I’ve noticed that I can categorize the typical negative manifestations of my Ni into three rather distinct states: hopeless existentialism, paranoia, or obsessive visualization. This is written entirely from my own perspective and experience as an ISTP, but I’d assume this applies in varying degrees to other Ni-users.
Hopeless existentialism tends to be, “Nothing I do has any purpose because the ultimate end is death, which is unchangeable.” It seems that Ni overpowers my Se in this scenario, deeming life as ‘meaningless’ because there is no ‘ultimate underlying meaning’. Se can’t pop in and say “c’mon now, look at things realistically”, because, well, death is reality. Se can’t find a way around it, so it reinforces Ni’s negative spin on reality.
Note that Ni could just as easily be like, “Hey look, there’s no fixed, ultimate meaning to life… which means I have the freedom to derive my own meaning.” That would be a healthy perspective produced by Ni and Se.
Paranoia is more like, “There are so many hidden meanings everywhere. These people have hidden motivations and I have a hard time trusting their words at face-value. For example, I believe this person has bad intentions and is trying to smother me and take away my freedom… even though I have no evidence.” The thought process is never that specific, mind you. I experience those words as more of a baseless gut instinct or figurative alarm bells. But my point is that I derive certain meanings from my environment without solid proof. This is Ni quickly glancing at the information provided by Se and prematurely perceiving meaning. It happens when Se fails to give proper balance to Ni. I get stuck seeing subjective implications and fail to see that what’s actually in front of me really has no inherent / unquestionable deeper meaning.
Most Ni-users should be able to know the reason or source of their distrust (though INxJs and maybe a few ENxJs would naturally have trouble with this, due to lower Se).
Healthy Se/Ni would clue them into what isn’t immediately obvious, based on specific environmental cues.
Obsessive visualization is something along the lines of, “I feel insecure about my ability to perform this task even though, in the back of my mind, I know I can realistically get through it. I must analyze and visualize every single step I will take in order to complete this task well. I don’t have confidence in my abilities to improvise and adapt to the situation.” This is is an example of what happens during some of my Ti-Ni loops. Se is pushed completely out of the picture. I fail to take a step back and perceive the situation objectively. I often become uncharacteristically focused on rehearsing my future actions. I’m so focused on searching ahead that I fail to operate effectively in the moment. The loop typically lasts until I have completed the task and have nothing else for which to mentally prepare.
Visualization to a certain degree is your typical Ni, but not when it surpasses reason. If an Ni-user knows beyond a doubt that they absolutely can accomplish something without excessive planning… and yet they still obsessively focus purely on what they believe will happen and lose total focus on the present moment… that’s not healthy Ni.
So. WOW. Yes, the latest Zesty episode is everything I feared. And WORSE (before you ask: no, I don’t think the worst bit is the Gay Pride Armatus, it’s actually kinda funny, and I don’t think the worst bit is what this post will be about, either. For me, it’s definitely Mikleo being reduced to a) armatizing with Alisha for like 3 seconds, and b) screaming Sorey’s name. Btw, chill, boy, you can heal him, remember?). Anyway. This episode fucking spoilered a major Berseria endgame plotpoint. Luckily (?), I accidentally spoilered myself with that one months ago already by curiously browsing TV tropes and the Tales wiki (there’s also one sliiightly spoilerific page in the third volume of the manga…), so ToZX was actually late to the spoiler party… I never wanted to be spoilered, though. So:
If you didn’t finish Berseria AND Zestiria yet or have already been accidentally spoilered, like me, anyway, you may not want to read my comments or click the stupid images in my post here.
For everybody else: so, now that Maotelus’ identity is out of the bag, I figured nobody would care if I scribbled stupid Zestiria post-game doodles shitposts. YES OF COURSE IT’S GODDAMN GAME-VERSE, THE ANIME SHOULD GO TO HELL AND NEVER RETURN ARRRRRRRRRRRRGH
Zaveid would totally want to know all embarrassing details of Sorey’s Human Life As He Recounted It in His Sleep ™, and Edna would point out that it would take 17 years, and she doesn’t want to spend the next 17 years of her life listening to gross-things-that-the-narrator-isn’t-even-aware-of-being-gross.
I apologize for a few things: 1) spoiling anybody who didn’t know yet that Laphi=Maotelus, I’m trying to prevent it by tagging 2) I still haven’t touched Berseria, so I know lots of things about Laphi, but I don’t know everything (I know that I like him already), please feel free to improve his lines to be more in character! (no honestly, please do) 3) DOODLE SHITPOST TIME IS BACK. I’m really sorry. But it’s happy shitposting, that counts for something, right? I actually never got around sorting my own headcanons what post-game Sorey would actually look like, because the silhouette on the last page of the manga looks pretty much… unaltered except a bit taller/older, but I want him to become a seraph, so let’s pretend his hair was platinum blonde now and had colourful tips. Except the sketch is not coloured. Anyway, my reasons are: a) Sorey becoming a seraph is actually the most probable thing to happen, I like it if happy things are likely b) my heart yearns for the sappiest and happiest happy ending possible, so seraph Sorey it is. And for the same reason he also has to retain all his memories, if not, Laphi will now be able to help him out. /btw more headcanon time (nothing new here, just taking sides in headcanon wars): a) his element is TOTALLY lightning. b) He’s still taller than Meebo. Meebo’s not amused but he gets by. Maybe he’ll learn someday that short is totally beautiful and adorable. c) Laphi is totally responsible for seraph!Sorey, so Mikleo will totally worship the badass baby god from now on. Basically, I always assume that all good things are Laphi’s doing.
/someday these days I’m gonna watch a Berseria playthrough, gotta love Laphi
i love making otherkin jokes but u can tell when someone making them actually thinks otherkin is stupid. like in almost all the servers im in we’re constantly posting stupid shit like “im kin with this, no doubles” but u can tell when someone doesn’t understand that the joke is “i’m saying i’m kin with something RIDICULOUS for comedic effect” and not “otherkin are stupid, am i right?” like the butt of the joke is whatever stupid image was posted, not otherkin