sweet remedy

So hello from the other side
I must’ve called a thousand times
To tell you I’m sorry, for everything that I’ve done - Hello

I was running, you were walking
You couldn’t keep up, you were falling down 
There’s only one way down - Send my love to your new lover

I want every single piece of you
I want your heaven and your oceans too
Treat me soft but touch me cruel - I miss you

Cause you feel like home
You’re like a dream come true - When we were young

No river is too wide or too deep for me to swim to you
Come whenever I’ll be the shelter that won’t let the rain come through - Remedy

It’s so cold in your wilderness
I want you to be my keeper
But not if you are so reckless - Water under the bridge

Sometimes I feel lonely in the arms of your touch
But I know that’s just me cause nothing ever is enough - River Lea

Please don’t fall apart
I can’t face your breaking heart
I’m trying to be brave
Stop asking me to stay - Love in the dark

I wish I could live a little more
Look up to the sky, not just the floor
I feel like my life is flashing by
And all I can do is watch and cry - Million years ago

Take me by the hand while we do what lovers do
It matters how this ends
Cause what if I never love again? - All I ask

And there is something ‘bout the way you love me
That finally feels like home
All my life, you’re my darkness
You’re the right kind of madness - Sweetest devotion

i. He was a ball of fire and energy, roaring with joy and happiness. Laughing with him was like second nature, inevitable in his presence. He brought warmth when he came and left good memories when he was gone. He was eccentric jazz notes on the streets of New York, fingers flying across a piano and a sense of delight. His smile left me with butterflies flitting over my stomach, leaving cloud-light kisses and traces of yellow and sunset orange. He brought out everyone’s inner child, for better or for worse. And when you needed someone to listen, he was always there with words like sweet remedies.

ii. He was smooth to touch, a polished surface and an easy smile. He was the kind of boy that didn’t have to do much to make you feel pretty. He was the kind of boy that could be your best friend and the love of your life at the same time. And when he was gone, he didn’t leave butterflies that needed to be tamed, but the peaceful wash of the ocean that comforted the knot in your stomach. I learned too late that his appearance was merely a cover for his jagged heart, and when I tried to smooth it down, he paid me no heed. He believed that he could only fill the empty holes with attention and love, and I knew he could not be saved, not now at least. We knew it wouldn’t last, but when I remember him, it is always good. He was the kind of boy you love forever, but always at a distance.

iii. He was cheerful and charming, the perfect romantic. The good boy, smart and sensible, everyone agreed. I fell in love with the spray of freckles smattered across his cheeks and how his hazel eyes faded to green at the bottoms. The way he spoke to me convinced me that I was the only girl he would ever love, and a smile that wrapped me in warm blankets and sang me to sleep under the stars. He was protection, safety, home. We were alike in the sense that when we loved, we loved deeply and truly, and even when it was over, it would linger. We are still friends, and I would trust him with my life. That much will always be the same.

—  boys that will always have a piece of my heart // can you guess which one I still love?
Break time!

Hi guys! I know I said I might be able to post something earlier, but I’m waaaay too tired and nothing‘s coming out right now. So I’ve decided to take the pressure off a bit. I’m taking a little break (from posting, not writing) to catch up.

I’ll be posting a new chapter on Remedy, Savages or something new entirely on Wednesday probably! (maybe sooner, but definitely not later!) 

On another note: Thank you guys soooooooo fucking much for all the sweet messages (mostly regarding Remedy) It’s so great :) There’s some heavy stuff some of you are dealing with and I can hardly believe that this story, my writing, is helping in some small way. It’s so incredibly motivating! Even if my inspiration on a new chapter is stuck right now, it’s still inspiring to read it all. Your comments, likes, messages, etc make me want to write more and I always get so giddy reading them!

Thank you, thank you, thank you. (I can’t say that enough) I love you guys :) 

xxx <3