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Fictional Character Analysis: ISTJ

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As I mentioned in the INTJ write-up, the ISTJ seems to get a complete reverse presentation that they do in fiction. Whereas real-life INTJs are seen as super deep and complex but cardboard stereotypes in fiction, the ISTJ on the other hand is typically considered a boring work drone in everyday life but is pictured as very versatile and colorful in fiction. Albeit it is often because they are usually thrown in ridiculous situations where their need for safety and control is thrown to the wind. Watching a character try to make sense out of non-sense or ever changing circumstances is always entertaining. Even the more stereotypical, uptight and conservative ISTJs are typically the ones to dish out biting commentary time after time, making them often the most quotable characters of their show/movie/franchise. If only people realized that we are actually more often than not like this in real life, as opposed to humorless cyborgs. Oh well….

Introverted Sensing (Si): Unlike the ISFJ who’s Si appears to be a rich and colorful palette of images, experiences, trauma, joys, fears, desires etc. The ISTJ’s Si appears more in what we stereotypically associate with it, by which I mean, being controlling, by the book and shunning new ways of doing things. Hence why you always seem to have an ISTJ sidekick in hero movies or crime dramas, you know the one, he always keeps the protagonist in check, reminding him that “Shooting first and asking questions later” is not cool. In slasher movies, this trait of theirs is especially infuriating. Refusing to acknowledge any danger, super-natural entity brought to life, that a knife-wielding manic is on the loose etc. They are simply just begging to have a machete lodged between their eyes, which is usually what ends up happening. Take that, rational, uptight skeptic! BUT there are a few ISTJs here and there who display the really cool side of Si. Those action heroes and warriors who are naturals in their element, kick people’s asses and take names. The only way for bad guys to get the drop on them is to surprise them at every turn in which their Inferior Ne might freeze them shut, but even then it’s ill-advised to try to rid someone who is a natural in their field of interest. 

Extroverted Thinking (Te): Much like the INTJ (real or fictional) the ISTJ is rarely a pro-active control-freak boss, but rather uses Te to judge the world in a very rational, no-non sense fashion. Any ISTJ will tell you that this skill or view is a God send. It prevents us from being taken for a ride. Even if Inferior Ne fails to look for hidden motives, Te will always ask if this makes sense and Si will chime to say “UNLESS it looks completely legit, don’t go for it’’. This is also an important part of the ISTJ character. They are natural bullsh*it detectors. They may over-do it sometimes, but better safe than sorry. On a more negative note however, Te is often responsible for the ISTJ minion to follow orders and get results at the expense of their inner morals (Fi) or looking at the bigger picture (Ne). Therefore, no matter how cool an ISTJ subordinate is in fiction, chances are he/she will get very little characters development and soon enough their comeuppance, something that is less likely with ISFJs who give in to their repressed rebellious side sooner it seems.

Introverted Feeling (Fi): A paramount trait of ISTJs that is not mentioned very often is their ability to balance humility with pride/authenticity. ’‘I’m a simple person with simple values, but just TRY to make me waver from them, I dare ya!” is something a lot of ISTJs fictional or real live by. Tert Fi tends to be especially strong in ISTJ characters. They deeply believe in their cause, often to the point where they think sacrificing their own lives to protect what they believe in is worth it. In the same way of the IxFJ’s Tert Ti, the IxTJ’s Fi is their own bullsh*t threshold and rebellious zone. (It’s a Pi-Dom thing). And you best believe your fictional ISTJ will tap in to it at some point, even if it’s at the last minute. For instance Darth Vader “Dude, that’s my own SON you’re frying to a crisp…..NOT cool!’’. This makes the ISTJ more human and relatable even if their are slow with this function. 

Extroverted Intuition (Ne): Unmovable in their belief and way of doing things, the ISTJ’s inferior Ne is not so much something that screams at you through the screen, but is rather heavily implied. For good or bad, we come to accept that ISTJ characters have a steady MO and even if they are forced to step outside their comfort zone, they will soon return there. It’s… kinda both charming and annoying at the same time, really. 

Hit The Ground - Tom Wilson #3

Originally posted by thornescratch

about/request: hi friend, i was wondering if you could write an imagine with tom wilson based on the song somebody else’s heart by lady antebellum?

warnings: drinking and cursing and angst

authors note: man i love me some lady a, this is kinda like dark and sad and there is literally no dialogue but i’m just really here for like rough around the edges, but super soft complex tom and wanted to try writing in a new style??? hope you like it!! 

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smallish update

What I’ve been up to lately, abbreviated:


Trudging along through grad school…just a few more months to go. I wasn’t planning to take a break between MSN and DNP, but I think it’s going to be necessary. Because–


my husband got approved for DBS surgery (this is a brain surgery for Parkinson’s disease). He is 45, has had PD for nine years and had to stop working early this year and was approved for disability coverage because his meds stopped working and he became a liability (he is <was?> also a nurse) to patients and the hospital. He had only been working a couple of days a week and truly struggling for the last 2 years just to keep up, but finally gave in when multiple MDs told him it was time.The surgery is super complex, occurs in 3 parts so basically 3 different surgeries. He will have wires implanted in his brain and tunneled through his neck, leading to a generator pack that will be implanted into his chest (kinda like a pacemaker). This whole process will happen in December once my teaching semester is over so I can take care of him. I do plan to write a little in the near future about this whole thing, because I never talk about him here, except alluding in the past about how difficult our relationship can be at times. I do want to share some of that with you all, if you don’t mind.


I’ve been working my regular job (Research Coordinator), my side job (Nursing Professor), trying to finish my master’s degree, and take care of home obligations and ‘mom’ duites. Fortunately my husband is able to help with some of the last two–he can still drive but can’t walk very far, so he does the Mr. Mom thing as much as possible. He has the 2 dogs and cat to keep him company, as Abby is a teenager and never home. I also had to let go of a friendship that was causing me tremendous emotional pain…so hard. More on that later.


I went to Disney World a couple of weeks ago for a work conference and to take a certification exam. I did get to have a little fun but it was mostly work. And the test was HARD. I’ll find out in about five weeks whether I passed it or not–and if I didn’t pass, I’m not sure if I’ll retake it. It doesn’t mean extra money for me at this institution but could open doors for me in other areas if I wanted to stay in clinical research (which I’m unsure if I want to stay). Still thinking about that.


FITNESS


I put keto/fitness on the back burner in July because I just couldn’t keep up with it. I’ve been eating whatever I can grab and whatever he fixes when he feels like cooking. I haven’t gained or lost any more weight, which is fine, but last weekend I had a hypertensive migraine–my bp got up to 169/110 for a couple of days. I attribute it to eating poorly, working like a madwoman (12 days in a row at this last point) and stress/not sleeping enough. I ate a TON of junk at Disney. Have felt gross ever since. My blood pressure is back down now, but I realized once again how sensitive my body is to how I treat it. I’m not 20 anymore and I have to slow down and take better care of myself at some point. I always, always put everyone else before myself and I just have to stop that. So, today (10/16) is day 2 of on-keto-again. It’s just the thing that works best for me–I know it’s not best for everyone. I have been getting plenty of steps throughout the day but as far as dedicated exercise time–forget it. I just haven’t been able to prioritize it. I will be posting more about progress as it comes.


I also do have a couple of funny stories for later…stay tuned for that. Thanks for always listening, friends. You all mean a lot to me!

Here’s a few photos–Abby (on the right) with her best friend, a selfie I took at Disney, and a pretty tea set I splurged on at Epcot.

The concept of making a TV show sounds amazing. You have a team of writers. You could have a group of people from different backgrounds, races, genders, sexualities, and they could draw from their own experiences to make a super complex, realistic, interesting and diverse group of characters, with interesting story lines. Yet, somehow they manage to create the same awful straight white guy over and over again. 

Witches on a Budget

I’m gonna start posting Witch tips for people who don’t have a whole lot of money if anyone has suggestions, let me know.

So tip #1: making your own incense

I don’t always have enough money to buy incense, the only shop in town that sells it is a smoke shop that you can’t enter unless 19+ and they sell it for ten bucks for like 3 sticks. Plus, the incense is loaded with perfumes and chemicals which just aren’t my thing. So I’ve started making my own. It’s sooooo easy and most online tutorials are super expensive and complex.

*Crushing your herbs is optional

In a bowl, mix together the following ingredients
•dry (crushed) herbs of your choice (you can Google what kind of herbs to burn) I chose lavender, chamomile, and rosemary.
•honey (keep mixing in more honey until herbs create a thick paste)

After mixing, form into balls or cones and create a flat base.

Leave balls/cones to dry out for a few days.

Then once dry, place in incense burner and burn.

(Bonus, these last longer than the sticks and once it’s fully burned you can make incense with the ashes)

Spirit Work Terms

These are some of the terms and definitions that I personally use. They change a lot as I get new info and I didn’t create any of the words lol. Other people have other definitions and I’m not trying to insinuate that mine are the “right” meanings. They’re simply just my thoughts on things.


Spirits: Funny enough, the hardest thing for me to define. I want to say anything that doesn’t exist in the physical realm, aka anything without matter. But there’s a difference between spirits and simply energy and that’s where things get fuzzy. Also, there’s a lot of things that don’t have matter that I wouldn’t consider spirits just because of that such as concepts like justice or things like heat (aka a non woo energy). 

Etheric Copy: Also known as the “energy body”. This is actually more so a type of energy that makes up a spirit than the spirit itself but I felt it was worth mentioning. It applies to the spirit that lies within physical beings, living and nonliving and is the energetic form and feeling that their spirit takes. Sometimes the etheric copy isn’t an exact copy of the physical form where one’s etheric copy can have aspects of their astral form, such as wings on a human’s copy. 

Entities: Living spirits that are still going about their lives. They can grow, have families, withdraw money from the bank, die, etc. They can be super complex beings or just simple, mindless creatures. The important things are that they can still age and that they don’t have physical bodies. 

Ghosts: The spirits of the dead, whether they were originally physical or not. These are the spirits that you’d meet from the bones and remains of earthly organisms but you can also meet ghosts from entities that have passed. Usually hang out in graveyards, places that they used to live, or the respective netherworld of their culture. If you kill an entity, you might still need to deal with their ghost. 

[Name] Guardian: A spirit that encompasses many other spirits. For example, a “species spirit” which is a spirit of an entire species of organism, not just an individual, would fall under this. (They aren’t literally made of the individuals that fall under them). I also just sometimes write the name in all caps like COFFEE for Coffee Guardian.    

Nonliving Spirits: The spirits of objects. These can have an etheric copy if working with physical objects but it also applies to objects in the nonphysical worlds. Usually are dormant and need an energy input to be “awakened”. They usually like to do what they were made for, examples being hammer spirits that like to hammer, lamps that like to be turned on, etc. On the other hand, some nonliving spirits have the strength of gods but their nonliving nature means that they’re not actively looking for worshipers or to strengthen their power like most true gods (Ex- the Sun and the Moon).   

Demons: A “catch-all” term for the diverse group of spirits that usually live in the lower realms of the astral. They also usually work in “darker” magics but there’s some who are “lighter” and others who don’t do any magic. A lot of spirits with different names, appearances, cultures, personalities etc. fit under this broad classification. Think about how we use Kingdom Animalia to describe thousands of species that share only a few characteristics. 

Gods: Strong entities with access to power levels and areas of the universe that are inaccessible to humans and other spirits. For example, humans can create life by using their personal will and energy (and perhaps that of spirit allies too) to make thoughtforms and the like whereas gods can create life (and free will from the get go) simply by using the energy from a life-creating domain of the universe. The more connections they have to these domains, the stronger they become. A lot of their strength also comes from worship and its many forms though not all gods are a part of a religion and not all gods interact with humans. They can also form different “aspects” which are like different versions of themselves that are usually influenced by the way their followers worship and work with them. They can create these without influence though it’s not as easy.  

Servitors: Simple, mindless spirits that are created from a human’s (can be an entity’s too probably) will and energy. Programmed for one certain task and are fed through the creator’s energy aka their creator giving them attention. The creator can dismantle them and incorporate their energy into new servitors, back into themselves (not recommended), release their energy into the universe, or forget about them so that they disappear into the universe on their own. They lack a mind, free will, personality, emotions, etc. unless they’ve gone rogue. A rogue servitor is one that their creator no longer has full control over and no, that’s not a good thing.  

Thoughtforms: Essentially the same thing as a servitor but they’re usually more complex with thoughts, feelings, minds and potentially more than one task programmed into them. Just like servitors, they’re dependent on their creator for food but a properly made thoughtform would have another food source that they can rely on. Initially, they lack knowledge beyond what their creator already knows and free will, however, through experience and interactions with others they can gain both of those things. The only way to know if a TF truly has free will is if they go against the task they were programmed for (a companion TF no longer wants to be a companion, a guardian TF no longer feels the need to guard what they were instructed to, etc.). When they have completed their task, they can be “put to rest” and released into the universe or released as an independent being since they do have the other food source. They can also go rogue if they become independent without their creator’s “permission” and can be dangerous to the creator and others depending on how they gained their independence (*cough* abused/neglected TFs ).   

Egregores: Spirits that are created from the will and energy of multiple people. Pop-Culture spirits are the most obvious example but egregores can be created by a small group of people like a coven or just a bunch of friends too. Like thoughtforms and servitors, they are fed by attention and smaller egregores can die if they aren’t given enough attention and don’t have an alternative food source. I find that similar to gods, these usually have “aspects” with different facets depending on how many people were involved in their creation (the more people, the more aspects). They’re more powerful than thoughtforms.   

Godforms: Human-created gods. Usually come from extremely successful egregores that obtained the attention and energy of many, many people. I’d say characters like Pikachu or Harry Potter have reached this level or perhaps even the spirit of the USA or McDonald’s. They can also be intentionally created gods like if a group of people began worshiping a being as if they were a god. While egregores are usually controlled in some form by the people that created them, godforms are completely independent and no longer require their attention just to exist. But just like gods, more attention means more power so they probably seek out more “followers” by trying to expand their influence. I don’t know for sure if they have connections to the exclusive domains of the universe that regular gods have but I can see things like the USA godform gaining access to the same domains that war gods have or Pikachu being connected to an electricity domain like Zeus is. Some would argue that all gods are actually godforms but I don’t know enough about the nature and origins of gods to make that judgement. (I’ve seen “megregore” used as a term for a godform that isn’t “religiously” worshiped but I personally don’t differentiate the two). 

A round of applause to all the studyblrs who put effort and hard work into what they love, whether that means learning a completely different language, solving that super complex equation or finally being able to design the dress of your dreams. You are all amazing and you all deserve the best things in this world.

I need more anime in my TL so I shall do one of these again~

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  • Fairy Tail
  • Haikyuu!!
  • ✿Noragami
  • ✿Ballroom e Youkoso
  • ✿Dragon Ball Super
  • Bungou Stray Dogs
  • Boku no Hero Academia
  • ✿Ao no Exorcist (specially Rizumo)
  • ✿Love Live! // Sunshine!
  • ✿Clannad
  • ✿ Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun (specially Mikorin/Mikochiyo)
  • Aoharu Kikanjuu
  • Bleach (honestly, mostly Ichiruki)
  • ✿Black Clover
  • Mystic Messenger
  • Killing Stalking
  • 19 days
  • ✿Nanatsu no Taizai (specially Kiane)
  • ✿Mangas in general
  • DameKoi (Dame na Watashi ni Koishite Kudasai!)
  • Hirunaka no Ryuusei
  • ✿Lovely Complex
  • ✿Kamisama Hajimemashita
  • ✿Any recent/ old shoujo/josei tbh
  • ✿Graphics / Manga Caps/ Art / etc

lydiaeliseblack  asked:

Hi! Thank you for this amazing world you've created. I was wondering if you could give me some clarification on Jem. I had someone tell me that Jem now has the immortality rune that Clary gave him at his and Tessa's wedding. I was wanting to know if this was true or not or if he would pass on like a mundane would since he no longer is a Silent Brother. I can't imagine Tessa losing both of her true loves. I would appreciate it! Tessa, Jem and Will are my heart!

*scratches head* There is no such thing as an immortality rune. If there was, Clary would be morally obligated to use it on everyone, wouldn’t she? It’s sort of the dilemma of immortality that can be easily passed on like that — you wind up having to make everyone and their hamster immortal because it’s kind of immoral not to.

I don’t know if this is something your friend misunderstood or maybe she read a theory online or a fanfic? But Jem will age and die — not “like a mundane” but “like a Shadowhunter” — in fact “like everyone who isn’t a warlock or a vampire.” It is super sad, and complex, but also an important part of life and humanity. 

anonymous asked:

could you rec some wlw ya books? thanksss

this will be so long and it keeps getting longer!! so I hope you’re ready. I’ve read all of these, so ask me if you have any questions about them! If you’re looking for more masterposts, try @wlwbooksource

Genre Fic w Major WLW Couples

  • The Abyss Surrounds Us Duology by Emily Skrutskie: lesbian pirate x lesbian sea monster trainer in the future. Literally. One of my proudest achievements is giving this book hype. The author draws fanart of Swift and Cas kissing and posts it to her tumblr (again, not kidding, there’s some on my blog). Main character is asian. otp: equal footing
  • The Scorpion Rules Duology by Erin Bow: literally one of my fave books of all time, amazingly complex villain, super strong bi girl protag and her adorable bi gf, you will be genuinely confused which side is good and which side is bad, the three main characters are So Good, tw for an unhappy ending to this one but it’s… not any of the tropes. also a semi-hopeful end in the sequel which was?? good??
  • Jane Unlimited by Kristin Cashore!!! oh my god I love this book. it’s got a bi girl as the protagonist and it’s super atmospheric and interesting and references all these classics but is also modern and her romance plot is genuinely Iconic
  • The Long Way To A Small Angry Planet by Becky Chambers: This book is such hopeful and interesting and character-driven scifi. 
  • In Ageless Sleep by Arden Ellis: if you want a sci-fi novella with some hella good romance. especially for being approximately 50 pages. 
  • Down Among the Sticks and Bones by Seanan McGuire!! if you want a wlw novella that talks about gender roles and is the sequel to A FUCKING HUGO AWARD WINNER. this series is super diverse in so many ways. 
  • That Inevitable Victorian Thing by E.K. Johnston: wow can’t believe E.K. Johnston invented writing stories driven by women?? it’s about polyamory in a scifi futuristic victorian Canada. and yes, it is exactly as amazing as it sounds. 
  • Girls Made of Snow and Glass by Melissa Bashardhoust: character driven wlw snow white retelling!!! 
  • Dreadnought Duology by April Daniels: okay it’s about a trans girl who becomes a superhero and dates another superhero girl and yes it IS amazing. 
  • Otherbound: f/f romance with a bi girl as main character. There’s literally not a single white character. It’s about body swapping and fantasy! talks frankly about the issues in the main relationship, suspenseful. Sense8 in a way.  
  • Ash and Huntress by Malinda Lo: occur in the same world, although you don’t have to read both. Ash is lesbian cinderella. Huntress focuses more on character development and is my personal favorite, but tw for a bittersweet ending. Malinda Lo also wrote the Adaptation series, featuring a bisexual protag and her alien gf, but that one wasn’t my favorite. I know a lot of people who love it though!
  • The Dark Wife by Sara Diemer: girl Persephone / Hades. My gay classics student ass unabashedly loved this. I think you can get it free on the author'a blog? Attempted rape tw (not between the main couple, their relationship was entirely consensual)
  • The Accident Season and Spellbook of the Lost & Found by Moira Fowley-Doyle: 
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  • Monstress by Marjorie M. Liu and Sana Takeda: Another Hugo Award winner but this time a graphic novel!! it’s complicated but it’s super worth it and all the mcs are morally ambiguous woc

Contemporary w Major WLW Couples

  • A & B by J.C. Lillis!! y'all have GOT to read this. it’s seriously the most delightful enemies-to-lovers filled-with-banter novel and maybe my fav romance book ever?? it’s fucking HILARIOUS.
  • Love Letters To The Dead: the wlw “side-romance” is honestly given just as much screentime as (if not more than) the main romance. literally one of my all-time favorite romances in anything ever, I read this book in my questioning phase and it changed my life
  • This Is Where It Ends: lesbians at a school shooting, primarily non-white characters, you will cry (spoilers: they both live and stay together)
  • Lies We Tell Ourselves by Robin Talley: 1960s civil rights era lesbians, ends happily. It emphasizes all of the problematic tropes often used in “overcoming racism” stories and why they’re not okay. This was recced to me by a black person so I trust that assessment. I also really love her other books, which have a lot of wlw as well. 
  • Lies My Girlfriend Told Me: Basically: Girl #1 finds out her dead girlfriend was cheating on her with Girl #2. Girl #1 and Girl #2 fall in love. This book is so adorable. The author has several thousand other wlw books so knock yourselves out. 
  • Tell Me Again How A Crush Should Feel by Sara Farizan: a cheesefest with racial diversity. I love this book so much (it’s so good and PURE) even though it’s not hugely deep. 
  • You Know Me Well by David Levithan + Nina Lacour: The authors alone should be enough to make you want to read this. I still am lowkey bitter the two boys didn’t end up together, but they stay friends and all so it’s fine. Found family!
  • Afterworlds by Scott Westerfeld: Storyline between two girl authors in New York, ends happily!! also the protagonist was confirmed acearo spec on Twitter which is pretty obvious if you read the book. I’ve heard his other series Zeroes has lesbians too
  • Everything Leads To You by Nina Lacour: moviemaker wlw! cheesy as all hell, but adorable and really deep. very much recommended if you’re into moviemaking or acting
  • Queens of Geek by Jen Wilde: I think everyone has read this already but it’s Pure and about fandom
  • Get It Together Delilah / the Flywheel by Erin Gough: read this if you want cute cheesy girls falling in love at a coffee shop!!
  • for some of my fav shorts!! the story How from Roxane Gay’s Difficult Women is one of my fav wlw short stories ever. Also try out Alyssa Wong’s Hungry Daughters of Starving Mothers, it’s free from tor and really fucking great!! and Nic Stone’s Happy Beginning from the Welcome Home anthology is a beautiful cinnamon roll of a story that I’ll never get over and I’d die for her

Some That Aren’t Love Stories Quite As Much: 

  • Far From You by Tess Sharpe: crime thriller with bi / recovering drug addict main character and major f/f romance. Not a happy ending for the couple bc the romance is in the past, but happy ending for the protagonist. This is one of my all time fave books not even lying
  • Exit Pursued By A Bear by EK Johnston: About the main character’s rape and her subsequent abortion. Main character does not have a romance plot, but her best friend (the second most important character) is a lesbian and falls in love with another friend. This one doesn’t belong quite as much, but it’s one of my all time favorite books ever and it’s all about female friendship / love and it’s?? pure?? (ALSO READ HER OTHER BOOK A THOUSAND NIGHTS ID DIE FOR EK JOHNSTON)
  • Cherry: About female friendships and relationships with sex, really feminist. There are four girls, one realizes she’s gay, and her friends are just so pure and supportive about it???? there’s a bit of romance but I still feel like it’s more about the friendships between the girls. 
  • Beauty Queens by Libba Bray: f/f romance, one lesbian one bi girl and one trans girl. Hilarious social commentary, very feminist, lots of woc. Libba Bray also has another hist fiction series that I’ve heard is gay (the first book is called A Great And Terrible Beauty) but I don’t know much about it. 
  • Kissing The Witch: Sometimes-gay versions of fairytales, really really interesting and pure and GREAT. 
  • Tricks and sequel Traffick by Ellen Hopkins: about kids forced into prositution, so all the tws. among main characters, there’s a gay guy and a bi girl!  Ignore the back that says “four straight one gay” because it’s a lie and publishers need to shut up. The bi girl is just?? such an amazing character and I love her with all my heart. 
  • If You Could Be Mine by Sara Farizan: realistic fiction about what wlw in Iran have to go through. tw for a not-great end for the couple, but there’s no death and the main character is happy. It’s more about the self-acceptance of the main character than about the romance. 
  • Ask The Passengers by A.S. King: magical realism kind of? more about coming out than about romance. Happy ending. 
  • The Miseducation Of Cameron Post by Emily Danforth: again, more about coming out, but wow this book is amazing. Happy ending for the girl, not for the couple. 

Fucked-Up Female Friendships Aesthetic

  • Suicide Notes From Beautiful Girls by: This book is so freaky and messed up and I’m still not exactly sure how it ended, but it still blew me away. The Mr and Mrs Smith wlw au you never knew you wanted, although I’m not going to spoil how. Fucked up ending but still happyish? 
  • Dare Me by Megan Abbot: This book is creepy as fuck and revolves around the relationship between two girls which is… really gay, like canonically gay. I liked this a lot, but be warned that it’s not a romance. Happy ending mostly?
  • Dangerous Girls by Abigail Haas: This one had a lot of wasted potential in the form of a well-built story about the craziness of rich kids partying, but it is a very good murder mystery focused around two girls. 

it really bothers me a lot that the dark souls series is like, some of the worst examples of Gaming Culture™

like. the dark souls series is such a damn good series overall and it’s full of so many things i love about video games - fascinating lore that is left up to the player to seek out with you being rewarded for going out of your way to find it, some super interesting and complex characters (like just gwyn alone along with my girl gwyndolin are some of the most interesting characters ive seen in a game before), big open areas for you to explore, fantastic music that perfectly set the scene for every boss, memorable and challenging but fair bosses, and solid as hell gameplay

not only that but the entire series has this theme of like, overcoming adversity in even the most trying of times, where the games constantly feel oppressive and enemies constantly feel too big, too strong for you to actually defeat, but it has this theme where you keep going and despite the odds you eventually overcome whatever you were stuck on, and that theme of carrying on despite how bad everything is is directly highlighted in the story and characters

they’re such genuinely interesting & rewarding games that despite their darker nature have a lot of heart to them and there’s a lot of good messages to take from them and i just. i HATE how shitty gaming culture has taken such fascinating games and turned it into “haha these games are so HARD casuals get out these games are only for REAL gamers kek” because they make the games seem so unwelcoming and unapproachable and discourages people from playing a series that i really love

also i realize maybe a lot of this isn’t really That Deep but i have a deep emotional connection with this series and so many of my issues with gaming culture as a whole can be directly traced to this series

slickandsolangelic  asked:

Hey Isis! Loved your last analysis post and couldn't help coming back to ask you about a certain thing yet again! From... around days 5-7 in the route I believe, the game takes a turn with V blaming his "ideal" love for Rika become the way she is. She even flippin turns around and calls herself his ruined masterpiece that he threw aside. I was inclined to give it thought because I didn't want to be blinded by my bias, but then I began to question is (1/3?)

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Because throughout the route, we see that even though V’s love is super unhealthy and harmful, especially to himself, we also see Rika actively feeding into it by asking him to save her from what “God cannot” multiple times. She was basically also pulling him deeper into that thought process by the ankles, and I think that one unnamed side of the mystic messenger fandom is quick to forget that V never treated Rika like “art” or a “trophy” of his own will, because she was the one who (2/3)

-asked that of him in the first place. V is quick to blame himself for literally everything that happens- and even his voice actor addresses this in his Free Talk (Lee Ho San is sooo salty about Rika, I love it). People insist that V’s “ideal love” was what made Rika start Mint Eye, but.. no?? Mint eye was literally started before the RFA, as seen with how Saeran is being drugged at such a young age in SE1. Thoughts? (3/3) 


Wowie Phil, okay, this is a long question and it ended up having a long answer. It also touches a couple controversial issues in the fandom so… haha…

Naturally, I’ll have to mark a SPOILER WARNING FOR ‘ANOTHER STORY’. This is a long post so if you’re on mobile, scroll down fast!

This analysis is divided in three key segments, so you can read these messy thoughts of mine in some kind of order.

  1. V and Rika are unreliable narrators, so we should be careful when we take their opinions in consideration. 
  2. What was the dynamic in Rika and V’s relationship while they were together
  3. The core of your question, V’s love and Rika’s darkness.

1- V and Rika as Unreliable Narrators.

Alright, so, the first point I have to make clear, and I really want to put emphasis on this, is the fact that both V and Rika are unreliable narrators by default. 

The only people that believe V is literally the cause of Rika’s woes are… That’s right, V and Rika themselves. Jumin, the person closest to the two of them and the character the game highlights as the neutral voice of reason, comments at various points how Rika made her own choices, therefore the whole “V created Rika’s demon” is a biased narrative created by these two characters, and it’s clear why. 

V will always find a way to blame himself in the story, always. He has made plenty mistakes that he acknowledges, sure, but he always tends to overestimate his flaws and underestimate others’, so he highlights his role in people’s failures and minimizes his influence in their victories and successes. Likewise, Rika also has a biased view of the world, in that she tends to put the blame of her actions on other people all the time. It’s her parents’ fault, it’s V’s fault, it’s society’s fault, it’s the RFA’S fault, it’s everyone’s fault but her own. Sure, she had a tragic childhood, but she tends to excuse herself at every point by trying to blame others for the road she took, while still liking to have control over everyone else’s lives.

What I want to clarify with this is that we cannot trust 100% what Rika or V tell us about their relationship unless it fits in one of these categories. 

  1. We saw it ourselves in a Story Mode flashback or in Secret 01.
  2. It’s a fact or an event, instead of a point of view.
  3. It’s commented on by an unbiased third person that is neither Rika nor V.

This means that the story itself is not trying to tell us V is to blame for Rika’s descent to darkness, that is only V expressing his (self-deprecating) thoughts. This route is literally about trying to convince this stubborn man that he’s wrong about a lot of things, why should we believe him when he says this is his fault?

2- V and Rika’s dynamics in their relationship. 

When they had their first date after Rika visited V’s gallery, the two of them had a conversation that highlighted how they had very similar views on love and what they wanted in a relationship: Rika wanted a kind of eternal love that will last no matter what bad, awful things she does, and V wanted to provide that kind of love to someone because he wanted to discover the reason he lives for through that action, since he thought his goal in life was to love. He wanted to give that love and be there for her, and she wanted to take it, so they were a match made in Hell, basically.  

So… What happened when they got together and Rika got the love she was looking for? A plethora of things: They felt happy for sure, and they settled down… But she never believed V’s love, and kept trying to test it by attacking him, insulting him and demanding things from him to push him to the edge and see if he’d remain with her or not. She also simultaneously wanted him to always do what she wanted him to do, and at the same time raged because he never “craved something on his own” and did only as she wanted. To summarize: If he didn’t do what she wanted him to do it means that he hated her, and if he didn’t take the initiative to do something towards her then it means that he hated her, too. It was a complex situation where Rika would both encourage him to take individual action, and demand he always did what she wanted him to do.  

As a consequence, V’s actions towards Rika were mild and cautious, and he never expressed much willpower around her, lest he risks upsetting her or going against her desires, because his “love” was all about pleasing her. Subsequently V had two different approaches regarding Rika: He wanted to help her and guide her towards the light (as any reasonable person would) so she could be at peace with herself, but at the same time he didn’t want to force Rika to do something she didn’t want, because that’d make her have a crisis and doubt his love. He encouraged her to take therapy and cheered on her when it all went well… But if Rika started to threaten suicide, or screamed about how she didn’t want it, or just flat out start saying she felt scared of getting ‘close to the light’, he wouldn’t force her to continue, and accepted her wishes. He tried to help her but only for as long as she was okay with it, because he didn’t believe confronting her was the answer, since… Wouldn’t that mean that he didn’t love her as she was? That he didn’t embrace all sides of her?

As I explained in a previous ask, submissive love for him was unconditional love, because he believed he had to love all of her darkness, too.

Rika, likewise, believed that V’s love would dry her tears and would save her, so like you mentioned, she constantly told him as much. She wants the sun to dry all her tears, she wants V to save her since God can’t. V believed that was part of his conception of unconditional love, so he promised to embrace her all even if she were to break him. V’s overwhelming and selfless love made Rika aware of how dark she was and so she decided to embrace that identity. 

3- V’s love and Rika’s darkness. 

The main consequence this behavior had, was that Rika found someone that would always love her no matter what she did, and she felt comfort in that. She felt that she could do whatever “her devil” wanted to do and it’d be fine, because V would always be there for her. 

Rika wanted that love because she never experienced it before, true, but also because it validated her, both in good and bad ways. It made her feel as if she was worth being loved… But it also gave her the excuse to give in to her darkest thoughts: She could do whatever she wanted, commit all the atrocities she desired (in the name of her ideals), and be judged by the world and society without caring… Because someone would always love her, so she would always feel the “warmth” of that unconditional love. She didn’t really care much about trying to reciprocate this love, and, personally, I don’t even think she treasured V as a person, because as I saw it through the route, she just wanted to feel his undying love and loyalty. This is why she mistreated him and enjoyed his pain (physical and psychological), but as soon as he stopped providing the love she needed (By dying in Secret 01, or by moving on and rejecting this kind of love in his route) she loses it. V had no value to her as a person, just as a “sun” that’s there to provide and nurture the daffodil. If a different ‘sun’ appears (like MC) she would flatly ditch him in favor of that someone else. 

This is how V’s love “caused” Rika’s shadow to grow. As you can see, he played a big role in Rika’s descent to darkness by inadvertently helping create the right circumstances for her to decide to act upon her inner desires. However, V didn’t create Rika’s “darkness” since that was with her from the start, he tried to discourage her most outrageous thoughts regarding anyone but himself (as seen in both Secret 01 and his route) and Rika never showed any actual desire to change herself for the better and erase her ‘demon’.

I believe his tolerance allowed the problem to grow, but I also believe blaming V for Rika’s actions is trying to absolve her from her responsibilities, and it’s almost a form of victim blaming. V was wrong, yes, his mistakes definitely let the problem get out of control, and his wrong conception of love validated Rika, but he cannot be blamed for the choices Rika made or what she decided to make out of his love for her.

V’s love provided Rika with the affection and tolerance she always craved, which gave her the motivation to carry on with what she wanted to do, while constantly abusing V so he can keep proving his love to her even more and fuel her. Once that love ceased to exist, Rika crumbled. 

Extra comment: Rika as V’s art.

This is just a small comment I want to make about the art analogies. Rika was V’s artwork in the sense that she replaced his need for pursuing arts in his life, and he filled the void in his heart by loving her. He is an artist, he thinks in artistic terms, so he saw her a as art in his eyes: Because she was beautiful, because he “loved” her, and because he could make a difference in her life. When Rika saw V trying to move on, she assumed it was because he was bored of this ‘old artwork’ (Rika) since it didn’t bring him the results he needed, and so moved onto the ‘next one’ (MC). To me it only seems as the comment of a person hurt by a lover leaving them, so perhaps she perceived that way, but that doesn’t make it reliable.

Also, if V took pictures of Rika and made her his muse and a model for his art, it was because of her own will, since he even told him she wishes he’d never put down the camera in front of her, and it made her feel beautiful. She flat out said she loved it, so… Yeah, I don’t see why people would think V saw Rika as ‘art’ or a ‘prize’. 

i love sense8 like. of the 8 main characters, four are women. there isnt one token lgbt character, but at FOUR in canon (bonus: actual trans girl casted to play trans girl). all the characters are super complex and interesting people. there are biracial couples. it depicts both healthy and complicated relationships with parents. and my favorite is that it doesn’t go the ~edgy~ route with angst about how the world is a shitty place– ultimately the message is that humanity is beautiful because it’s based on empathy and emotion and friendship and everyone is connected and i just LOVE this show