tagging everything because this took me forever

That Question I Just Deleted

[So @zimtkind (at least I think it was you) sent me an ask a gazillion years ago talking about their shifting ideas about who Lucy Westenra should end up with and asking if any of my Dracula opinions had changed over time. As usual, I took forever to answer it, but as is not usual, I ineptly deleted the entire thing a few seconds after posting it when I tried to adjust the tags. I fortunately had written most of it up in a word document, however, so have this somewhat context-light ramble on changes in Dracula-related opinions.]


Oh gosh! This (like almost everything else) took a while for me to answer because some of my core opinions on Dracula have changed really radically over time. When I first read it, in fact, I was sixteen, found it sort of dull, and felt it didn’t live up to the experience of watching Dwight Frye looking gorgeous and chewing the scenery in the 1931 film.

When I really delved back into Dracula the novel a few years, what initially captivated me about the book was actually the possibility that the narrators might be unreliable. I was not, and probably never will be, okay with narrative that the Count’s assaults upon his victims were –in fact– consensual trysts mischaracterized by others, but I found Jonathan’s statements regarding the possibility of the protagonists potentially having to stand trial for murder to be uniquely unsettling, and following this first re-read, I was rather convinced that I would convict them should I have served on their jury. I spent a lot of time early on in my Dracula obsession contemplating ways in which everyone might be mistaken, trying to see if I could tease out a narrative in which a bunch of neurotic, mentally ill people had worked themselves into some sort of hysterical frenzy and convinced themselves it was a good idea to murder a foreign nobleman.

Eventually, however, after examining and re-examining all of the minutiae and fun, puzzle-boxy secrets of Dracula, I pretty much ditched this edgy, dark reading of the text entirely. I found, in the end, that the evidence presented to me was convincing. This shift was uniquely satisfying on a meta-level, as I had basically met the characters’ challenge in a very in-universe way in allowing myself to be swayed to their side, and the general change in perspective also carried a lot of personal significance, as I allowed myself (somebody with their own demons re: mental illness, abuse, and self doubt) to believe in the validity of these characters’ accounts and experiences. One of the reasons that Dracula will probably always be so dear to my heart is that the text can feel like a very real exchange between the protagonists and the reader; despite Jonathan’s protestation that he asks nobody to believe them, the novel does just that, and for me that exercise proved to be a useful step into believing certain truths about myself and my own life.

On a less dramatic scale, most of my shifts of opinion about the book have trended towards me finding more things to like in it that I previously did not like in earlier readings. Despite finding him impenetrable and frustrating the first few goes, I’ve developed into something of a Mr. Swales fangirl, and I’m generally much more of a fan of lots of the “tedious” bits of the book nowadays than I used to be (I might someday warm up to the whole boxes segment, @chthonic-cassandra made some good points when I derided it previously). It’s probably also significant that I have vaguely stepped back from my complete revulsion towards the idea of reading any sort of romance between Dracula (I wrote about it here and here), but I’m not sure if having almost complete revulsion towards that idea is really all that dramatic a change.

Oddly enough, my opinions on who Lucy ends up with have never really fluctuated all that much. While I find Arthur’s personality about as exciting as a moistened paper bag (and who knows… this too much change), I like tropey unrequited pining too much to really wish that she ended up in an exclusive relationship with anyone else, even though I maintain that Quincey is objectively the best pick. This is all sort of irrelevant, however, in that Lucy Westenra and romantic exclusivity aren’t things I am terribly fond of having go together.

I was tagged forever ago by @mitsu2bishie4u to do this tag. Thanks for tagging me I just procrastinate with everything I do.

Rules: 10 songs you’re currently vibing to and tag 10 people

1. Run - Foo Fighters

2. In The Aeroplane Over The Sea - Neutral Milk Hotel

3. Limousine - Brand New

4. Mr. Moustache - Nirvana

5. Leggy Blonde - Flight Of The Conchords

6. To Your Town - ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION

7. I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend - Ramones

8. Mirror - THE ORAL CIGARETTES

9. Hurt - Nine Inch Nails

10. Tomorrow Comes Today - Gorrilaz

 I never know who to tag. I don’t really care if you do or not. I’ll tag @neptunefoxshark @lowlyanon @mayaxalaura @mockingnero @briskyfrisky @cinnathebat @cellogeek @lazykuala @mysticxalchemist and anybody who else wants to do

Rules:

1. Spell out your username with a song beginning with each letter
2. Tag as many people as there are letters

tagged by @zerotounfinity

I’m going to do this by going through my last.fm, which has tracked everything I have listened to for eleven years, and posting my most listened to song that starts with that letter because why the hell not.

P - Pompeii - Bastille

I - Iko Iko - The Belle Stars

K - Kings and Queens - Thirty Seconds to Mars (GOD it took me forever to find a song in my library that starts with K)

E - Elevation (Influx Remix) - U2

S - Snakes - Bastille

T - The Phoenix - Fall Out Boy

A - All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter

F - Flimbo’s Quest - Instant Remedy

F - Frame of Mind - Tristam

That was fun.  Whoever else wants to do it, go ahead!

anonymous asked:

Do you like C.S. Lewis' works outside the Chronicles of Narnia? Such as the Screwtape Letters and The Four Loves (I know you must be really busy, so don't feel bad if you can't really answer my question).

I do! While I think Lewis tends toward a more…masculine view of God and faith than I do, he’s a beautiful and sincere writer, and makes discussions of theology very approachable. Mere Christianity is my go-to recommendation for all the people who come into my inbox, wanting somewhere to start reading, and Til We Have Faces is the gold-standard of discussions of Religious Awe disguised as a retold myth.

Screwtape Letters actually took me forever to read because it skewers every secret shameful weakness you’ve got, everything you’ve ever hand-waved away and excused as ‘not really a sin’ it’s like a hot lance I was terrified of that book when I was younger.

I’ve talked about The Great Divorce before, somewhere in my theology tag, but I think it’s probably one of my favorite explanations of Purgatory and Hell ever.

A Grief Observed is—heart-rending, the most aching searching thing ever to be written about faith and despair. Somewhere on the list of tattoos I’ll never get is “all shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.”

…so yes, you could say I am a fan of Lewis’ work.

Holy shit I reached 1.5k?? Thank you to everyone who follows me and puts up with my shit posts and everything, on my last account it took me a year to reach this amount but idk how it happened so fast here. Enjoy the shitty graphic lmao but seriously thankyou!! Here are some quality blogs I follow thankyou for making my dash pretty.Second attempt I’m sorry for the multiple tags before idk what happened??

etheryeols ♡ 

shanica, so this year we stopped talking for a bit & I swear I was the saddest shit without you but it’s okay because we are back together n reunited forever ilysm and I promise we’ll meet this year :)) we’re also coming to our 3rd year of friendship and I can’t believe you put up with me because honestly I’m so extra. You are the most amazing ass bestfriend in the world ilyy

The thirst squad // parkjiminis stopsvt kiminguy grboyy 4jh pocketjimin kyungisoo ♡ Anj, Denna, Naomi, Alex, Kyl, Karen, Furq ♡  we are jihope tbh you ppl are my loves okay I didn’t expect to make new friends so idk how the hell it happened. I really hope we stay friends for a long time because honestly I literally sit there laughing / crying  whenever we talk. I could write an essay but you know let’s keep it sweet n simple ily dorks
nuneon kiminguy 4jh ♡ Karla, Naomi, Kyl okay you three are life savers thankyou for running the nets and keeping them updated because tbh I’m really shitty with that. This is literally a massive thankyou to guys!!! 

muskdrop napplngamna & madina my real life angels yes I tagged you in this too bc I love you hoes so much it makes me cry, idk what I would do without you two keeping me sane from irl people okay ily n thankyou sweet peaches!!

now here are my favourite blogs!!

# - C
164cmwoozi17dad ♡ 4jh95brotp  ♡ 98seungkwan  ♡ aestaegi  ♡ astrohobi  ♡ automaticdlck  ♡ baekhyugh  ♡ baeksdestroyedanus  ♡ bahbae  ♡   barkyeol  ♡ blushyoongibo0seungkwan  ♡ boooseungkwan  ♡ byunrapper  ♡ chimsboy  ♡ choiminhs  ♡ coupsgf  ♡ cuddletae  ♡ cypherkookie  ♡ cyphkiller
D - H

dearmingyu  ♡ dinosgf  ♡ dokyutie  ♡ dotae  ♡ emohoshi  ♡ etheryeols  ♡ ewhansolexpenisve  ♡ falloffruth  ♡ flowerboywoozi  ♡ giyomimi  ♡ grboyy  ♡ h5ya  ♡ hakyeonsmilkhanbinj  ♡ hanbinji  ♡ hanbooby  ♡ hansolcho  ♡ hansolence  ♡ hansoulvernon  ♡ hayisgf  ♡ helloseokjin  ♡ hellowenhan  ♡ hobisoo  ♡ holyjunghan  ♡ holyjunhui  ♡ hoseokingwet  ♡ hoshi-trash  ♡ httpvminhugjisoo  
J - K

j–hot  ♡ j-homo  ♡ j-nopeshi  ♡ jayhoppe  ♡ jeoncutiejeonghanily  ♡ jeonghansols  ♡ jeongshua  ♡ jeonjam  ♡ jeonshine  ♡ jeonsshi  ♡ jeunhui  ♡ jhopies  ♡ jhorsearmy  ♡ ji-sooh  ♡ jiguk  ♡ jihobis  ♡ jihoep  ♡ jihopr  ♡ jijams   ♡ jimineh  ♡ jiminth  ♡ jinned  ♡ jinprinces  ♡ jinxflight  ♡ jisoo-pls  ♡ joashua  ♡ jonginnipple  ♡ joshuaslips  ♡ jshuahong  ♡ jsutoneday ♡  jungh4n  ♡ justonetae  ♡ justsaltae  ♡ juwunghan  ♡ kiminguy  ♡ kimseoksjin  ♡ kimseukjin  ♡ kimtaejhyung  ♡ kinghoshi  ♡ kintaehyung  ♡ kkimgyukyungisoo  ♡
L - P

ladysuho  ♡ leeseokminbabe  ♡ lilbunjk  ♡ lilhobi  ♡ maxgyu  ♡ memeguk  ♡ milkshua  ♡ mingbaos  ♡ minghaon  ♡ minghowcute  ♡ mingyus-eyebrows  ♡ minseok-tea  ♡ minsugapd  ♡ mint-ee  ♡ mintgyuminyuki  ♡ mngyusgf  ♡ muskdrop  ♡ mvngyu  ♡ mysonhoseok  ♡ naeunsgf  ♡ namistae  ♡ napplng  ♡ nerdynamjoon  ♡ noflexyoongi  ♡ noon-jam  ♡ nuneon  ♡ oddlittleromeo  ♡ ohhoseok  ♡ overallwoozi  ♡ p-jeon  ♡ paerkbom  ♡ paerkjimin  ♡ paraxiute  ♡ parkjiminis  ♡ parkjiminsass  ♡ parkjiminz  ♡ pingkeujin  ♡ pl4ntboy  ♡ pocketjimin  ♡ pretaebut  ♡ princeyeoll  ♡ prncessjin  ♡
R - S

rapm-nster  ♡ rapmanster  ♡ rapmunsters  ♡ rapperhyung  ♡ rnamjoon  ♡ seokm-n  ♡ seokminlee  ♡ seokmint  ♡ seokmoo  ♡ seungcholy  ♡ seungcool  ♡ seungheols  ♡ seungkwun  ♡ seungskwan  ♡ seunkgwan  ♡ seventecn  ♡ sevngkwans  ♡ shiningjisoo  ♡ silverscoups  ♡ sinoshijakh  ♡ sir-wonwoo  ♡ so-sonyeondumb  ♡ stopsvt  ♡ stopwoozi  ♡ suengkwan  ♡ svntny  ♡ syubbunny syubdaddy  ♡
T - Y

taechims  ♡ taeguk  ♡ taehvyngs  ♡ taekook  ♡ taeslegs  ♡ taesthetic  ♡ taestysuga  ♡ taettoo  ♡ taosbaby  ♡ tastethekookie  ♡ tbhobi  ♡ the8ght  ♡ thickyungsoo  ♡ thirstaetae  ♡ tttaehyung  ♡ vegtaebles  ♡ vertnon  ♡ vmiin  ♡   vttae  ♡ w-ozi  ♡ wasabihobi  ♡ wenhannn  ♡ withseokjin  ♡ wohoseok  ♡ wonwoo-wow  ♡ wonwooo-ssi  ♡ wonwoos-sweaterpaws  ♡  wonxoo  ♡ woopyun  ♡ woozis-mom  ♡ wooziwaves  ♡ wvzi  ♡ yerisway  ♡ yoongibye  ♡ yoongihigh  ♡ yoongikawaii  ♡ yoongisqt  ♡ you-make-me-woozi