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Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.

I CANT BELIEVE SHE HAS  A GF THEYRE HAPPY THEYRE SOME SORT OF GAY I AM. thriving.

11:46 // 1/26/2016

pretty sure I burned my hand at least three times while taking this picture

also, I would definitely recommend the book i’m reading. it’s called “the intellectual devotional” and it consists of a one page lesson per day and the lessons alternate between literature, science, visual art, religion, philosophy, music and history.

it’s such a good way to learn a little more and be well rounded plus it’s super interesting!!

Looking back, I can’t remember the truth. I blew everything out of proportion so I could feel the hurt and betrayal and write about it in vivid detail. It was my own method of torture. My own undoing; and I enjoyed every second of it.
—  c.j.n.
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It’s not always easy to understand Rose’s choices… but we have to stand behind them.