sugar for finnick

Dear, katniss

Prim is safe with me.

Her and Rue are best friends

Clove and Cato got married.

Finnick still loves sugar cuber.

We miss you dearly.

Love, Dad.

-

Querida Katniss

Prim esta a salvo.

Ella y Rue son mejores amigas.

Clove y Cato se casaron.

Finnick aun ama los cubos de azucar.

Te extrañamos cariño.

Con amor, Papá.

Give me Finnick returning from the war and kissing his wife first on the lips and then on the stomach

Give me Finnick and Annie cuddled up at home at night, talking about baby names and all the possibilities for their little family

Give me Annie ecstatically yelling for Finnick to come look in the mirror with her because she finally can see a baby bump

Give me Finnick buying too many stuffed animals and baby toys for the nursery and Annie banning him from going to the store on his own when she sees all the receipts

Give me Annie getting crazy intense sugar cravings and Finnick calling up Peeta desperately asking for baked goods because Annie NEEDS THEM NOW 

Give me Annie telling Finnick whenever the baby is kicking so he can put his hands on her tummy to feel it

Give me Finnick worrying about not being a good father because of his past and Annie rolling her eyes while she tells him about all the wonderful things he’s done for her and the baby

Give me Annie worrying about not being a good mother because of her mental illness and Finnick reminding her that she’s been recovering in leaps and bounds ever since the war ended and that he knows she’ll be perfect

Give me Annie absentmindedly singing lullabies with her hands on her stomach while Finnick watches with a grin on his face because he thinks it’s beautiful

Give me Annie excitedly arranging little outfits for the baby, complete with sets of little baby booties

Give me Finnick growing increasingly anxious about Annie and the baby, always hovering by Annie during the day and reaching for the phone to call the hospital whenever she fidgets uncomfortably and Annie needing to stop him from panicking and dragging her to the hospital too soon

Give me Finnick surrounding Annie with books to read and snacks to eat and notebooks for her to write in when she’s on bed rest

Give me Annie tying knots to distract herself while she’s in labor while Finnick tells her stories and strokes her hair

Give me Finnick holding his son for the first time, too overcome with joy to speak, leaning against Annie’s shoulder and kissing her temple every few minutes because he’s so happy to have the two people he loves most together and safe and happy

Give me Finnick carrying his baby around when he’s a few days old, his muscled arms looking massive around such a tiny baby 

Give me Annie kissing the baby’s forehead and cheeks and nose and tiny earlobes and fingertips and toes

Give me Finnick shooting out of bed each night when the baby cries and insisting that it’s his job and Annie needs to sleep even if Finnick is always the one getting out of bed to help and is probably only running on caffeine and sugar

Give me Finnick presenting his baby to all the victors proudly and getting overly offended when Johanna makes an unnecessary comment about his absolutely perfect newborn son

Give me Annie curling up next to Finnick at night after they’ve finally gotten their son to fall asleep and telling him that she’s never been happier, and Finnick agreeing and thinking for the first time in his life that maybe all the pain the both of them went through was worth it

Give me the life that the Odairs deserved dang it Suzanne Collins 

The way that both Katniss and Peeta’s voices break when they say Finnick’s name in the cellar breaks my heart because in all of this Finnick knew what they went through better than anyone else. He was separated from his love, reunited, and they had become allies, become friends, become family. So Finnick’s death hurts them both.

3

“Y/N, you see this sugar cube?” Finnick says, striding up to you. You nod absentmindedly, still adjusting your costume to make sure the fishnet covers everything. He smiles and comes closer, making you look at him. 

He pops the sugar cube into his mouth, and tilts his head. “Hmmm… It’s sweet, but I bet you taste sweeter.” He says, before pulling you closer to kiss you. 

“I was right, you’re sweeter. I love you Y/N.”He says when you finally break away. His comment leaves you shell-shocked for the whole tribute parade.

6

The difference here, between how Snow realizes it and how Finnick realizes it are two completely different things.

Snow is convinced, and he knows that the best way to get to Katniss is not through her family, it’s not through Gale, or her District…it’s through Peeta.  He knows now that if he can get to Peeta, he can get to Katniss.  Snow sees an opportunity, and as soon as the arena starts to fall apart he wastes no time retrieving Peeta, because he wants to break Katniss.  He wants her to suffer, and he knows the best way to do that is by hurting Peeta.

The way Finnick sees it, is that he had misjudged her.  He’s been wrong.  They all had.  Haymitch told them to make sure Peeta stays alive or otherwise Katniss would give up.  Haymitch is smart, he knows she loves him before this, “you could live a hundred lifetimes and not deserve him, you know.”  Finnick is seeing here, that Katniss would rather die than let Peeta die, so he brings him back to life, and as soon as he does, he knows they had her pegged all wrong.   And he feels guilty for a good portion of Mockingkay too, because he didn’t warn her, because he thought it was all just an act, the loving Peeta part, and he states that they all just assumed she’d carry on with that.

“But it wasn’t until Peeta hit the force field and nearly died that I–that I knew I misjudged you.  That you do love him.  I’m not saying in what way.  But anyone paying attention could see how much you care about him." 

She convinced Snow.  He finally had something to take from her, he tries unsuccessfully to take the entire district, but Peeta…he gets Peeta.  He hijacks Peeta.

And, get this…Finnick blames himself, for not telling her about the plan…for not warning her…because now there’s no doubt in his mind that Katniss loves Peeta, and he becomes as afraid for her as he is for himself.  For Peeta and Annie in the Capitol, and the two of them left to suffer together.

Anyone? On Snow’s visit before the Victory Tour, he challenged me to erase any doubts of my love for Peeta. “Convince me,” Snow said. It seems, under that hot pink sky with Peeta’s life in limbo, I finally did. And in doing so, I gave him the weapon he needed to break me

And she did…she convinced them all…

4

“It’s just that I didn’t understand when I met you. After your first Games, I thought the whole romance was an act on your part. We all expected you’d continue that strategy. But it wasn’t until Peeta hit the force field and nearly died that I —.” Finnick hesitates.

I think back to the arena. How I sobbed when Finnick revived Peeta. The quizzical look on Finnick’s face. The way he excused my behavior, blaming it on my pretend pregnancy. “That you what?”

“That I knew I misjudged you. That you do love him. I’m not saying in what way. Maybe you don’t know yourself. But anyone paying attention could see how much you care about him,” he says gently. — Mockingjay, pg. 155-156

Gideon: Ever since you joined us, you’ve been nothing but selfish and unhelpful!!

Finnick: WHAT?!? Look here, sugar queen! I gave up almost everything I had so that Nick, Judy and I have enough money for ourselves! So, don’t you talk to me about being selfish!! *walks away*

Gideon: SUGAR QUEEN?!?

Finnick: *slams the door*

Gideon: DID YOU JUST SLAM THE DOOR IN MY FACE?!? HOW CAN YOU BE SO INFURIATING?!?

Judy: *to Nick* Should we do something?

Nick: Hey, I’m just enjoying the show.

“Remember when… HP was just a printer. Four was just a number. Sugar cubes were just for your tea. You didn’t care about ancient Greek or Rome. Ships were just big boats. Now look at you.”

Sketched In: German, Chemistry, and Study Hall

This one was a guilty pleasure. It was way too much fun to sketch the symbols of some of my favorite fandoms. You will be my best friend if you know what each and every one is talking about.