Isn’t it remarkable, Steven? This world is full of so many possibilities. Each living thing has an entirely unique experience. The sights they see, the sounds they hear, the lives they live, are so complicated and so simple. I can’t wait for you to join them.
Steven, we can’t both exist. I’m going to become half of you. And I need you to know that every moment you love being yourself, that’s me loving you and loving being you. Because you’re going to be something extraordinary, you’re going to be a human being.
Take care of them, Steven.
Isn’t it wonderful, Nora? This world is full of so many possibilities. Each living thing has an entirely unique experience. The sights they see, and the lives they live, are so complicated and so simple. I can’t wait for you to join them.
Nora, we can’t both exist but i won’t be gone. I’m going to become half of you. And every moment you enjoy yourself, that will be me loving being you. Because you’re going to become something extraordinary, you’re going to be a human being. And that’s my favourite part, a human being. A human being, a human is an action. i wonder who— how you’ll be, what you’ll think, what you’ll want… I’m so happy for everybody who’s going to know you. I’m rambling. if they look to you, trust yourself.
Take care of them, Nora.
From what we can see, comparing the two videos, Steven’s was shot first. Not only are Greg and Rose more unsure about what they’re going to say and do, they’re also figuring out what should go into the video in the first place.
The first few scenes, which show Greg’s sleeping, messing around, and meeting the seagull for the first time, as well as Rose’s not knowing what the buttons do and experimenting with them, reveal that whatever practice they did going into the video shoot ultimately didn’t prepare them for it fully.
At the same time, when comparing what’s being said between Steven’s and Nora’s tapes, they have the same substance; the same message is being delivered: Rose hoped her child would get to live life to the fullest and make experiences that were fun and happy. She wanted to assure her child that she cared, even though she wouldn’t be there. Most of all, she wanted to assure them that being human was a great thing.
The thing is, Steven’s message is much more brief, and a little more formal. Rose clearly practiced what she wanted to say, and in the first tape, she went for it, likely because of nerves.
By the second filming, she seemed more comfortable in front of the camera and that’s also why she could clear up her nerves and keep expounding on her ideas.
So Steven, who read very deeply into the words of his mother, may have picked up on her saying he would be extraordinary and a human being. And he fixated on becoming someone worth calling extraordinary, when in fact, Rose had always meant to say by virtue of living, one could be extraordinary.
And we can’t really blame him, because he went from being another Beach City kid to being at the centre of an intergalactic conflict. It’s hard to accept that these things would happen to him if he weren’t destined for something.
I’d go as far as to say that hoping he was part of some magical destiny gave him strength at times, despite how bleak the situation could be.
The thing with this line of thinking though, is how much it wears on someone. The responsibility of being accountable for all these people and all these systems that were quite obviously out of his control and consequently responsibility in the first place was heavy on him.
Steven does want to be a hero. He does want to help people. But he felt more comfortable with this being his choice and his decision, not some destiny thrust upon him, not a tradeoff between his life and the many others he’d have to save.
I think Greg’s talk with him helped him process those feelings, which he’d been keeping inside for a while now. Steven thought everyone expected him to be like Rose, and that may have been true at some points in the show, but his father never did. And that’s what made Greg’s words so reassuring, because his sincerity could be felt in all of them.
Boys are assholes. Some are assholes all of the time. All are assholes some of the time. It’s just how boys are. Well, maybe not all boys. Mostly, boys are assholes. But girls? Girls can be evil.
13 Reasons Why: Tape 3, Side A
That’s a fucking CD player. (I had acknowledged this before, but last night I just started making the connections here.)
This adds a whole other level to the mixtape. Two possibilities:
1. Dean was in the Continental, but not the truck. (I just went through every single screencap of the interior of that car, and I don’t believe there was a shot of the stereo.) This means that the mixtape predates the truck, meaning Cas had the mixtape for YEARS. This adds layers and layers of sadness to Cas trying to give it back to Dean in 12x19, because that would mean Cas held on to it since possibly season 10 or mid season 11, and that Lucifer had it through all of that. (OR that Cas went back and retrieved it at some point after the Lucifer possession, which… JESUS.)
2. Dean gave it to Cas never knowing that Cas didn’t have a tape player in the truck, meaning Cas might have never listened to it, or he had to track down a tape player to listen to the tape.
3. Dean made it for Cas with the intention of listening to it together in the Impala.