sub atomic particles

Humans are Weird

Beings of the galaxy research for PURPOSES. How to recreate a sound. How to get into space. Humans? Humans randomly poke into shit and ask questions and light stuff on fire and run it through a blender and a spectrometer. Because they can. Because they’re curious.  
“Human Steve. What are you doing?” 
“Trying to figure out what in hell that rock from Taurus nine is made out of.” 
“To what purpose?” 
“I wanna KNOW.” 

Beings of the galaxy visit Earth, and get tours of the research facilities. They are so fragmented. And often IN COMPETITION with each other. Their genome was sequenced IN A RACE. Their most useful antimicrobial medication was found BY ACCIDENT, by a human who would let things grow in his petri dishes ‘just to see what happened’. They are ignoring their own health concerns to clone an extinct mammal no one has a purpose for. Their largest, most expensive experiment ever built is to see about sub-atomic particles that may or may not exist. There is no planned purpose for those particles, either way. They just want to figure it out. 

Beings of the galaxy hire as many of these ‘scientists’ as they can, then get out of their way. 

The Primordial Yin/Yang

In Thelema: Hadit and Nuit,
in Vajrayana Buddhism: Samantabhadra and Samantabhadri.

Hadit/Samantabhadra represent all conscious experience, all expression of mind and motion, the dynamic aspect, the verb.

Nuit/Samantabhadri represent all space and the body of possible experiences in space/time, the static aspect, the noun.

If you go deep down enough with matter you find that there is no real separation or difference between the sub-atomic particles making up my balls and the wooden table.

The Buddhist concept of Rigpa asserts the same of mind, consciousness–like there are two grand objects overlapped together in existence: Space-Time/Matter and Awareness/Consciousness/Rigpa.

That voice inside your head might just be playing an amnesiac game of pretend. It could be the same damn voice in everyone’s head.

An interview with Miguel Serrano

The following interview was conducted by K. R. Bolton with Miguel Serrano in 1994. It was published at that time in a small, privately circulated newsletter. A writer of literature, Serrano communicated his ideas via symbols and metaphors, which he had woven idiosyncratically into a sprawling mytho-history, or metanarrative, that drew from new and old concepts and various mythological and esoteric traditions. Strict rationalists and those unfamiliar with Serrano’s work will find his worldview perplexing, to say the least. And certainly, writers like Nicholas Goodrick-Clarke have had a hard time getting their heads around it, focusing on superficial appearance rather than deeper meaning. The fact is that behind the rich symbology and figures of speech, there is a profound philosophical outlook and spiritual quest, an alternative—ultimately pagan—way of conceptualising our world and our day-to-day reality. In this interview he discusses ideas from the later part of his work, as he gives his opinion on the modern situation, as he saw it in the mid 1990s.

You define yourself as an Esoteric Hitlerist’. Please explain the term.

Hitler said that ‘whoever thinks that National Socialism is only a political movement doesn’t understand anything’. National Socialism was always Hitlerism, and Hitlerism always had an esoterical background. At the end of the 1930s and during the war years, it was not possible or convenient that this theme be widely known. However, after he war and its apparent loss, there was no other way for Hitlerism than the esoteric development. For me Esoteric Hitlerism is being possessed by the archetypes of the collective unconscious, which the Greeks used to call Gods – among them Apollo, which really is Wotan for the Germans and Vishnu or Shiva for the Hindus – and its development into the individual and collective souls of the actual Hitlerist warriors. That means a new/old religion, with all of its rituals and myths which are necessary to discover or rediscover. It central Drama is the apparition on this earth of the Person of Adolf Hitler, the last Avatara who came to produce this enormous storm of catastrophe in order to awake all those who are asleep and to open the New Age which will come after the Deluge. That is why we have started to count the beginning of the New Age after the birth of Hitler. We are in the year 105.

How did you arrive at Hitlerism, both esoterically and exoterically?

I arrived to the exoteric Hitlerism for the political Left, and very much impressed by the heroic death of the 62 young Chilean Nazi followers of my generation in 1938. During the War I published a magazine in favour of the Axis, called La Nueva Edad (‘the New Era’) and the  suddenly I met some SS and little later my Chilean Master, who revealed to me the secret roots of Hitlerism and ‘who’ Adolf Hitler really was: a magician who had the power to come voluntarily out of his body and communicate with other unbodily beings.

Does your esotericism imply any form of ritual or worship?

Yes, it does. I think that we in Chile are the only ones who performed public ceremonies similar to those performed at the Congress of Nuremberg, like ‘Autos Sacramentales’. But now not in public anymore. The rituals can be in the Equinoxes and the solstices. Also we use individual concentrations, sometimes in very small groups, thinking in our Führer or projecting the mind in order to fight or destroy the contrary enemy’s forces.

Do you believe events can be changed ‘magically’; i.e. via ritual magic and meditation?

Yes, is possible, but it is a tricky and dangerous affair. Today the Enemy works mentally using the Kabala and electronic machines (‘Takion’), projecting sub-atomic particles in order to control the minds. Yes, today the central war is psychotronic, technotronic and cybertronic. The principal war is a mental, one, called ‘Kama Manasic’. This means that the enemy is intervening in the mental atmosphere of the Aryan, manipulating their thoughts and separating the mental from the physical, bodies, altering the Karma and it is spiritual development. In a way, the whole world is hypnotized by these means, combined with subliminal messages found in today’s media, as well as drugs and drinks like Coca-Cola, Pepsi-Cola, etc. Yes, mental war can be fought only with a similar type of war. Of course this needs a special discipline and training, like the Esoteric SS, other ancient religious military orders of the past.

To what extent does your esotericism relate to Jungian archetypes and the use of symbols such as runes?

Yes, the runes are very important magic symbols, but the code of their interpretation has been lost and its power almost destroyed by the malicious vulgarisation made by the Jews. It is necessary to rescue them, as I did in my book Adolf Hitler, The Last Avatara. We must use some of them in our mental combat. However, it is not good to talk openly about all of this.

In what circumstances did you come to know Jung? We know that Jung recognised National Socialism as a resurgence of the Wotan ‘Shadow’ of the Germanic folk. Did Jung view the release of this archetype as a positive or a negative phenomenon?

In my book published in England and the US, C. G. Jung & Herman Hesse, A Record of Two Friendships, I explained the circumstances which brought me to meet Jung. He wrote the Foreword to my book The Visits of the Queen of Sheba. I think that this Swiss professor knew better than anyone else in our time who Hitler really was. In the book of Professor McQuyre, Jung Speaking, published by Princeton University Press, three interviews of Prof. Jung on Hitler are reproduced. One is in The Observer of London, another in an American newspaper and the third in the Radio Berlin, at the end of 1938. In these interviews Jung stated that Hitler was possessed by the collective unconscious of the Aryan race. This means that Hitler was the spokesman of the whole Aryan world. In order not to repeat the same, I can tell you that I studied and explained this extraordinary situation in my book Adolf Hitler, The Last Avatara, published in Chile.

Some friends of Jung’s such as Lauren van der Post state that Jung came into conflict with the National Socialist regime. What were Jung’s true views on National Socialism in the later years of his life?

Prof. Jung was an enormous thinker, but he was a Swiss and therefore a contradictory personality. Very different in character to Heidegger, as a matter of fact. Immediately after the war he started to change and made some very shameful statements about Hitler and the German people. I didn’t know about these statements until very recently, and they have made me lose part of my admiration for the Jung personality. Also, Jung didn’t understand anything about Wotanism and the runes. I think this was caused by his Christian background. His father was a Lutheran priest, as was the father of Herman Hesse, Holderling, and if I am not mistaken the father of Nietzsche. This fact creates such a confusion and internal drama, that it drove the last two to madness. The furthest Jung could go was Meister Ekhard and gnosticism. On the other hand he was a Freemason, as Lutheran men are.

Nevertheless, Jung was a cunning and opportunistic man, as I can see it today. When Hitler was in full power and National Socialism on the top, Jung coined the term of the ‘two collective unconscious’, which was a lethal weapon against the Jews and the Freudians. After the war this concept disappeared from his writings in such a way that today it is impossible to find it in his complete works. I have a book published in Argentina in 1939 under the name El Yo y el Inconsciente (‘I and the Unconscious’) where it is explained. Moreover, Jung took a Jewish woman as a secretary.

In this case the statement on Van der Post that Jung came into conflict with the National Socialist regime is totally untrue. He only was the President of the Psychiatric Society of Berlin, replacing Dr. Goering (brother of Herman Goering). Jung only tried to please the National Socialists at the time, and after its defeat, to please the Jews. This was never done by Heidegger or Ezra Pound. It is because of this fact that even though I admire the thinking of Jung, I have come not to admire his character.

What were the circumstances in which you came to know Ezra Pound? Pound is said to have repudiated his pro-Fascist views towards the end of his life and to have regretted his former Fascist associations. Is this true?

I met Ezra Pound for the first time in Venice. He was already mute at the time, but he broke his silence with me. I have told this in my book published in Spanish and German under the title Die Goldenen Band, and again in Adolf Hitler, el Ultimo Avatara.  It is absolutely untrue that Pound regretted his pro-Fascist views towards the end of his life. He didn’t speak or write at all, therefore it is impossible for him to have done this. I think he was in a voluntary silence in order that no one can force him to make an unwilling declaration. He once wrote: ‘Keep yourself to your old dreams so that our world will not lose hope’.

Unfortunately, Pound was surrounded by people who loved him (like Olga Rudge) but didn’t understand him. Themecanas Ivancic, a friend of Hemingway, was also amongst those who didn’t understand him well, and they invited to Pound’s funeral the Rabbi of Venice, who of course refused to go. Maybe they were trying to convince the Jews to give him a posthumous Nobel Prize. What a pity! Anyhow, Pound, Knut Hamsun, Arno Breker, and myself are happy and honoured to be the outcast and damned in the present Jewish world.

Many writers on the occult have made references to alleged links between the Third Reich and Tibet, but often these writers are not reliable scholars. Can you personally confirm that such links existed? Did you learn anything of this connection form the Dalai Lama or other high-level Tibetans? What do you suppose were the common interests between the Third Reich and Tibet? It has also been claimed that Soviet troops found a large number of Tibetans in German uniform who had committed suicide amongst the ruins of Berlin. Do you know anything of this?

The only certain thing in the link between Tibet and the Third Reich is the personal connection between Adolf Hitler and Sven Hedin, the Swedish explorer of the Himalayas. Both were interested in find the shortest physical way to relate geographically Germany and Tibet – Berlin and Lhasa.

In the spiritual and psychological world, the relationship between Berschtesgaden and Lhasa existed even before Hitler came.

You ask me about Dalai Lama. Unfortunately he is now one more prisoner of ‘Globalism’ and a tool of the Jews.

There are many legends about the Tibetans and the Battle of the Bunker. As a matter of fact, the mission of the Tibetans was to preserve and protect the entrance of the Hollow Earth. Like the Incas in America. The real link between Tibet and the Third Reich was the swastika, Left-Turning, because the directions of this swastika are the same as that of the religion of Bö, of pre-Buddhist Tibet, which was Aryan of the ‘Dropas’, of the Hyperborean.

What were the esoteric currents behind the NSDAP and the Third Reich?

Hitlerism as Otto Rahn could say, was Luciferian (nothing to do with Satanism). Lucifer is the Morning Star and the Ruhne ‘Veneris’. The real esotericism behind Hitler and the very small elite that surrounded him was an ‘esoterical scientificism’  of ‘other’ technology. This was principally based on the implosion principle. This led to the UFOs and rapidly passed to another dimension, with the absolute need to lose the war here in order to gain in the ‘parallel world’, or even better, in another ‘place situation’.

The National Socialist regime banned the Thule Society and other occult orders whose members had been involved with the founding of the NSDAP. Why were these orders banned? Did the Thulists and other occultists retain influence in the NS regime?

The Third Reich banned the Thule Society and other occult orders because there was much old nonsense in these clubs, as well as some connections with Freemasonic societies like the Golden Dawn. The founder of ‘Thule’, von Sebottendorff, had connections with Turkish Freemasonry. Immediately after the arrival of the Third Reich he escaped to Istanbul, where it is said he committed suicide in the Bosphorous in 1945, at the end of the war. He was probably killed by the Intelligence Service, after being manipulated by it during his lifetime.

This doesn’t mean that in the Thule Society there weren’t great personalities like Rudolf Hess, Alfred Rosenberg, and Gottfried Feder, the real creator of the new economy of the Third Reich.

Do you consider the SS to have been an esoteric order as some authors claim?

The SS was also influenced by the Templar Order, as Julius Evola said to me. There was an elite SS which was working with Tantrism. They didn’t have enough time to fulfill their conceptions. Anyhow, they tried hard to produce the Over-Man by using blood alchemy. The Absolute Man.

So you consider National Socialism to have been strictly a phenomenon arising to meet the needs of the 20th century, or to be more broadly part of an esoteric tradition?

There was an exoteric National Socialism until 1945. After this date, at the end of the war, what followed was the esoteric Hitlerism, which nobody will be able to stop now because it is the ‘constellation’ and revelation of an Archetype which was incarnated in the person of Adolf Hitler, who is immortal because of this fact. It is not a ‘fetishism’ to adore and be at the service of an Archetype. Quite the contrary, this means to be a founder or a warrior-priest of a new-old Religion.

How do you view Christianity in relation to National Socialism and Fascism, considering many Fascist leaders such as Leon Degrelle came to National Socialism from Catholicism?

Hitlerism and Christianity are completely opposed, as are Paganism and Christianity. Christianity has been completely spoiled by Judaism. My dearest friend and comrade Leon Degrelle had great doubts at the end of his life, I am afraid. And by special disposition asked to be cremated like Baldur. This was an Aryan decision and not a Christian one.

Do you have a metaphysical view on the origin of the races, or a Darwinian evolutionary view?

I am opposed to Darwin in my conception of race, I don’t have evolutionary views, but involutionary ones. What a pity that my books Adolf Hitler, El Ultimo Avatara and Manu, Por el Hombre que Vendra are not edited in English [no longer the case], because there you would find the Orpheon and Hitlerian Cosmogony. Spirits – better to say ‘beings’ – came to this visible world and embodied with matter in order to fight here the Demiurge, which is the real creator of Satan-Jaweh-Jehovah, which in turn created the Jewish genetic robot in order to contaminate the Planet Earth. The first ‘earth embodiment’ of these spirits took place in a Polar body or Hyperborean race. From there in came the dramatic involutionary story of the mixture of the pure race with the original earthly beings and then came the Aryans, which means ‘twice born’; that is, those who try to recover the purity of the ‘first born’. This is the true meaning of racism.

You are, I believe, a worshiper of Shiva. To what extent is National Socialism a reflection of Hindu cosmology as propounded, for example, by Savitri Devi?

Shiva is the same as Wotan. Both of them at the beginning were only heroes of the Polar or Hyperborean race, the embodiment of an Archetype. The legend has made them Gods. The first race had the power called ‘odil’, ‘vril’, etc. which has now been lost. The task of the Esoteric Hitlerists is to try to recover this Power and become like Shiva or Wotan again: The Over-Man.

Do you consider history as cyclic, and if so, do you consider, like Oswald Spengler, the West to be in irreversible decline? Should we seek to ‘save the West’, or – as Nietzsche said – ‘to push the falling’, so that something new might emerge?

I think the view of History as a cyclical phenomenon in the Indian and Greek way of thinking is the appropriate one. The Eternal Recurrence. We are now at the end of the Cycle of the Kali-Yuga. It is like a harvest; the exact number of grains have matured and very few have done so. A new age will being about the Sun again in a New Earth, or in the soul of the actual Earth. Our struggle is to save the soul of this Earth, and to avoid that she may perish along with everything else. The exact number of those saved have left this battleground in the UFOs – this spiritual machine with Hitler, the Führer, Wotan-Shiva.

I think that Spengler confused the cyclical ideas of the Indians and the Greeks, diminishing and transforming them into a mechanical and biological situation of growing and dying. He circumscribed this to the decadency of the Western Civilisation, when really it belonged to the whole world, and for the planet Earth as well.

As for ‘pushing the falling’. It is something quite ridiculous to think about this, because it is not necessary at all. The ‘acceleration of time’ will bring the end even before what we can think or expect.

How do you view the present world situation, with a push towards a ‘New World Order’, American hegemony and global consumer culture? Do you think the globalists will succeed in establishing some type of New World Order, even if only temporarily?

The Jews have been preparing the so-called New World Order since the beginning of History. The ‘global consumer culture’ is the means for that. It is already here. With the end of Bolshevist Russia, international capitalism is destroying the frontiers and nationalities. Soon after there will come the end of capitalism, of paper, plastic, and electronic money. The technotronic, electronic, and cybertronic ‘globalism’ will serve very well to impose the Theocratic (Jehovah-Jaweh) world dictatorship, together with virtual reality and computer ecology. With virtual reality the Jews think that they have discovered a magic device in order to give the last and mortal bow to actual reality, or to Mother Nature, in a way that even nature cannot react against this and destroy itself along with the rest.

The Esoteric Hitlerist war is not only on this Earth, but in all the Universe against the servants of the Demiurge (the enslaves Aions). It is a terrible but glorious War.

How do you envisage the future of Europe? Do you think a United Europe is a realistic prospect, considering the long-standing ethnic rivalry in such areas as former Yugoslavia?

At the end of World War II the SS approved and made known the ‘Charter of Charlotenburg’, and the conceived a real ‘New World, Order’ of Ethnic Fatherlands, or natural groupings of racial and linguistic stocks. They even published a map of Europe where all the artificial boundaries dating form World War I were abolished. With the material of loss of World War II, the ‘Charter of San Francisco’ was approved, that is the United Nations, where all races are mixed so that the Jews can control them. This is the ‘Globalism’ of today’s unnatural and monstrous world.

What role do you think Russia will take in future world affairs? Many liberals and Zionists are fearful of a ‘Fascist’ takeover of Russia. Do you think it likely?

I am always afraid of Russia; there is there a seed of madness in this area of the world, surely because of the mixture of the Mongolian and yellow races. The ‘Charter of Charlotenburg’ envisaged for Russia a very serious and deep ethnic division: the Viking and German stock with Europe, and the rest with Asia, Mongolia and China. In order to have Fascism and Nazism in Russia it is necessary to understand the racial problem.

The prospect of an open Hitlerist resurgence after decades of propaganda seems remote.

How do you view that future of National Socialism? Will National Socialism emerge perhaps under another name and another symbol; or do you see Hitler and the swastika as enduring symbols, perhaps even archetypes with an enduring power of their own?

At this moment I cannot predict the prospect of a Hitlerist resurgence. The only thing that I can say is that I am always surprised that in spite of decades of brainwashing propaganda, young people are born again as Nazis and admirers of Hitler, as if they were ‘reincarnated’ in order  to follow with the struggle on Earth. This gives me hope and new energies to continue with the fight.

Hitler and the swastika are enduring and eternal symbols, certainly archetypes with ‘enduring powers of their own’. The Archetype will do the world by Itself, even without our best knowledge and beyond out will and our limited span of life. That is our hope, our belief and the only thing that I know.

The Chilean military junta was called ‘fascist’ but let in the global corporations and adopted the free market economics of Milton Friedman et al. How did you view the Junta?

The Junta was a disaster for Chile, as are all professional military. Hitlerism and Nazism are completely the opposite of a military dictatorship; Franco was a traitor who destroyed the Falange. Gen. Vargas destroyed fascist ‘Integralism’ in Brazil; Antonescu destroyed the Iron Guard in Romania; the military in Chile helped to kill the young Nazis in 1938, and Pinochet helped the Jews coming into Chile as well as Friedman’s liberal super-capitalism. I was always openly against Pinochet’s regime, totally separating Hitlerism from his dictatorship. Hitlerism is a cosmogonic conception, a totalitarian and theocratic Weltanschauung, in opposition to the totalitarian and demoniac cosmogonic conception of the Jews.

What is your view of Islam which presently seems to be the only major force standing in the way of global consumerism and usury?

My view of Islam is not favourable at all. They are also a fanatic monotheistic people, and we are pagans and polytheists. We ‘live and let live’. We are defending ourselves against fanaticism and monotheism. Islam will never feel that we are their brothers and at the end we cannot count on them. Isthmael is a bother of Jacob and in the final analysis they will be on good terms, as they have started to do nowadays.

I have read that you have made references to Lucifer. How do you view Lucifer, and is there a connection between Luciferianism and Esoteric Hitlerism?

Yes, I am a Luciferian in the sense that Lucifer is the Morning Star, the ‘most beautiful light’, and the Morning star is a God-Goddess, Venus. It is more than a planet, it is a comet that stopped where it is now, in order to recall to men their divine and spiritual origin and to show them that way to recover it. There, in Venus, is Adolf Hitler now, together with the elite who managed to leave the Earth at the end of World War II.

What is you opinion of ‘neo-Nazism’, which often seems to be influenced by a superficial American-style bigotry rather than a deeper European philosophy? What is your opinion of such neo-Nazi leaders as Lincoln Rockwell?

I will not speak bad of Rockwell. I think he was touched by the lightning of the Archetype and was killed in order to be reborn in the ‘Last Battalion’. His loyal follower Matt Koehl has been trying hard to keep some spark of the fire alive, even in the midst of this terribly superficial ‘American-style bigotry’.

What do you consider Man’s destiny to be? Nietzschean Over-Man? What about space colonisation as the ultimate expression of the Faustian soul?

There is no destiny for all of mankind, only for some. To recover their divinity, but not as ‘unconscious Gods’, but fully conscious, as a Total-Man, in the sense of Jungian ‘individuation’; a God conscious of himself which is only possible to achieve on this Earth. To obtain this is the meaning of Esoteric Hitlerism. When one has reached this state, one becomes the UFO or ‘vimana’ itself, without needing an external new science or a new technology, because one is reaching a ‘parallel world’, or better said, a new ‘place-situation’ where we will meet the Führer and the Warriors of the Last Battalion. This will be the real ‘space colonisation’ and the ‘ultimate expression of the Faustian soul’.

Final Words:

I want to express to the young comrades in England, Australia, and New Zealand and to the English- and German-speaking world at large, that none of these things will be obtained if we don’t give a synchronistic battle also in the physical world against the Great Enemy, even at the risk of losing our mortal life. In this we have a common ideal with the Moslems, who think to die in battle in order to reach the Heaven of Allah. We believe that if we are killed or murdered for our ideals we will come to Walhalla, where Wotan and our Walkiria will give us, centuplicated, all of that which we were unable to achieve in our warrior life on Earth … but only if we are real Esoteric Hitlerist Warriors!


That’s right! This picture was created at night by looking through the earth at the sun.

It wasn’t made with light though – the image visualizes the flux of neutrinos coming from the sun. Neutrinos are sub-atomic particles created in the nuclear furnace of the sun, and they can pass through nearly anything. Billions of neutrinos shoot through our bodies every second, and they fly with ease through the rocky bulk of the earth.

Scientists have built a giant neutrino observatory in an abandoned mine shaft 3,000 ft below Mount Kamioka in Japan. It’s called the Super-Kamiokande - and it’s essentially a 13 million gallon tank of ultra-pure water, rigged with sensors that can detect the extremely weak interaction of neutrinos with other matter. This picture shows the tank when it is empty and undergoing renovations.

The observatory looks down through the earth itself – to collect data from solar neutrinos. This image is the result of about 18 months of data collection.

(Why does the observatory need to be underground? The rock shelters the observatory from the noise of cosmic rays.)

Sun image: Robert Svoboda and K. Gordan

Super-K image: courtesy of Kamioka Observatory, ICRR (Institue for Cosmic Ray Research), The University of Tokyo


New tattoo: subatomic particles photographed colliding.

Referenced Image: Computer enhanced photo of sub-atomic particle collision in a linear accelerator’s ‘bubble chamber’.

Why I got it: It’s a part of my wrist tattoo of the Fibonnaci spiral that extends over to the rest of my arm of examples where the Fibonnaci spiral seems to appear. Examples of the intricate beauty and mysterious patterns that reoccur in nature, be it tiny subatomic particles colliding, little sea shells washing up on the shore, or massive galaxies at work, it’s a pattern that appears every where you look in nature.

On the scale of evolution, if you take an object and you dissolve it into its most minute physics, you will get molecules. This is true of any object on this earth, whether it’s a human being, a chair, a tree, a cat, everything will return to molecules. You dissolve the molecules and you’ll get atoms. When I speak of atoms you can’t imagine how small they are. Seven million atoms can fit on one pin head. It’s incredible when you think of atoms. We know they exist because we can look at them through an electronic microscope. Now when you dissolve the atom, you get sub-atomic particles, and you get energy waves. Scientists tell us the whole universe is composed of millions of energy waves. We can’t see them, yet great sages in meditation have gone to that stage. And here is the important part. You dissolve the energy waves and you get nothing, the void, that Buddhists talk about. No-mind, Nirvikalpa Samadhi, it’s the same as the void. We go beyond the voice, and we have Consciousness.
—  Robert Adams (Consciousness - June 11, 1992)

Step Inside the World’s Largest Particle Accelerator in This 360-Degree Video

Recently, the BBC got to take a tour inside the largest particle physics laboratory in the world. Thankfully, it brought virtual reality cameras with it, providing an awesome tour.

To utilize the 360-degree features, simply drag your cursor around in the video to look up, down, and sideways. At the end, you get a sense of just how giant the LHC is, which makes discoveries like the one in 2012 possible. Back then, the collider detected the sub-atomic Higgs boson particle, a cornerstone of the Standard Model theory, which explains how particles interact.  

Animals and trees - they know who you are. There is no separation. The structure of each of you is exactly the same. We have said to you dear one, the real communication is God-light to God-light. That is from the sub-atomic particles to the very large organ you hold within you called your heart, and we are speaking of heart-light. You all communicate in this fashion with everything. Animals are very sensitive, but even your trees and plants and flowers know who you are. It is a different knowing, but it is certainly a recognition. So as you are moving about in your garden you are a familiar presence.
—  P’taah

AN: Ah it’s been so long. This isn’t lengthy, it’s all fluff, and it’s based on that one text post that I cannot find for the life of me. But hey!

the confetti of sub-atomic particles


It starts with a dare – because even with miles apart, Clarke Griffin still holds his heart in every way possible.

It was a Tuesday morning to him, and a Monday evening to her when she slumps in front of her laptop with the most world-weary sigh he has ever heard in all his twenty-seven years on Earth. He laughs, despite trying to reel it in.

She turns her head sharply and glares at him, and that’s when he finds it. That tiny speck of light reflecting from her cheek, so small it’s undeniable. Even through the pixelated Skype screen, he can never get this wrong.

“Let me guess,” he says, leaning forward. “It’s do-whatever-you-want day in Art class today, isn’t it?”

She looks like she’s about to argue, tell him he’s wrong even when he’s not because… well, just because. But she resigns and rolls her eyes at him instead. “Pete wanted to know what it feels like to be a fairy.”

He grins. “I’m sure the glitters made him feel like a fairy.”

She huffs.

“You hate it,” he says. And then waits. Because if Clarke hates a thing, something like this, something that’s not really offensive, she goes out of her way to prove that she doesn’t. It’s pretty funny actually, and makes for an easy dare that’s sure to blow up in their faces. But mostly, just fun.

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1. To Become: Wings

Dipper’s chest heaved. It was a wonder why. For these past few weeks, he didn’t need to breathe, or eat, or sleep. He thought maybe he was going mad.

But right now, he felt like he was wearing thin.

Something inside of him warned him that he was low on energy. That the golden sparks had ceased to run under his skin. That the blue fire would soon be quenched. That the form he retained, in the dimension of the mind, would waste away. If he didn’t do anything about it soon.

With a frustrated growl, he pushed the warning away. He was working on it.

Rising again, the demon across from him tittered with delight. Two of its arms dragged, grotesque and bloody behind it. Dipper had severed whatever served for tendons in those arms. But five more were still functioning. The surfaces brushed by its working fingers rotted away, reeking of pestilence. The main mass of the demon’s body was covered with matted hair and gems of oozing puss. Its smile was fixed in a leer. The long beak that extended over its eyes shadowed them so they appeared flat and black.

Maybe a few weeks ago, Dipper would have trembled at the sight of the plague demon. But not anymore. Its appearance barely served as a surprise.

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Genesis 6:5 “And GOD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually”

We are going to use our very physiological makeup to back up every verse we examine. We will start from the bottom-up, beginning with Sub Atomic Particles.

From there, we will work our way up to Atoms, Molecules, DNA, Cells, Bone Structures, Peoples, Cities, Nations, Planets, Solar Systems, Galaxies… all the way to furthest reaches of the known universe… and beyond!

Job 22:12 “Is not God in the height of heaven? and behold the height of the stars, how high they are!”

Matthew 4:8 “Again, the devil taketh him up into an exceeding high mountain, and sheweth him all the kingdoms of the world, and the glory of them”

Notice the word Exceeding? Not only was this mountain high, it exceeded all known boundaries of three dimensional time and space.

Let’s get a double witness just to be sure…

Luke 4:5 “And the devil, taking him up into an high mountain, shewed unto him all the kingdoms of the world in a moment of time”

Isaiah 38:8 “Behold, I will bring again the shadow of the degrees, which is gone down in the sun dial of Ahaz, ten degrees backward. So the sun returned ten degrees, by which degrees it was gone down”

Daniel 7:25 “And he shall speak great words against the most High, and shall wear out the saints of the most High, and think to change times and laws: and they shall be given into his hand until a time and times and the dividing of time”

King James Version

1 John 5:7 “For there are three that bear record in heaven, the Father, the Word, and the Holy Ghost: and these three are one”

New International Version 1 John 5:7 “For there are three that testify”

John 15:5 “I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing”

The ‘Vine’ is the ‘Center’ in which the fruit revolve and grow around. (Hint: Think DNA).

Some call it “The Unholy Trinity”, and with good reason. The Unholy Trinity consists of three of the most wicked beings to ever exist.

They are…

  1. Beast
  2. False Prophet
  3. Dragon (Satan)

The corresponding Anti Sub-Atomic Particles are…

  1. Anti-Neutron
  2. Anti-Proton
  3. Anti-electron

And just like Matter, Anti-Matter has the verses to back it up as well.

Let’s start with the Anti-Nucleus, or the Beast and False Prophet.

Remember how we learned that ‘Height’ was the Fourth Dimension where God is? Well, sometimes Scripture reverses the role of the Fourth Dimension, and ‘Depth’ is used instead.

Romans 11:33 “O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out!”

Depth is being compared to something ‘unsearchable’, in other words… endless.

Proverbs 25:3 “The heaven for height, and the earth for depth, and the heart of kings is unsearchable”

Heaven = Height and Earth = Depth. Both are unsearchable, as if in another dimension. Get it?

Job 38:16 “Hast thou entered into the springs of the sea? or hast thou walked in the search of the depth?”

Notice Sea and Depth are compared.

Followed by… 

Job 38:17 “Have the gates of death been opened unto thee? or hast thou seen the doors of the shadow of death?”

Here’s where things get interesting. The Depth of the sea and Earth are where the Beast (Anti Neutron) and False Prophet (Anti-Proton) come from.

Beast = From Depth of the Sea False Prophet = From Depth of the Earth

Now, the verse for the Beast…

Revelation 13:1 “And I stood upon the sand of the sea, and saw a beast rise up out of the sea, having seven heads and ten horns, and upon his horns ten crowns, and upon his heads the name of blasphemy”

This is the Anti-god, made of many Crowns (Kings). Quite a fitting title.

And the verse for the False Prophet…

Revelation 13:11 “And I beheld another beast coming up out of the earth; and he had two horns like a lamb, and he spake as a dragon”

Note that this is the Anti-Proton, speaking as a Dragon. It is literally the Anti-Word of God! False Prophet is a very fitting title as well.

That completes the Anti-Nucleus.

What about the Anti-Electron?

Enter the Dragon.

Remember that the Electron gives Electricity or Power as the Holy Ghost. This would mean that the Anti-Electron should be similar.

Revelation 9:11 “And they had a king over them, which is the angel of the bottomless pit, whose name in the Hebrew tongue is Abaddon, but in the Greek tongue hath his name Apollyon”

Again we see something coming out of a never ending, fourth dimensional Depth.

Is all of this a representation Matter and Anti-Matter colliding?

Here is a description from the Book of Joel of the End Times…

Joel 2:3 “A fire devoureth before them; and behind them a flame burneth: the land is as the garden of Eden before them, and behind them a desolate wilderness; yea, and nothing shall escape them”

Can you think of something with flames that looks like the Garden of Eden in front and desolation behind? (think nuclear)

Revelation 13:2 “And the beast which I saw was like unto a leopard, and his feet were as the feet of a bear, and his mouth as the mouth of a lion: and the dragon gave him his power, and his seat, and great authority”

Look at that. The Dragon gave the Beast its** **Power. Dragon Power!

How about another Witness…

Revelation 13:4 “And they worshipped the dragon which gave power unto the beast: and they worshipped the beast, saying, Who is like unto the beast? who is able to make war with him?”

Again, we see the Dragon representing Power.

Now, we know that the Holy Ghost (Electron Cloud) descended like a Dove from Heaven. Where does the Dragon (Anti-Electron Cloud) come from?

Revelation 12:9 “And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him”

The Dragon was ‘Cast out’. Which is the opposite of descended. Another “Anti” reference.

In another amazing verse, we see the Serpent and Dove compared in contrast to one other…

Matthew 10:16 “Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves”

Finally, when we combine all three particles together, we get the Atom’s Evil Twin… lol.

There is even an Anti-hydrogen…

Ecclesiastes 12:6-7 “Or ever the silver cord be loosed, or the golden bowl be broken, or the pitcher be broken at the fountain, or the wheel broken at the cistern Then shall the dust return to the earth as it was: and the spirit shall return unto God who gave it”

Ephesians 2:2 “Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience”

1 Peter 4:12 “Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you" 

 Isaiah 34:4 "And all the host of heaven shall be dissolved, and the heavens shall be rolled together as a scroll: and all their host shall fall down, as the leaf falleth off from the vine, and as a falling fig from the fig tree" 

2 Corinthians 6:14 ”…what communion hath light with darkness?“

 (yin and yang - matter and antimatter)

Acts 19:35 "And when the townclerk had appeased the people, he said, Ye men of Ephesus, what man is there that knoweth not how that the city of the Ephesians is a worshipper of the great goddess Diana, and of the image which fell down from Jupiter?”

Revelation 17:11 “And the beast that was, and is not, even he is the eighth, and is of the seven, and goeth into perdition”

“Of the 44 subunits, seven are encoded by the mitochondrial genome” Electron transfer through the iron-sulfur complexes… “Seven of these clusters form a chain from the flavin to the quinone binding sites; the eighth cluster is located on the other side of the flavin, and its function is unknown" 

 Revelation 4:5 "And out of the throne proceeded lightnings and thunderings and voices: and there were seven lamps of fire burning** before the throne, which are the seven Spirits of God”

Isaiah 11:2

  1. And the spirit of the LORD shall rest upon him
  2. The spirit of wisdom
  3. and understanding
  4. The spirit of counsel
  5. and might
  6. The spirit of knowledge
  7. and of the fear of the LORD

Numbers 25:3 “And Israel joined himself unto Baalpeor:  and the anger of the LORD was kindled against Israel”

Psalm 106:28 “They joined themselves also unto Baalpeor, and ate the sacrifices of the dead”

Numbers 25:5 “And Moses said unto the judges of Israel, Slay ye every one his men that were joined unto Baalpeor”

2 Thessalonians 2:8 “And then shall that Wicked be revealed, whom the Lord shall consume with the spirit of his mouth, and shall destroy with the brightness of his coming”_

Theoretically, it may be possible to reverse the process and take those Photons and turn them back into Matter and Anti-Matter. 

2 Corinthians 11:14 “And no marvel; for Satan himself is transformed into an angel of light”

Jeremiah 3:8 “And I saw, when for all the causes whereby backsliding Israel committed adultery I had put her away, and given her a bill of divorce; yet her treacherous sister Judah feared not, but went and played the harlot also”

Revelation 15:2 “And I saw as it were a sea of glass mingled with fire: and them that had gotten the victory over the beast, and over his image, and over his mark, and over the number of his name, stand on the sea of glass, having the harps of God”

 Luke 16:13 “No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon”

Revelation 5:6 “And I beheld, and, lo, in the midst of the throne and of the four beasts, and in the midst of the elders, stood a Lamb as it had been slain, having seven horns and seven eyes, which are the seven Spirits of God sent forth into all the earth”

Seven Eyes = Seven Electrons and Seven Horns = Power/Electricity

Habakkuk 3:4 “And his brightness was as the light; he had horns coming out of his hand: and there was the hiding of his power”

Luke 10:18 “And he said unto them, I beheld Satan as lightning fall from heaven”

Revelation 9:1-3 “And the fifth angel sounded, and I saw a star fall from heaven unto the earth: and to him was given the key of the bottomless pit And he opened the bottomless pit; and there arose a smoke out of the pit, as the smoke of a great furnace; and the sun and the air were darkened by reason of the smoke of the pit And there came out of the smoke locusts upon the earth: and unto them was given power, as the scorpions of the earth have power”

Romans 1:28 “And even as they did not like to retain God in their knowledge, God gave them over to a reprobate mind, to do those things which are not convenient”

Romans 11:25 “For I would not, brethren, that ye should be ignorant of this mystery, lest ye should be wise in your own conceits; that blindness in part is happened to Israel, until the fulness of the Gentiles be come in”

Ezekiel 7:10 "The day of judgment is here; your destruction awaits! The people’s wickedness and pride have blossomed to full flower”

Matthew 13:30 “Let both grow together until the harvest: and in the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, Gather ye together first the tares, and bind them in bundles to burn them: but gather the wheat into my barn

Numbers 17:8 “And it came to pass, that on the morrow Moses went into the tabernacle of witness; and, behold, the rod of Aaron for the house of Levi was budded, and brought forth buds, and bloomed blossoms, and yielded almonds”

“Almond trees belong to the rose family and are closely related to peach trees”

I leave no opinion or statement on my personal belief, however I will leave you with some uplifting content to close out this post.

Jeremiah 31:33  "But this shall be the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel; After those days, saith the LORD, I will put my law in their inward parts, and write it in their hearts; and will be their God, and they shall be my people" 

Ezekiel 36:26 “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”

Ezekiel 36:28 “And ye shall dwell in the land that I gave to your fathers; and ye shall be my people, and I will be your God.”

Ephesians 2:14-15 “For he is our peace, who has made both one, and has broken down the middle wall of partition between us; Having abolished in his flesh the enmity, even the law of commandments contained in ordinances; for to make in himself one new man, so making for true peace.”



One of [if not THE] most fundamental properties of physics, it remains elusive to description and explanation in modern physics today.
Often described simply as the attractive [or repulsive] vector force experienced at a distance between two or more particles of Matter and mathematically formulated in 1785 a complete and satisfactory explanation of the quantum source of and role of Charge in physics remains stubbornly elusive to all who have sought it , until now…

Tetryonic theory’s equilateral Planck quanta reveals charge to be an inherent geometric property of electromagnetic energy arising from their quantum field geometries, and while electrical energies themselves are inherently non-polarised the magnetic moments of each side of a Planck quantum quoin each possess a distinct magnetic vector that in turn determines the weak force interactions of fields and particles on all scales of physics.

Ie it is the magnetic vector, not the electric field that determines whether a quantum field of EM energy [a boson or photon] is ‘positive’ or ‘negative’ and in turn the equilateral asymmetry of many combined quantum quoins of EM energy momenta that in turn creates fields of electrostatic and electromagnetic energies that go on to create the charged 3D Matter topologies of the particles of the Standard Model

CHARGE is a measure of the inherent geometric magnetic dipole moments of all equilateral Planck energy momenta that comprise all the 2d fields, 3D particles and 1d forces of our Universe…..

Tetryonic theory’s new geometric model of electromagnetic charge quanta advances our understanding of the quantum source and role of charge in the physics of our Universe in new and exciting ways.

While the Standard Model posits spherical sub-atomic particles Tetryonics reveals quantum charge to be an inherent and essential geometric property of the elementary Platonic topologies of all particles with each particle [charged or neutral] having a distinct number of charged fascia [Higgs bosons] comprising the final topology that makes each and every elementary particle unique…

Special Relativity, developed and advanced as an explanation for the constant velocity of light irrespective of the motion of the source posited that Lorentz corrections applied equally to mass & Matter alike through Einstein’s mass-energy equivalence formula and that the contraction of spherical Matter in motion was the source of magnetic moments and observed emfs in magnet-conductor experiments…..

Tetryonics shows that all particles have rigid 3D Matter topologies and that their magnetic moments are the result of the asymmetric distribution of Planck mass-energy quanta [E=hv] in their 2d kEM fields of motion… [Mv^2/c^2] not any physical distortion in their material topologies thus undermining a central and foundational assumption of relativity theory.

This simple and elegant explanation of charge wrt material particle topologies and the associated velocity related magnetic moments of their kEM fields of motion also does away with the virtual particles and infinities of QED that have so long plagued its formulation and reconciliation with experimental results to date… totally removing renormalisation and inherent quantum indeterminacy from its equations and thus restoring deterministic motion and mechanics to physics.

With SR & QED having been corrected from this foundational geometric understanding of EM charge geometries attention can turn back to reconciling the mathematical similarity of Newton’s formula of Gravitation and Coulomb’s formula of Charge interaction – at which point Tetryonic field geometries come to the rescue yet again and show that between any two charged particles two equilateral fields of EM energy momenta exist, reaching out from each particle to create a field of interaction irrespective of time and proportional to the charge topology and motion of each particle respectively…. [Instantaneous interaction-at-a-distance]

Likewise the mass-Matter content of celestial bodies and their GRaviational attraction to each other can be similarly modelled but in this case the extended fields of EM energy and resultant force vectors are based on the strictly attractive vectors forces between the bodies firstly and mathematically formulated from this field geometry secondly…
The end result is an identical mathematical formulation [save the force constants k & G] where one produces an interactive vector force while the other produces a strictly attractive force only…. Irrespective of time.

Einstein, with his concepts of relativistic motion and no differentiation between charge, mass or Matter and a time limited speed of propagation [c] required a different explanation and formulation of gravity in order to account for the observed perihelion of Mercury in its motion about the SUN.

His failure to differentiate 2d mass and 3D Matter from an understanding of the source and role of charge at the quantum level of physics is understandable as quantum theory had yet to be invented at the time he formulated his ideas of relativistic uniform motion [SR] & accelerated motion [GR] leading to his much vaunted formula of mass-energy equivalence [E=mc^2] which completely neglects to define and equate 3D Matter in its formulation [m/c^2=E/c^4=?].  It stands in obvious disagreement with both Newton and Coulomb as to the possibility let alone mechanics of the observed instantaneous action of Gravity over cosmological distances irrespective of time, leading to an exhaustive search for ‘gravity waves’ since GR was released publically.

Many other well know ‘proofs’ of GR exist such as the ‘bending’ of light near bodies of massive Gravity such as stars and the ‘time dilation’ of photons of EM mass-energy in GPS satellite communications etc. – but all of these ‘tests’ also suffer from the same foundational problem that beset Einstein in the first place – there is no differentiation of and between planar 2d fields of mass-energy momenta and material bodies of 3D Matter.

If science cannot [or will not] define and differentiate between 2d mass & 3D Matter and provide a understanding of the source and mechanics of charged energy over space and time in physics then any explanation developed from such a limited understanding may at best mirror reality but offer no real explanation as to the real mechanics at work in Nature – at least Sir Isaac Newton was honest at his failings in this respect in terms of his mathematical solution.

As always there exists a ‘kernel of truth’ in both formulations but only Tetryonic theory with its charged quantum geometries offers a complete ‘picture’ of the mechanics at work and why the maths formulates the way it does and how two wildly different formulations of universal gravitation can both mirror reality despite the inclusion or exclusion of time as a factor….. 

NATURE AT HEART IS GEOMETRIC IN FORM – mathematics is simply our human attempt to describe the geometric properties of EM energies at work, energy forms we could never hope to see, until now.

In short Tetryonic theory both explains and unites the maths of classical, quantum and relativistic mechanics through the power of equilateral quantum energy momenta geometries & Matter topologies.

Around a million, billion neutrinos from the Sun will pass through your body while you read this sentence.

A nutrino is a neutral sub-atomic particle of such small mass that it passes through matter undisturbed.

Its mass has never before been measured accurately and this picture is a device that was set up to detect nutrinos, as VERY ocasionaly they will colide with matter producing energy in the form of light/heat. but this energy is so small that it is virtually undetectable.

Nutrinos are formed from redioactive decay, or nuclear reactions, which is why the sun gives of so many.

So this one time
This girl asked me to explain graphene

So I drew it for her

and I explained it

and I showed her the honeycomb structure

but here’s the thing

it was saturday and i was kinda drunk

so I followed up with, “And as far as we know, despite the honeycomb shape, it is not made by sub-atomic-particle-bees, but that would be really cool”

good job me

everything-is-true-deactivated2  asked:

Firstly, love your blog and your trailer man. I've been an Evangelion fan since 2012 and I like the fact you take time to draw parallels and deconstruct themes instead of the usual shipping and such. I wanted to ask what you make of Rei appearing at the beginning of both the series and Rebuild, when Shinji uses the phone to call Misato in the Sachiel attack. I've always assumed it was the end of a previous timeline meeting a new one, as the end was the beginning.

Very much appreciated. I’d like to maintain a certain amount of integrity as a figure in the collective Evangelion community, which I recognize would be difficult if I was to concern myself with the quirkier aspects like shipping and funny fanservice on this particular blog or in the content I make with it in mind (like the trailer). That said, I’ll still answer questions about the less serious topics from time to time, hah!

Anyways, onto the great question!

The Bookend Rei, or Quantum Rei as I prefer to call her now that she’s appeared in Rebuild multiple times, is a figure I’ve always found very alluring in her nature. In NGE, the explanation could be boiled down to the fact that she appeared to Shinji at the beginning of the series in the street and at the very end in The End of Evangelion. This was caused when Rei Ayanami became a god figure and was able to fragment herself across space and time at her will. One moment that everybody seems to forget Quantum Rei appeared for Kaworu to gaze upon her while in Shinji’s (within Unit 01) grasp, moments before he looks back to Shinji and tells him “Your people need the future”. Quantum Rei’s AT Field is felt by those in NERV HQ and assessed as “The strongest [they’ve] ever detected”. Her presence blocks out light, electromagnetism, and sub-atomic particles, the detailed effects of a sort of quantum rift.

Rei and Quantum Mechanics are very intimately intertwined, as is constantly alluded to in the series, notably in the markings on her ‘birthing room’ with the ‘Top’, ‘Bottom’, and ‘Strangeness’ writings on her wall in what would seem to be some kind of perceptive study. It seems she was always destined to transcend space and time and was created as one that would be able to exist in that many realms with her purpose in tact.

The fascination of having her present in Rebuild is that, in Rebuild, she hasn’t yet become her godlike self- and judging by the destroyed Lilith shown in 3.0, she never will. The implication here only further ties Rebuild and NGE together. Though I won’t delve into the purpose of the Door of Guf in Rebuild (that essay comes later), Rei Ayanami, because of what happened in The End of Evangelion, now traverses all planes of existence.

This would involve the existence of the Rebuild and Manga timelines. In this case, for Rebuild, as things drift further and further apart, the universe’s very nature begins to shift, blend, and overlap, sending everything into complete disarray. People tend to forget how intertwined Evangelion is with extra-dimensional concepts, which is likely because it blends it with a more emotionally-driven explanation- but the rest is there as backing evidence. So far in Rebuild, our Quantum Rei has only appeared twice; once at the beginning of 1.0 as custom across all subsequent universes of NGE (and NGE, the orignal itself) with Shinji in the street… and then the big one— to Rei in her LCL tank in 3.0. Consciously, Rei has never been confronted with a real version of herself- the closest she came is Arimsael’s projection of her, which manages to shake up her perspective of individuality.

The moment in which she encounters her Quantum self, looking out from her LCL tank, is a chilling moment of realization that causes her to question her purpose and origin for the rest of the film. Between Rei’s two glances, the Quantum Rei grows closer to her. The tank then begins to bubble up to a blinding amount, and when the bubbles clear, the Quantum Rei has disappeared. It would seem this Rei exists to propose thoughts or situational perceptions that had not previously existed, merely by appearing at impossible (as in when the ‘current’ Rei is known to exist elsewhere) moments, rather than directly intervening with affairs. A figure of influence, not intervention.

What this will all equate to for the fate of the Rebuild- or on this scale, entire Evangelion universe, remains to be seen. And I cannot stress how eager I am to see it.