when im sad and depress like this, i cant even go to my closest friends and ask for help. i dont want the image of me being fun an positive to be broken so i just tend to keep my sadness and loneliness to myself.
i mean i do ask for help. rarely. but to be honest no one seems to care like how i care when they need something from me..
Alex climbed onto his freshly fixed motorbike. It was late, almost two a.m. but he didn’t care. He had gone all week without driving his baby and he was already feeling the withdraws of it. He turned the ignition and smiled happily as the steady purr of the motor sounded beneath him. No matter what shit was going down, or what was going on his baby could fix it.
Just one drive around town and he would feel all the weight from his shoulders melt away and disappear. The conversation he had with Andy got to him, just like he knew it would.He was angry at himself for opening up, for caring so much. He just wanted to shut everything out and forget. Forget that his best friend was barely speaking to him, that he caused his father to get arrested because of a stupid blur of unjustified drunk rage. That he was failing most of his classes and probably wouldn’t graduate, that he hadn’t slept in months because of the flashbacks. Forget that he could do nothing right……And that because of it his mom was dead.
He pushed the thought out of his mind and pushed himself away from the curb. This is why he needed his bike. He could forget about all that shit and pretend that he wasn’t another fuck up. Pretend that he was someone who could actually do something with his life. With no cinder block ties and troubled past. He could pretend that for one hour he was free.
Before he knew it Alex was crossing the city lines and going down the high way he had come through three weeks ago. He told himself he would turn back soon, he was just going to go a little further………and then a little more With each time he said he would go back he increased his speed. Going faster and faster to a point where the air that hit Alex’s bare face felt like knives. Ok Alex you should go back a bit faster Alex stop, you aren’t invincible something is going to go wrong. Fas- he was interrupted by the bright lights of a semi truck approaching him at a steady pace. The road ahead narrowed momentarily making it nearly impossible for any two vehicles to drive side by side let alone a motor bike and a semi truck.
He tried his breaks but the speed never changed, he tried once more but realized there was no point. The breaks weren’t fixed, he wouldn’t slow down. With each second the truck got closer. Now aware of Alex’s presence the driver had taken to honking his horn in warning. But it was too late. Alex looked at the speed meter and at the truck charging towards him. His chances of living through this were 100-1. No not like this. I can’t die here, like this, not now. His eyes swelled up with tears as he did the only thing that might save him. He turned the handlebars to the left and closed his eyes not wanting to see what was about to come ahead. “See you soon mum”
2:30 am Sirens
2:48am: the ambulance car doors shut and we roll on.
3:00 am: “He’s not carrying any I.D. we have no contact information, but “He keeps saying Eleanoura. Whoever that is”
“None not even in his wallet?”
“The only thing we found in his wallet is an old school picture with the year 2007 printed on it”
“Recognize anyone on it?”
“Barely there’s thi-”
3: 59 am:
“Lucky to be alive”
“Still not in the clear”
“We’re loosing him.”
“Too much brain damage”
“Won’t remember a thing”
His eyes fluttered open for only a second. He saw his mom wearing her favorite sun dress that had pink cherries on it. She was holding his hand and humming softly. “Its ok Alex, you’re safe now. Shh” His eyes fluttered shut as he recognized the tune. He softly murmured the rest of the words to the song.
You never know, dear, how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away
Sapphirepearlshipping! I honestly only started shipping these two recently (thanks to @kris-amethyst) and they’re cute af together
(And no, before anyone says its not because it ‘gets in the way’ of my ship, I just personally dislike both Serena’s character and the ship :)) )
Pealshipping, its always been kind of a notp for me since like primary school!
highkey otp but i’m scared of saying it because it’s not a very popular choice
Idk ??? I mean I used to ship May x Tracey (which is why TAML is in my username, I just don’t have the heart to change it because me and Kris made a fan fiction account with the name years ago) which is uncommon af but I don’t really ship it anymore so its not an OTP ???