Do you have any good books to recommend?
There are a lot of good books out there. I recommend:
The Power of Now or Stillness Speaks by Eckhart Tolle
Emptiness Dancing by Adyashanti
Being Peace by Thich Nhat Hanh or almost all of his books
The spiritual enlightenment trilogy by Jed McKenna
The Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu, the Stephen Mitchell translation
The Spiritual Awakening Guide by Mary Mueller Shutan
Those are ones I’ve enjoyed, I hope you enjoy them too.