I don’t know that I’ve posted about this before, but there is something I have really been struggling with. My husband and I have been trying to have another baby for about a year and a half, which I know some people struggle much longer than that. But, we have a 3-year old son now (turning 4 in December), who we had no trouble conceiving. This time around, we tried for a year on our own before going to the infertility doctors, who have basically said that we have unexplained secondary infertility, which basically means they have no idea why we are struggling to get pregnant now when we didn’t before. And don’t get me wrong, I’m so grateful for my son and love him unconditionally, but it’s that feeling of our family being incomplete and the continuous let down every month that’s just taking its toll. Add into it that I have these $200 pregnancy tests at the clinic and get the results in a phone call at work. Before, I could at least take a stupid cheap test and cry in the comfort of my own home. I had a rough day today, because I had to go into the clinic to take a pregnancy test this morning and then got the call during work that it was negative yet again. So, I receive this call during my workday, break down crying, go out to my car so I can cry in privacy since there’s no privacy in my office, and now my emotions are so all over the place that all I keep thinking about is turning to food for comfort. I feel like this has been a big contributor to my poor eating habits over the last year. It’s like this vicious cycle of doing okay and then once I get the bad news every month, all I want to do is eat. Hopefully I can stay strong and not get out of control since I have been doing really well with my eating and exercise over the last couple weeks. Anyway, it’s nice to vent a little bit about this. Hugs to anyone out there that has struggled with infertility and/or losses.