Messed up the way the colours crossed on my sweater shoulder, so did a controlled unravelling and reknit.
Not even obsessive geeks would have noticed my mistake, but it would have bothered me. Bonus life lesson: look how smooth the final fixed result is! Looking at that, you’d have no idea that it had been completely unravelled and repaired, no idea how long it took, how much I cried, how many friends and experts I reached out to for help, how many friends didn’t understand but were sympathetic, or just how long it’s going to take me to weave in all those loose ends, each of which was necessary but caused a headache.
You’d look at the finished result walking past you in the street and think ‘huh, cute sweater, nice, simple design’.
Nothing worth doing is easy, but sometimes it looks that way from the outside.
I’ve seen the paths that your eyes wander down. I want to come too.
The title of this series come from this song and it will be central to this series going forward, so as usual please feel free to give it a listen, and this whole idea was born from a request by the ever lovely @wellthatsrandomkek
Set in the aftermath of Civil War when Tony is attempting to heal and forgive, when he meets you at a chance meeting in a small town coffeeshop will both of your lives be affected forever? Also if you have seen the movie We Bought A Zoo (2011), I imagine reader’s fashion sense and general personality to be quite like Scarlet Johansson’s character Kelly. So her setting is going to be a ranger in a wildlife park.
Request:Tony has a lot on his mind and one day leaves the tower. He finds this small, cozy coffee shop and he can’t decide what to order. You (a regular) are behind him and orders for the both of you. You talk, swap numbers and proceed to text a lot. His whole mood lights up when he gets a text from you and he slowly falls in love with you. He loves the calm you give him and your gentle ways when he spends time with you.
Warnings: Sad Tony. Sad Reader.
Words: c, 1,600
The place was empty with half the
team missing. Vision was miserable and even if
Rhodey had told him a hundred times not to be so hard on him Tony
couldn’t quite bring himself to forgive him.
But he couldn’t help but pause to
wonder if Vision was who he was really angry at.
Or was it Steve?
Or all of the above?
He sighed and ran his hands over his
face, he felt exhausted and a lot older than he actually was.
He had to get out of this place, and
everything it reminded him of and so rising from his office chair, he grabbed
his coat and drove until he reached some small town he didn’t quite catch the
name of, and then pulling into a parking space on the side of the road he
spotted a small coffee shop and wearily
made his way inside.
He stood in line but he felt numb, and
his mind was certainly elsewhere by the time he heard the barista ask him his
He looked panicked up at the order
boards, and for some reason he couldn’t get his brain to work. He begged his
brain for help but he realised with a startle that he must have said it out
loud when a gentle hand reached for his arm.
“Are you alright?” you asked him
“I can’t!” he was shaking his head
gently “I have no idea what to order.”
“Any allergies to nuts?” you asked
and he shook his head slowly.
“Two hazelnut lattes,” you told the
barista and watched the man before you visibly relax, you had planned on simply
getting your coffee to go and driving back out to your ranch, but in that
instant your plans had changed and you knew you were going to sit with this
terrified stranger until he no longer looked quite so terrified.
One sip of his coffee and his brown
eyes locked with yours in concurrence.
“It’s good right?” you smiled gently,
stirring the contents of your own cup and he hmmed in agreement.
“Thanks, by the way,” he said softly
“back there I just sort of went blank and freaked out.”
“It happens,” you answered kindly and
offered him a warm smile, that he returned wearily, but genuinely.
“Did you get lost on the highway?”
you gently pressed and he looked at you questionly and you couldn’t help but
smile, he was in expensive jeans and you were pretty sure his sweater was
designer, you and everyone around you for that matter were in jeans, and yours
were slightly faded you’d had them so long.
“I mean you’re dressed a little too
well to be from anywhere around here.”
Catching your drift he chuckled
slightly, “I guess you could say that I did get a little lost,” in more ways than one he thought bitterly and ran a hand
over his face for good measure.
“Well then I guess of all places to
get lost, I’m glad you washed up here. You’ve saved me from a horrendously
“Is that right?” he perked up ever so
slightly “and why is that?”
You leaned in closer for emphasis,
“you have saved me from an afternoon of mowing grass, and potting plants.”
Tony smiled, “You know that doesn’t
sound so awful, it sounds quite therapeutic actually.”
“Ok now I really know you must be a
city boy!” you chuckled and he looked at you with an amused expression on his
“You don’t know who I am?” he asked
with a quirk of his head and you looked at him utterly perplexed, before
shaking your head.
“Should I know?”
“No, no you shouldn’t,” he exclaimed
and looked almost delighted that you didn’t, “My name is Tony,” he offered with
a genuine smile and you couldn’t help but smile back, “y/n.”
“So what brought you out here to the
middle of nowhere?” you tried gently and he looked at you for a moment as if he
was sizing you up.
“I had to get away for a bit. Things
were.. well everything’s sort of a mess really,” he looked so tired and so
dejected, that your heart caught a little in your chest.
“Can these things be fixed?” you
coaxed gently “If you try, can they be fixed?”
“I think so,” he answered with a
“Then try,” you almost whispered “The
only way to fail is by not trying and if whatever it is is making you this
unhappy then you owe it to yourself to try.”
He didn’t answer for a moment and you
thought maybe for a moment you had overstepped your mark.
“It’s just,” he began, but paused
until he looked at your expectant expression and something about you, your
aura, your whole being made him feel like it was safe to talk to you and he
found himself increasingly wishing he could just offload everything he had been
carrying for weeks upon you.
“What if you get hurt again?” you
finished for him softly and he damn near almost choked up as he nodded to you.
“Am I that obvious?” he tried to joke
but it fell flat.
You looked at him honestly for a
moment “I would recognise that look in your eyes anywhere.”
“I’m just. so. tired,” he told you
honestly “and I can’t face staying in that place any longer. It’s just too
empty, so I hit the road and I just drove until I couldn’t drive anymore and
here I am.”
“Well I’m glad of all the
coffeeshops, in all the towns you passed that this was the one that you chose.”
“Me too,” he told you honestly.
A few moments of comfortable silence
passed between you and when you looked up from your cup he was looking right at you,
really looking at you for the first time since he had sat down and it made your
cheeks heat up.
He opened his mouth to speak when his
ringtone interrupted the moment and when he saw Rhodey’s name on the screen he
“Yes, I’ll be there as soon as I
can,” he answer hurriedly and then rising from the table so quickly he almost
knocked it over, you struggled to keep up with the sudden change of pace and as
soon as he hung up he rounded on you in a rush and pulled you to him in a quick
“I’m sorry I have to go, you’ve been
so lovely and wonderful, but I have to go.”
You barely got a chance to answer him
when he was rushing out the door and disappearing out of sight, and you
collapsed back into your seat dazed, whispering “goodbye Tony,” under your
breath and mourning the loss of a man you didn’t even know.
As you turned off the road into your
driveway that evening, you were met by the head groundskeeper of the nature
park you worked and lived at and you smiled because just like that your life
was back to normal, almost as if you had never met a handsome stranger in the
middle of your local coffeeshop only a few hours before.
“I thought you’d never get back,” he
joked and you climbed out of your truck, pulling the various animal feeds you
had purchased in town on your way home.
“Eliza had to mow the lawns so you’re
officially in her bad books,” he joked and when you half smiled at him he
patted you reassuringly, “I know it’s been tough, I know you’re really going
through it right now, but hang in there. This place, the animals, all of us, we
really need you.”
You smiled then genuinely, and he
smiled back as he helped you carry some of the larger sacks up to the barn, and
as the sun set your mind wandered back to Tony, you hoped he could mend
whatever, whoever, was eating him up.
As for you, you would keep trying to do the same thing.
Tony lay awake listening to the silence. Can you even listen to silence he wondered, perhaps you could he decided after all. You definitely could if the sound of silence was what was keeping you awake. Right?
His mind wandered back to you for the thousandth time since he got back home..could he even call it home anymore?
What you had said to him about trying to fix things with Steve had struck a chord he didn’t even know he needed to hear, how had you known he was afraid of being hurt and why did he feel like you knew his pain a little too well? Why hadn’t he asked you that? Why hadn’t he caught onto that at the time?
Would he ever get a chance to ask you that now?
Would he ever even see you again?
He turned over and sighed deeply, he was idiot for not taking your number, and now he couldn’t stop thinking about you, shutting his eyes one more time in a futile attempt to get some sleep, he vowed to himself to track you down again. He simply could not live the rest of his life without talking to you again, the only person who had seen straight through him in years.
Getting out of bed he got up to throw some clothes into a small carry bag, he was going back to the small town he had accidentally stumbled upon earlier and he was going to find you. He had decided.
I made another sweater with dress/skirt design. The beige cardigan has a few buttons open up top and bottom. It’s based on an actual cardigan my roommate had in college. I loved it and would “steal” it (she knew) from her closet to wear all the time. It was a very old dark beige cardigan with hand stitched flowers and patterns on it.
This is the outfit my character Fiona wears a lot. The patterns/flowers don’t really show up much because it is light colored but I love it anyway.
Hey, everybody! I hit 5k a little while ago, and I figured I’d celebrate by compiling a list of all the things I’ve learned in the past few years that made my world a little brighter
if you can, read books you’re assigned for literature classes once through before you start reading and analyzing in class. you’ll have a better grip on plot, and won’t have to worry about falling behind.
carry water with you everywhere, and take a sip whenever you’re anxious
pick up a hobby that involves art or crafts, but isn’t stressful
schedule time every day to do absolutely nothing
schedule everything. having a plan works wonders on stress
learn about things that interest you in your free time
it is never to early to start preparing for something
get your outfits ready the night before, including shoes and makeup
wake up at 5 am. you get time to wake up in the morning, watch a sunrise, and have a good breakfast
you will be 110% more productive if you’re wearing shoes. i kid you not. it’s magic.
find a pen that you like? a) write the name down and b) order a ton of it
have a journal purely for your favorite memories and happy thoughts. when you get sad, you can pull it out and have a book of reasons life isn’t always awful
if you haven’t been taking care of yourself and it’s the middle of the night and you’re exhausted and you feel like shit and you just want to sleep but your stomach is grumbling and your mouth is dry, get up and make yourself a cup of (non-caffeinated) tea. while it’s brewing, drink a glass of water and make yourself a healthy snack with enough protein to get you through the night. eat the food, drink the tea, and go wash your face and brush your teeth before you go to sleep. you’ll be tired the next day, but you’ll feel so much better
save your favorite childhood books to read on a rainy day
make a playlist for every mood you can think of, so you’re never alone with the silence
find a really soft sweater or blanket. designate this your hug sweater/blanket. curl up in it whenever you need a hug.
most importantly, drink water, take care of yourself, and have a nice day <3