It is ridiculous how much teasing gets to me. Like, to anyone else hearing the words, “I think somebody needs to learn their lesson” or “You better shape up, or else…” might totally snap them out of whatever mood they’re in, but when I hear those phrases I just get super excited and push buttons even more because I love what comes after.
11516 34/100 days of productivity busy day today! Studied/crammed for my media studies midterm and had to go to the doctor’s for an appointment. Super tired but pushing through to get some of my bio notes/study guide done today. 📚📕 Chill night today and I’ll probably turn in earlier to get some good rest 😌 also thank you for 200+ followers! So excited to meet all of you and interact with y'all!
•I beat you at Mario Kart and now I’ve been banished to the couch for the night AU... Ontae?
Jinki’s apartment is clean and Taemin’s gaze immediately falls to the couch - the coffee table is in its usual place and he shivers. That’s where they’d kissed for the first time, where Taemin had his first ever kiss.
is it possible to suppress your emotions? i think it is because i havent felt anything in a long time. every time i feel something stirring in me i push it down and think of something else. im so empty. nothing means anything anymore. -givinup
Yes it’s definitely possible to suppress your emotions! Having said that, it isn’t really healthy. You see, by suppressing those emotions, you’re keeping them bottled up. This means that they’re staying inside you. And because every time you experience an emotion you push it down there, at some point it’s going to get too much. And let me tell you, that isn’t fun to go through.
I often look at suppressing your emotions through a metaphor. When I was a kid and on a holiday, I’d also go swimming in the pool and often me and my brother would play with a ball in the water or something. It was always super fun to push the ball under the water and then have it bounce out of the water, do you know what I mean? I think this represents suppressing your emotions really well though. The ball stands for your emotions, and keeping the ball under water thus stands for suppressing your emotions. But there’s going to be a point where that ball bounces out of the water. You might have used all your strength keeping it under water, or there’s a split second where you lose control and then the ball jolts upwards. This can happen for your emotions too. What you see at the ball is that it gets out of the water with a lot of strength and speed. This represent the intensity of the emotions that you experience once you’ve been suppressing them too long and it gets too much.
When you’ve been suppressing your emotions for such a long time already, it can be really difficult to do things differently. You might want to look into mindfulness, we have a page explaining it here. It can help to take a break and focus on what is going on, around you but also within you. How are you feeling? That’s a difficult question to answer, especially at first, but you can get better at answering!
You might also want to consider keeping a journal, so that you get more in touch with the things that are happening in your life. Besides that, you’ll want to look into why you’re suppressing those emotions. Do you have any idea? It might be because you never learned how to manage your emotions, or because you were taught to hide them as a kid. Or because you find emotions really scary and you’re too afraid to deal with them. I personally struggle a lot with the latter, also because I don’t always have the trust in myself that I’ll able to manage my emotions. I always think it’s going to be too overwhelming and difficult. But a really good friend of mine sent me a card with a really really good mantra on it and I’d like to share it with you.
“Feelings are just visitors, let them come and go.”
So while I definitely agree with you that feelings are really scary, at the same time they’re also just visitors. They won’t last forever, there will be a time that they go. Repeating this for yourself can make it seem more possible to start letting those feelings in. I do also think it’d be really beneficial for you to see a professional about this though! Suppressing your emotions isn’t easy to just stop doing, and you deserve all the help you can get! You can read more about getting professional help here. I hope this was at least a little bit helpful, let us know if there’s anything else we can do!
i feel like there is a lot of social pressure to watch certain tv shows. everyone is watching it why arent you??? and people are having conversations about it and you may feel left out so you watch it maybe not even because its your thing but just so you can Talk to people again. i think thats garbage and fucked and i hate it with every fiber of my being
i hate social pressure to do anything popular its a personality flaw perhaps
so when a show is shoved down my throat it doesnt feel right to me to watch it :/ i get enjoyment from enjoying things at my own pace, watching them because they interest me, not because theyre popular, and finding things myself.
idk man theres like a super aggressive social push for certain television shows and i dont watch shows like that. i watch to identify w characters, to be captivated by storylines, to fall in love
so P.S. dirk gently’s is really smart and emotional and complex and funny and sweet so if you want to investigate that yourself and youre into that sort of thing (like fringe supernatural and twin peaks sorta) maybe check it out