structure of reality

Come through 8 Emmy Nominations!!!!

👑 Outstanding Reality-Competition Program

👑 Outstanding Host For A Reality Or Reality-Competition Program

👑 Outstanding Casting For A Reality Program

👑 Outstanding Costumes For Variety, Nonfiction Or Reality Programming

👑 Outstanding Picture Editing For A Structured Or Competition Reality Program

👑 Outstanding Hairstyling For A Multi-Camera Series Or Special

👑 Outstanding Makeup For A Multi-Camera Series Or Special (Non-Prosthetic)

👑 Outstanding Unstructured Reality Program - #Untucked

I think that “this doesn’t excuse what they did, but” is an unnecessary addition to “I feel bad for character x”.

You don’t have to justify everything a character does, or clarify that you aren’t trying to do that, before you’re allowed to feel bad for them. It’s possible to feel bad for a character while knowing full well they have also done bad things.

Suffering is fundamentally kind of sad. Someone is in pain. Someone is hurting. And it’s actually very common to have villainous characters who are driven by fundamental dissatisfaction, hurt, and anger. Even the most stereotypical, immoral, conquering tyrant characters- you can feel bad for them. They often have bleak, desolate, unsatisfying lives, sometimes of their own creation sometimes not.

That’s sad.

You don’t have to morally agree with or forgive someone before their pain is upsetting. There isn’t a point where pain becomes a Good Thing.

Sometimes, hurting others may be necessary, but that doesn’t make it good. I don’t think there’s actually a point where people deserve pain. And I think, especially in the world of fiction, where things fit comfortably to narrative structures in a way that reality doesn’t always, it is safe to say “this person is in pain” without either suggesting, or being assumed to be suggesting, that this means they aren’t responsible for what they did.




[Note: This one’s a doozy! Still kind of off-the-cuff, in that I tried not to stress out about getting everything perfect, but I did do some revision to make my ideas more clear. That’ll probably be the norm from here on out. Hope you’re in the mood for a long read and a wild ride!

…Seriously, this shit is like twenty pages in Word.]

In my previous posts, I’ve discussed a number of ideas present in Act 6 and Act 7 Homestuck that I think contribute powerfully to the ending of Homestuck, especially on a thematic level.

I’ve discussed Homestuck as a meditation on the nature of a self divided across the many timelines of a dispassionate cosmos, and argued that the Retcon, far from a drastic change in storytelling, is a continuation of that long-running theme. Is victory meaningless if one’s original self isn’t around to claim it, or can a coherent, archetypal identity can be understood as existing beyond all of one’s disparate selves? In the system of Skaia, Homestuck asks, how do we live?

I’ve also discussed Homestuck, especially Act 6 Homestuck, as a Gnostic work, the story of an escape from a cosmic tyrant, a Demiurge whose ultimate weakness is that he cannot see the limitations of the domain he’s been given. In the same post, I discussed how this realm of the Demiurge, Lord English’s domain, is constantly paralleled with the space embodied by Homestuck itself, and how the kid’s departure from the story evokes their escape from this tyrant’s space-time domain as it reaches the end set for it by Paradox Space. From the system of Lord English, Homestuck asks, how do we escape? And at the same time, in the system of narrative called Homestuck, how do we find meaning within its limitations, and how do we escape them?

These themes work together.  As we’ve seen, they echo and reinforce each other, provide parallels and points of contrast. In fact, I’d argue that each of these different themes are diverse manifestations of one larger theme, in the same way that individual selves in Homestuck can be thought of as manifestations of one larger Self. This overarching theme is present throughout Homestuck, but it reaches its culmination in Act 6 and 7, in a finale that drives it home in a different ways. To understand Homestuck is to understand this theme.

If someone were to ask me, “What is Homestuck about?” this would be my answer:

Homestuck is an exploration of the tension between abstract, impersonal systems and individual, personal experiences of those systems.

Abstract, impersonal systems are everywhere in Homestuck, systems that don’t always align with the desires, emotions, and goals of the main characters. The central question of Homestuck is how these characters will choose to understand the systems that govern their lives, and how they will carve out meaningful lives in relation to those systems. Gnosticism, metafiction, divided identities, and Sburb itself all play into this theme. As Homestuck’s characters decide how to live their lives within these many interconnected systems, they suggest possibilities for our own lives, for we readers also live in a world that also contains many systems and forces outside of our control. In their choices, we find opportunities and implications for how we should live.

You’ll notice I said there’s a tension, rather than an opposition, between individual experience and abstract systems. I think that gets closer to the truth of what Homestuck is trying to say. Characters in Homestuck sometimes reject its systems altogether, but just as often they exploit them or find identities for themselves within the constraints/opportunities of those systems. While Caliborn’s  Gnostic-style domain of control is presented in a negative light, as something worth opposing and escaping, other systems, like Sburb itself, are presented in a much more ambiguous light, challenging us to decide how we feel about those systems and the possibilities they present within their rules.

I’ve talked about several of these systems in my previous posts, but today I want to talk about one I haven’t yet dug into in detail. Narrative itself.

Narrative in Homestuck, the power a story holds over its characters, is another system which the characters of Homestuck are constantly fighting, exploiting, and embracing.

Because another word for those abstract systems in Homestuck is…


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“At 14.3 hands this horse is perfect for a small child or 4’ tall elf”
Me, a human adult, with a 14.0 hand horse: 👌

A Life in the Houses

1st House – here we’re born, we’re thrust forward into the light after leaving the safety of the womb and each new experience is bright and vibrant. The world around us stimulates and every need comes bubbling up as a visceral experience that demands our immediate and undivided attention.

2nd House – in the second house we come to the realization that we are physically incarnate. We gain awareness of our primordial possession, our body. After this we reach outward and begin to grasp at each new thing. Exploring our new world through sensory experience and as we continue to amass belongings we become attached which provides us the unique feeling of security.

3rd House – having gained mobility we begin to explore. Every encounter is a question, every novelty a chance for learning. We begin to learn how to manipulate with our hands, we learn to speak, to brush our teeth, we’re potty trained, we interact with siblings and learn by expedition. Language and thought begin to structure our reality and provide us the tools we need for understanding.

4th House – familiarity breeds safety and security, and identity begins to set in. We are who our family is and our roots extend from them into our rich past. Here we find stability and structure, and we begin to identify with our inner world. The environment that becomes so familiar is imprinted and we take it forward with us into life as cultural inheritance.

5th House – we begin to play, to create, we laugh and scream, and all the world becomes a stage for our self-expression. Breathing life into creativity allows us to share the rich inner depth that was formed within the 4th House. We exclaim, “THIS IS ME!!” and we expect others to accept us and laud our creative exploits because they are surely as perfect and vibrant as we are.

6th House – the positive reception that we were so sure of in the 5th House turns out to be criticism. Here we recognize that not everything that we do is perfect, and the process of refinement and self-reflection begins. The mortality of our bodies comes forward, and we learn that we must care for and refine the physical vessels that we possess. Those creative pursuits that we prioritized must become practical and productive in order to sustain us.

7th House – here we meet the ‘other’, and all of the things that we reject about ourselves are mirrored back to us. We learn how to cooperate with others because we cannot escape their thoughts and feelings about us. We begin to form lasting relationships with them and we share ideas, thoughts, and dreams. We strike bargains and work together in common interest. Sometimes we make enemies.

8th House – the relationships that formed in the previous house begin to deepen, and we relate to others more intimately. Secrets are shared, and in that moment we recognize power dynamics at play. Our relationships go south and our darkest parts are dragged to the surface in our pain. Here we are faced with death and loss, and we must come to terms with what these things mean to us.

9th House – having faced the deepest despair of losing those who are dear to us we begin to search for meaning in order to mend our broken hearts. We run far and wide in order to escape the pain, and in the process begin finding answers to the burning questions in our souls. Why do things die? What does it mean to be alive? Are we alone in the universe? Is there a God? If so do they care? We turn to philosophy, higher learning, and religion to answer these for us.

10th House – our search for meaning and purpose in life lead us far and wide. We saw so many different ways of living and so many different ideas of culture. This knowledge of death and life shows us that the only thing that permeates beyond the boundaries of death is legacy. We begin to work towards shaping the mark that we want to leave in the hearts of those we touch, and we try to establish a lasting impact in the world that will last beyond our mortal lifespan.

11th House – after working long and hard at building our legacy we begin to see the fruits of our labor. Our reputation builds and others want to connect with us in order to share in the work that we have done. They bring recognition and reward, and we’re able to create communities with our shared ideas in order to influence others.

12th House – the association with large groups of people lead us to contemplate the nature of mass spirituality. Where do we go when we die? What happens to our spirit? These things settle in as we near the end. We begin to live a more quiet and spiritual life, eventually being secluded from those associations we had previously prioritized. Death settles in like a fine mist and our spirit is washed away into the ether. We reflect on our life and wonder if we’ll get to do it all again…


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“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existence. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery each day.” ― Albert Einstein

Polar Agitation

Aries wants to express the ego with vehemence, and create chaos when there is no stimulation. Libra wants to reduce this noise and activity to peace and harmony. Libra cannot create peace if Aries does not induce the war 

Taurus binds onto the material as a form of energy and stability. Scorpio sinks their hands straight through this substance, realising that it is not reality, and the only truth is what cannot be seen into the infinite. The safety that Taurus seeks is with the embracing soul Scorpio can attain. Taurus wants to accumulate a sense of wealth, but this confuses Scorpio, because there is such a kingdom in the unconscious, accessible to both

Gemini sees an infinite possibility in every conclusion, finding a thousand and one ways to decipher truth in every intelligible concept. Everything could be true. And Sagittarius explores for ultimate, one, pure truth, that which resonates through their higher mind and the universe. Gemini appears deceptive, Sagittarius too single minded 

Cancer rides the tides of fantasy, imagination, and the waves into a splendid inner world, where they spend much of their time soothing the scared child inside. Capricorn does not want to indulge in these experiences, wanting to appear and feel tough minded and masculine for holding onto one belief frantically. They believe this gives them strength, but it becomes weak when Cancer consciousness washes away the seams of reality 

Leo is exhibiting single consciousness, and exhibition of God’s creative dance in a vivid and dramatised display. The heart beats with the whole universe. And Aquarius is riding the glass elevator above and beyond the human showcase of the ego, already telepathically communicating with the collective. Leo emanates as God, and Aquarius reveals the individual God consciousness present in each individual. Aquarius distributes the knowledge of God, and Leo is ego. Ego = escape God. Leo and Aquarius can constantly escape each other’s lessons 

Virgo reaffirms the earthly structure of life, reality, and material anxiety. It is for this ability to perceive defect that the hands are open and ready to serve. Virgo rules the hands, they can heal through their cerebral knowledge. And Pisces is antithetical, living in creative vision, ruling the feet, so on their knees in divine service and sacrifice. Virgo wonders how can you serve when you don’t understand. Pisces knows presence and intention is all that becomes required

#sister signs

“The important thing is to not stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existence. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery each day.” ~ Albert Einstein

The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existing. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery every day.
—  Albert Einstein

creative energy crackles in the fire mind like shooting stars, and it absolutely must be put into motion. the sagittarius mind radiates a ravenous hunger for learning and intuition leads the way for expansive mental and physical experience. travel accelerates synchronicity for sagittarius. aries responds to intuitive impulse and the world answers back. they provoke the environment so much the structure of reality itself changes. leo can thought manifest. it generates from the solar sorcery of the sun. their imagination is so godlike imaginative scenarios they desperately need and imagine they see it transpire in reality
‘Saturday Night Live,’ ‘Westworld’ Top 2017 Emmy Nominations
HBO’s “Westworld” and NBC’s “Saturday Night Live” tied for the most nominations for the 2017 Emmy Awards, earning the most with 22 each. Netflix’s freshman…
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Comedy Series
“Atlanta” (FX)
“Black-ish” (ABC)
“Master of None” (Netflix)
“Modern Family” (ABC)
“Silicon Valley” (HBO)
“Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt” (Netflix)
“Veep” (HBO)

Drama Series
“Better Call Saul” (AMC)
“The Crown” (Netflix)
“The Handmaid’s Tale” (Hulu)
“House of Cards” (Netflix)
“Stranger Things” (Netflix)
“This Is Us” (NBC)
“Westworld” (HBO)

Drama Actress
Viola Davis (“How to Get Away with Murder”)
Claire Foy (“The Crown”)
Elisabeth Moss (“The Handmaid’s Tale”)
Keri Russell (“The Americans”)
Evan Rachel Wood (“Westworld”)
Robin Wright (“House of Cards”)

Drama Actor
Sterling K. Brown (“This Is Us”)
Anthony Hopkins (“Westworld”)
Bob Odenkirk (“Better Call Saul”)
Matthew Rhys (“The Americans”)
Liev Schreiber (“Ray Donovan”)
Kevin Spacey (“House of Cards”)
Milo Ventimiglia (“This Is Us”)

Comedy Actor
Anthony Anderson (“Black-ish”)
Aziz Ansari (“Master of None”)
Zach Galifianakis (“Baskets”)
Donald Glover (“Atlanta”)
William H. Macy (“Shameless”)
Jeffrey Tambor (“Transparent”)

Comedy Actress:
Pamela Adlon (“Better Things”)
Tracee Ellis-Ross (“black-ish”)
Jane Fonda (“Grace and Frankie”)
Lily Tomlin (“Grace and Frankie”)
Allison Janney (“Mom”)
Ellie Kemper (“Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt”)

Limited Series
“Big Little Lies” (HBO)
“Fargo” (FX)
“Feud: Bette and Joan” (FX)
“The Night Of” (HBO)
“Genius” (National Geographic)

Limited Series Actor
Riz Ahmed (“The Night Of”)
Benedict Cumberbatch (“Sherlock: The Lying Detective”)
Robert De Niro (“The Wizard of Lies”)
Ewan McGregor (“Fargo”)
Geoffrey Rush (“Genius”)
John Turturro (“The Night Of”)

Limited Series Actress

Carrie Coon (“The Leftovers”)
Felicity Huffman (“American Crime”)
Nicole Kidman (“Big Little Lies”)
Jessica Lange (“Feud”)
Susan Sarandon (“Feud”)
Reese Witherspoon (“Big Little Lies”)

Best Supporting Actor in a Drama Series
John Lithgow (“The Crown”)
Jonathan Banks (“Better Call Saul”)
Mandy Patinkin (“Homeland”)
Michael Kelly (“House of Cards”)
David Harbour (“Stranger Things”)
Ron Cephas Jones (“This Is Us”)
Jeffrey Wright (“Westworld”)

Best Supporting Actress in a Drama Series
Ann Dowde (“The Handmaid’s Tale”)
Samira Wiley (“The Handmaid’s Tale”)
Uzo Aduba (“Orange Is the New Black”)
Millie Bobby Brown (“Stranger Things”)
Chrissy Metz (“This Is Us”)
Thandie Newton (“Westworld”)

Best Supporting Actor in a Comedy Series
Alec Baldwin (“Saturday Night Live”)
Louie Anderson (“Baskets”)
Ty Burrell (“Modern Family”)
Tituss Burgess (“Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt”)
Tony Hale (“Veep”)
Matt Walsh (“Veep”)

Best Supporting Actress in a Comedy Series
Kate McKinnon (“Saturday Night Live”)
Vanessa Beyer (“Saturday Night Live”)
Leslie Jones (“Saturday Night Live”)
Anna Chlumsky (“Veep”)
Judith Light (“Transparent”)
Katheryn Hahn (“Transparent”)

Variety Talk Series
“Full Frontal With Samantha Bee” (TBS)
“Jimmy Kimmel Live!” (ABC)
“Last Week Tonight With John Oliver” (HBO)
“Late Late Show With James Corden” (CBS)
“Real Time With Bill Maher” (HBO)

Reality Competition
“The Amazing Race” (CBS)
“American Ninja Warrior” (NBC)
“Project Runway” (Lifetime)
“RuPaul’s Drag Race” (vh1)
“Top Chef” (Bravo)
“The Voice” (NBC)

Television Movie: 
“Black Mirror: San Junipero”
“Dolly Parton’s Christmas Of Many Colors: Circle Of Love”
“The Immortal Life Of Henrietta Lacks”
“Sherlock: The Lying Detective (Masterpiece)”
“The Wizard Of Lies”

Variety Sketch Series
“Billy On The Street” (truTV)
“Documentary Now!” (IFC)
“Drunk History” (Comedy Central)
“Portlandia” (IFC)
“Saturday Night Live” (NBC)
“Tracey Ullman’s Show” (HBO)

Structured Reality Program
“Antiques Roadshow”
“Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives”
“Fixer Upper”
“Lip Sync Battle”
“Shark Tank”
“Who Do You Think You Are”

Unstructured Reality Program
“Born This Way”
“Deadliest Catch”
“Gaycation With Ellen Page”
“RuPaul’s Drag Race: Untucked”
“United Shades Of America: With W. Kamau Bell”

Host for a Reality/Reality-Competition Program
Alec Baldwin (“Match Game”)
W. Kamau Bell (“United Shades Of America With W. Kamau Bell)
RuPaul Charles (“RuPaul’s Drag Race)
Heidi Klum and Tim Gunn (“Project Runway)
Gordon Ramsay (“MasterChef Junior)
Martha Stewart & Snoop Dogg (“Martha & Snoop’s Potluck Dinner Party”)

A splash of yellow to warm me on a cold morning.

“The important thing is not to stop questioning. Curiosity has its own reason for existence. One cannot help but be in awe when he contemplates the mysteries of eternity, of life, of the marvelous structure of reality. It is enough if one tries merely to comprehend a little of this mystery each day.” - Albert Einstein

What Jupiter and Saturn discover about our world eventually becomes our world. Conditioned to expect certain experiences, we’ll either use Jupiter and Saturn as springboards to reach our highest potential or as giant barriers to hold us back. Indeed, as the reality structure inherited from our elders and the freedom to transcend the same, Saturn and Jupiter are the de facto architects of our world.

Dana Gerhardt, Astrodienst.

i.The linguistic relationship is not between a word and a thing; it is between a word and another word.

ii. Meaning is generated (and generates) by the act of reading the text. Prior to the reading act, the text exists alone and solely in its materiality.

iii. Everything is discursive – the infinite chain of signifiers.

iv. Not to speak of language but what language ‘does’. Not to speak of the text but what the text 'says’. Not to speak of thought but what thought 'thinks’.

v. The speaker, the reader, and the thinker are an afterthought, a citation, a reflexive to language, text, and thought.

vi. Language and the world do not touch. The first mistake is to assume a world; there is only language. In the last instance, language is the world. We are structured by a linguistic reality.

vii. Communication with the “other” is a syntagmatic stream of signifiers. Communication with the “self” is a paradigmatic stream of signifieds.

The Chaos star is a spoked device with eight equidistant arrows radiating from a central point. It was originally devised by the fantasy author Michael Moorcock as a symbol of chaos (infinite possibility), and has been adopted as a symbol of Chaos Magick. Its current rounded shape was devised by occult author and chaos magician Peter Carroll.

“The Chaosphere is the prime radiant or magic lamp of the adept – a psychic singularity which emitteth the brilliant darkness.It is a purposely created crack in the fabric of reality through which the stuff of chaos enters our dimension. Alternatively, it may be considered as a demonstration of the axiom that belief has the power to structure reality.” - Liber Null & Psychonaut

“In a real sense, all life is inter-related. All men are caught in an inescapable network of mutuality, tied in a single garment of destiny. Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be, and you can never be what you ought to be until I am what I ought to be…This is the inter-related structure of reality.”