viktor's motivational board still makes me wheeze. (also you and keilattes??? incredible. i never knew i needed this in my life. you're both just so ... good ... i )
ahh thank you!!! I’m glad you liked the random collab thing hahah and I agree??? @keilattes is great??? you can put any of kei’s yuuri’s on the motivational board and it’ll be 100/10. look at this masterpiece
feeling that one is constantly being followed / stalked
feeling that one is secretly being spied on by family, partners, friends, others, pets and / or inanimate objects
feelings of fear over being kidnapped (usually by a stranger)
feeling that one is constantly being watched (by unknown entities or known entities)
feeling that one is being ridiculed by family, partners, friends and / or others
feeling that one is being spied on or monitored by the government, FBI etc.
feeling that family members, partners, friends, others, pets and / or inanimate objects are secretly conspiring to kill oneself
feeling like is being or will be poisoned by others
other paranoia related
feelings of fear over being abducted by aliens
feeling that there will be an imminent disaster (earthquake, fire, plane crash etc)
feeling that others can read one’s mind
feeling like the world is ending or about to end
feeling like one’s thoughts are being stolen out of or planted into their minds
feelings that the world isn’t real and is fake i.e. a set of some kind with actors or a computer simulation etc (different from the truman show delusion)
feeling that inanimate objects are somehow sentient
feeling like other people do not really exist, are dead or have been in a terrible accident
feeling that one is a god or deity
feeling that one has magical powers i.e. mind reading, control over the weather etc
feeling that one is indestructible or unimaginably strong
feeling that another person or other people (usually celebrities) are in love with oneself
feelings that one is dying, is already dead or does not exist (cotard delusion)
feelings of different people being a single person (fregoli delusion)
feeling like one’s reflection in a mirror is some other person (mirrored-self delusion)
feeling that family, partners, friends and / or pets have been replaced by identical fakes (capgras delusion)
feeling like the world only exists inside one’s head (solipsism delusion)
feeling that one is living in a reality TV show (truman show delusion)
feeling like one has an identical
doppelgänger with a different (usually malicious) personality and life (subjective doubles delusion)
feeling like other people swap identities with each other without changing appearance (intermetamorphosis delusion)
feeling like one doesn’t belong to one’s body or doesn’t own parts of one’s body (somatoparaphrenia delusion)
feeling like a person, place, object, or body part has been duplicated or transported somewhere else (reduplicative paramnesia delusion)
a delusion is a belief or impression maintained despite being contradicted by reality or rational argument, if you are experiencing one or more of these delusions you may have a psychotic disorder or a disorder with psychotic symptoms
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I’ve been exploring monosexism and the concept of privilege a lot lately. I was just reading a Facebook conversation, among bisexuals, about how we (supposedly) have “passing privilege”. And it really made a lot of stuff gel for me.
The problem is that by calling it passing privilege, we confuse it with what is usually meant by privilege.
You do not have to pay for privilege. You can’t pay for privilege.
I am white; I have white privilege no matter what I do.
There is a whole system in place that puts a ton of money and effort and privilege into giving me and other white people privilege by stealing from people of color.
I can choose to play into and support that system to perhaps, arguably, access a little more of that privilege, and to help keep the racist system going.
Or I can work to unlearn racism and learn the ways I have been feeding the system, and work to cut them off, and work to support and defend people of color.
But I don’t earn white privilege through some kind of points system. It’s just there.
If I have to pay for privilege by giving up who I am, lying about who and what I am, hiding my past and present, then it is not privilege. By definition. Because I am paying for it - paying a very high price.
If safety and danger are thrust upon me at random based on people’s perception of me – as they are also done with my gender, as a genderqueer, and as they are done to gays and lesbians all the time as well – then that, likewise, is not privilege. It is Russian roulette.
This does not only happen to bi/pan and trans people, of course. Asexuals get the same bullshit. Biracial people get it. All sorts of light-skinned people of color get it. Femme women of all types get it. Butch gay, bi, ace, and trans men get it. Intersex people get it. People with invisible disabilities get it. All us liminal people get it. Who am I leaving out?
Privilege is when you have access to safety and acceptance that others don’t, based on things you cannot control.
It especially becomes a problem when we accept it and use it and (no matter how obliviously or intentionally) support the harm of others.
Whether that’s active, like telling bi people that we should stop whining about erasure, or passive, like ignoring bi experience, politics, and culture in favor of the vicious cycle of bias confirmation.
(Like only hearing about bi history as bits of tiny scraps in the context of gay history, where it’s not mentioned when major figures were actually bi, or when something specific to the bi community happened. And then assuming that’s an accurate picture of community history instead of specifically of one piece of our community. And then assuming that bi people are in the minority, don’t do much of the work, and don’t have many problems. And then assuming that people who say differently are being divisive and self-centered, because they aren’t really oppressed, because you haven’t heard anything that says they are, so….)
Passing is not privilege. It is a form of blackmail, a threat.
“Pretend you are gay in this community, pretend you are straight in that one, and pass, and we’ll treat you as we treat each other. Admit you are bisexual, and we will take you down.”
That is not what privilege sounds like. That is what it looks like when people WITH privilege turn on you.
You can also tell it’s not privilege, because the same communities that shame and reject us when we DON’T pass, immediately turn around and use “passing privilege” to tell us we’re not oppressed – and certainly not oppressed by them!
The word for that isn’t “privilege”. It’s “abusive mindfuck”.
The reason I like
Doctor Falls AU is that you can literally use it for any crossover you want, haha, for more stuff look through the Doctor Falls au tag in my blog. Support me on Patreon, same username.
i spent too much time on this– so I’ve been toying with the idea of an RPG!AU! Despite the fact that I know next to nothing about D&D or fantasy/RPG settings… (fhkdjs blame my nerris muse for this…) The colours are in no way final, either. Preston gave me a hell of a time…
They’re all older as well! Anywhere from mid-late teens/early-20s. I have most of the cast’s classes and alignments sorted out; I would’ve started out with the main 3, but Max and Nikki are harder for me to nail a design for.
Hit me up if you’ve got some thoughts on this or would like to know about the other characters before I draw them!
I’ll put all my current headcanons for these 3 under the cut ↓
↓ (Classes are loosely based on the many from D&D, but I wanted to keep things flexible so m(_ _)m)