So yeah :3 Made another fanfic because my waifu (@spoonfulofchoi) kinda requested it (?) I just needed to write it :3
It’s kind of a ‘Jumin theory-ish’ fanfic? I honestly don’t know what i wrote XD
“Why do they only think of him. Only think of
his pain? How he feels?
Why do they think he’s the only one who
knows the truth? That he’s the only one that falls in love with you every
single time… every… single… time…
Yes, you being happy is the most important thing to me, even if that means not
being able to hold you. To lay with you, kiss you, touch you…
But it hurts. Hurts when you finally choose me, just so he can be your last
one. Because he’s the only one that knows the truth. The only one that knows
what you will do after you end a route, when you end his route…
But I’m fine. Not because I know the others are better than me, but because I
know you will replay the routes… come to me again… love me again… but you’ll also leave me again… to run back
I’m stuck in repeat. We’re stuck in repeat.
But I will wait, till you return. And I will hold you close to me, as close as
I can, so that you can enjoy my warmth, hear my heartbeat, feel my breath
against your skin, my lips on your neck,…
Hoping you won’t let go this time. Hoping you won’t leave me… again… hoping I
can be your last one…”
out shopping with a friend, Seven to be precise, rushing to get home when you saw how late it
was. Jumin would be home any second, and you know how he is when he gets home
the button to call the elevator multiple times, hoping it would come faster,
but you knew it wouldn’t. You get in the elevator, press the button to get to
your floor and wait anxiously.
You arrive at the floor, get out of the elevator and rush to the door of the
penthouse, nodding to the security when you pass them in the hall. Almost
turning your handbag upside down, you search for your keys, grabbing them and
quickly opening the door. Quietly opening the door you walk inside. When you
close the door and turn back around you feel your heart stop for a second.
in front of you, a cold, almost emotionless look daggering into you. But you
could feel his anger.
“Where were you…”, he asks monotone, keeping his eyes focused on
you, slowly creeping closer. “I-I was just out… wi-with a f-friend…”,
you answer, backing up until you hit the
front door. He keeps coming closer until he stands only mere inches in front of
you, no escaping possible.
“Who where you with.. hmm?”
“Just a f-friend…”, I answer, my voice shaking. “Do I know him?”, he asks.
“Y-yeah… it was just S-Seven…We w-went shopping…”, you instantly regret saying this.
His eyes widen and he slams his hand next to your head, leaning over you. Eyes
that could stab someone to death dagger into yours, you wanted to look away,
but he wouldn’t let you. He grabs your chin and makes you look at him.
“I want you to look at me when I tell you this,
so that I know I… ONLY I… have your attention”, he says trying to keep himself calm.
up in your eyes, but you try to hold them back, almost forgetting how to
breath. “Oh, don’t start crying, I just
want to make clear that you can ONLY think of ME, ONLY be with ME, ONLY listen
to ME and that YOU are ALL MINE… and MINE ONLY…”, the coldness in his voice
sends shivers down your spine, making a tear escape from your eyes.
tear caused a bomb to explode. “I told
you not to cry… then w-why are you crying” he asks, trying to stay calm but when you don’t
answer him he can’t control himself. “ANWSER
ME!” he yells at you, “WHY DO YOU
LIKE BEING WITH HIM, MORE THEN BEING WITH ME?!” he slams his fist next to
your head against the door, again and again and again.
As he stops
slamming his fist against the door, he places both of his hands next to your
His face coming closer, you turn yours away, not wanting to look him in the
face, especially when he’s being like this. He grabs your chin forcefully and
turns your head so you have no other choice then to stare into those deep, dark
but oh so beautiful eyes. “I… I don’t
want to lose you, not again…” he says, tears welling up in his eyes. “I have lost you to the others to many times…
I want you to be with me and stay with me, forever…” You expected him to kiss you or at least hug
you, but he just walks away, sitting on the side of the bed.
shock, you glide down against the door until you sit on the floor, knees close
to your chest, tears still rolling over your cheeks from what just happened. You
look at him sitting at the edge of the bed, thinking about what you should do
next. Should you just sit here, should you go up to him even after what he had
could make a decision, you heard footsteps coming towards you. Looking up you
saw Jumin standing in front of you, slowly lowering himself to eye level with
you. “… I…. I’m s-sorry…” he says hesitantly,
looking at you with red swollen eyes. He has actually been crying? Over thinking
you would leave him? Over thinking you would ever want anyone else then him?
Yes, you had picked Seven before… but you wanted him and not Seven… you wanted him
to touch you, kiss you, hold you and more.
You looked up at him, still in shock. Reaching up and hugging him close to you,
crying the hardest you ever had. “I-I would
never want to be with any else but you… I want you to love me, hold me, kiss
me, desire me. I want you to sleep next to me. I want to be the first thing you
see when you wake up and the last when you go to sleep. You are the only one in
my life, just as I am the only on in yours…” you tell him while tears stain
back, cupping your cheeks in his hands, looking at you with tears in his eyes. “I sorry about how I acted. I just… really
don’t want to lose you again.” He slowly moves his head to yours, hovering
over your lips with his, waiting for your approval. You look him in the eyes once
more before closing them and leaning forward slightly to start the kiss, giving
you up on your feet, before moving both of you over to the bed. He sits down on
the edge of it, you on his lap, kissing you passionately but not too eager,
afraid to go to fast after what just happened. He let you take control over him
for once, but only a little of course.
After the long make out/make up session, he pulls away and looks you in the
eyes. “I’m sorry” he whispers and lays
you down on the bed gently, lying next to you and pulling you close to him. Your
head on his chest, relaxing when you hear his heartbeat. Remembering it only
beats for you.
thing you hear before you doze off are the words “I love you”, and feeling a kiss being placed on your forehead.
you weren’t leaving, you were going to stay, until the end of time and beyond.
Hope you enjoyed reading it! >.o
Then I’ll step aboard the feels train again and finally play Sevens route(for the first time) *insert evil laughter* >:3
Nwff day 3, bring it on!
We are heading out early to do a photoshoot!!
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