summer in the city day 2

50 Things To Do For a More Productive Summer

1. Find some work experience 
2. Head to the theatre and indulge in a good ol’ play or, even a musical
3. Plan a local trip or a day in the city and soak up all the culture
4. Volunteer your time once a week to a charity/ shelter
5. See if you can get work as a summer temp
6. Deepen your faith
7. Meet up with family and friends that you haven’t seen for ages, take loads of pictures and have an AWESOME time (how about camping in the New Forest? Or in your back garden? Barbecues or a simple trip to the ice rink)
8. Try curing one of your fears
9. Do a movie marathon
10. Develop or find a new hobby
11. Attempt to create a business with your own innovative idea
12. Do a charity challenge
13. Start taking driving lessons
14. Learn a language
15. Give your room a revamp — how about jars filled with multicoloured or fresh pinecones? A fresh coat of paint? A cluster of assorted candles?
16. Begin your #100daysofhappiness
17. Soak up the sun with a load of picnics, beach trips and outdoor games with your friends
18. Have a wardrobe clear out and donate all the clothes to a local charity shop
19. Pick an actor and watch all the films they’ve been in
20. Start a blog!
21. Get baking and come up with some new creations
22. Make a list of all your skills and everything they’ve taught you
23. Become a dog walker for a neighbour
24. Start saving for something worthwhile …
25. … or blow all your money on some concert tickets (you only live once)
26. Designate a whole day to go without a TV, laptop/ computer, internet, music, phone and any other electric devices
27. Begin writing a novel
28. Make proper lemonade and sip reading your favourite book under a tree
29. Go out for a day with nothing but the things that you can fit in your trouser or cardigan pockets or carry in your hands … OR … with as little as possible
30. Read an entire series of books or pick up some classics and get through them
31. Host a tea party with your friends
32. Make an exercise routine and stick to it (for a month, at least)
33. Watch an entire box set
34. Get rid of your anxiety by writing your worries down on a piece of paper, folding it into a bottle and sending it out to sea
35. Make a scrapbook of your favourite memories
36. Get hooked on a new genre of music or a new artist that hardly anyone has ever heard of
37. Head out to the selection of free festivals and carnivals available throughout the country
38. Make a birthday cake for one of your friends or a member of your family
39. Get active
40. Buy dinner for a homeless person
41. Get your body to your ideal size/ weight
42. Set yourself a budget and see how far you can get on public transport with it
43. Read a collection of children’s books
44. Go to a book signing, find someone famous or attend a celebrity event to get a glimpse of the stars
45. Plan and execute a 3 course meal for yourself or your family
46. Spend a day being a child again
47. Start a diary
48. Spend a day detoxing your body – drinking green tea, eat plenty of fruit and veg, guzzling water and meditating
49. Re-work the way you view yourself
50. Write your bucket list

The Signs as Aesthetics

Aries: Red // New York City // Black boots

Taurus: A dozen cups of coffee // chillin’ by the fire place and cuddling // small dogs

Gemini: The sun // summer days // figure skates

Cancer: Neon lights // warm hugs // running shoes

Leo: Gold paint // binge watching movies ‘til dawn // neck kisses

Virgo: Color coded notes // messy hair // undying laughter

Libra: Perfectly curled hair // Christmas // fairies

Scorpio: Storms // whispering // dark, lustful eyes

Sagittarius: Road trips // star gazing // ponytails

Capricorn: Rain against the windowpaine // crisp autumn leaves dancing through the wind // getting lost in time reading a book

Aquarius: Fantasy books // naming the clouds // 2 am ideas

Pisces: Pet shops // fresh laundry // slow dance music

Quiet Crushes (11:28pm Part 2)

I react to him by reaching for his hand, slowly intertwining my fingers with his. His grip is tight but safe, which makes my heart race.

In which he confesses.

Pairing: Zach Dempsey x Reader

Warning: Fluff??

Quiet Crushes.

I was flipping through the rough pages of my AP Chemistry homework in the middle of Monet’s at its busiest time of the day. Today was Saturday. The café is filled with business meetings, school project meetings, or simply coffee dates. And suddenly, I long for the summer vacation. I just can’t wait to get out there in the city and just, I don’t know, simply travel.  I shake the thoughts out of my preoccupied head, realizing that this homework won’t finish itself.  

Many thoughts come and go but I was determined to stay focused – up until the front door opens and the bell rings. The tall figure made his way to the counter. “Uh, let’s see. A chocolate shake, please.” He utters, grinning at the teenage girl who had just started their shift. 

“Coming right up!”

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Human AU where English teacher Derek’s overbearing sisters make him a Tinder profile and he matches with Deputy Stiles Stilinski.

The first date is definitely as awkward as expected.

The second goes a lot better because Stiles tells Derek about his partner (he’s in the K9 unit) and Derek talks to Stiles about his favorite book (To Kill a Mockingbird which was also Stiles’ mom’s favorite)

On the third date they have to leave dinner early to go to Derek’s apartment, they don’t even make it to the bed for round one. 

The 7th date is a double date with Stiles’ best friend.  When he asks how they met they tell him it was at Starbucks because neither wants to admit they found each other on Tinder. (Years later they admit it because it’s a funny story and Scott get’s mad because he talked about their coffee shop meet-cute in his best man’s speech at the wedding).

Date 22 wasn’t really a date so much as Stiles meeting the Hale family for the first time.  After dinner they decided that Cora and Stiles’ friend Lydia can never meet or else they might take over the world.

The 29th date starts with Derek scared for his life because Stiles’ dad had his gun on the table the entire meal and ends with John and Derek making plans to go fishing.

Number 86-101 happen on an epic road trip from Beacon Hills to New York City while Derek is on summer break.  He made Stiles take a vacation because by then he’d been on the force for 5 years and only used 3 total vacation days and by then they’d been dating for 2 years, it was about time they took a trip.

On the 102 date Stiles propose in Central Park.  Derek pretended he hated how cliche it is was but Stiles knows he not so secretly loves big romantic gestures. 

After that Stiles mostly stops counting the dates, except for the big ones, like their wedding, their fifth anniversary, the day their daughter was born, the day their son was born, their tenth anniversary, and well, you get the picture

the best of animal crossing

i don’t know about you guys, but animal crossing is my happy place. it just melts my anxiety and gives me comfort. when i don’t have time to play it, just listening to the music has the same effect. i hope it does for you guys too :~) here’s the tracklist i’ve compiled. feel free to message me if i forgot anything!

1. 7 a.m. AC Gamecube | 2. Wild World Title Super Smash Bros. Brawl | 3. 7 p.m. New Leaf | 4.K.K. Bossa (Orchestra)Animal Crossing Movie | 5. The City (day raining) City Folk | 6. 1 p.m. AC Gamecube | 7. New Year Party Animal Crossing Movie | 8. Summer Festival Animal Crossing Movie | 9. K.K. Bossa (Aircheck)K.K. Slider | 10. Music Marquee City Folk | 11. Bunny Day New Leaf | 12. 8 a.m.AC Gamecube | 13. B.B.F.F.K.K. Slider | 14. Town Hall & Tom Nook’s StoreSuper Smash Bros. Brawl | 15. Fireworks ShowAC Wild World | 16. The Peaceful Routine of Everyday LifeAC Remix | 17. First SnowAC Mix | 18. Animal Crossing Medley (Piano)| 19. 6 a.m.AC Gamecube | 20. Only MeK.K. Slider | 21. City DayCity Folk | 22. Toy DayNew Leaf | 23. Rainy Day ThemeAC Gamecube | 24. 8 p.m.New Leaf | 25. Daytime minigameNew Leaf | 26. Forest Life (Aircheck)City Folk | 27. Kapp'n’s SongNew Leaf | 28. Bubblegum K.K. (aircheck)K.K. Slider | 29. 2 a.m.City Folk | 30. 8 p.m.AC Gamecube | 31. K.K. Birthday (Aircheck)K.K. Slider | 32. Animal Crossing Theme RemixAC Gamecube | 33. 12 p.m.AC Gamecube | 34. The RoostCity Folk | 35. Animal Crossing Opening ThemeAC Gamecube | 36. Town TreeNew Leaf

GREED || MAFIA!Jeonghan [Chp 2]

BLURB: Power makes most men weak but you’re his special brand of kryptonite.

GENRE: mafia!au, action, mystery, romance

WORDS: 2125

PART: 1 | 2 |


Summers had always been his favourite time. For one, Jeonghan was entirely free from his studies for at least a few months. No tutors nagging at him for his terrible writing or smacking him with a ruler for dozing off during a lesson (as if it was his fault that Faery History was so boring) or music teachers with their snooty accents commanding him to “start again”. The days stretched on and there was always some sort of festival every other weekend, filling the city square with music and laughter. Jeonghan was never allowed to go but the sounds carried and he would run to the outer castle walls, squeezing himself against the gates as much as the guards let him, watching as the parade marched pass.

Sometimes the King and Queen – his parents – would open the castle doors and people would come bearing gifts; farmers presenting a small portion of their bountiful harvests after months of toil, blacksmiths with their polished swords or glittering trinkets, seamstresses and new a gown for the beautiful Queen. Once Jeonghan had received a charming little toy from an elderly craftsman; a beautiful wooden bird on top of a stick that would flap its wings if Jeonghan moved it up and down. It didn’t do anything else but he loved it anyway. However the craftsman had brought only one.

Jeonghan’s brows had scrunched together into a frown. “Could you come back with another one?”

“Another one?” the old man’s tone was filled with worry. “Why don’t you like this one, little prince? If you don’t mind me asking,” he added as an afterthought.

“Oh I do like this one!” As a young boy Jeonghan had hair that hung to his shoulders and it bounced as he nodded enthusiastically. “It’s just… I think my friend would one want too.”

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anonymous asked:

Au where sirius is a famous youtuber and he is married to teacher remus but they've kept it secret so nobody knows it. But then one day remus forgot his lunch and sirius couldnt let him starve, so he go to remus school and everybody is freaking out bc SIRIUS BLACK IS HERE OMG, and sirius takes a few photos aND THEN HE SEES REMUS AND HE KISS HIM AND PEOPLE ARE FREAKING OUT omg i need this

Okay omg this is amazing as it is but I’m gonna try and do it justice

  • Remus thinks it’s hilarious to hear the kids freaking out the day after Sirius has uploaded a new video - they barely pay attention whenever he sets them off on a task because they’re too busy enthusing about it
  • For this reason Remus makes him swear to never upload the day before any tests or exams because “Goddamnit Sirius, these kids need an eduction”
  • Sirius is asked to make merch and OBVIOUSLY he makes stationary just so Remus can never forget that his class love Sirius more than him
  • Non uniform days are always a game of ‘Spot the one kid NOT wearing a Padfoot T-shirt”
  • Remus has to change the background on his phone from a selfie of him and Sirius after a kid sees it during catch up and starts a rumour that Remus is a superfan
  • “OMG did you hear Mr Lupin has met Sirius Black?? He probably went to Summer in the City or something I heard he’s a proper fanboy”
  • The kids start trying to talk to him about it - asking him whenever a new video has come out if he’s watched it and whether or not he enjoyed it
  • He just shrugs and tells them to get back to work - he’d rather not let them know that he’s had to watch 4 different versions of it in the last 2 days to help Sirius decide which to upload
  • On the morning he forgets his lunch he actually stops and swears mid-lesson (thankfully it’s with the sixth formers otherwise he’d be in big trouble)
  • He and Sirius live too far away for Remus to be able to drive home during his lunch break, so the only other option is…
  • Oh God
  • Oh no
  • Sirius can’t come here
  • Remus decides he’d much rather go without, and so he continues with his day teaching until break, when he checks his phone to see a text from Sirius
  • You left your lunch so I’m going to come drop it off xxx
  • It was sent half an hour ago - Sirius would be there by now
  • Remus had thought the corridor outside his classroom seemed louder than usual
  • He peeks his head around the classroom door to see Sirius taking selfies with his class, who are waiting to be let into the next lesson
  • Sirius looks round and sees him, a huge grin spreading across his face - “Hey, babe!”
  • Remus groans, “Did you just call me babe in front of my students?” 
  • He would never live this down
  • The kids are all staring in awe at the scene - some are whispering. It’s pretty well known that both Mr Lupin and Sirius are gay (Sirius’ coming out video has well over 12 million views), but no one saw this coming
  • Sirius holds up the lunchbag he has been carrying and waves it in front of Remus’ face, “You forgot this, nerd.”
  • “Sirius please stop embarrassing me in front of the year nines”
  • “Never.”
  • He waltzes over and kisses Remus on the cheek before placing the lunchbag unceremoniously in Remus’ hands, then turns and walks back down the corridor as the school bell rings, leaving nothing but the faint smell of expensive aftershave and a sea of gaping 13 year olds behind him.
  • Remus flushes red and clears his throat before pushing the door open fully and calling the class in,
  • “If I see anything about this on twitter I swear I’ll get him to delete his channel”
aesthetic blogrates

hey friendos i haven’t done anything cute like this in a while so here’s what ya gotta do

~mbf me

~reblog this post

~send me an ask saying three things you like about yourself! 

~and maybe follow my instagram @/itslikealittlehuman bc it’s gonna be aesthetic and have cute dnp pictures and there’ll be pictures of me more often and i’ll follow back! (not necessary but i’ll love you forever)

(i stole this template from @phaninspired cause im a sneky snek)

you know the drill, blacklist #liza does blogrates

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2 Hours of Sleepy Video Game Music (Vol. 4)

A 2-hour compilation of ‘sleepy’ dreamlike music from various video games.

Playlist:
0:00 Ragnarok Odyssey Ace - Cradle of the Slumbering Machines – Kumi Tanioka
3:05 Wild Arms 3 - Night of the Legends – Michiko Naruke
5:47 Antichamber - The Garden – Siddhartha Barnhoorn
13:02 Animal Crossing: City Folk - 11 PM (Snow) – Manaka Tominaga, Shiho Fujii
15:45 Shadow Hearts: Covenant - Inugami Village – Yasunori Mitsuda
19:57 Ratchet & Clank: A Crack In Time - The Great Clock - Clank’s Subconscious – Boris Salchow
24:09 Klonoa: Door to Phantomile - Difficult to Say – Eriko Imura
26:12 Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days - Musique pour la tristesse de Xion – Yoko Shimomura
30:08 Hotel Dusk: Room 215 - The Long Night – Satoshi Okubo
32:49 Knytt Underground - Vanishing – D Fast
36:24 Tsugunai: Atonement - Whilst I Sleep – Yasunori Mitsuda
39:13 Age of Wonders - Nature’s Embrace – Michiel van den Bos
42:41 Monster Tale - Summer Shores – Ian Stocker
45:55 Etrian Odyssey Untold - Labyrinth II - Primitive Jungle – Yuzo Koshiro
50:12 L.O.L.: Lack of Love - Dream – Ryuichi Sakamoto
52:42 ilomilo - Once Upon – Daniel Olsén
55:35 Undertale - Home – Toby Fox
59:00 Final Fantsay IX - Eidolon Wall – Nobuo Uematsu
1:01:31 Tower of Heaven - Eternal Sanctity – flashygoodness
1:04:34 Neverwinter Nights 2: Mask of the Betrayer - Anya’s Dreamscape – Rik Schaffer
1:08:33 The Legend of Heroes: Trails in the Sky - A Cat Relaxing in the Sun – Falcom Sound Team jdk
1:12:01 Nine Hours, Nine Persons, Nine Doors - Recollection – Shinji Hosoe
1:16:01 Dust: An Elysian Tail - Twin Souls – HyperDuck SoundWorks
1:21:20 Beyond Good & Evil - Thoughtful Reflections – Christophe Héral
1:24:24 Code of Princess - Sadness’ Decision – ACE
1:28:49 Lunar: Silver Star Harmony - Reverie in the Brilliant Light – Noriyuki Iwadare
1:31:21 The Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword - Temple of Hylia – Hajime Wakai, Shiho Fujii, Mahito Yokota, Takeshi Hama
1:34:54 Grandia III - Terrarium – Noriyuki Iwadare
1:38:00 Professor Layton and the Last Specter - Misthallery ~ Night – Tomohito Nishiura
1:41:29 Harvest Moon: Animal Parade - Goddess Spring (Night) – Yasufumi Fukuda, Hideaki Miyamoto
1:45:31 E.V.O.: Search for Eden - Asteroid Belt – Koichi Sugiyama
1:48:29 Viva Piñata - Bedtime Story – Grant Kirkhope
1:51:06 Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles - Strength in Sadness – Kumi Tanioka
1:54:25 Machinarium - By The Wall – Tomas Dvorak
1:59:26 Yume Nikki - Saving Theme – kikiyama
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Sleepy VGM Vol. 1 - https://youtu.be/fqLGDMXwyvM
Sleepy VGM Vol. 2 - https://youtu.be/vf7sQgQjubo
Sleepy VGM Vol. 3 - https://youtu.be/JG-OMq_mCAA

Relaxing VGM Vol. 1 - https://youtu.be/XC2bdmc8_04
Relaxing VGM Vol. 2 - https://youtu.be/tEqJDCoUbsI
Relaxing VGM Vol. 3 - https://youtu.be/00bDP5fik0Q
Relaxing VGM Vol. 4 - https://youtu.be/gTRzMcQgpsw

ONE WEEK!

Heads up, true believers! There’s just one week left until May 1st, the start of Spideytorch Week, a seven day celebration of the Spideytorch ship!  We accept all kinds of fanworks dedicated to the relationship between Peter “Spider-Man” Parker and Johnny “Human Torch” Storm.

2017′s themes are:

Day 1 - First/Lasts
Day 2 - Competition
Day 3 - Domesticity
Day 4 - Through the Decades
Day 5 - Journeys
Day 6 - Risky Liaisons
Day 7- Free Day

In addition, this year we have general themes that you can post on any day. Choose any one or combine them:

Protectiveness/Comfort
Summer/Winter
Costumes
New York City

There’s no signups needed to participate - just remember to tag #spideytorchweek in the first five tags so we can see and reblog! 

Changes

I feel like I write one of these way too often lately.

Okay soooo for those who don’t know yet I have a really cool internship down in NYC and I am super jazzed to be there for the summer. I was not about to commute 2 hours each way every day, though, so I actually got a place down in the city. Which means two things:

1. I will spending a lot of time at the Brooklyn Botanical Gardens and haunting down all the best speakeasies;

2. I will not have my computer with me.

I am also going to Florida for a few days next week so I’ll be away then, too. I will try my best to get all of Chapter 4 shot before I leave, but I know I won’t be able to do more than that. 

So I will be slowing down my queue in hopes of having enough posts to cover my trip to Florida and moving days. Will still be reblogging each episode after it’s finished. After I will have posted all of Chapter 4, Save Me from Me will be taking a little bit of a break. I really can’t shoot and edit all the necessary photos for a story on my macbook anymore, the lagging is horrible and I’m pretty sure my computer wants to die when I run sims. I will still be around posting, though it will probably be stuff like these two as well as CC.

TL;DR: Zina is going to NYC for the summer without her computer so Save Me from Me will be going on vacay until the end of August after the next chapter is done. During the summer I’ll be posting more one-off things like random photosets and CC. 

Remus and Tonks’ Infinite Life Playlist

Times Like These - The Eden Project (remadora)

Wonderwall - Ryan Adams cover (Remus to Dora)

Bloom - Paper Kites (Remus/Dora morning after wedding song)

Pasture - Down Like Silver (Dora after Mad-Eye’s death)

Suitcase - Joe Purdy (Dora to Remus during the height of the war)

I’m On Fire - Awolnation (Remus to Dora, upon first realizing he’s falling in love)

At War - Letters From The Fire (Remus, lovely Remus)

Flowers of a Ghost (I’m Only Human) - (REMADORA)

Tessellate - Alt-J (remadora’s ‘first time’)

Inside Out - Chainsmokers (Dora telling Remus she’s gonna love him, no matter how hard he tries to fight it)

Fall In Love - Barcelona (Listen to this song and tell me it’s not Remus to Dora, most especially when he’s with the wolves thinking of her)

 Lay Me Down - Sorah Yang cover (Dora to Remus while he’s with the wolves) 

So Far Away - Avenged Sevenfold (Remus thinking of James and Sirius)

River - Bishop Briggs (DEFINITELY Dora to Remus, done with his back and forth nonsense)

Come As You Are - Prep School cover (Dora to Remus)

Bad Blood - Bastille (The Marauders)

Impossible Year - Panic! At the Disco (Angsty remadora)

Here’s to the Heartache - Nothing More (Remus to Dora)

Lovely - 21 Pilots (Dora to Remus tho)

Silence Summons You - Animal Kingdom (Dora to Remus)

All I Want - Kodaline (Dora missing Remus)

Heaven - Amber Run (Remus to Dora after accepting her love)

Human - Aquilo (Dora very firmly to Remus)

Butterfly - Crazy Town (Low-key probably playing in Remus’ head every time Dora was around)

Work Song - Hozier (Playing in Remus’ head as he ran off to battle, thinking of Dora)

Let Me Sign - Robert Pattinson (Remus as his resolve breaks and his fear of it all)

Blurry - Puddle of Mudd (Dora to Remus hardcore)

Creep - Radiohead (How could anyone not relate this to Remus)

Vulnerable - Secondhand Serenade (SO Dora to Remus)

You Really Got a Hold On Me - She & Him (Dora to Remus)

Where You Should Be - Skream (remadora)

Turning Page - Sleeping at Last (When Remus marries Dora)

Running Up that Hill - Placebo (Dora to Remus as she watches him struggle with loving her and being what he is)

Forever Young - Alphaville (Remus and Dora dancing, the world around them dark and heavy)

Meteor Shower - Owl City (remadora)

Unwell - Matchbox 20 (Dora, just…Dora)

Possibility - Lykke Li (Dora to Remus while she’s chasing him) 

Love Me Dead - Ludo (Playing 24/7 in Remus’ head about Dora when he gets angry about falling for her)

I Alone - Live (Remus, after finding out Dora is pregnant)

Fix You - Coldplay (Dora to Remus, good lord my heart)

Everywhere I Go - Lissie (Battle weary Dora, before Remus accepts her love)

Do I Wanna Know - Arctic Monkeys (HARDCORE remadora)

When You Were Young - The Killers (Dora)

Slow Dancing in a Burning Room - John Mayer (Remus to Dora on why they shouldn’t be in love)

Fields of Gold - Sting (remadora’s heaven song, can’t convince me otherwise)

I Caught Fire - The Used (Remus to Dora after they marry)

Boats & Birds - Gregory & the Hawk (Remus, Dora, & Teddy’s song)

Last Night On Earth - Greenday (remadora wedding dance song)

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls (Just imagine Remus singing this to Dora. Just do it)

Power of Love - Gabrielle Aplin (Now imagine Dora singing this to Remus)

My Love - Sia (Playing in Dora’s head in the brief minutes between Remus’ death and her own)

Crave You - Flight Facilities (Smitten Dora to Remus before she realizes he loves her too)

Wrapped In Your Arms - FireFlight (Dora’s after-sex cuddle song)

I Know You Care - Ellie Goulding (Dora’s 2:30 am thoughts)

No Sound but the Wind - Editors (remadora war song)

Days Go By (acoustic) - Dirty Vegas (remadora)

White Flag - Dito (VIOLENTLY Dora to Remus)

Missing - City & Colour (Teddy to his parents)

Summer Skin - Death Cab for Cutie (remadora just after Dora tells Remus she loves him and he starts ignoring her, their once great friendship crumbling)

Love Song - The Cure (remadora - more 2:30 am thoughts)

Bedroom Eyes - Crywolf (Dora to Remus)

Never Tear Us Apart - Allday cover (remadora)

The Scientist - Coldplay (remadora right in the feels)

The Lonely - Christina Perri (Dora while Remus is ignoring her)

Melancholy Hill - Gorillaz (Heart-meltingly remadora)

Once - B. C. Kane (Dora to Remus, PLEASE listen)

Smother - Daughter (SO Dora about Remus while he’s ignoring her)

Beside You - Phidel (Dora to Remus, always)

Mother - Lissie (How Remus must feel about it all)

Take Me to Church - Hozier (Remus about Dora 25/7 probably)

Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot - Brand New (So Remus to Dora while he’s away it hurts)

Wolves - Down Like Silver (remadora funeral song)

I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Death Cab for Cutie (remadora’s death song)

You’re welcome and I’m sorry.

This is My Rape Testimony

Ever wonder why victims of rape don’t go forward with pressing charges? Well I had always wondered this, until it happened to me. It was a hot and muggy August day. I woke up excited because I was getting my hair done, and for all you girls out there, you know how exciting this is. I also had my last workout of the summer at the gym I had been going to. I went to the hair salon and spent probably a good 2 hours there. I had been texting one of my close friends the whole time, who had just started her new job in the city. It was a Wednesday. She was going out after work for sips at the uptown beer garden, and I had made plans to go down to the city and meet her after I got my hair done. It was around 5 o’clock when my hair was finished, and my mom came to pick me up. I felt pretty and decided I definitely had to go out because I had just gotten my hair done. I asked my mom to drop me off at the 69th street terminal so that I could take the El right into the city to meet M. Of course my mom drops me off and says “Remember, text me when you get there, who you are with, when you are coming home, and how AND don’t drink too much!” I replied back just by saying yea ok mom I won’t forget! I get on the EL and head down to the city. It was around 6:30 when I got there—still light out. The uptown beer garden was packed, but it did not take me long to find M. M, her friend C and I started drinking, and we thought “hey let’s just start chugging our drinks, and ordering 3 at a time” And that is what we did. We were having ourselves a ball. Eventually we decided to go back to a hotel right across from city hall, where M’s work friends were staying. We started to drink again when we were there and around 9 o’clock we were deciding to go to a bar close by. This is where everything turns black. There’s a part of time where I just don’t remember up until I realized I was lost from my friends in the city by myself. I was texting and calling to find them, but just couldn’t make sense of anything, and neither could they, but I was determined to explore around the city until I found them. I am very familiar with the city and have been in this situation before so I didn’t really think anything of it.
I’m a very outgoing and talkative person if I do say so myself. Usually this isn’t a problem, but August 17, 2016, my friendliness got me into a bit of trouble. A man approached me, probably in his mid-40’s or 50’s. He was wearing a Phillies hat. A black man probably the same height as me. He had facial hair. We started talking and he was being very friendly so I just told him that I was looking for some friends. Then things started to get a bit weird. I will spare most of the details for you, but he eventually led me down an alley where he then forced his penis into my vagina. I was raped. Luckily I was eventually able to get away and by the Grace of God there was an uber 1 minute away that I was able to get in right away at the place where I ran to. My head was spinning. I was confused. I was in denial. I had no idea what to do.

I ended up ubering to my friend B’s house. I probably got there around midnight. I cried and cried and cried to her. She hugged me and just let me cry. Eventually, she drove me home where I went right to sleep, hoping I would wake up and it would all just be some crazy nightmare. I woke up the next morning, wearing exactly what I was wearing the day before. My mom was downstairs in the kitchen making breakfast, and I walked downstairs and just started bawling my eyes out, apologizing to my mom when I saw her. I told her what had happened and she just hugged me and cried with me. Eventually I calmed down and I told her that I didn’t want any police involvement and I didn’t want to go to the hospital. Long story short, we decided that was what I had to do. I spent half of August 18th in the hospital, and the other half, in the SVU department of Philadelphia speaking with detectives. Telling every little detail that I could remember of what had happened, close to 10 times. It was by far one of the hardest, most exhausting days of my life. Flash forward a month or so, I get another call from the detective. They had found someone matching the description I gave 6 times that night on camera. They needed me to come into the SVU again and look at a photo array. This is a lineup of 6 photos they showed me, in which I were to identify if any of them were the man who had assaulted me. I ended up identifying him, which made it possible for them to get a warrant for his arrest.

Now after this, I just waited and waited to hear from them. One day I decided to call and ask for an update on my case. The Detective said that she was actually just about to call me because they had to bring me in for more questioning. Probably the last thing I needed at that time. I went back in for more questioning and waited and waited. I ended up forgetting about all of it for a little. Besides the nightmares and flashbacks I was able to convince myself that I am ok. I had been wondering when I would get an update, and if they had even done anything. I really had no idea what was going on. Eventually in the beginning of February, 2017 I received a call saying that they had arrested the man. I felt an immediate sense of relief, but the more I thought about it, I realized this meant I had to face him in court. The day came where I received my witness subpoena in the mail. The court date was set for February 23, 2017, a day I will never forget. We got there at 10:30 and waited until my case was called around 2 to go into the courtroom. I saw many girls there for the same reason as I was. Everyone had tear filled eyes, but there was still a strong sense of bravery radiating off of every girl sharing their testimonies. Facing this man in the court room, and having to be re victimized was sickening. Testifying was the hardest and worst thing I ever had to do in my life by far. This is the reason why girls don’t end up pressing charges and testifying. It all comes down to he said she said. And that is exactly what happened. The judge discharged the case for burden of proof that I did not consent. I did all of this for nothing. Had to face this man again, had to feel him staring at me as I was up on the stand, had to be cross examined and almost forced to believe that it was my fault this happened, all for nothing. The criminal justice system had failed me.

How do I feel most days? I feel dirty, worthless, alone, confused, overwhelmed, damaged, unlovable, scared, stupid. Did I deserve this? I know that God didn’t make this happen to me, but why me? Why anyone? Why are people like this? Why are there bad people? Where is God? When will I forget? Will I forget? I know I am doing the right thing by reporting it but why is the right thing so hard to do?

These questions, plus hundreds more constantly cross my mind. Some days I wake up and have to call my mom to ask if something bad happened to me because it doesn’t seem real. Nightmares and flashbacks have become a part of my life. I smile and act goofy on the outside, but inside by body is quivering in fear and broken heartedness.
This attack is now a part of my life. I know that it is not who I am and I am not defined by this but I am a victim of rape. I have been trying to run from it and pretend like it never happened the past few months, numbing myself to life, but the reality is that it did happen. And I think that is what my recovery depends on. Realizing that it did happen, and facing it. This chapter must be in my story book for some reason, and one day I hope that God shines his light upon its purpose, or the road leading me to help others in similar situations in the future. I think that another important step I need to make towards my recovery, is facing Jesus and inviting him back into my life. When I am feeling the weight of evil, remembering that He promised us good. He will help me to fear no evil, and he will walk with me through this storm.

There is a Bible verse that I have been thinking of a lot recently, and that is “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. For I will be with you” (Isaiah 43:2). Just a reminder that no matter what struggle you are going through, whether it is something small, something large, or something in between, God is with us always. He will help us get through these deep waters. He will help us to be brave and do hard things every day of our lives. He promised us good, and he will make sure good is what we get. Easier said than done, and trust me, it has been extremely difficult for me, but all we have to do is open our hearts to him and ask.

I still question myself everyday wondering if I had said or done something differently would any of this have happened? Would my case have been discharged and all of the charges dropped? But in the end I have to remind myself that I did all that I could. I was as brave as I could have ever been, and I told the truth. At least I know the truth and I want the rest of the world to know the truth and how the criminal justice system has failed me, along with so many other girls.

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i’m sorry in advance for this, but i hope you like it :)

“She was sweet to me, reminds me of you.”

Six year old Aria had been begging for a bonfire now that school was out and summer was officially here, and Anthony finally indulges her one Friday night when he knows neither of them have to get up early the following day.

Anthony listens to the crackling fire with a half asleep Aria resting against chest, feeling as though everything was right in the world. The city was bustling around them but everything seemed so peaceful when it was just the two of them, nothing else to worry about.

“Daddy,” Aria’s voice is distant and quiet as she’s drifting off to sleep, Anthony humming in response. “Will you tell me about Mama?”

Anthony can’t help but freeze at the question, letting his head fall back against the back of the chair, worrying about how he was going to go about this. It had been a few years since Jasmine died, and while Aria has heard stories about her over those past few years, Anthony had never dove fully into teaching her everything, still too worried to tell her everything when she was so young.

“What do you want to know, baby?” Anthony questions, Aria turning to look up at her, shrugging.

“I just want to know about her,” She explains, playing with the wedding ring on her father’s finger that Anthony hadn’t been strong enough to take off.

“Well, she had the most beautiful curly hair and brown eyes. She had a laugh that always made me laugh because it was so silly, but she always seemed to be even happier when I would say something to make her laugh.” Anthony finds himself smiling at the memories, his hands running through Aria’s curls as he thinks back to everything about what Jas was and who she had become while she was alive.

“She loved to make people smile, and she loved adventures,” Anthony remembers, smiling at all the memories that they had gone on together. “She used to ask me to go exploring with her when we had free time. You would’ve loved going on adventures with her,” He laughs, Aria giggling quietly along with him.

“She was sweet to me, reminds me of you,” Anthony smiles, Aria shifting against him to look up at her. “you’re so much like her, Ari,” He whispers, Aria nodding slowly.

“But more than anything, she loved you more than anything or anyone else in the world,” Anthony smiles, pushing the tears away from his eyes as he looks down at his daughter, his lips brushing against her head. 

“God, Ari, she loved you more than I’ve ever seen her love before. You were her biggest accomplishment, her pride and joy. She would tell everyone who would listen to look at you and say how adorable you were, baby,” Anthony smiles, Aria turning so she can turn on her side against Anthony’s chest, looking up at him.

“I miss Mama, Daddy,” She whispers, her bottom lip quivering in a way that breaks Anthony’s heart when he sees it.

So he does the only thing he knows how to do and holds her tighter than he ever has before, kissing the top of her head and letting himself get emotional in front of her for the first time ever.

“I miss her too, baby. More than ever,” He whispers, his lips resting against the top of his daughter’s head. “But she’s always in here with you,” Anthony promises, pointing to his heart as Aria nods, her head falling against Aria’s chest.

The two of them sit with Anthony’s voice humming through the otherwise quiet air until Aria falls asleep against her father’s chest, Jasmine just a thought in their minds.

There were so many things that Anthony had wanted to talk about with Jasmine and things that he planned on giving Aria as he got older, but for now he stuck to the stories, the moment that the two of them shared that night showing Anthony that she was more than ready for everything that Anthony had wanted to tell his little girl about her mother that was taken from them far too soon.

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today was simply amazing BECAUSE:

1) I had a design team meeting that went REALLY WELL
2) it’s a RECOVERY day which meant a quick pool run and some graston for me
3) I went to work for a little which means I made money like a GROWN UP
4) I then went to get DELICIOUS COOKIES AND CREAM/VANILLA/CAKE BATTER FROYO and my stomach didn’t hurt at ALL even though I’m apparently lactose intolerant
5) I went to urban outfitters and got a cute DRESS and a SHIRT
6) my LITTLE SISTER AND I GOT JOBS IN THE SAME CITY THIS SUMMER WHICH IS SO AMAZING HAVE YOU EVER GROWN UP AND COINCIDENTALLY GOT A JOB IN THE SAME CITY AS YOUR SISTER THAT IS NOT A CITY EITHER OF YOU CURRENTLY LIVE IN
7) I had a really yummy chicken salad for dinner with this awesome TURMERIC spiced CAULIFLOWER

BATHTUB DESKTOP

a future funk & vaporwave mix ( listen || cover art by me)

tracklist:

FUNK4REAL - VHS Logos || Fun Tonight - マクロスMACROSS 82-99 || Sweet Future Funky Stuff - FrankJavCee || Groove City - Soul Bells & マクロスMACROSS 82-99 || City (ft. マクロスMACROSS 82-99) - Architecture in Tokyo || Pineapple Juniors - Saint Pepsi || Your Love Has Me High - Yung Bae || Strawberry Lemonade - Saint Pepsi || リサフランク420 / 現代のコンピュー - Macintosh Plus || Remember Summer Days (マクロスMACROSS 82-99 bootleg) - Anri || Nintendo Vs Sega 2 Mario Kart 64 Koopa Troopa Beach - RAC || Summer VI - Bansheebeat & Yung Bae || Night in Tokyo Pt. II - マクロスMACROSS 82-99 || Skylar Spence - Saint Pepsi ||  first class // 一等 - RASPBERRY COUGH || Bae City Rollaz -  ИΔΤVИ & Yung Bae

Yaz tatilinde izlemeniz gereken filmler :3 (PART 2)

-Barfi

-Peekay

-Clueless

-Hızlı ve Öfkeli Serisi

-Never Back Down

-Guguk Kuşu

-Green Street Hooligans

-City Of God

-Wanted

-The Wolverine

-About Time

-A Walk to Remember

-500 Days Of Summer

-Yes Man

P.S. I Love You

-Kal Ho Naa Ho

-Grave of the Fireflies

-Mary and Max

-A.I Artificial Intelligence

-Take the Lead

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St. Louis trip update:
Pic #1 - on day one we went to the Cardinals baseball game. That night was sooo cold and it rained a lot.

Pic #2 & 3 - day two we went to the City Museum. It was crazy and so much fun. There was even a Ferris wheel on the roof it was crazy!

Pic #4 - Sunday we went to this very beautiful church. There was stain glass windows and the message was very encouraging. This quote was given to us at the church. I love this quote.

Pic #5 - Sunday we also went to the zoo. We were suppose to go to the arch but we decided not to go because we didn’t have tickets. I loved the zoo so much!!

Bella’s April Schedule

Work done/release for this month and what’s previewed for the next month along with a schedule collecting everything we saw her do this month, we obviously don’t see it all.

Editorial released for April:

  • Vogue China ( cover )
  • Porter Magazine ( cover - summer 17 )
  • Sunday Times Style ( cover - april 2 )

Editorial previewed for May:

  • ELLE Magazine ( cover )

Campaigns previewed:

  • Ochirly Summer 2017

Full April Schedule:

Cities visited ( roughly ): Mexico for 3 days, New York City for 8 days, Dubai for 6 days, Paris for 1 day, London for 2 days, Paris for 1 day, New York City 5 days, Miami for 1 day, New York City for 3 days

Total days we saw of shooting: 5

  • 3rd: Flew form Mexico to New York City
  • 4th: Mystery Shoot
           Jesse Jo’s 26th birthday dinner
  • 5th: Chrome Hearts New York opening 
  • 6th: Mystery Shoot
  • 8th: Gotham Gym workout
  • 11th: Flew from New York City to Dubai
             Elle Magazine cover released 
  • 12th: Dior Art of Colour Exhibit opening
             Dior Art of Colour dinner
  • 13th: Interview with Huda Beauty
             Press release and launch for Diorshow Pump N’ Volume
             Fan meet and greet at the Dubai Mall
             Ochirly Summer 2017 campaign released
  • 18th: Flew from Dubai to Paris
  • 19th: Train from Paris to London
  • 20th: Press release and launch for Diorshow Pump N’ Volume
             Fan meet and greet at Selfridges 
  • 21st: Train from London to Paris
             Mystery shoot (w/ Karl Lagerfeld)     
  • 22nd: Flew from Paris to New York City
  • 23rd: Gigi’s birthday celebration 
  • 24th: Vogue Italia cover shoot w/ Natalie Wrestling Day 1
  • 25th: Vogue Italia cover shoot w/ Natalie Wrestling Day 2
             Morgan Lane x Spring party 
  • 27th: Workout Gotham Gym
             Met Gala fittings at Alexander Wang
             Flew from New York City to Miami
  • 28th: Flew from Miami to New York City
  • 29th: Met Gala fittings at Alexander Wang
  • 30th: Travis Scott’s 25th birthday party