Since I joined tumblr, I simply expressed all my feelings through blogging: Happiness, sadness, anger. I didn’t know how to show them on the outside, so I took a keyboard and write down what I have inside. Converting my feelings into words, and that was that. The empty sheet was my greatest confidence. Nothing more. But now, I have you by my side. I can express everything, and you receives it completely. With that, I can’t blog like I did before. However, I believe, I’m doing better.
I know that I’m not completely over you. I still see your face everytime I close my eyes, you always cross my mind and invade my dreams. But don’t worry, I know this craziness won’t last forever. Soon, hearing your name, seeing your pictures, even talking to you will no longer affect me. ;)
Kapag nagmahal ka, wag mong pagsisihan ang mga bagay na ginawa mo para sa kanya. Kahit na parang wala lang ito sa kanya. Ang pagsisihan mo ay ‘yung mga bagay na hindi mo nagawa habang pinapakita mong mahal mo sya. Baka kase 'yun pa yung kulang na hinahanap nya.
I have this song in my mind that automatically plays whenever I think of you. But the thing is, I really don’t know the title, artist or the exact lyrics. I just heard this song a week ago. So I just keep on humming along to it. it’s really frustrating that I can’t even Google it. >.< It’s like na~nanana~nana~naa…. Oh God, why am I doing this :|
I’ll assume you like me too. That’s the only thing I can fancy for now. You haven’t told me anything yet. I’m clueless (I chose to be clueless). Still, I don’t want to lose this feeling. And I can’t imagine myself liking someone else like this. Don’t worry, I’m okay. I just need a little hope. That’s all.
These thoughts makes me happy, for a while. At least, I’m happy. And… it’s because of you. I made all these thoughts because of you… It’s always you.
Ganun pala talaga. Kahit gaano ka pa kahanda. Kahit naisip mo na lahat ng posibleng mangyari kapag sinabi mo ang mga salitang ‘yun, kung hindi mo naman maririnig 'yung inaaasahan mong sagot. Masakit pa rin. Ang akala ko kapag nasabi ko na yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya, giginhawa na yung pakiramdam ko kahit ano pang maging tugon nya. Mali pala ako.
Parang pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa. Yung pakiramdam na hawak ni kamatayan yung puso mo, tapos unti-uning humihigpit. Unti-unti kang pinapatay. Ganun yung pakiramdam sa dibdib.
Sakit na hindi mo talaga matitiis.
Sana hindi ko na lang sinabi.
'di sana, okay pa tayo ngayon. Sana walang nagbago. Kahit, magkaibigan lang tayo.