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What a great episode I watched it nearly nine hours ago and I’m still yelling g o o d


in which Bellamy and Clarke don’t want to leave each other

so recently i made a hella long thread on why otabek and yuri are so important for each other + how beka is also yura’s agape, and now i’m migrating it here bc i love character studies // @otayuriwriterscollective

my friend linked me to this otayuri on ice vid on facebook and i got to thinking about how important they are for each other as people and as skaters because they are, and especially in yura’s case because beka is actually another form of agape in his life

think about otabek altin, thirteen years old, in a country that is not home, struggling so hard to keep up; otabek who was forced to come to terms w a bitter truth that he has no flexibility, no inherent grace and elegance; whose execution and technique are far from perfect. how alone and out of place does he feel in a ballet training camp, knowing he can’t do these things? how frustrated at himself and at the people around him, how angry – if he wants to skate (and he does, he really does) these are things he has to do… and he cannot. 

and then he sees yura: strong, proud and ambitious yura, who has the technique he envies, the grace and style he covets, who isolates himself with his attitude & talent; he sees yura, and maybe beka falls a little bit in love. maybe he decides that he wants to stay on the ice, so he can cross paths with this boy again someday. 

and beka takes himself to canada, to america, across a whole ocean just to keep skating – to find a way he can skate that suits him, that will take him where he wants to go; to prove there’s more than one way to skate, to win.  and always in the back of his mind is that boy with sunshine hair and fierce eyes; he keeps up with yura, watches him win, lets that fuel him to keep going, keep skating: one day they will meet on the ice, and he’s going to be ready with a challenge (and maybe a confession). because beka has never doubted that yura will go far, that yura will be something great, and otabek wants to be able to stand on equal ground when they do meet; he wants yura to see him, not just walk by at another competition, yura’s eyes on someone else, yura not knowing he exists.

and yura? brash and uncertain yura, so insecure, so desperate for validation (refer to this thread for a discussion of yura’s character) –  just like his grandfather, yura finds his agape in beka, because beka’s love and admiration are just that: unconditional. they aren’t predicated on anything other than yura, aren’t reliant on the perfection of his skating, on the image the other person has of him. beka sees yura as just yura: talented, insecure, uncertain, determined, and ambitious. and beka loves all of it. he doesn’t want to mold yura into something else – not a prima ballerina, not an angel, not a fairy, not another viktor nikiforov. when yura comes to him on the night before the exhibition skate, with his ideas, asking for his help, beka just smiles and says: that’s the yuri plisetsky i want to see – the image of yuri that yuri himself determines; young, tempestuous, unbridled, and strong. the way yuri wants to define himself. beka faces yura and gives him the acknowledgment and validation he’s been asking for all his life, something that no one – not viktor, yuuri, yakov, lilia – has never quite given him.

beka takes him seriously. and more than that, beka sees everything of him and loves him anyway. even goes along with his outrageous skate idea.

and even the way beka confesses: yuri plisetsky had the unforgettable eyes of a soldier; acknowledging that strength, that struggle,   and echoing it in his own journey, the way he has fought tooth & nail for every scrap of talent, pushed himself past everything to stand where the world will acknowledge his skating, where he can prove there are more ways to fight on the ice.

for the first time yuri has someone who sees him as an equal and not as someone to be used (ahem viktor), as someone to be molded into something else, as someone not quite enough; and yura is beka’s inspiration, because beka wants to meet yura on equal terms on and off the ice.

and i love how they show each other off, look for each other on the ice, search each other out, trust each other; i love how beka doesn’t mind that yura’s preoccupied with himself and doesn’t quite return his obvious admiration in equal measure; i love how beka lets yura explore and just be his age, be himself, without asking for anything in return; and i love how yura lets himself be uncertain and vulnerable with beka, be a little weak, be honest of his own initiative.

and beka gets that right now yura’s still frustrated from the gpf, still figuring out himself and his own emotions, and so he’s fine with yura not reciprocating or even realizing beka’s feelings, bc he’s admired yura for 5 years and now he gets the chance to stand beside this boy and yura sees him – that is more than enough, for now, for him, and he will simply be there for yura and let yura be honest, be insecure, be himself. and yura loves him for that (and perhaps for something more)

anonymous asked:

(1/?) while we're on the concept of the whole "what is bokuto's natural hair color" mystery, i would like to throw in my own two cents but what if kuroo's black hair isn't actually his natural hair color????? i'm thinking something more visibly brown but he doesn't really like it so he dyed it black instead. maybe one of the reasons why he sleeps with his face sandwiched between two pillows was because the first time he dyed his hair was when he was young(er) and awkward and no way was anybody-

(2/?) finding out he was dyeing his hair because he was scared of judgment and because poor, younger kuroo had absolutely no idea he thought the hair dye would smudge all over his pillow if he slept on his side so he sandwiched his face in between the two pillows and it kind of stuck. (i also like to headcanon that kuroo’s hair grows really slowly so he’s super lax about going out for a trim i mean his hair’s pretty long and that’s when it’s sticking in 800 directions damn; i also think he cuts-

(3/?) by himself and it’s really awkward with only a bathroom mirror to guide him so it doesn’t really help how ridiculous his hair looks but at this point in time he doesn’t really even care anymore and i’ve no evidence whatsoever to back this up but i’ve fallen in love with this headcanon and with the mental image of kuroo tetsurou with brown hair. anywho, so at his very first training camp when he was a first year he decided to dye his hair at the bathroom in really poor lighting and then-

(4/?) bokuto (i don’t really have a preference, but i’m leaning towards Team Natural Platinum maybe because i cannot for the life of me imagine bokuto with all black hair) stumbles across kuroo while he’s dying his hair and kuroo’s hands are covered in black and bokuto’s still half-asleep but wow bokuto’s really surprised and he thinks it’s pretty cool. maybe at some point in time bokuto swings by when kuroo’s dying his hair again and they mess around and some of the dye gets on bokuto’s hair-

(5/5) and he looks at the mirror and he just thinks to himself “woah shit this looks cool” and he’s settled for that look ever since. i find myself really enjoying this little fantasy but seriously @furudate-sensei put this mystery to rest i’m killing myself slowly anticipating the truth

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