Weird question considering the nature of polytheism but is it ever difficult to believe in the gods? I'm always wrestling with what I'm told about polytheism, that people can't sustain systems of belief like that anymore because of science and rational thinking. Can I ask you how you manage this?
At times I do struggle though a good deal of that is just like my normal baseline anxiety? Like what if I’m wrong or gods I’m going to die. The dying stress is what flips me out most in my questioning periods, honestly. I am just absolutely horrified by death and what will happen after it. Because what if I’m wrong and there’s nothing? I don’t know how to deal with that. I don’t think I can.
Or well I guess I can but I just. Really. I’m getting antsy now just thinking about it.
Anyway, my being a nervous wreck aside.
Where science is concerned, I don’t really view my beliefs as being at odds with it. If anything science is more of a way of getting to understand them. Yes, I can know that Lugh creates lightning when fights but by getting to know the process of how lightning is actually a thing that happens I get to know bits about him better. And just to better appreciate what he’s able to do. Basically, seeing the gods in the numbers. I’m not the biggest hard science person though, sadly. More a soft sciences lady.
The other thing is how I view my belief and the purpose of faith. For me faith is not the end all be all of things. It’s just a starting point. The motivation to get you looking for things. And then you arrive at conclusions. Maybe they’re not the ones you thought you’d end up at, but you’ll end up at one at some point. Now the actual finding of these answers for me is based in what I term direct personal experience. So you yourself experience this thing. It can’t be proven via science or whatever maybe and that’s just fine because this is a rough thing. What matters is did you yourself experience the thing and do you have the discernment necessary to tell that it was a real thing.
So I can say that I believe that Lugh exists, but I also say that I know Lugh exists because I’ve “seen” him. Perhaps my experiences won’t satisfy everyone. In fact I’m sure they won’t satisfy most and that’s fine with me. What matters is what I know. No one else can find truth of this nature but you, I feel. And I’m still looking for it. I do feel that I can confidently say that Lugh is real though and that I’ve met him.
Which I guess leads to where my perspective on that comes from. The answer being Buddhism. I’m a former Buddhist, but it still really colors how I look at the world and at religion. So faith’s more a tool to gaining knowledge and understanding, and no one else can see Dhamma but you. That sort of thing has just kind of been deeply ingrained in me over the years. Another important thing from Buddhism there being that, things are hard. Belief is very hard. It’s a constant working process as you look for answers. And that’s fine. Sometimes you’ll slack, sometimes you’ll doubt, sometimes you’ll just be super lost. And that’s fine. What’s important is that you keep working and you keep looking to understand. I’m no longer Buddhist, but I’d be lying if I said that it doesn’t influence me heavily even now.