicted and some kinds of pain disappear quickly if you understand why they appeared, so it is necessary to become more discerning about the different kinds of pain, but you cannot do that if you just shove all pain away into the darkness at the first hint of discomfort. If you don’t appreciate that the pain of making mistakes can teach you invaluable lessons, then perhaps you may say that you really have failed.

You ask whether there is a point where knowledge makes life “easier”. If by “easier” you mean some ideal version of life where you are able to do everything perfectly the first time every time and nothing ever feels hard, then the answer is “no” because you are light chasing and denying the reality of human nature and what it means to live a physical existence. If by “easier” you mean that you are more capable of handling difficulty, disappointment, and failure, then the answer is “yes” because, when you no longer fear these “dark” things, your being is lighter and your mind more open to seeing and handling situations objectively. In living life fully, you cannot avoid every pain, challenge, mistake, setback, or problem, but you can learn to face the truth confidently, without undue fear, resistance, or self-loathing.

“There is no doubt that healthy-mindedness is inadequate as a philosophical doctrine, because the evil facts which it positively refuses to account for are a genuine portion of reality; and they may after all be the best key to life’s significance, and possibly the only openers of our eyes to the deepest levels of truth.”  – William James


@dusekdennis captured some video of me forging tongs at today’s tong building workshop for the CBA. So, here’s me swinging a hammer.



  • phys ed teacher that thinks they’re cool
  • kids love throwing basketballs his way bc he’ll scream
  • will fight kids


  • tall workshop teacher that likes teaching kids about “safety”
  • screaming whenever someone uses a saw
  • constant screaming during fire drills


  • probably a creepy teacher
  • will glare at you with a smirk and makes you uncomfortable
  • criticizes you when you don’t follow the dress code


  • your sweet home ec teacher
  • sweet until someone asks how to hold a whisk
  • either roasting chicken or roasting you


  • sexy biology teacher
  • all the girls highkey have a crush for him bc who doesn’t
  • you’d gladly learn about “his anatomy”


  • weird science teacher
  • could probably accidentally create an outbreak of a disease
  • rants about his stupid dorm mates that his students like roasting


  • language arts teacher that everyone thinks is high
  • always giving students “second chances”
  • students’ favourite teacher (:


  • the other phys ed teacher
  • coaches the football team and honestly he’s hotter than the jocks
  • a girl’s sexual fantasy


  • chemistry teacher that doesn’t know how to teach
  • the students teach him
  • honestly he’s just there saving up for retirement


  • walking meme social teacher
  • uses memes from 2008 in his lectures in attempt of being “hip”
  • very picky


  • probably another phys ed teacher
  • calls you out for passing out on your 374th push-up
  • everyone is scared of him


  • actually functioning math teacher
  • assigns one chapter per night to brag to other teachers
  • helps you during tests
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“Mediaeval scribes invented this bizarre Latin sentence as a joke to show just how difficult Gothic text could be to read.”

Raise your hand if you can read this sentence without looking at the Latin or English captions. :-D

Andrew Chappelle is a standby (formerly billed as swing) for the Broadway production of Hamilton. He covers the following roles: Burr, Laurens/Philip, Lafayette/Jefferson, Mulligan/Madison, King George III. Andrew has been with Hamilton since it debuted at the Public Theatre. He was involved in the development process and for a while, he was the only cover for some of the roles and would often fill in for multiple actors during rehearsal. As a swing, he was also capable of going on for any ensemble track. He made his Broadway debut as Eddie in Mamma Mia! and toured with Priscilla Queen of the Desert. He has also appeared in several films and tv shows including Moesha.

Andrew is currently on LOA from Hamilton and is currently in Sarasota, working on a new musical called Beatsville where he plays five different characters. After that, he will appear in a St Louis production of Jesus Christ Superstar before returning to Hamilton.

Andrew frequently teachers theater and dance workshops in New York and across the country through A Class Act. He especially likes working with younger students.

In addition to singing and acting, Andrew is trained in many forms of dance including tango, ballet, ballroom, hip hop, jazz, salsa, swing, and tap.

Andrew has a background in improv comedy and has an original
comedy sketch show called the Sketch Betch on YouTube.

Andrew has a very strong social media presence (twitter, Instagram, Snapchat) and is know for his sassy, often scathing, humor. His Snapchat and Instagram stories often include lifestyle commentary and humorous critiques of everything from politics to fashion to music to how slow people walk to the antics of his castmates. His social media presence has gained him a large fanbase known as Chappies.

Andrew has a dog named Patti LuBone.

Andre me is openly and proudly gay. And confused that people had to ask. He is in a relationship with designer/knitter Josh Bennett.

Andrew is Native American.

Andrew coving Jefferson, Burr, and Madison in a Ham4Ham: https://youtu.be/4KGboRn2tdU

Social media: @achapphawk

anonymous asked:

I'm a queer woman, whose dated mostly cishet dudes my life. After coming out, I've dated a few girls (even having a few non-monogamous relationships) but I'm finding myself falling for a cishet monogamous dude that I *surprise* am reeeeeeally into. Am I a bad queer for having these feelings, and am I an even worse person for being confused on where I lie on the monogamous/non-monogamous spectrum?

Oh, honey. The very short and very firm answers I have for you, for both of your questions, are no, and no, not at all. 

It’s Pride month, and there are lots of things floating about about queerness. Equinox has a horrible joke of an ad campaign about the ABCs of LGBTQ+, and they kick off the video with “ally” (gag me) – erasing asexuals from the queer community completely – and then lumping in kink and S&M as if those things are inherently queer, or all queers are kinky. This is the entirety of my reaction to that:

NYC Pride is supposedly going to be televised this year, because everyone wants to get in on queerness as spectacle. But the problem with marginalized identities being perceived through the lens of a dominant [read: white supremacist, cissexist, heteronormative, patriarchal] narrative (i.e., white cishets with money who like glitter and dislike the history that is the Stonewall Riots being led by Black and Latina trans women) is that the dominant narrative fucks us up. From adolescence (or even earlier if you’re Black or POC), and continuously. 

What I’m getting from you letter is mostly that you don’t feel queer enough. “Not queer enough” is just another version of “not enough” and, in my experience, at the root of every “not enough” – especially for someone who lives within one or more marginalized identities – is how we’re not shaping up to some distant, inauthentic ideal (which is *always* seen through the lens of whiteness).

What does “queer enough” look like, to you? Take a moment and really think about it. What are the narratives that you’re bringing to “queer enough” that have you stuck in the position of feeling like you’re falling short?

I’m also a queer woman who for a long time dated mostly cishet dudes all my life, and when I was stewing in my ‘not enough’ feelings, they usually had to do with my femmeness, and how I was worried about being read. (This is called internalized femmephobia.) My response was to cut off all my hair (and then, ridiculously, have a lot of feelings about being read as too butch/“too gay”; read: “too much.” We truly cannot win.) I got a tattoo of a Sailor Jerry mermaid rocking a pixie cut and reading a book with her boobs out to telegraph to the world that I LIKE GIRLS. I later got an undercut, a septum piercing; all markings of things that I thought would make me more “visibly queer.” (And maybe it did, but now I’m also Brooklyn-adjacent, so I look pretty much like everyone else. Oh well.) 

But here’s the thing with visibility that I think is important to note: My bbqueer striving to be “visibly queer” was a privilege, even as it was causing me anxiety and feelings of not enough-ness; trans folks, and BIPOC folks, queer and straight, struggle with hypervisibility in ways that my light skinned, cisgender ass generally does not, and it is important to me to state that plainly.

Did any of the things I did to establish my queer chick street cred actually make me any queerer? No. You know what does make me queer? 

The fact that I’ve always felt a little odd my whole life, and it wasn’t until I found my queerness that some part of that began to ease. My intense relationships with female friends that crashed and burned in startling ways, which I now realized were warped and stuck in a pressure-cooker by the queerness that I didn’t have words for, since I was raised so steeped in Catholicism and heteronormativity. The fact that I’ve had to fight to recognize my queerness; the fact that my parents made me stop watching Xena for “the violence” when I have a sneaking suspicion I probably was made to stop watching it for the gayness (and I don’t say that to criticize my parents at all – I don’t even think that was something that consciously registered for them; that is part of my queerness too). The fact that my dad tried to make me stop watching Buffy when Willow came out as gay – he TRIED lol – and I literally told him over my dead body. The fact that Willow came out as gay and it still took me an additional ten years to realize that I’m bisexual, bc lol, where are all the bi girls on TV??? Where are the bi girls who look like me? (Here’s one.)

I understand your angst, though. As queer women, we’re so often told that our sexuality is contingent on who we’re with. My doctors have treated me that way – when I have male partners, I’m straight, and when I have female partners, I’m gay. When I come out about being non-monogamous, I’m pretty sure all they see is a neon-sign over my head that, depending on the doctor, reads “HIGH RISK” at best, and “SLUT” at worst. These are messages that we have to deal with every day. It is so, so rare to find a place and a community that validates who you are, exactly as you are.

And the queer community isn’t exempt from that, either! I had a girlfriend who identified as a lesbian who had a problem with me having sex with dudes. I had a girlfriend who identified as poly who hated the idea of me having other partners, so she asked me to be in a closed triad with her and her husband – and then the two of them, jointly, decided to dump me, in part because seeing him with me scared the crap out of her. 

Our world is imperfect, and our communities reflect that. It takes strength and resilience and the deepest, fiercest love for who you know yourself to be to fight that. It can be exhausting, and sometimes we don’t always win these battles with “not enough,” because our society is not structured to encourage or even allow us to love ourselves. And I’m sorry for that, and I am sending you all of my love, not just because it’s June and it’s Pride month, but always, because you deserve so much better than this.

With regard to where you stand on the spectrum of monogamy and non-monogamy – fuck that scale. You are where you are, and how you do relationships is your business, and your partner(s)’ business, and anyone on the outside looking in can go fuck themselves. Maybe you’re feeling more monogamous right now – cool. Maybe you’re just super deep in New Relationship Energy with this exciting new person – that’s also fine! Either of these things or neither of them can be true, or one of them can be true sometimes, or they can both be true at least half the time, and the only thing that means is that’s where you are at right now, and where you are right now in your dating life is not a comment on how ‘good’ of a queer you are. You don’t have to be good. You just have to be yourself.

The most important thing I ever learned about queerness was last summer at the LAMBDA Writers Workshop. My teacher was Benjamin Alire Saenz, and the first thing he asked us to do was to write about what scared us most in the world. I wrote about not being enough – not queer enough, not Latina enough, not good enough at non-monogamy, not enough of a writer. Not enough, not enough, not enough. He said to us, “Queer is an identity that is entirely self-defined” – and your ability to do that, to be who you are, all of who you are, and say fuck you to the cishets who want queerness to look the way they want to consume it, and a similar buzz off to the queers who would suggest your queerness is not queer enough because of who you’re with – is not only an act of resistance, but also the best gift you could give yourself, and a gift you have always deserved.

Happy Pride, love.

Tantra and Taoist Teaching Methods

Depending on the teacher you choose or workshop you join, you may witness at least different ways that the principles of Tao and Tantra are conveyed to students. 

The six main categories of the Tantric/Taoist Arts follow:

1. Theory.  It is commonly said that Tantra cannot be learned from a book. Both Tantric and Taoist beliefs rely on energetic transmissions from teacher to student, which cannot manifest through black and white theory alone! Indeed,  theory can help you better grasp your own inner processes and get an idea of the metaphysics behind the two systems. The purpose of theory is create a cogent blueprint of where you are now and where you are going.

In the tantric/taoist perspective, the main blueprint is the energy flow through the five elements, which acts as path to align yourself with Heaven and Earth (consciousness and matter). The chakra map is also used so you can study the crossover from one to the other.

2. Practice. A sadhana is a daily practice to move energy within your body. As both the paths of tantra and the Tao work with sexual energy, practice is foundational.  The Tao main practice is Qigong,  a series of exercises that focus on cultivating sexual energy (Sexual Vitality Qigong).  In Classical Tantra, yoga is a daily practice, which also works with sexual energy. As well, many Tao practices can  purify, cultivate, refine, move and store sexual chi; i.e.,  ovarian breathing, yoni articulation, breast massage and jade egg exercises.

3. Meditation. Pure meditation is a cornerstone of Tao and Tantra. This is what makes tantra different from paths that simply open up or expand sexuality. Meditation cultivates presence, consciousness and expanded awareness. When we unite consciousness with sexual energy a transformation occurs. Without meditation we cannot attain such transformation.

4. Experiential. Ideally, tantric workshops create a safe space for participants to embrace an expansive experience, which lets them open up. This may include dance, eye gazing, role playing, games and other workshop tools for enabling participants to transcend their daily routine and taste something totally new. Neo-Tantra tends to focus on Experiential Tantra, wherein a tremendous amount of energy to really open people up.

5. Therapeutic. This includes methods that allow participants to process their deep aspects of their psyches.  In a Tantra workshop, this usually includes addressing sexual-related conditioning. The psychotherapeutic tools are often informed by Gestalt and Jungian methods. While not part of Classical Tantra, they are common elements in Neo-Tantra. Bringing your shadow elements into the light, in a safe, confidential space means that healing can occur. You can bring consciousness to those parts of your own being that you have long hidden from others, thus liberating yourself and becoming more transparent.

6. Ritual.  A ritual is a dedicated space held by expert facilitators, to generate a specific result or shift in consciousness. Some rituals are based upon ancient tantric formulas that have been around for millennia. Others are created by facilitators to generate a specific result. Rituals can generate powerful experiences ike total transfiguration.

A transfiguration circle is a ritual that activates the heart chakra and up, raising energy towards a higher perspective, known as a peak experience.
Transfiguration refers to a type of vision, one that can perceive the highest reality or Divine in another. Between two people, the ritual is akin to eye gazing.
A short explanation of the ritual is given about Tantra and the act of transfiguration, the Shiva and Shakti archetypes as well as ritual preparation. Such a ritual usually takes  place in a temple. A circle of couples is arranged to transfigure one another. The couples can be pairs of friends or lovers.

Can people please stop making fun of or trashing the POTO with Gerard Butler and Emmy Rossum in it please? That movie came out when I was 4, and I grew up watching it and that’s what got me into Broadway. Yes, it doesn’t hold the Broadway magic that so many other productions do, but it’s my favorite adaption and I love Gerard Butler and the entire cast. I understand everyone has their own opinion, but I’m going to quote my 8th grade writer’s workshop teacher and say “don’t yuck yuck someone’s yum yum” because it makes me feel bad, and I’m sure I’m not the only one. Thanks

Little Dance Moments

I love those little moments during your dance career that give you those happy flutters. Whether it’s finally getting that first, or recalling, or getting that dress or whatever…

I had a special one today when performing my third reel step for my workshop teacher a couple girls said “wow” at my entrechat. It’s the first time I’ve ever heard someone admire my dancing.

Nice little confidence boost for the Oireachtas season!

anonymous asked:

How is your art school like?

What do you mean? 
If you’re interested in the general schedule, we had two different subjects every three months, with different teachers. And workshops every now and then.

HOWEVER it’s over for me, this was my last year. I’m now working as comic artist/illustrator. ☺


A couple of days of perspective with Lawrence Marvit again!
it’s been a pain in the ass but very educative!
First one is antique shop filled with random junk.
Second one is very specific: Italian mobster is studying math with older jewish teacher in the latter one’s lower-middle class New York apartment during the 1950′s.
third one is just our thumbnails for Tutankhamon running around in an Art deco New York.

Very crazy perspectives! much work. 


*roller skates into scene*

HEY! Guess who finished her 4th-year film at school?

My last two years at CalArts were pretty rough, so I wanted to end my experience there making the silliest thing I could think of. I had the idea of animating a Rube-Goldberg machine pretty early on and boarded a bunch of different scenarios until this one stuck (there’s a lot of stuff here that I’d love to keep improving! but I’m also aching to press on and stare at some new projects, haha).

Huge thank you to my film workshop teacher, Masha Vasilkovsky and my program director, Maija Burnett for all the support and encouraging words throughout the year.

My Candy Love - Episode 29 Guide


-      Negative result for LOM
/      Neutral result for LOM
+     Positive result for LOM

/ or + Means my Love’O’Meter is at 100 so the result is either neutral or positive

If an answer does not have  -, /, or + beside it, it means I don’t know the result

LOM: Love’O’Meter; Low LOM is around 65 points or lower. High LOM is 65 and over.

Action Points: 300-450 depending on how lucky you are on finding people within the episode.

Illustrations: 5 Illustrations possible, one with each boy. Illustrations are not reliant on which boy you are “dating”. Choices made within the episode results in what illustration you get; which includes outfit and dialogue choices.

 Note: For each single episode replay from episode 28 and up, you will be redirected to a page where you will be able to choose the boy with whom you will (re)play the episode with. This option is only available on the web and not on the mobile application. Remember the new skins will not be visible in the episode illustrations.

Auntie: She can be found in front of the science room during the objective: Gather everyone to classroom B. Gift: A drawing folder.

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