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Gotta Stay High

Okay so I started this story months ago and finally just finished it. It’s my longest one yet, so I will be putting it under a Read More break. The idea is probably silly and overdramatic and Nomura might be a little OOC… But I like it so oh well xD

Pairing: Nomura x MC (1st Person)

Title from Habits (Stay High) by Tove Lo. Random lyrics are also within the story.

This is my first angst piece and though it makes me sad and emotional, take that with a grain of salt xD I promise there is a happy ending!

Enjoy!

You’re gone and I gotta stay high all the time, to keep you off my mind…

I stared sadly at the date on my phone.

A whole year.

It had been a year since he went missing. It was still so unreal to me, and it was unfathomable that this much time had really passed.

My eyes closed wretchedly as a few hot tears ran down my cheeks. I knew I needed to get up for work but I didn’t think I could. Not on today of all days. I sniffled a little and started dialing Kirisawa’s number. As the line rang I clutched at the hem of my shirt, tugging it a little as I anxiously waited for him to answer.

“What’s up?”

His voice was calm and gentle, and I took a deep breath before speaking quietly.

“Can I not come into work today…?”

I heard a long, soft exhale on the other end, no doubt from him taking a long drag from his cigarette.

“Can you unlock your apartment door or do I need to use a key? I’m outside your building.”

I felt more hot tears on my skin, and slowly got up to unlock the door. I stepped back from the door and watched somberly as the knob turned and Kirisawa stepped in.

He took one look at my wet face before giving me a sad smile and pulling me close. He squeezed me tighter as I clutched his jacket in my fists. He leaned back against the door, rubbing my back gently as I cried noiselessly into his chest. My entire body felt hollow, and Kirisawa held me tighter as my body trembled.

Kirisawa had become my rock after Nomura went missing. We both had to support each other, as we were both so close to him. He took care of me like a brother, and I probably would’ve wasted away without him.

His hands moved to my waist, and I saw him frown down at me a little.

“When did you eat last?”

I looked down to avoid his gaze, mumbling my reply.

“When you took me out to lunch..”

I felt his grip tighten a little in frustration, and his displeasure was evident in his tone.

“That was the day before yesterday.”

A few more tears fell, and I just sniffled in response. It was too hard to force myself to eat. The act of chewing was too much effort, and the thought of eating when I wasn’t hungry made me sick. It was just the worst thing I could do, forcing food into my body.

Kirisawa let out a quiet sigh, kicking his boots off before leading me towards the kitchen.

“I’m going to make you a big breakfast and I want you to eat at least half of it. And you’re coming to work because you’re going to eat lunch and dinner too.”

I stopped in my tracks, my fists clenched to the point where my nails dug hard into my palms.

“Hiroshi I really don’t think I can go to work today…” I looked up at him, my eyes pleading with him to agree.

“Please.. Can you take me there today? I still feel like we missed something…”

Kirisawa’s shoulders slumped a little, and I saw his eyes glaze over just the tiniest bit. He continued on to the kitchen, opening the window and lighting another cigarette. I stood still as I watched him, my anxiety kicking in at the prospect of facing everyone on a day like today.

He pulled out his cell phone and seemed to dial a number. He spoke between pulls of his cigarette.

“Hanai, I’ll be out on field work this morning, so don’t expect me in the building this morning.”

There was a slight pause.

“Yeah, and I’m taking her with me. I’ll keep you posted. Email me the case files please. I haven’t looked at them in a while.”

I let out the breath I had been holding, and felt my heart race start to slow a little.
“Thanks, Hanai. I’ll keep you posted.”

Kirisawa ended the call and put his cigarette out before turning to face me.

“I’ll take you and we’ll look together. But you have to eat ALL of the breakfast I make for you.”

I nodded and gave him a tiny smile and a bow.

“Thank you, Kirisawa.”

He nodded before waving me off. “Go get ready while I make breakfast. Do you have any requests?”

I bit my lip a little before speaking quietly.

“Chocolate chip pancakes..?”

He stared at me for a second before laughing cheerfully. He waved me off again, muttering “Sure, sure,” as he started pulling out what he would need.

I went to my closet, pulling out jeans, leggings, and a heavy sweater. It was early January and it was definitely cold. There was snow on the ground too. I took a quick shower, blow-drying my hair and putting it up in a quick bun. I threw on the tiniest bit of makeup, not because I wanted to, but because it had become a habit to cover up just how bad I had gotten.

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anonymous asked:

Can you post a selfie of your new face? (if you want to ofc) XD

sure! Let me try to take a decent one haha

kittenb0ness asked:

Hello again darling! I don't mind being addressed by my first name, thank you for being respectful of that tho! So in my past 'life' I just wondered around the earth for fun? So this is my first time as a human being? I've always been unusually comfortable in big cities when I visit them, even tho I've never been comfortable in crowds. Anyway! Thank you so much for your time! Also, I really have a hard time believing you're only 15! You gave a vibe like you were in your 20's, you're so mature!

I don’t know if you had a previous life on earth and you wanted to live as a human again but I definitely got the feeling that you had a strong fascination with earth. 

haha, I felt like if I told people straight up that I was 15, they wouldn’t take me seriously. xD 

So I went to Nagoya for dinner last night & it was a Japanese restaurant and it was beautiful the chef guy was hilarious. & afterwards we went to #trapttoledo and scariest shit ever. Zombie = my death. XD thanks for taking me kassidy 💖 happy birthday!! 😘👑 #nagoya #japanese #trapt #toldedo

anonymous asked:

I don't know what more I can add. I mean I'm like the big bang theory if they weren't smart

Age, gender, height, eye and hair color, then tell me what your favorite something (hobby, class, music, etc) and what kind of date you want to take me on.

That’s what the post said really xD

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"You take me down, spin me around, you got me running all the lights.
Don’t make a sound, talk to me now, let me inside your mind!”

nate5316 asked:

Answer 1-92:)... I love you beautiful:) you're the best girlfriend ever. I enjoy playing games, cuddling, watching Netflix , taking walks and being goofy with you:) you make me happy:).. I hope I get to see you today!!!:)

Oh boy this’ll take a while xD I love you too babe! You make me happy too, and I hope I can see you soon!

Ight lets do this!

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?I mean it was my boyfriend so yea2. You talked to an ex today, correct?Incorrect! Thank god. I don’t have time for that shit3. Have you taken someones virginity?psh maybe4. Is trust a big issue for you?Sadly yeah.. 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?Yeah, yesterday actually6. What are you excited for?Spring break! I get to go to a casino. 7. What happened tonight?Well considering it’s the middle of the morning I have no idea. I’ll probably be with Hannah 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?No lol who cares9. Is confidence cute?Definitely 10. What is the last beverage you had?Monster11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?6 I think 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?Like 1213. What are you gonna do Saturday night?Probably do something with my boyfriend14. What are you going to spend money on next?Clothes probably 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?Yes, yes I am :)16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?Probably a little bit 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?A lot of people.. My mom, Maddy, Caitie, Claire, Hannah, Kayla, Allen, Nathan18. The last time you felt broken?Like last week lol19. Have you had sex today?Nope20. Are you starting to realize anything?That I need to make myself happy before I make other people happy21. Are you in a good mood?Yeah!22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?Hell no23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?I think so, I’ve never met him tho 24. What do you want right this second?A large sum of money and kisses 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?"Go to hell" or other profanities probably26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?Yeah ^.^27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?No omg humor is sooo important to me28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?Hannah 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?Yes :(30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?Yeah, if they can admit they did something wrong and are sincere 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?No omg it was my babe 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?Well I sure hope so 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?No lmao I fuckin love soda34. Listening to?Never let you go by Third Eye Blind35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?Yeah, but only mechanical pencil 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?Probably at home37. Do you believe in love at first sight?No38. Who did you last call?Nathan39. Who was the last person you danced with?Nathan 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?Because I love him lol41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?Oh boy probably at my grandma’s birthday party42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?Yeah!43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?Always 44. Do you tan in the nude?I don’t tan but if I did it would prob be naked45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?Nope #noregrets46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?Nah47. Who was the last person to call you?Maddy I think48. Do you sing in the shower?Yes xD49. Do you dance in the car?Of course50. Ever used a bow and arrow?Yeah I’m awful it’s hilarious 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?Picture day?52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?Yes. I love it53. Is Christmas stressful?No it’s fantastic54. Ever eat a pierogi?No but according to Hannah they taste like “crap, but good crap”55. Favorite type of fruit pie?Apple! 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?Vet57. Do you believe in ghosts?Yes58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?Every so often yes59. Take a vitamin daily?Nah, though I probably should60. Wear slippers?Sometimes61. Wear a bath robe?Hell yea it’s cozy62. What do you wear to bed?Skin63. First concert?Hannah Montana lmao64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?Target all the way 65. Nike or Adidas?Not that I care, but Nike66. Cheetos Or Fritos?Neither Doritos 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?Sunflower seeds68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?Uhhhh Blank Space?69. Ever take dance lessons?When I was like 6 I was in ballet, jazz, and tap dance classes70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?Not really71. Can you curl your tongue?Yeet72. Ever won a spelling bee?NO BECAUSE MY TEACHER GAVE ME THE WRONG LIST OF WORDS AND TO THIS DAY I HAVE NOT FORGIVEN HER73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?All the time. I’m a sap. 74. What is your favorite book?The Fablehaven series!75. Do you study better with or without music?With 76. Regularly burn incense?Nope77. Ever been in love?Yeah..78. Who would you like to see in concert?Fall Out Boy, American Authors, Ryn Weaver, 30 Seconds to Mars79. What was the last concert you saw?Maroon 580. Hot tea or cold tea?Cold81. Tea or coffee?Coffee82. Favorite type of cookie?Cookie83. Can you swim well?I wouldn’t say well but I wouldn’t say bad either84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?Yeah, can people not?85. Are you patient?NOT AT ALL OH GOD86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Depends on what kind of wedding87. Ever won a contest?Maybe but if I did it was forever ago88. Ever have plastic surgery?No 89. Which are better black or green olives?Black90. Opinions on sex before marriage?who cares lol it’s their choice not mine91. Best room for a fireplace?Living room or outside firepalce92. Do you want to get married?Someday, yeah :)

anonymous asked:

The even ones!

All of them?! oh my fucking god this is going to take me forever… xD

0: Height

164 cm

2: Shoe size

7 in the Uk

4: Do you drink?

On rare and special occasions, or when I want to piss of my Mum whilst she’s distracted just to get a reaction out of her and have a laugh

6: Age you get mistaken for

I’m currently 14, but I’ve been mistaken a lot for a 16 year old or older. It’s kind of awesome because it means that I can get away with some things :3

8: Want any tattoos?

Maybe, I’m still not too sure but I might have one or two in the future

10: Want piercings?

I already have piercings in my ear but I barely wear earrings anyway so I probably won’t get anymore

12: Relationship status

Pansexually Single! xD Honestly I’ve never been in a relationship before and still have yet to have my first kiss. I guess I’m just too weird to be attractive or interesting to people but I don’t honestly mind

14: Biggest turn offs

I… uh… I am so inexperienced with this I have absolutely no idea

16: I’ll love you if

You accept and like me for the way that I am. You won’t get frustrated or angry when I suddenly flip out happily or angrily about something in a movie/TV show/game. We exchange traits and interests and try out new things that appeal to each other and always come to an agreement about something that one of us likes and the other doesn’t so we avoid mass problems… honestly I’ll just love you if you make me feel special and accepted to you

18: Most traumatic experience

*shudders* My Math tests in the 2nd German school I went to (i frikin studied for it btw). Those tests were made for near graduates in English schools! So extreme and hard to do I swear I got a head start in getting grey hair!

20: What I hate most about myself

Uhhhh… uuuuggghhhhh….. uuuuuuummmmmmmmm. That’s a hard decision my friend xD I kind of hate how weird I am because that means people avoid me, despite the fact that I have no problem with being alone. Maybe the fact that I have the capability to care too much and sometimes care too little?

22: What I want to be when I get older

I’m kind of in the middle of wanting to be an Actress and and Author. I love writing and acting equally and I think that if I manage to be both of those things I’ll be very happy with what I do

24: My relationship with my parent (s)

I’m more similar to my Dad than my Mum, which is kind of a bad thing since my parents are broken up and I’m living with my Mum. So we have at least one or two arguments a day but at some point come to an agreement

26: My biggest pet peeves

I’ve only owned one dog in all my life, but the one thing that drags me up the wall the most is when he comes back into the house running about happy that he made a bloody shit in the garden and makes the frikin floor all DIRTY

28: A description of the person I dislike the most

Completely judgmental, immature, racist/homophobic/sexist assholes I’ve ever known in my entire life and that’s saying something seeming as I’ve lived in 2 countries and have traveled the world a lot when I was younger

30: What I hate the most about work/school

The way they teach us! I love learning, but the fact is that the way they teach us makes the subject so wrong, boring or frustrating when at some point it was really interesting to us. So like English class for instance, I personally love Shakespeare, I’m a big fan of him but my teacher likes to drag on so much about the unimportant or what-was-once-interesting-now-makes-me-want-to-rip-my-hair-out that I actually moan and want to leave whenever I have English class next. Fucking hate that!

32: What words upset me the most

"Grow up!" , "They’re fictional characters, it’s not real!" , "Get you’re head back to reality!"

I was around 9-10 years old when I noticed my parents fighting a lot, it was around that time when I realized that I’ll never get my happy ending and began acting more mature. I believe that a lot of people like certain things because it interests them, to me certain Fandoms are my comfort zone because they’ve been with me through the trouble. I personally love Doctor Who a lot because despite the fact that I was weird I felt like the Doctor would like me for who I am and not because my family was falling around me. When I’m stressed with school or life or family I’ll just simply go onto Tumblr or watch my shows because they made me fell like I was okay and not breaking apart. So of course I’m going to bloody care about the plot and characters, of course I’m going to cry when something bad happens to them or if they die because they’ve acted and said things that made me feel more human, and I can only cry out for them because I’m not able to return the comfort and safety and emotions that they’ve made me feel. I was forced to ‘Grow up’ at an age when I was still supposed to be a child and not worry about the world, they took that from me and I’m trying to make up for lost time by being a fucking child and being weird and caring and cry over the little things instead of the big things because they were there for me when my family wasn’t!

34: What I find attractive in women

Honestly just they’re personality and image. So basically everything about them, when I’m walking into town I’ll see a cute girl across the street laughing and I’ll seriously feel queasy inside and just think of how cute she looks and how pretty she looks when she laughs. I don’t honestly have a preference since I’ve never been in a relationship but I like being an optimist about it before anything

36: Where I would like to live

Truth be told I’ve always wanted to live in a house/apartment with my best friends. I currently live in England whilst they live in Germany and I’m happy with where I’m living because it means that I’ll get a proper education since I suck at languages but I think it’d be awesome to live with them. And if that meant living in Germany again just to do that I’d happily put up with learning German again

38: My childhood career choice

oh my gooooood, too many regrets and missing memories from that one. I kept changing my mind all the time because I didn’t know what I was good at. It was only when we stopped writing about what we want to be in the future when I was younger when I made my first story and felt happy about it

40: Who I wish I could be

Honestly I just want to be me. I want to be the creative optimist and try to make people feel like their wanted and needed in the world. I know I want to become an Actress/Author when I grow up and a lot of people would be snotty about that but honestly I’d just use the bloody media so I could make other people feel like they’re unstoppable. Though it’s a lot to ask for and probably won’t happen I kind of just want to be a thought in someone’s head and make them do unspeakable things that people thought they’d never do and try to follow their dreams. ‘Live the Dream before the Dream outlives Yourself’ is what I always try to say

42: The last thing I ate

Ate a Thai Green Curry with Beef and Veg Stir last night

44: A random fact about anything

It’s Jensen Ackles birthday today, and I hope he has a great one :)

i can’t remember what aspirin did to me but i vowed to never take it again after one time XD and i’m not allowed to take ibuprofen because combined with these prescription tablets i’m on they can cause upper gi bleeding uuuugheww

i’m starting to think there’s something wrong with my stomach though because the last time i took paracetamol was about 12 hours ago and i’ve eaten since and i’m still in so much pain smh

Sorry for vanishing. My students had a theatre competition today. I woke up at 4 AM and I got home at midnight, so I’m tired. I’m eating and catching up on replies so take pity on me if I’m slow. XD

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