i need you to understand what a mess i am. i need you to understand i am still fighting my demons. i need you to understand i’m still in recovery. i need you to understand my heart isn’t 100% ready and that i am trying so hard to move on from my past horrors. i need you to understand i won’t always be happy,hyper,and weird. i am human, i am extremely haunted by my mind. i will get mad sometimes, and sometimes i will be extremely sad. but i promise that in the end, i will give you 100% and you will be the most happiest girl alive. i promise to always be there for you, through every good and bad moment. i promise to love you when you’re sad, when you open up to me with your past, when you’re mad, happy,nervous…..i promise to never let you go to bed sad or worried or even mad. that’s not right. i promise to take you to your favorite concert on your birthday. i promise to write you random little letters and give them to you when you least expect it. i promise we’ll go on long road trips across america and get lost in big cities. i promise to protect and love you with all i have to offer. i promise.
How does playing bands in high school turn into joining a band like Fall Out Boy?
Pete and I were always doing bands. The first vegan straightedge band that I did, Joe was a huge fan. We called him number one fan. That's how I met him and he was, like, a fanboy dude. Then we started doing hardcore bands, and at some point when high school ended and I was going to college, I was doing 2 or 3 bands at a time. Fall Out Boy started without me, I was in another pop punk band at the time. I think we all got burnt out on hardcore and it became this fashion based thing. We just wanted to do something fun, less serious, less political. Eventually Fall Out Boy did a tour and needed a drummer to fill in, then they wanted me to record for a demo, and that was basically the start of me being in it.
honestly, i want is just a really cute person to cuddle with. you know? nothing extreme. just a person i can go to shows with, headbang with, mosh, and just…..be with all the time. someones vinyls, pizza, pop punk ,metal, long boarding, traveling, coffee, food,an being werid. someone who understands my soul. someone who likes to hike, go on cute camping trips. someone i can just be myself around, who likes learning about my secrets. it’s all i ask. someone who on’t screw me over or lead me on, cheat or lie…..pop punk person where are you omg
we can travel from state to state not knowing where we’d end up next. we could go to every pop punk concert of your choice. we could get there really early and get the best spots ever. i’d buy you every vinyl of your choice,a beanie and a shirt. we could even meet them too. i love making you happy, bc you are my princess. we could have campfires and cuddle on the top of our van and look at the stars. they’re just as beautiful as you, but you’re even more beautiful. you are my princess and i am so blessed to have you. i will love you through it all. we can hold hands in public and i’d look at you and smile. we can go on cute dates like getting pizza or just seeing a movie. whatever we do, i’m going to be so happy bc you’re mine and just ugh. i’ll text you huge paragraphs and remind you always at how much i love you. you need to know a time bc i know how scared you get i can’t wait to meet you.
i just want a cute pop punk relationship where we both love vinyls and beanies and vans and lots and lots of pizza and long boarding and traveling and coffee and going to pop punk shows like seahaven, basement,brand new…etc. i just want a happy, fun filled relationship where everything is based around our music interests.
i really just want a cute girl to mosh with, longboard the city streets with, go on long road trips, cuddle under the stars, headbang, collect vinyls, buy matching band shirts, eat pizza and just be cute ugh
the way you’ll smile at me when i crack corny jokes will be so cute. i can’t wait to tickle you and pick you up in my arms and watch you let me because you find it comforting. i can’t wait to show you off to the world and let them know how proud i am bc you’re mine. i can’t wait to make you cute homemade things just to watch you get so damn happy bc i did it all for you. i can’t wait to take you to concerts like Warped tour and i’ll make sure you get to meet every band you like. i can’t wait to take you out to dinner whether it’s at a fancy one or just McDonalds. we can go see the fireworks, and cuddle while we watch them together. i can’t wait to Facetime with you every night before i fall asleep. we can pull all-nighters if you want and just wake up so tired but happy bc it was so worth it. you’re worth it. i’ll always remind you of how beautiful i think you are. i promise to take this whole thing seriously, your feelings and happiness matter to me more then anyone. i’ll be there with you when you’re sad,angry,happy. i will love you t hrough it all, nothing will change my feelings for you. try to push me away, i’ll be here. try to convience me i’m not the one? i’ll still fight my way out of it. you are what i want, and if i need to wait, i will because i love you.
when we are on our first date, i won’t be able to stop looking at you, because you are just so beautiful. then you’ll look at me and slowly smile really big and blush and hide your face and i’ll just say…. “i love you.” then you’ll say it back and i’ll be so surprised. man, i can’t wait to meet you. i can’t wait until you’re mine. i promise to be the best girlfriend to you ever. i promise to ALWAYS hold you when you least expect it. i’ll always kiss you. you will be my one and only. i won’t have any other girl that i’m interested in, you’ll be it. i promise to never go to bed without saying i love you, i know how scared and sad you get if i don’t say it back, it’ll ALWAYS be said. we can cuddle and watch shows on netflix while it rains out, or we can go to some theater and see old gray or brand new together, then get pizza afterwards. i know how badly you want to meet one of the bands,and i’ll make it happen. we can stand behind the theater and fangirl together until they come out. you’re so beautiful when you get happy over something you adore. i’ll always text you cute random things and make you small things to express my love. i promise to be the best girlfriend you’ve ever had and you won’t be let down.
please know i am broken,and flawed. please understand i have demons who won’t leave me alone resulting in bad evil things. i am at a war with myself, living is hard,so is breathing. there are many things wrong that i cannot explain to you but i hope you can understand. please love me and all my demons too, they need love as well. even though my heart is completely broken, i will love you even if my soul is gone. you will be my star,and i’ll be your sky. i need you as much as you need me. we are a team. hen i think about you, my sadness goes away in a flash and a smile comes upon my exhausted face. you give me life. i’m so blessed to have you,darling. don’t ever go. i promise to be here no matter what unless you want me to go, i still won’t. when i hold you,everything stops hurting. you are either me…in my arms, that’s all i care about is you,and us,and what we share. every demon you re fighting,every scar on your body, every stretch mark,and imperfection you dislike about yourself i’ll fall in love with it all. i’ll be here for you through every darkest night, i’ll hold you tightly in my arms,and kiss your forehead just so you know i’m here and i refuse to leave your side. any late night phone call, i’ll be here. i don’t care what time it will be, i’ll be here for you my love. let me help you. it’s my job. i’ll even let you borrow my sweater, so you’ll feel safe. i’ll always be here. no matter how far apart,this won’t matter because one day.. we’ll acutally be together, the wait will be worth it. please hold for me,babe. i promise we can get through this. don’t focus on the miles,focus on me,and the love we share. i love you so much. nothing can interfere for my love for you. it is so powerful and strong. i swear nothing will stop it. you’re my princess, you’re everything i could'eve hoped and dreamed for. i love you darling,te amo mi amor. <3
i hope my next girlfriend is straightedge and likes pop punk and metal especially and i hope she likes cuddles and kisses and vans and longboarding and traveling to huge cities and getting lost in them and deep 4am conversations on school nights