symptoms,

How to tell that it's getting bad again:

- I sleep to much or not at all
-I eat too much or too little
-I sound disinterested in everything
-Be spaced out a lot
- I will ramble a lot or not talk at all
-I lose track of time
- I make cynical comments, usually about myself
-I push people away
-I tend to rub my eyes and head a lot
-I avoid eye contact
-I am always shakey
-I will avoid certain conversations

Reading up symptoms for your disorder like

-do that

-do that too

-sorta do that 

-do that 

-would probably do that if it weren’t for the other disorder

-do that

-wait that isn’t normal?

-do that

*easily has enough symptoms to qualify for a diagnosis*

-wait there’s one more symptom on the list

-I don’t do that

-well obviously I’m faking and I don’t really have it

C-PTSD Symptoms

Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder is a type of PTSD that is caused by severe, repeated trauma, such that involves captivity, manipulation, and entrapment. It is trauma that is long-term and involves an inability for escape. This trauma occurs long enough to deform one’s sense of identity and self.

There is no mandated list of criteria for C-PTSD in the DSM-5, but there are six clusters of symptoms that are currently used for diagnosis. These major, core symptoms of C-PTSD are:

  • Emotional Dysregulation - This involves severe mood swings/dysphoria, impulsive behaviour, self-harm, and suicidal preoccupations. This could result in explosive anger, or extremely inhibited anger, or both. It could also result in either compulsive or extremely inhibited sexuality (i.e. hypersexuality or sex repulsion/trauma-induced asexuality, or both.) This also involves difficulty expressing and communicating emotions.
  • Consciousness Instability - Forgetting traumatic events or reliving them is a part of a struggle with consciousness. Sometimes reliving trauma can be either through intrusive thought, or preoccupation with the trauma. This also involves dissociation, which can cause severe consciousness interruption and memory gaps.
  • Self-Perception Issues - The trauma that causes C-PTSD messes with the ego, so its symptoms results in a skewed perception of self. One might feel helpless, full of shame and guilt, like a constant victim or a horrible person, feel defiled and disgusting, and/or believe they are completely separate from other human beings altogether.
  • Distorted Views of the Perpetrator - Becoming preoccupied with a perpetrator, whether it’s allotting total power to them, developing a preoccupation with them (such as revenge or seeking to find others exactly like them), or clinging onto the idea of being special to the perpetrator, would all be examples of distorted views.
  • Struggle With Interpersonal Relationships - Avoidance, distrust, paranoia, a sense of inability to connect with others. One with C-PTSD might also be constantly searching for a ‘saviour’ figure, and could also go to great lengths for self-protection.
  • Loss or Change in System of Meanings - The beliefs one held before trauma changing or going away completely, such as religious faith, or one being succumbed with despair or feeling like there is no hope.

Outside of the six clusters of general symptoms, the other symptoms often associated with C-PTSD are:

  • Revictimization - Those with C-PTSD are particularly vulnerable to abuse and exploitation. Many will be revictimized if they are not taught how to read red flags, as those with C-PTSD may seek to relieve trauma without realizing it because they don’t know anything else.
  • Hypervigilance - Increased anxiety and sensory input will make the survivor hyperaware of everything in their environment. This may result in paranoia, in extreme jumpiness, etc. Someone with C-PTSD will be constantly feeling like they are in a dangerous situation, and thus be hypervigilant due to that. (This may cause someone to be constantly in fight mode, or flight mode, or freeze mode, etc.)
  • Unexplained Physical Symptoms - Hypervigilance exhausts the body. This is what most professionals believe leads to chronic pain, gastrointestinal issues, headaches, nausea, chest pain, and various other physical symptoms that range from mild to severe. This pain cannot be explained by other existing medical conditions.
  • Dissociation - Degrees of dissociation range. It is common for those with C-PTSD to deal with chronic dissociation, which can lead to emotional numbness, feeling unable to focus, inability to connect to one’s identity or reality (depersonalization and derealization), and memory loss. To a severe degree, it may result in identity splitting, which would lead to comorbidity with Dissociate Identity Disorder.
  • Substance Abuse - It’s not uncommon for those with C-PTSD to struggle with substance abuse, whether it’s alcohol, drugs, smoking, etc. Some may also use sexual contact in the same way.
  • Attachment Issues - C-PTSD can cause various problems with attachment, including hyperempathy or a lack of empathy, an inability to accurately perceive other people’s motives, isolation, seeking out codependency, feeling unable to depend on others at all, and not knowing where personal boundaries lie for themselves or others.
  • Cognition Problems - Executive dysfunction, inability to pay attention, communication problems, sensory overload, object impermanence.

Fun Fact~


이통” means “ear ache”, but is rarely used. It is derived from Hanja, where “” means “ear”  and “” comes from “증” which means “pain” “ache” or “agony”.

If you have an earache, you can say “귀가 아파요” which means “My ear hurts”. 

#WednesdayWisdom

5 Signs You’re Going Through A Spiritual Awakening

 A spiritual awakening can be a frightening experience to go through, particularly in a society that discourages asking questions. The following is a list of symptoms that you can expect to encounter along your journey. 

Don’t worry - you’re not going crazy, you’re becoming highly aware and it’s a process of adjustment.

1. You’re questioning things you never used to. You may start to question why you are expected to do or not do certain things. You might start to wonder why you have find a job, get married, have children or anything else your parents expect you to do. Stay calm and try to have rational discussions with your parents and see if you can come to a conclusion that makes sense for you.

2. You’re experiencing dramatic highs and lows. One day you might feel on top of the world and the next you might feel lower than you’ve ever been. This is a sign that you’re raising your vibration or elevating your consciousness. This is a common symptom whilst experiencing an awakening and is a great sign to watch out for. Try to observe your mental state over time by keeping a journal.

3. You don’t resonate with people you used to. You start to see people’s true intentions and understand why they behave the way they do. You may start to realise that friends you thought had your best interest at heart were actually using you for their own gain. Don’t judge them - recognise what their intentions are and distance yourself.

4. Your behaviour is changing dramatically. You may have once been the life and soul of the party and now you prefer to be alone. You may decide to stop consuming certain foods or drugs and you might break up with your current partner. These behavioural changes occur because your perspective is shifting and you need time away from others who aren’t yet awake to integrate new experiences.

5. You’re seeking answers. The stories you were once told don’t make sense anymore and you are now seeking more concrete answers. Whether it be the origin of the universe, religion or where our food comes from - you want answers that make sense to you instead of the ones you’re presented with. This thirst for knowledge will cause you to seek out knowledge and through this you will develop your own truths about the world you live in.

Along the journey of spiritual awakening you will encounter many people who are still “asleep” - recognise them and leave them to continue with their journey. It is not your responsibility to awaken them, they will learn in their own time - lead by example instead of trying to preach to others.

Keep in mind that it is dangerous to wake someone who is sleepwalking.

Peace & positive vibes.

BPD Symptoms and Features

**please note: the following post was originally posted by kellyann-graceful-warrior and has been reposted here by me and bolded and italicized to reflect which symptoms i feel apply to myself**

BPD is a chronic mental disorder of emotional dysregulation+hypersensitivity due to factors such as:

-A result of an overactive autonomic nervous system (fight or flight- functions associated to panic, anxiety, anger reactions, etc)
-An under-active parasympathetic nervous system (The system that is responsible to regulate the autonomic nervous system)
-Less active and smaller in volume abnormalities in the limbic system which has functions linked to: emotional reactions, memory, decision making, motivation, behavior, learning and developmental ability, thought pattern, instincts, psychotic symptoms, seizures, and senses/the way the body perceives external stimuli.
-Reduced volume in frontal lobe which has functions linked to: decision making, communication responses, ability to comprehend consequences, emotional-based memories and triggers, and relations to people, events and situations.
-Abnormal blood flow to parts of the brain that control emotions, resulting in one to be more reactive
-Emotional reactions firing off 20% longer
-A ton of other factors

Here are the 9 main symptoms noted in the criteria and research.

1. Extreme reactions to real or perceived/feared abandonment, rejection, or criticism

2. Splitting and idealization/devaluation

3. Identity disturbance- impoverished self image/self esteem and sense of self, dysphoria, despising ones self, and extreme instability and no direction towards the future, aspirations, goals, [career] plans, values, etc

4. Impulsive behavior- a sense of urgency to relieve intensity of emotions from stimuli, often self damaging (spending sprees, binge eating, steal, substance abuse, etc).

5. Reoccurring suicidal behavior/ideations (gestures, extensive thoughts, planning, role playing) and self-harm

6. Intense rapid cycling of affective instability due to hypersensitivity+dysregulation reactions

7. Depressive symptoms- chronic feelings of emptiness, frequent feelings of being miserable, shame, self-inferiority, and extreme difficulty recovering from such feelings

8. Intense anger and/or aggression reactions- frequent anger easily triggered from incidents

9. Paranoia/panic and dissociation reactions (often in response to stresses/anxieties)
[People with BPD may often experience reactions/episodes of psychosis- paranoia, hallucinations, delusions, body dysmorphic figures, etc, as well]

Then there are hundreds of other symptoms and features to this very complex, and unfortunately, highly stigmatized and misunderstood disorder. Here are a few indicated in research.
(Note- One with the disorder may display some or most of these, but nothing is guaranteed as each person with the disorder is an individual, so don’t use these as assumptions. Some may not have the same symptoms as others, and no person with it is portrayed the same way.
They are rather a guideline to mental health workers because they are often seen and developed from the disorder and symptoms).

(ALSO NOTE- Others without it can obviously ‘display/relate’ to some of this from time to time once you take a look, but the reasoning, cause, severity, and pattern is different and this is a chronic disorder.Please note it’s completely different than that and that this post is just for awareness/education purposes since not many know about it- how to deal, what to expect, etc.
Percentages show that 8/10 of these individuals attempt suicide, while 1/10 complete it. Stigma and assumptions don’t help, but awareness does.

10. Anxiety, nervousness

11. Headaches/migraines are common

12. Seizures

13. Higher nociception (pain tolerance)- Studies show alterations in pain processing in over 50% of those with BPD. The result of this comes from different systematic responses and antinociception and may be a result of long-term self harm behavior in some cases).

14. Distorted/irregular eating patterns- reduced food intake, impoverished diet, etc

15. Obsessive compulsive features- intrusive thoughts in the thought pattern/processes, repetitive behavior as a result of self harm, paranoia, distress, etc, and repetitive speech, to name a few

16. Self discipline/work orientation as a result of OCD features

17. Attachment

18. Extreme reckless-daring behavior

19. Baiting

20. Unstable relationships

21. “Always” and “Never” statements/reactions (splitting)

22. Sleep deprivation or irregular sleeping patterns

23. Voice changing

24. “Acting out”

25. Extreme curiosity and interest  

26. Dependency

27. Sarcasm

28. Promiscuity

29. Mimicking/mirroring

30. Flashbacks

31.
Nightmares  

32. Difficulty processing information

33. Difficulty focusing and concentrating and poor attention span

34. Consistent/radical change of appearance

35. Certain feelings of fear, negativity, or rejection of authority/people of “high importance” in their mind.

36. Alluring/seductive behavior

37. Extreme need for acceptance

38. A need to prove themselves over and over as identity may be graded on a scale of what was done that very day

39. Extreme apathy, boredom, dullness, and indifference

40. ‘Flat affect”- lack of emotional reactivity and inability to express/show emotions due to depression, absence of emotional response

41. Creative thinking

42. Studies show some are able to read others easily from such hypersensitivity; however, often mistaking neutrality as anger probably as a result of symptoms


43. Isolation

44. Defensive


45. Magical thinking (assumed correlation, interconnection, etc)

46. Fantasizing

47. Panic attacks

48. Anxiety Attacks


49. Hypersensitivity to caffeine, alcohol, some sugars and foods. Often described as being “allergic” to such things as it causes reactions from hypersensitivity and symptoms.

50. Memory lapses- a result of dissociation, intense reactions, etc

51. Extreme perfectionism

52. Avoidance

53. Euphoric reactions

54. Detachment

55.
Avoidance of eye contact

56. Difficulty transitioning with life aspects such as changes to plans and arrangements

57. Difficulty with awareness

58. Sensitivity to senses- light, sounds, temperatures, etc- from hypersensitivity  

59. Resistance

60. Difficulty with decision making, poor decisions, and/or indecisiveness, insecurity

61. Difficulty completing tasks

62.Rapid” or excessive speech

63. Restlessness, difficulty relaxing, feelings of “being on edge.”

64. Extreme sense of security, comfort, and connection with animals/nature and inanimate objects such as transitional objects

65. Undermining a goal, success, or relationship

66. Often occurs with PMDD (Premenstrual dysphoric disorder) or worse reactions to menstrual cycles because of the hypersensitive and systematic changes

67. Extreme difficulty and lack of object consistency (inability to recall that people or objects are ‘still there,’ consistent, and reliable when they are not currently being physically seen/there and difficulty maintaining these feelings

68. Flight of ideas, racing thoughts, rapid thought patterns

69. Brief remission of symptoms in response to certain events (positive reactions)

70. Disrupted or delayed life aspects- education, relationships, jobs, etc

No particular order. If you may need a source, example, description/explanation for more understanding for any of these, feel free to ask :)

another coping post, people have told me to update it a bit and not limit the skills to delusions and auditory hallucinations. so now, the bigger and better coping post for psychotic symptoms (not just schizophrenia!) and i won’t do the “keep reading” thing, even though it’s a veeeery big post, because i kind of want people to see it. 

First off

try to manage your stress - psychotic symptoms has quite a lot to with stress. it’s also important for any mental health issue. 

don’t “self-medicate” - marijuana has shown to make psychotic symptoms worse and makes the risk of falling back into a psychosis bigger. other substances that can trigger/worsen/even cause psychotic symptoms are cocaine, speed, crystal meth, ecstasy, LSD, magic mushrooms and ketamine

take care of yourself - selfcare, mindfulsness, exercise, eat reguraly and healthy, sleep well… you get the idea.

know your early signs - it’s good to know when you start getting signs of another episode, so you can adjust your medication or talk to your doctor more often so you can avoid another episode. early signs may be sleeping less or more, isolation, being annoyed or thinking “is medication even necessery?” i

don’t isolate youself - this is a early symptom for me, before i get a psychotic episode, i often isolate myself and hate the world. that often lead to me being alone with my delusions and they get worse. so try to see friends often, especially when you have early signs. 

Auditory hallucinations

relax - voices are often caused by stress, so try to focus on your breathing.

distract yourself - focus on a task or watch tv.

ask your voices a question, that you dont know the answer to - if they dont know the answer the voices must be coming from within you.

background sounds - people have reported that listening to music or having the tv on sort of drowns the voices.

talk back to your voices - ask them to leave and say no if they order you to do things, remind yourself who’s in control.

know your triggers - it may help to keep a diary of when the voices are more active.

medication - modern anti-psychotics are 80-90% effective in revieling voices and will often make them disappear.

hum or sing - it drowns the voices as well as distract you.

read out loud - same with hum or sing

open your mouth really wide - i have no idea why or if this works, but you can try it! 

just a symptom - try to think of your voices as just a symptom, and not something that has a special meaning. after all, it’s just a random thought you can hear.


Visual hallucinations

this is quite a hard one, i haven’t experienced much visual hallucinations, so i don’t personally know what works and what doesn’t. and i don’t find much about it on internet. if you have any coping skills for visual hallucinations, let me know and i’ll include it! 

take a picture - if you’re unsure something is there you can try taking a picture 

turn away - or break eye contact, leave the room. if you don’t see it it’s not there 

shine on them  - if you see shadows you can try shining light on them from your phone flashlight 

medication - well, yeah, you get the idea. they work. 

five senses method -  acknowledge five things you can see; four things you can touch; three things you can hear; two things you can smell; one things you can taste. 

•  keep your pet near - if you have a pet it may help to tell you if something is real or not. if your pet doesn’t react you can assume it’s not real. 


Delusions

distraction - try to take your mind of it, even though it’s not that simple.

give them facts - checking facts and statistics may help

talk about them - in my case, the more i talked about my thoughts, the more unrealistic they seemed. That may not happen to everyone, but it is helpful to talk about them.

know your trigggers - delusions are also good to know when they’re more active.

medication - antipsychotis aren’t just helping for your hallucinations, but other symptoms as well - including delusions.


Disorganized speech

• count from one to three - start by thinking about (visualizing) the numbers in your head and focus on them before saying them aloud to align thought and speech centres of your brain.


Other symptoms 

trust me, i really wish i knew how to cope with the other symptoms. i don’t personally have much advice, and i can’t find much on internet, but if any of you know how to cope with these symptoms*, let me know and i’ll include it!

*some other symptoms are:

negative symtptoms - this could be not having energy, feeling indifferent towards things and gestures may decrease. 

catatonic behaviour - a bit more rare. it’s when the person stops moving and can be completely still for a long period of time. 

disorganized behaviour - appears as a decline in overall daily functioning, unpredictable or inappropriate emotional responses, behaviors that can appear bizarre and have no purpose, lack of impulse control. 

trouble thinking -  having too much thoughts or having slow thoughts

trouble functioning in social situations, isolation, trouble handling jobs or everyday chores. 


also, a big thank you to you guys who come with advice, you’re awesome 

you are 100% RIGHT if you believe i am faking and lying about having a Disorder because i use every bit of strength inside my body and soul to bury the toxic disgusting symptoms deep inside my head so nobody thinks i’m a nasty person and i can be liked and validated!! you are completely correct, if i don’t show the symptoms and hide the thoughts then i don’t have the Disorder at all! fantastic, i am Free.

Fun Schizophrenia Things (TM)

For all the neurotypicals that think its quirky and edgy, this is my reality living with schizophrenia

  1. not bathing for weeks on end
  2. Losing hours of your memory
  3. Dissociating while driving and almost crashing your car
  4. Hearing/Seeing things worse than any horror movie has shown you
  5. Being utterly alone because everyone in your life has deemed you too difficult to be around
  6. Forgetting to eat
  7. Involuntary twitching/body positioning
  8. Believing that you’re actually dead
  9. Thinking the pictures on the wall are watching you
  10. People fearing you as soon as you tell them you have schizophrenia
  11. Intrusive thoughts about murder, crime and other unpleasant things
  12. Believing a person/place doesn’t exist anymore or that they’ve been replaced by a double or clone.
  13. Agressive narcissism
  14. Believing you are a god
  15. believing you are always being watched
  16. believing you have inhuman powers
  17. Believing that things not even remotely related to you are referencing you
  18. Believing outside influences are controlling your actions (extraterrestrials, gods, etc.)

I could go on for hours, but this is just a sample. It’s not fun. We’re not a bunch of Harley Quinn’s. Quit being ignorant and educate yourself.

Thank you

Spoonie Problems: The sudden onset of overwhelming exhaustion. Like one minute you’re fine and the next you can’t even keep your eyes open. It literally takes too much effort to keep your eyes open.

anonymous asked:

Could you tell me about mythomaniacs/pathological liars? Do they lie even if they don't need to? All the time? Sorry if this question if too broad.

It’s important to know that “pathological lying” is not a diagnosable disorder, and as such there isn’t agreed-upon criteria for what that term actually means.

However, in doing my research on this, I found a fairly amazing and comprehensive thesis about pathological lying that could be incredibly useful if you plan to write a pathological liar! (See here - it’s literally an entire book on this topic. It’s a little on the technical side, but I might be able to help you out on specific terms if you need me to).

Here’s the gist of the symptoms that are described (you don’t have to have your character have all of them; just pick and choose a couple):

  • They lie much more often than is socially acceptable.

  • The lies are told with no apparent purpose or material gain to the character - they fulfill a psychological need, not a physical one. Some possible motivations include:
    • Wanting to sound interesting
    • Because they were bored
    • They want to be the center of attention
    • The lies are wish fulfillment
    • They want sympathy
    • The lying may be automatic.

  • The lies portray the character in a positive light, especially stories of the character being heroic, or playing the victim 
    • Note - lies about military service or taking part in espionage are relatively common

  • The character doesn’t take responsibility for their lies easily. They deny they’re lying, and when challenged, will keep the lie going by telling more lies, or become aggressive. However, they can admit they were lying if confronted with enough evidence.

  • They have trouble controlling or stopping their urges to lie.

  • The lies build up on top of each other and can get out of control.

  • The character may be aware they’re lying, but oftentimes, they have trouble admitting it. They might even believe their own lies.

  • Other people are capable of telling that the lies aren’t true.

  • The lies can seem odd or illogical to others. Sometimes, they’re incredibly trivial (e.g., lying about what they had for breakfast)

  • The character does often feel bad after lying, but they can’t stop themselves.

  • They keep telling lies despite the risk of hurting their relationships and reputation (to the point of losing a job, relationship, or opportunity because of it)

  • The character is really sensitive to criticism and rejection, and a lot of the times they lie to try to make people admire them or at least think well of them.

  • They try to deceive others rather than admit to their mistakes or wrongdoings

Hope that helps! 


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