Stories Which Should Worry My Therapist | Sublimation
A story that never happened about people who don’t exist in an alternate universe where Tom Riddle and Draco Malfoy live and breathe and work together. It isn’t pretty, but then love never is. Or is it hate? And can you even tell when the knife is at your throat and you aren’t backing away, when you’ve dug your nails into your palms and all you can say is, “Please.” AU.

“… art is a privilege, a blessing, a relief. privilege means that you are a favorite, that what you do is not completely to your credit, not completely due to you, but it is a favor conferred upon you. privilege entitles you when you deserve nothing… art was a privilege given to me, and i had to peruse it, even more  than the privilege of having children. the whole art mechanism is the result of many privileges, and it was a privilege to be a part of it… the privilege was the access to the unconscious… i had to be worthy of this privilege, and to exercise it. it was a privilege also to be able to sublimate. a lot of people cannot sublimate. they have no access to their unconscious. there is something very special in being able to sublimate your unconscious, and something very painful in the access to it. but there is no escape from it, and no escape from access once it is given to you, once you are favored with it, whether you want it or not… to escape you have to have a place to go. you have to have the courage to face risk. you have to have independence. all these things are gifts. they are blessings… sublimation is a gift; lots of people cannot sublimate.”

louise bourgeois

Crystals of a sublimed salt.

This is a quite special compound what was made months ago. It was placed in another lab in a small vial and from the heat of sunlight it sublimed on one of the walls of the glass. Why is it special? It’s a salt, like sodium chloride, only difference is, that it has highly fluorinated, fluorous side chain that makes volatile, so it could be distilled/sublimed to produce nice crystals as on the picture. 

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Get bent. Show this video to your most anal screen printing instructors. Super tight printing like you didn’t know was possible

Story: Sublimation
Chapter: 15. Chapter 15
From: Guest
:I didn’t know you were capable of entering such a dark place. I sorta felt like you were the queen of fluffs. Bravo.

Thank you.  My head’s pretty dark, tbh. I write the fluffs to escape it.

exotisque  asked:

(1/3) One of my mutuals recommended I read Sublimation – we're both into dark themes, so I was really excited to read your work. From the very beginning I was hooked - I knew I was in deep once I finished the first chapter. Your writing style, word choice, your pacing, your characterization - Draco's thoughts and feelings struck me at my core and his complex feelings about Tom unraveled me.

(2/3) I often questioned whether or not Tom would truly love him back, but I found that I was more than satisfied with Draco leaving him in the end. (The differences you noted between Blaise and Tom - Blaise hurting him because he loved him and Tom hurting him because Draco was a toy… that left me feeling all kinds of emotions) While I do love your Tom, Draco really does deserve someone who can love him after seeing him at his most vulnerable, though I imagine he’d always think of Riddle.  (3/3) And I was pleased with how you finished the story/thought it was fitting The italics before and after each chapter got me hooked and floored me with the wisdom/questioning it brought upon reading. You made me do a little soul searching haha But really, thank you so much for the hard work, time, and the love/sweat and tears you put into your work. I enjoyed every single moment of Sublimation and really appreciate what you do. Your work is fantastic and you are a phenomenal writer.

Thank you so much.  Sublimation is witchcraft.   I swear, I was possessed when I wrote that.  I remain unsure how it happened other than every bit of it came with that magical ease you get when all the words arrive at once like a gift from the universe.

Here’s the video showing sublimation: the ice on the sunny side of the tree turning to water vapor and dispersing into the air. 

I know this is sort of a nerdy thing, but I like that you can be a regular person just walking around observing things and see something like this.

Why Sherlock is freaking out at the beginning of THoB, AKA, ‘Now shut up and smoke’.

So…  Why is Sherlock so very, very interested in smoking at the beginning of THoB?  Smoking is a metaphor for sex and Sherlock is incredibly hard up for it, so to speak.

John, on the other hand, doesn’t smoke and is having no problems not smoking. As of the middle of ASiB John no longer has a girlfriend and does not get one until much after Sherlock’s, ‘death’.  After his epiphany at Battersea with The Woman John no longer seeks out these desperate attempts at sublimation, he surrenders to what he has with Sherlock, platonic though it may seem.

In ASiB Sherlock seems jealous of John’s girlfriends; of Jeanette in particular since she is his then-current girlfriend and, unpleasantly for him, at their Christmas party.  He seems to have kept careful track of everyone John has dated, better than John himself, even. 

In that same episode it is also revealed that Sherlock seeks to know what kind of porn John watches and actively attempts to prevent him watching said porn.  In THoB when Sherlock talks to Henry he reveals that he reads John’s emails to his girlfriends: poems, apparently.  Here we see Sherlock being very invested and very involved in John’s emotional/sexual relationships/feelings.  In ASiB while John is still dating, Sherlock appears to be keeping his desire in check.  In THoB, now that John no longer has a girlfriend, he is losing his mind.

Part of Sherlock’s deduction of Henry involves smoking: the latter is dying to smoke (as is he) but Henry has not quit, he is allowed to have a cigarette.  And watching him smoke helps Sherlock to sublimate his own desire to do so, 

If we take this situation as symbolic of what’s going on with Sherlock and John, then we can see that when John has girlfriends this creates a sort of outlet for Sherlock.  At least if someone is having a relationship with John then he can somehow live vicariously through them: keeping close tabs on the relationship, possibly imagining himself in the place of his current girlfriend.  Despite his resentment, these women fulfill a very important role in Sherlock’s life, that of proxies.  They also help to neutralise his desire by keeping John unavailable.

I see John’s bisexuality as ACD’s cover for the Johnlock love.  Mary/other women can be his beard(s) but this is made possible only by John’s status as a man who is capable of opposite-sex attraction.  Just as I see Sherlock’s genius as ACD’s cover for their love, it hides a significant amount of John’s love under the guise of, ‘admiration’, and allows Sherlock to have his own mental-beard in the form of his archenemy: Moriarty.  

Later in THoB Sherlock will go as far as to set John up on a date to push this issue.  Things are easier for Sherlock when John’s unavailable just as things are easier for John when he thinks Sherlock is, ‘a machine’.  It’s easier for Sherlock to keep his feelings and desires in check if John is dating.  It’s easier for John to keep his feelings and desires in check if Sherlock is not really human, anyway.  

Going through my pictures from this morning, I arrived at this one. You may wonder what’s happening here, and it’s this: the sun shining on the other side of the tree trunk contained so much energy that the thin ice layer on the bark was being sublimated—going straight from ice to steam without melting into water first. These droplets are the steam arising from being ice molecules.

I even took a short (shaky) video of this and could possibly be persuaded to post it.