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Thoughts about Spn 12x20

SPOILERS! SPOILERS! SPOILERS!

I mostly liked this episode, even though it was really dark (why do you have to be like this Supernatural?) The BMoL-story spelled out some things we already know and moved the story into an expected direction. The witch-twins-story felt like a mirror to a mirror to a mirror; it referenced the past, it served as a parallel to both the brothers and Mary and their complicated relationship and it sure for foretod some stuff we will very likely see in the remaining episodes (and maybe the next season as well).

So, let’s take a closer look.

Alicia & Max

I admit I was both exited to see them again and at the same time worried they would kill of their only current queer character (well one that is already out of the closet), so… good news is Max survived.

But let’s start at the beginning. Alicia is worried, Max isn’t. The same way Dean was worried enough about their father that he went to Sam in the pilot and Sam tried to reassure him (of course things changed after Jess died). Alicia believes her brother is closer to their mother because they are both witches; Sam thought Dean was closer to John because they bonded through hunting. But as it turned out Sam was much more like John than Dean could ever be and Alicia’s instinct about her mother turned out to be right.

They paired up Sam with Alicia here and Dean with Max, and yeah I’m glad Dean got to spent some time with the cute boy (and Max complimenting the Impala was definitely flirting). But mostly it worked towards the end where Max’s situation paralled Dean’s. Yes, both Winchesters made deals in the past, but Max losing both a parent and a sibling reminded me most of Dean at the end of season 2. Both lost all of their (remaining) family. Both were desperate; if Dean wouldn’t have shot the witch Max would have taken the deal. And well, Dean knows it, he can’t even blame him. Their offer to stick around and help with the burial? That was because they already suspected Max to do something stupid. and now I’m pretty sure we will see him (and Robo!Alicia) again in season 13 and the Winchesters will learn what he did.

I really like the scene where Dean talked with Tasha (who is definitely a witch because she looks way too young to have two adult kids). I think it made sense for him to bond with a mom character; both because he has been a parent to Sam almost all of his life but also because he just learned to be a son again with the return of Mary. And what Tasha told him, that parents aren’t perfect but just people, is a lesson he learned all season long. For a moment I suspected him to flirt with her (because the actress was really gorgeous) but I’m glad they didn’t go there.

I think the case itself was full of foretelling. The witch tried to get out of her deal, to rest her burden on someone else. This season we already witnessed someone taking someone’s else deal: Mary swaping her place with her sons in 12x09. Something like this might happen again either with her or Cas (#cosmicconsequences). Dean prevented Max from taking the offer but in the end Max still made a deal; could it be that Sam or Dean make a deal even though Cas tried to prevent them from doing it?

Dean refered to Cas as a sock puppet and creepy dolls/marionettes is what we deal with. They still have their memories, they appear to be the real person, but they are not. Cas is currently not himself anymore. This might refer to Mary as well. We had two characters who were supposed to be dead but were still there in a way: Tasha as a doll and Mick who still seemed to sent messages. Mary is supposed to be dead but yet she is still around. Could this mean she is in some way or another not real/came back wrong from the dead? (Hello Buffy season 6 references, haven’t seen you in a while)

Ketch & Mary

It took a while for Mary’s bullshit dedector to work but I’m glad it still functions. I’m also glad that the episode explained to us that until now Mary hadn’t seen Ketch torture someone, that she didn’t kow he loves to do this, that, in her own words, he is a psychpath. It explains why up until now she no problem working with him. He was rough, sure. But rough is what Mary knows, rough is how she grew up. Rough is how she is (”not a hugger”), what made her attractive to Ketch in the first place and what is the reason for all her disconnection with Dean, because this is not what he needs (remember, Dean wuv hugs). Now she gets more inside into Ketch and it doesn’t take her long to figure out who he really is and what he has done (and what he plans to do).

Using a shapeshifter as the monster to toture of course was full of symbolism. I think the shifter did sense some form of affection Ketch has for Mary, hence taking her form, but it of course did foretell the end of episode, where the real Mary is about to get tortured. When the shifter took the form of Ketch we learned that Ketch lies all the time (psychopath, remember) but it also made me wonder; didn’t we learn in 1x06 that shifters have access to the memories and feelings of the one they turn into ? (The same way the dolls had acces to the memories of the one they impersonate) Did the shifter spell out some truths about Ketch while Mary was listening?

I think it is clear now that Ketch’s feelings for Mary are… complicated. Of course he wanted to sleep with her again and later he even offered her to keep her safe. He doesn’t seem to care about anyone but there is something about Mary (see what I did there?) that makes him soft. We will see if Mary might use this to her advantage/if it becomes Ketch’s downfall. Also while they were fighting he gave me major creeps; I thought for a moment he would assault her. But man that was a good fight; Mary is badass and sure knows how to use brass knuckles.

We know now more about the BMoL’s plan to kill all American hunters: Garth, Claire and Eileen are on their list (all connected to Sam & Dean) as well as the brothers. From those I think Garth is most likely to become a victim, simpy because I can’t see the show killing off Claire and/or Eileen (and hands off of Jody as well). Ketch also now knows Mary’s email password, so he might use this for a trap.

Sam & Dean

(Ok, mostly Dean)

I loved how Dean was full in worried boyfriend modus and even caled his mother to talk about it. The only reason he didn’t immediately tried to find Cas again was because Sam used the magic words: Tasha is on a hunting trip and hasn’t been home in a few days. This of course Dean gets.

Also, Dean was jealous of the family, of Tasha who seemed more like the mother he wished Mary to be, and her relationship to her children. But as Tasha said: parents are people after all.

Also also, Dean can’t hold a damn wine glass. Like really. That’s it. See you next week and hope the best from the worst (aka Bucklemming).

anonymous asked:

i know this sounds hella weird but do you have any tips on making friends in the voltron fandom? i have no one to talk to about voltron stuff rip me ://

not weird at all!!
i met emily, tasha and hay through lil things that have been held in the fandom.
an example: hay had put up a rabbit room for mutuals to come watch a movie and i just said why the heck not and joined and ended up becoming super close with them.
make personal posts!! some people might reply to them and that can spark convo. reply to personal posts!! some might reply to you.
fandom activities is the huge one tbqh, rabbits, group chats etc. 
i wish you luck!! and if you’d like feel free to pm me, would love to talk abt vld w ya ;). have a lovely day<3

anonymous asked:

Hey! I have some headcanon questions for you. Feel free to ignore if you've answered stuff like this before. When did Tasha know she was a woman? Would she ever grow her hair long, or does she prefer the short cut? Would she ever get bottom surgery, or does she prefer what she's got? What does she do when the dysphoria gets bad? When does she feel her best? Does she like makeup? Does she like traditionally femme things?

   oh hELL YES!!!

tasha knew pretty young,  but didn’t necessarily know what name she would prefer or even about the term ‘trans woman’ until much later in life  (like…teens though i guess),  but tasha knew when she was around the ages of 6-8 that she just wasn’t ‘anthony stark’ or a boy in general.

honestly, tasha had long hair for years (ever since she was 8 she’s kept it long), but after those months spent with the ten rings,  she couldn’t get herself to keep her hair much longer after it being grabbed and tugged and pulled like that for that long.  now she just keeps it short.  and she’s more than alright with that.  but she does miss her long hair.

she…well.  i’m not sure.  tasha is torn between it,  and since it’s such a big deal,  she doesn’t want to be dedicated to a  ‘yes’ or a ‘no’.  but she’s fine with either.  having a dick or getting bottom surgery to get the most bedazzled vagina.  either way,  she’s not sticking anything in anyone.

before her transition  (this is much more prevalent in my other main verse where she starts transitioning in her mid/late 40s)  she didn’t get that too horribly dysphoric,  she was just in a steady state of dysphoria to the point she was just used to it.  but whenever it got unmanageable,  she would either:  work for days on end  (which is the usual solution),  get a close friend  (like rhodey, happy, pepper)  and get dressed up all feminine and have a fancy dinner at home,  or try to just go out on some missions.  otherwise tasha doesn’t really get dysphoric that horribly much.  as long as she’s not around pregnant women,  and mentions of all that.

and tasha just feels best when she’s around kids.  her kids,  or superhero kids she hangs around with,  or child fans.  listen..her maternal needs are Too Strong.

oh hELL YEAH.  tasha loves make up.  she doesn’t always wear it  (mostly because she’s working),  but she loves loves loves make up.  going all out or just everyday is her thing.

and depending on what femme things means,  probably not.  tasha has always enjoyed “traditional masculine things”.  like cars,  wrestling,  rock music,  garage work,  and games.  she does love that stereotypical need to shop though.  and she loves dresses and fancy clothes and good fashion.  but generally,  she’s more “masculine things” leaning when it comes to stuff she enjoys.

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epic love story of sam and dean | 12x20

“I was watching them, this loving family. The kind we should have had. And now just like that, it’s gone. we do terrible things all the time to save each other. I mean that’s what you do for family, who am I to stop him”

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