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Shutting Down: Mike is in love with Harvey, but when he confesses it, Harvey rejects him and laughs it off. Mike is heart broken, and in a desperate attempt to numb out the heart ache, he starts abusing drugs. It lands him in therapy, and his depression starts to swallow his entire life. No one notices this because Mike keeps up an alright appearance, but eventually it’s too much for him and he attempts suicide. Although Harvey can’t return his feelings, he tries to help Mike as much as he can, Mike rejects his help thinking it’s just pity. Mike ends up in a mental hospital, emotionally unstable and starts to lose touch with reality. Harvey witnesses Mike fall apart, and then Mike goes and succeeds in taking his own life.

Original Prompt: Here on suitsmeme @ LJ. Available on FF.net and AO3. By skyenapped.

Prompt Made: August 8, 2011
Filled: August 10, 2011
Completed: August 14, 2012

  • 01 ▪ I Just Tell Myself || Balligomingo
Just tell myself
that something more could help
to keep my conscience clear
it’s all because of

you know I needed more
that I needed something you could never say
it’s all because of you
.

  • 02 ▪ In My Veins || Andrew Belle
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Oh, you’re all I taste, at night inside of my mouth
Oh, you run away, cause I am not what you found
Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out
Everything will change
Nothing stays the same
  • 03 ▪ Don’t Stop Now || Emmy Rossum
This darkened street
You go to hide
Illuminates
You’re not mine
These days run cold
My body numb
I am not whole
What have you done
It all makes sense to disconnect

Too many words were left unsaid
But still I stare
Frozen here
Until the curtains close

  • 04 ▪ Fear To Breathe || In Tenebris
You don’t have the will to see
All I hold inside of me
In despair we both will see
Summer gone, I fear to breathe. (some are gone?)
In my heart I keep these things
You know hope and what it brings?
For everything I’ll never see
Forever I will fear to breathe
  • 05 ▪ Holding On (feat. Shelley Harland) || Ferry Corsten
Hold my face in your hands, look into my eyes
So I understand all the thoughts inside your mind
Tell me it’s time

My hands are tied behind my back
And I’m weakened by your slow attack
You take me in, then change your mind again
  • 06 ▪ I Realize || Megan McCauley
And I realize, that I’ve lost my mind.
And I realize, that I am the lie.
It’s over, my time to shine.
I’m already dead, so why can’t I die.

Everything I thought I could see, has disappeared.
Everything I thought I could be, Has been drown by fear.
Somehow it seems all I can do, is sit and stare.
Somehow nothing good seems to last, or was it ever there?
  • 07 ▪ Cut || Plumb
I do not want to be afraid
I do not want to die inside just to breathe in
I’m tired of feeling so numb
Relief exists I find it when
I am cut

I may seem crazy
Or painfully shy
And these scars wouldn’t be so hidden
If you would just look me in the eye
I feel alone here and cold here
Though I don’t want to die
But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside
  • 08 ▪ The Package || The Perfect Circle
Peripheral on the package
Don’t care to settle in
Time to feed the monster
I don’t need another friend
Comfort is a mystery
Crawling out of my own skin
Just give me what I came for
Then I’m out the door again

Lie to get what I came for
Lie to get just what I need
Lie to get what I crave
Lie and smile to get what’s mine
  • 09 ▪ Über’s Jahr || Wolfsheim -german song-

  • 10 ▪ 20/20 || Alanis Morissette
This fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty-twenty
Torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now
This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding
This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now

I would’ve gone slower
Pushed infrequent
Would not have rushed into such commitment
I would’ve shown restraint as my feet got wet
I would’ve baby-stepped into intimate
  • 11 ▪ 9 Crimes || Damien Rice
Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you

It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I got no excuse

And is that alright? Yeah
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
That alright? Yeah
If you don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?
  • 12 ▪ Common Reaction || Uh Huh Her
Hey love, your face is full of lies
Be careful what you ask
Be cautious how you act
You’re tired, tired of the dark
Oh you’re covered in dust, yeah
You’re covered in dust

(You don’t believe)
How can you fall from a
wound like that dear?
Don’t mind, it’s a common reaction
And you tell me everything is alright,
you don’t mind
How can you feel when
you’re wounded like that dear?
Don’t mind, it’s a common reaction
And you tell me everything is alright
And you don’t mind
Waste my time
  • 13 ▪ Perfection || Oh Land
I will follow you, you will be my main direction
I study you until I get your
Everything you do is a gem in my collection
I follow you until I get your perfection

Every step I follow you in the wrong direction
I study you until I will get your perfection
Everything you do is put into my collection
I follow you until I will get your perfection
  • 14 ▪ Shades Of Grey || Waking Ashland
Hey, and I’ll look away,
Pretend I’m okay.
I’m back on the road again.

And please, could it be true,
That I still love you,
And my loves unworthy.

Shades of Grey,
And please fade away.
And oh what if I sit in vain.
  • 15 ▪ Stars || Nelly Furtado
There are so many songs on the people’s faces
Everyone could be yours but they’re not
And all is lost if I count the truth
To my own heart

You’re a part of me
You’re in every breath that I breathe
And every step forward that I take
And then I take a step backwards
And I can’t see your face

You’re a part of me
You’re in every song that I sing
And every bird that sings to me
This is what I dream
To be real
This is my reality
  • 16 ▪ All You Are || The Gathering
I sit scared
I dart my eyes about pretending I don’t care
Time and place I embrace the sanity
I’m wondering why am I still here?
I lose the race
Your eyes meet mine, a fleeting glimpse

And I watch
All that you are
I want to hide
How did I end up here alone?
  • 17 ▪ Remember Me || The Birthday Massacre
It’s safe to say I’m lonely now
A place called home is just
a memory away
I know I’ve done this all before
A thousands silent voices
begging me to stay

Apologies all left unsaid
Secrets better left unspoken
Dreams are slowly put to bed
Rumors stirred and reawaken

And if I try to get away
How long until I’m free?
And if I don’t come back here
Will you remember me?
  • 18 ▪ Let It Go || Fauxliage
Every night i drive away from you
I see the mountains i have to move

And you there
You don’t care
I wonder if you

Wanted me like i wanted you
It’s a lonely truth
That i can’t change you
And you sure can’t change me
  • 19 ▪ Death Came and Got Me || Rosie Thomas
I can’t, I can’t stop crying
Everyday I’m so afraid
Afraid of dying
Death already came and got me
Cause I’m not living…
I’m not living anyway…

And who am I supposed to be?
Everybody seems to see except for me
Who cares anyway….
Cause when it’s over,
It’s all over, and what you gain you throw away

  • 20 ▪ Sunday Black || Coury Palermo
Look’s like it’s gonna rain
what should I tell them
when they ask me why you’ve left us?
what am I to do?
‘Cause you’re gone gone gone
Baby you’re gone
Yeah you’re gone gone gone
Tell me what am I, what am I to do?
Six feet apart and I don’t understand the reason

  • 21 ▪ Carry Your Cross and I’ll Carry Mine || Tiamat
Carry your cross and I’ll carry mine
Dig your own hole and you’ll be fine
Build your own tower until heavens devour

Your very last hour

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#nowreading meme : 'Who said Seven was Lucky?'

Saddest angst ever, possibly. I don’t know. Was trying so hard because my tears was at bay. Chapter 18 had me bawling.

this was me after brother went out from my room

I hope Harvey gets back to his senses and wins Mike back because if that doesn’t happen, I’ll be red-eyed all week. T_____T

If you guys wanna read it.. here –> Who Said Seven Was Lucky?

I made a Harvey/Mike prompt in Round Two at the Suits Meme on LJ, it was very dark and the lovely nevergone filled it for me. The prompt involves  dark-serialkiller!Harvey and a abducted-stockholm-syndrome!Mike. You can read the fanfic here on AO3. This is a proper thank you to the author who pretty much took the fanfic out of my head and wrote it so wonderfully, and this is a cover dedicated to the fanfic ‘Damaged’.

Summary: Harvey is a reformed serial killer, trying to live a normal life after getting bored with killing off his rivals in the law world. Then Mike Ross enters his life. And there’s just something about the kid that brings to life those same old sadistic feelings. Harvey decides he wants Mike for his own. And what Harvey wants, Harvey gets.

Another fanart for flamyshine, this one is for the prompt flamyshine filled for me, called ‘Pretty Handsome Kindergarten’ which you can read on AO3 or LJ.

The fanfic is of course AU, and the Suits cast are all kindergarteners, with their teacher Jessica and the new kid Mike (who is four years old) is as cute as a button and everyone wants to play with him. It’s the cutest thing I’ve ever read, go ahead and read it so you can fall in love with it like I did.

Filled Prompts

I made prompts at the suitsmeme and suits-meme communities at livejournal. These are all the prompts that were filled by the lovely author!anons and lj members :D (Some have reposted them in AO3, FF.net and on their own LJ accounts).

Subject: Harvey/Mike (trigger warning)

Prompt: (Possible triggers are drug abuse, attempted suicide, suicide/death)

Mike is in love with Harvey, but when he confesses it, Harvey rejects him and laughs it off. Mike is heart broken, and in a desperate attempt to numb out the heart ache, he starts abusing drugs. It lands him in therapy, and his depression starts to swallow his entire life. No one notices this because Mike keeps up an alright appearance, but eventually it’s too much for him and he attempts suicide. Although Harvey can’t return his feelings, he tries to help Mike as much as he can, Mike rejects his help thinking it’s just pity. Mike ends up in a mental hospital, emotionally unstable and starts to lose touch with reality. Harvey witnesses Mike fall apart, and then Mike goes and succeeds in taking his own life. Harvey feels guilty, and in his own way (Doesn’t how it to others) grieves the death of his associate. Everyone else in the firm grieves in their own way, and each one has a memory of Mike that they treasure in their own ways. Life changes for Harvey and those who knew Mike, even after death they are all haunted by his memory.

I would love to see everyone’s first reaction when they find out about Mike’s suicide attempt and when he actually succeeds at it. Bonus if you can describe how the funeral goes and who attends. Slash isn’t really a must, but I’d like to see if Mike’s death affects anyone! Lots of angst please, I wanna read it and cry my eyeballs out.

FILLED: By skyenapped and titled ‘Shutting Down’. Currently WIP.

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Subject: Harvey/Mike Parle Français Monsieur?

Prompt: Harvey is ready to go, this client is a going to be a peace of cake….except the client is a foreigner who can’t speak much English besides his/her native language (the language is up to the anon, if it’s french I’ll love you forever). Insert Mike and one of his many skills besides the ones he uses with his 'fake degree’ X) a talent for foreign language. I don’t care how Mike learned the language etc. I just want Harvey being totally clueless to what to do with the client and doesn’t understand a word he/she is saying, Mike takes over and speaks to the client like a native speaker, the client is impressed with Mike and Harvey lands the client. Harvey later asks how Mike can speak the language, which Mike shows him with his other skills (the ones he and Harvey keep a tight lid in their bed). Established relationship please, I’d love you more if Mike speaks/begs etc. in that language while Harvey is fucking the daylights out of him, Harvey secretly thinks hearing Mike speak another language is sexy, and tricks him later on into saying lines etc. the next day~

FILLED: By anonymous and titled 'Parlez-vous francais?’ and currently WIP. Second fill byflamyshine titled 'The seductive language’ and reposted on AO3 here.

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Subject: AU!Harvey/Mike Rebirth 5 + 1 (Possible trigger warnings)

Prompt:

With each life that ends, Harvey is much more determined to find Mike in the next life that follows….



Possible triggers: death, reincarnation(?), murder, accident

Harvey has lived long enough to see the struggles of the humans, and has never quite liked them to begin with, except when Jessica is breathing down his neck with threats that the humans are to be treated well and that making a feast of them is forbidden, it would make their firm look bad. (Most of the employees are immortals, but humans work there too. Harvey has a secret though, many centuries ago he met a sweet boy named Mike, whom he treasured and was gentle with, he loved him dearly. Now Harvey is waiting for him to be reincarnated, and he remembers of all the other times he has met Mike before.

Basically 5 times Harvey has met Mike in different time lines (the first time he’s murdered, the second time he’s in an accident etc) and has fallen in love with him all over again, each time he loses Mike in a tragedy and tries to cope with the fact that he didn’t turn Mike into one of them sooner, but each time he tries it’s too late. Then 1 time (current time) that Harvey meets Mike (and hires him as his associate) and does manage to turn him on time. I would love to see memories of Harvey and Mike together in Mike’s previous lives, and the their last moments before Mike dies. Angst until the very end, with a happy ending please.

BONUS: I wanna see Harvey’s reaction when Mike steps in while he’s doing the interviews and realizes his dear boy is right in front of him. Lot’s of angst and mourning on Harvey’s side when he loses Mike in each lifetime. Sympathetic Donna or Jessica (even Louis >A<) with each time Mike dies and Harvey is seriously upset. Harvey struggling just to see Mike again when he is reincarnated once more. Many cookies if once Mike is turned, Harvey tells him about how they met many times before and they fall asleep together and Mike dreams and actually remembers them. I would love some smut at the end of that please? Sweet tender love because Harvey hasn’t seen Mike since the last time he died!

FILLED: By anonymous and titled 'Five Lives Harvey Didn’t Save’. Currently WIP.

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Subject: Gen, PH Kindergarten!AU 5+

Prompt: PH in AU in which it is a kindergarten and everyone in it are children. Jessica can still be an adult or the teacher, but I just really wanna see a children-fied!PH employees as cute little kids. Harvey and Louis are still competitive, Donna is still a BAMF (and occasional bully) and Mike is as cute as a button and the new kid at PH, and everyone just wants to hold him because he’s irresistibly adorable. Harvey, Louis, Kyle, Gregory and the other boys fight for Mike’s attention, the girls (Rachael, Donna and Jessica) think they’re ridiculous. Mike spends most of his time with the girls though, because the boys are overdoing it with their attention hogging competitiveness.

I want a 5+ if possible of each other kid that Mike spends time with (Louis and Mike eat lunch together, Kyle shared his toys with Mike, Harvey sleeps next to Mike during nap time etc.). Bonus if Donna plays referee amongst the boys and keeps track of which of the boys wins Mike’s attention the most. I’ll love you foreveeeeeeeeer if at one point Mike kisses Harvey on the cheek as a reward or appreciation (whatever it is, it’s up to the anon) and Harvey gets it into his head that Mike will be his (I wouldn’t be surprised if he starts thinking like that at such an age). BONUS if they all play pretend lawyers, and Harvey assigns Mike is associate ;)

FILLED: By flamyshine and titled ’Pretty-Handsome Kindergarten’. It has been reposted on AO3 here.

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Subject: Killer!Harvey/Victim!Mike (several warning triggers!)

Prompt: Possible triggers: abduction, stockholm syndrome, rape, torture, murder (in past tense) accessory to murder (mike)

Harvey brings out the darkness in Mike…..the boy has a taste for blood as much as he does, he knows this



Harvey has a history of killing off his rivals in the world of law (basically he was a serial killer with a selfish cause here), one of the many reasons why he is the best closer in the city. That was all behind Harvey, he cleaned up his act even though only him and his victims knew about it in the first place. Then Mike enters his life, and the boy just makes Harvey become the same old sick sadistic killer he was years ago. For a while Harvey thinks up a way into getting Mike to come to his apartment and have everything prepared for what will come after. Harvey does manage to trick Mike one night into coming in to his apartment for work related reasons (to work on a case, etc.) Mike doesn’t suspect a thing until he realizes he can’t leave the apartment because Harvey refuses to let him go. Harvey keeps Mike in his apartment for weeks, torturing him and humiliating him in so many ways (could be tying him up or leaving him blindfolded, it’s up to the anon and can be as light or as harsh as you want), at one point even stabs/slices Mike while he rapes him (the wound isn’t severe enough to kill him, and Harvey fixes him back up). No one at the firm or outside suspects a thing, Harvey arranges it so that everyone assumes they are in another state working with a client and thus no one comes to Mike’s aid. After the rape, and being trapped with Harvey, Mike begins to realize that he doesn’t want to leave (Harvey treats Mike nicely when he complies to his wishes, feeds him and bathes him after he rapes him). Harvey gives him the choice to either leave or stay (unlocks the door as a sign that he is being true) but Mike tells him he won’t leave, (Mike has developed stockholm syndrome at this point). Harvey smiles wickedly because he has Mike right where he wants him, now he’ll always be with him and Mike knows this. Harvey then goes back to being a killer, but this time Mike joins him in the murders. BONUS if Harvey and Mike kill someone together and have sex at afterwards to celebrate B]

I ask for angst fill here, basically Harvey pushes Mike so far psychologically and physically that Mike just ends up returning his feelings for him (Mike did have feelings for Harvey before he becomes his victim, and it comes back to light after the whole event), because even in his situation; Mike can’t deny he is just as much of a sadistic-masochist as Harvey is. Please I want to see the boys showing that beneath their skins they are as dark as the criminals in their city. At the beginning it can be non-con but with time Mike complies of his own free will and let’s Harvey do what he wants. darkkiller!Harvey brings out the killer in a not so innocent Mike <3

FILLED: By anonymous and titled 'Damaged’. Reposted on AO3 here.

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Subject: Harvey/Mike + Gregory [Peeping Tom]

Prompt: Established Relationship, voyeurism warning(?)

Gregory wants to ruin Mike, so he messes around with a few papers Mike was working with and drops it in the conference room, but he hear Harvey and Mike outside the door and proceeds to hide in a closet. Gregory’s scared out of his mind about getting caught! Harvey had Mike suck him off while he looks through a case they’re working on, and notices the papers on the table. HOT sex happens on the conference table, and Gregory can’t help himself and takes a peek, then he can’t look away at seeing Mike being bent over the table and being fucked hard by Harvey. Gregory gets turned on by a thoroughly fucked Mike with hot come trickling down his thighs (or face, Harvey that bastard 8D) and Harvey helps clean Mike up. After all is done, Mike leaves and so does Harvey, Gregory then takes his chance to sneak out but Harvey apparently never left, and smirks at Gregory and asks him not to tell anyone about what he saw (with a face that says 'I will ruin your ass so fast that you’ll never work in this city again’) and makes a suggestive comment that if he’s good, he 'might’ let Gregory watch again. Gregory keeps his mouth shut, and looks forward to seeing them in action soon.

BONUS: If when Gregory goes back to his cubicle, he bumps into Mike and can’t help but remember what he saw in the conference room, and runs for it before he starts having anymore inappropriate thoughts of an inviting Mike asking to be fucked. I want a slutty Mike in the conference room please! I’ll love you forever if you show me at one point Harvey lets Mike suck off Gregory (later on after the conference room encounter) and Gregory comes all over Mike’s face. Maybe Harvey let’s him join every now and then ;)

FILLED: By themangomaureen and titled 'Watching You, Watching Me ’. Reposted on LJ here.

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Subject: Mike Fillet Dish (Harvey/Mike/+2) group/gangbang sex 

Prompt: I know someone filled out a lovely threesome (Harvey/Mike/Tom) already, but because I’m such a smut junkie, I would totally love it if Mike was the center of all the sex. Of course Harvey is going to be in there, but I’d totally love it if between Harvey and (whoever else the anon decides to put in there) fill Mike up, he can be sucking off a third or even a fourth person (again, they can either be clients or whoever the anon wishes to put in there). I want a slutty Mike please, and somewhere in the middle Harvey gets frustrated that the others are hogging Mike, let that be very cute. I want a Mike fillet dish going all around.They can even take turns, go nuts with it.


*It’s up to the anon how they end up in this situation (I saw sex pollen somewhere, but it was a minifill…), but I’d love it more if Trevor (and Harvey) were filling little Mike up~ >___<

FILLED: By kurtofskylove and titled 'Poker Night’.

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Subject: Harvey/Mike Gunplay Est. Relationship Rape fantasy

Prompt: Trigger warnings: guns, rape fantasy

Harvey wants to spice up their sex life a bit, and introduces a gun he owns to Mike. Mike plays along with Harvey’s rape fantasy, and Harvey fucks Mike with the gun (which is not loaded) and Mike is turned on by it all and becomes a hot mess all over the place. After the smut, Harvey puts the gun down and accidentally pulls the trigger and a bullet is lodged in the wall (not harming Mike or himself) and they laugh, because apparently Harvey thought it wasn’t loaded when in fact it had one bullet left. Mike makes a joke about the bullet being shot up his ass the next day, and Harvey knows Mike’s never gonna let him live it down. HUMOR people, I don’t want no 'You almost killed me you asshole!’ in there, both of them are slightly dark so it’s all good. BONUS: If Harvey says they should use a rifle next time and Mike responds 'I’m on it’ and goes to google it. Harvey facepalms =___=;

FILLED: By bontaque and left untitled.

**I know I am dirty minded…but I just wanted to share my filled goodies :D

Fic Posted

God, once I start a fic I just can’t stop. The way this is going I should be done today. Wish I had this much motivation and focus when it comes to homework….

Defrosting: A Suits Fic WIP!

Summary: Mike gets locked out of his apartment one night and decides to walk to Harvey’s. On the way it starts snowing/sleeting and Mike gets caught in it. By the time he reaches Harvey’s apartment he’s wet, freezing, and borderline hypothermic. Enter h/c galore and super cuddling for bodyheat! Slashy goodness!

So Long by Saliva [x].

For a prompt I made at the suitsmeme:

With each life that ends, Harvey is much more determined to find Mike in the next life that follows….

Harvey has lived long enough to see the struggles of the humans, and has never quite liked them to begin with, except when Jessica is breathing down his neck with threats that the humans are to be treated well and that making a feast of them is forbidden, it would make their firm look bad. (Most of the employees are immortals, but humans work there too. Harvey has a secret though, many centuries ago he met a sweet boy named Mike, whom he treasured and was gentle with, he loved him dearly. Now Harvey is waiting for him to be reincarnated, and he remembers of all the other times he has met Mike before.

Basically 5 times Harvey has met Mike in different time lines (the first time he’s murdered, the second time he’s in an accident etc) and has fallen in love with him all over again, each time he loses Mike in a tragedy and tries to cope with the fact that he didn’t turn Mike into one of them sooner, but each time he tries it’s too late. Then 1 time (current time) that Harvey meets Mike (and hires him as his associate) and does manage to turn him on time. I would love to see memories of Harvey and Mike together in Mike’s previous lives, and the their last moments before Mike dies. Angst until the very end, with a happy ending please.

BONUS: I wanna see Harvey’s reaction when Mike steps in while he’s doing the interviews and realizes his dear boy is right in front of him. Lot’s of angst and mourning on Harvey’s side when he loses Mike in each lifetime. Sympathetic Donna or Jessica (even Louis >A<) with each time Mike dies and Harvey is seriously upset. Harvey struggling just to see Mike again when he is reincarnated once more. Many cookies if once Mike is turned, Harvey tells him about how they met many times before and they fall asleep together and Mike dreams and actually remembers them. I would love some smut at the end of that please? Sweet tender love because Harvey hasn’t seen Mike since the last time he died!

***The prompt has been filled and is titled Five Lives Harvey Didn’t Save by anonymous, it’s currently a WIP.