strength within myself

I was talking to my sister today and I told her about my relationship with YouTube and the YouTubers in general and–

And I’ve read countless stories of people who’ve said that Jack and Mark and any number of people have saved their lives, and I’m so happy for them. I really am.

But I…it’s not my situation, as much as I used to think it was. I used to think that they saved my life. But I realized they didn’t.

Markiplier and Jacksepticeye didn’t save my life. They just reminded me that I had the strength within me to save myself.

And that’s pretty cool, too.


Dear Taylor,
Hi Taylor, it’s me, Stormie.

I really wish you were here to talk to & give the biggest hug today more than others. Today is Father’s Day, a really hard day for me. My dad is still alive, but he chooses to have nothing to do with me really.

Him & my mom divorced when I was real young so I don’t remember much of their marriage, but I remember, along with things I know from stories I heard from my mom & my sisters, & things I remember from growing up, he didn’t always treat my mom right &he hasn’t ever really treated me &my sisters right.

I’ve learned to live with it &cope. But on holidays, especially today, it hurts my heart more than I’d like to admit. But you’re always there. You showed me how to find happiness & strength &love within myself, my life, my friends, my family, & you. Thank you for caring about me Taylor. You have no idea how much it means to me. Thank you for everything. I love you so much.

Love, Stormie.