AN: okay?? so?? y’all liked the logan vent piece, hearby dubbed Coward?? so i finished this??? they may be OOC but??? idk?? you can equate that to like?? the stressful situation they were in??? ALSO V IMPORTANT i’m gonna include some stuff in the next part, yes, there will be another part and possibly another after that, basically, i already posted about this, but Aromantic Logan and, eventually, QPPs Patton and Logan!! which i’m rly excited for!!! anyways, thats it, i’m also working on the next part of Just A Baby right now so that should be up sometime next week
Pairing: None/Platonic Logicality (could be read as romantic right now, but also not rly, and should not be in the next part)
Summary: Patton goes to apologize to Logan for lashing out at him and discovers him crying. Patton being Patton, he tries to comfort him.
Patton stood outside Logan’s room, his fist paused in front of the door. He needed to apologize. Logan had been out of line, but that wasn’t any reason to lash out like him that. And he had been right. He felt horrible about it, the look of hurt on the logical side’s face frozen in his mind.
highkey stressing that the writers are going to have Fitz be even remotely conflicted at all in whatever he feels for Aida. I can understand him being shellshocked, having just come out of the Framework and dealing with the horrible things he did there, but please no. Don’t do that. Don’t let that wordless stare he gave her be conflicted feelings. Let him be rock solid in that he loves Jemma, only Jemma, and that he knows Aida programmed him to love her to serve her own needs.
Did you ever try to be so strong but fail? You catch yourself holding in everything that’s going wrong in your head and one day the littlest thing can happen that gets you angry and everything you’re holding in comes out. All the hurt, anger, the losing of friends, the bad grades, not being happy with your body. Once one tear falls, they never stop. That’s the heartbreaking part of it. Everything you hold in eventually comes out and there’s nothing you can do about it. Everyone has a breaking point and I just hit mine.
The trees that had once been in such close proximity to you now slowly faded away as the train began to move along the tracks. The wind proceeded to move the trees from one direction to another, the countryside expanding further and further as your eyes ventured across the rich landscape of farmland. The train station and the train itself with its tracks seemed to be the only objects made by man, while the curves of the hills and the flowers blooming across the grass were made by the hands of mother nature herself.
You found it gratifying to be away from the stress of the city, the shouts of people along the streets. You felt the remnants of your stress culminate within your stomach. You had suffered social anxiety for as long as your brain permitted you to remember - today had been one of the days where you had felt constricted within a meeting that morning. You had called your boyfriend, Loki, to tell him of your imminent panic attack, to which he left a small cafe he had near inhabited as you attended such meetings. You had calmed, thankfully, away from the array of faces and proximity of work colleagues to be alone with the most recognisable and comforting of all faces.
why can’t people just take ’no, I don’t want to come’ as a valid answer instead of ’you’ll have fun though!’ or ’you’re friends with everyone who’s gonna be there!’ or ’just have a few drinks and you’ll be fine!’
Prescription drugs , show me love . Percocets , Adderall , Xanny bars , get codeine involved . Stuck in this body high , can’t shake it off . I’m falling off , I can’t hold a thought . What’s wrong with me ? Now depression creep . I’m stressing deep , even in my sleep .
But what if I’m not following God’s perfect plan for my life? What if I messed everything up? What if the other choice would have been better? Why did you bring me here God, when this clearly isn’t working?
Throughout my life I have always seen God’s will as some sort of perfect plan that I always have to find. I have stressed myself out so much wondering what God wants me to do. However, I’ve recently realized that God’s plan isn’t some rigid line that I always have to figure out. God calls me to be faithful, and that’s it.
God calls us to follow him in the present moment. Not the future. Not in the shame of our past decisions. Right here and right now, be faithful.
Don’t believe me? Look up bible verses about being God’s will. It’s never about a specific detail, but about the overall way we live our everyday lives. God lays out his law and then tells us to follow it. He gives the people a command and says “Walk with me in it.” He doesn’t say, go, search and find what college/job/house I want for you so that you can have the ideal life. He says things like “Be humble” and “Flee from sin.” Notice how both of those things can be done during any college career, in any job, living in any house. Stop looking for what to do and start looking at how to do it. Take my college decisions for example- I never got the lighting bolt moment when God told me where he wanted me to go to college. In fact, I didn’t feel as though God was telling me where to go to college at all. I don’t think he cared. He just wanted me to go, and I listened. He would have worked at any college, and blessed me in any place. I can follow the Lord wherever I go. He doesn’t care where I am, he just cares that I encounter him there.
Yes, there are moments in time when God puts a specific calling on people’s hearts for certain decisions. I’m not trying to undermine those moments; God does work that way. However, he doesn’t always work that way. I want to encourage everyone out there who isn’t having one of those specific calling moments: you can stop stressing. Ask yourself how you can be the most faithful. If the two options you have are both circumstances where you can follow God wholeheartedly, then just choose the one you like! All God wants you to be is faithful.
So be faithful in the ordinary moments of life. Jesus tells us to pick up our crosses daily and follow him. You don’t have to search for the perfect adventure to bring glory to God. Just be faithful in every moment of your normal routine. Hold the door open for people and smile at the cashier. Live your ordinary life out in faithfulness to the will of God. And what is that exactly? Well he tells us pretty clearly in Micah 6:8- He has told you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you but to act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God? That’s it. Just be faithful to God’s commands for justice, mercy, and humility as you live in whatever place in whatever situation. Don’t look for something more. Just be faithful now, in the ordinary.