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(first part)

i was talking abt this earlier kind of in jest but i really do have like. impostor syndrome w regards to my fandom/internet presence. i only remade and started posting a lot on here less than a year ago and i already have well over a thousand followers and steadily climbing from there. people say they like my jokes, like my meta and essays. people claim to like my art. i have fics that people say they like on ao3. but. how could they possibly? its all shit and garbage. it’s all terrible and i’m embarrassed by everything i make and one day people are gonna catch on and i’m gonna be laughed at.

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Charity: You don’t mean that.

Taz: No, I do. I really do. Look, you said it yourself, I’m old as dirt. I’ve been around a long time, and I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but this doesn’t feel like one of them. This feels… comfortable.

Charity: You say “comfortable” almost like it’s a bad thing.

Taz: It’s not. I swear, it’s not. I just meant – this feels safe, I guess. I mean… that sounds kind of bad, too, doesn’t it? God, I’m bad at this–

Charity: It’s okay. I think I know what you mean.

like people keep reblogging that nahyuta text post abt his scarf and I’m just sitting here staring at it like “this isn’t funny. this blatantly reads like 8th grade SO RANDUM humor and I didn’t format the joke right. I fucked up the punchline. why do people think this is funny.” And it’s literally stressing me out