I just wish
I wouldn’t fall for the city lights,
for the promises they hold
and fluorescent neon signs
in paralysed clubs,
for broken hearts and desperate souls,
getting drunk on cheap wine
in expensive pubs.
I wish
I didn’t fall for your holographic lips,
the fault in our stars
and the bruise on your ribs.
—  // city lights
j.d.m.
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A Confederate monument in Charlotte, NC has been vandalized multiple times in August 2015, just weeks after Dylann Roof killed nine people at the Emanuel AME Church in Charleston, SC.

“The cause for which they fought - the cause of slavery - was wrong” was spray painted on one side, the other side has the names of eight of the nine victims of the shooting.

She had a ragged backpack slung over her shoulder, a pocket knife in her hand, and a wild look in her storm-gray eyes, like she’d just been chased a thousand miles by ghosts.
—  Percy Jackson, The Sea of Monsters

According to various reports, the bodies of deceased Ian Brady and Manchester arena bomber Salman Abedi are currently lying in the same morgue as undertakers are refusing to deal with their remains. The location, named the “Monster Morgue” by the media, has been kept a secret due to expectation of retaliatory attacks by the public if the whereabouts of these two men is uncovered. 

Brady, who died of lung cancer on 15th May 2017, wished for his ashes to be buried on the Moors where he and Myra Hindley buried their victims. Unsurprisingly, he has been denied this request. To date, several councils have refused to take control of his burial proceedings, and others have also released statements which indicate that they too would turn it down if asked by an executor. Instead, a public campaign has been launched since his death, which demands that Brady’s remains should be buried at Ashworth Hospital. Many believe it is only fitting that unremorseful Brady should remain forever in a place that he desperately tried to escape from. 

As mosque officials, councils and undertakers have also refused to manage the corpse of 22 year old terrorist Salman Abedi, it looks as though his body will be sent back to his original homeland of Libya so that he can be interred there. Abedi, who killed 22 and maimed 64 people after detonating a bomb at an Ariana Grande concert, has since been disowned by all his relatives living in the UK who seemingly also want no part in the management of his funeral. 

Syphilis,  Richard Tennant Cooper

In 18th  and especially 19th century Europe, representations of syphilis were often connected to “dangerous” female sexuality, and especially to sex workers. Impressionist painter Edgar Degas, for example, once stated that French artist Henri Toulouse-Lautrec’s paintings of sex workers “stank of syphilis”.

Similarly, in Richard Tennant Cooper’s painting Syphilis, we can see that the disease (which is represented as an evil-looking supernatural creature) has been brought to the man by the naked woman in the room. In this way we can see that judgmental and harmful attitudes regarding women’s sexuality have been connected to syphilis and its depictions for a very long time.

911 call of neighbour attacked by Austin Harrouff

911 call made by the 47-year-old Jeff Fisher, neighbour of Michelle and John. He tried to help the couple but got stabbed by Austin while doing so and fled to his house to call for help. 

Austin Harrouff (20) stabbed Michelle Mishcon (53) and John Stevens III (59) to death and ate the flesh off Stevens’s face on August 15, 2016 in their home in Jupiter, Florida. 

sometimes i get home after a rough day and wish i could hug you while you tell me everything’s going to be okay

sometimes i want to call you up just to hear your voice

sometimes i wish i could wake up next to you

i wish i could tell you about all of the exciting things i’m doing in my life right now

i wish i could ask you about your life

i wish i could just hug you with no fear- like it was a normal thing

i wish i could start up a conversation with you without feeling weird

i wish i could invite you to grab coffee or tea or whatever you like

i wish i knew what you like

i wish i could be a big part of your life

but then i remember you’re just a teacher

and i’m just a student 

You loved me

I knew you loved me even if I constantly said you didn’t.
I knew you cared about me even if I constantly thought you didn’t.
I knew by the way your eyes looked at me like I was the only one you could see yourself with, like I was the missing piece to complete your puzzle.
I knew by the way you searched for me in the crowded hallways,
and once our eyes met, you didn’t break contact until someone pushed you aside.
I knew by the way my tears made your heart ache,
and you sat there wondering how you would make it all better, but I never said you were the cause of it.
I knew by the way our hands caressed one another, and held on to each other, how your fingers interwined with mine,
and you were always the last one to let go.
I knew by the way you ran your fingers through my hair,
and every moment in each other’s embrace was a reason not to let go.
I knew by the way you protected me from any harm,
Your eyes turned cold, and your voice got louder,
you made heads turn with nothing but fear in their eyes.
I knew by the way you made me laugh until I couldn’t breathe, until my face was red enough with the smile of a child.
I knew when you couldn’t look me in the eyes to say goodbye,
I knew you loved me when you said “I love you” the beginning of June.
I knew by the way you would have given me the world,
but I failed to see everything I had in front of me.
You loved me, you really did.

Loved used in the past tense because you don’t love me anymore,
because you’re no longer around.
You loved me.


— Topaz P.

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Byssinosis also known as “Monday fever” or “brown lung disease” is primarily associated with textile workers, especially young girls working in factories or mills. 

It is thought that exposure to cotton dust in poorly ventilated environments leads to the disease and its accompanying symptoms, like tightness of the chest, coughing and breathing difficulties. Experts believe the cause to be endotoxins from certain bacteria growing on the cotton. 
In extreme cases, the disease results in scarring of the lungs and, ultimately, death.
During the 1990s, there were 81 bysinosis-related deaths in the United States alone. Such figures would likely have been much higher around the time of the industrial revolution, when cotton and fabric production increased dramatically throughout the world.

Some days I am too afraid
that I might miss life
while trying to portray it.
That I am too deep in thoughts
of colour and beauty
to actually see the shades
right in front of me.
—  // being an artist
j.d.m.