story of girls life

Mirror Mirror: I’m the loneliest of all. 

Mirror Mirror Pt. II: I’ve been so lonely…but maybe I can change things?

It’s My Turn: Yeah, now’s where my life starts! I can do this! 

This Life is Mine: FUCK YOU DAD I’M DONE AND I’M GOING TO DO AMAZING THINGS CAUSE THIS LIFE IS MINE NOT YOURS ALSO FUCK YOU

Kissing you for the first time felt like fireworks. Feeling your lips against mine is a feeling I’ll never forget. Your lips were so delicate and soft. Biting your lip through our various kisses, I was definitely euphoric. I never want to stop kissing you.
—  kissing you // 9:16pm
things that actually happened in my high school

1. in the middle of am homeroom (so like 9am in the morning) a kid just broke out a pint of ice cream and started eating it. and i guess it wouldnt have been that bad except once people noticed, everyone started whispering and pointing until half the class was surrounding the table literally BEGGING for some. the teacher actually had to stop reading the morning announcements and give a speech on how you shouldn’t give death threats over ice cream.

2. this kid i was sitting next to once went home bc he got a massive headache after staring straight into a lightbulb for 2 minutes bc he “was bored and wanted to see what would happen.” he ended up taking 3 advils after that, got paranoid and made the entire table search “how many pills of advil does it take to overdose” on a school computer.

3.  there was a HUGE ASS fly in the room and the teacher thought itd be a great idea to kill it by throwing a folder 4inches thick with papers in its general direction; it ended up going across the room and hitting a poor, innocent kid in the face so hard that the other kids at the table scrammed and started yelling “EVERY MAN FOR HIMSELF”…and when i tell you that this fly was huge,,it was literally so MASSIVE that this one girl almost started crying when it flew near her, someone actually tried throwing a cup of coffee at it, and another person started screaming ZIKA VIRUSSSS and something about how they weren’t vaccinated. and mind you the majority of the students are dressed in fancy attire bc of the national honor society ceremony that was later in the afternoon. in the midst of all this chaos, this one kid stands up, doesnt say anything and literally just ninja slams his bare hand onto the table and kills the fly all in one fluid motion, all without saying a single word. the entire class just broke out in thunderous applause, including the teacher, and then class continued as normal as if the past 10 minutes didn’t even happen

4. during first period a teacher who lost a ton of weight over a 2 year period was giving serious advice about the importance of living a healthy lifestyle while this kid right in front of the teacher’s desk breaks out a FULL mcdonalds breakfast meal and distributes it among the table

5. kids that were in apush and ap spanish held a joint prayer vigil the day before ap exams began, so that ap students could literally hold hands and pray to survive exam season as well as mourn our high grades. everyone who went was required to bring in fake candles and food, while someone else conducted a prayer service. a special invitation was sent using our school emails, you had to rsvp in order to attend, and it was suggested that you wear black. our ap teachers knew about this, and they agreed it was a good idea somehow

We spend so much of our 20’s looking for the one. We are stuck at that age where half of our friends are engaged or married, some with children; the other half is drunk off their ass 90% of the time and never made it past their second semester of college. We find this compelling need to compare ourselves to everyone around us, “oh at least I’m doing better than her,” and “fuck. She’s about to be a doctor and I am not sure what I want to be.” We have to swipe left endlessly looking for what we want.

I’ll tell you what you want, it’s to be happy.

Happy is not the same for you as it is for the girl who sat next to you every day during 3rd period.

And for me? Happy is making sure I get to see the world while I’m young, experiencing different parts of our country before I pick and place and settle down. If I’m going to dig my roots so far into the nutrient rich ground I want to make DAMN sure it’s the right kinda soil to make me grow. At some point I woke up and realized I’m living life for myself and not others. I welcome their criticism but learned to filter out when it was helpful versus unnecessary. There’s nothing wrong with getting on a plane to anywhere or long road trips or moving around to figure yourself out. Cause let me tell you, I was looking for the one, and I found her. It’s me. I’m the one. But when I find someone else who can be my plus one to everything I’ve already given myself, I’ll be ready because I won’t expect them to give me all the love in the world. To always pick me up when I fall. I will not rely heavily on them because i know I’ve already done it for myself and deeply rooted myself in those capabilities. Whoever comes along will hopefully have done that for themselves and instead of 2 trees in a yard we can create a jungle that radiates so much life everything comes to live within us. You see I was born a queen with a throne, now I’m learning to make an empire.

And for you? I hope you find whatever your happiness is to be able to do the same. To be a source of life.

Feel-Good Movies Each Sign Should Watch

Aries: Boyhood (2014) //  “You know how everyone’s always saying seize the moment? I don’t know, I’m kind of thinking it’s the other way around, you know, like the moment seizes us.”

Taurus: Life As We Know It (2010) // “Having somebody help you doesn’t mean that you fail, it just means that you’re not in it alone.”

Gemini: It’s Kind of a Funny Story (2010) // “People are screwed up in this world. I’d rather be with someone screwed up and open about it than somebody perfect and ready to explode.”

Cancer: 500 Days of Summer (2009) // “I’m always the one who loves more. That’s my thing.”

Leo: The Spectacular Now (2013) // “It’s fine to ‘live in the now’. But the best part about ‘now’ is there’s another one tomorrow. And I’m gonna start making them count.”

Virgo: My Girl (1991) // “I only surround myself with people I find intellectually stimulating.”

Libra: Little Miss Sunshine (2006) // “You do what you love and fuck the rest.”

Scorpio: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) // “I’m always anxious thinking I’m not living my life to the fullest, you know? Taking advantage of every possibility?”

Sagittarius: That Awkward Moment (2014) //  “I love the way she laughs. I love the way we fit together in bed because we’re the same height and our crotches line up perfectly.”

Capricorn: The Art of Getting By (2011) //  “You’re going to have to start using that brain of yours to access that talent of yours and show that beautiful heart of yours.”

Aquarius: Silver Linings Playbook (2012) // “You have to do everything you can, you have to work your hardest, and if you do, if you stay positive, you have a shot at a silver lining.”

Pisces: The Perks of Being a Wallflower (2012) // “So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons, and maybe we’ll never know most of them.”

You could’ve chosen the girl with green eyes and long hair, who loves going out on dates and likes to cook for you, who always takes long baths and listens to music while doing her homework, who loves coffee and peppermint tea, who smiles at strangers and is crazy about sunsets,


you could’ve chosen the girl who laughs like a princess and loves her parents, who reads poems and does yoga, who doesn’t eat meat and smells of vanilla, who is obsessed by sudoku and animes, who would play the piano for you and would adore your big brown eyes,


you could’ve chosen the girl who teaches you how to treat a woman, who doesn’t get angry at you and isn’t jealous at all, who is passionate about photography and music, who laughs at your silly jokes and knows how to get what she wants,


you could’ve chosen the girl who likes roses and “The walking dead”, who knows her worth and likes to play videogames, who would love to dance, especially for you and would love to watch with you movies about super heroes, 


but you chose me and I’m still wondering why.

— 

http://writies.tumblr.com/

I’m still wondering why.

I feel like an NPC character when...

I’m on register at work:
~waits patiently behind counter with absent smile until a customer walks close enough and/or shows necessary amount of interest
~has a set script of prompts in my head to follow during transactions
~cheerful yet non-descript customer service voice and can repeat same exact tone infinitely.
~breaking from prompts or skipping through parts may cause minor glitches, such as accidentally repeating the same prompt again or completely skipping necessary ones
~absentmindedly tends to my area using the same five or so actions in a continuous loop until new person arrives
~Abnormally knowledgeable in my craft
~wears same outfit every day
~Nothing unusual phases me
~walking away and coming back is like a brand new interaction. I have little to no memory of you

I hope you know
I will always love
you no matter
what happens.
No matter where
I go in this life, my
heart will always be
the one for you.
—  gabbybaby17 (No Matter What)

You guys can always feel free to message me ❤

I’m waiting for the day to come when I’m finally tired of chasing and believing in false hopes. I’m waiting for it to come, when I’m finally able to find happiness within myself. I’m waiting for the day until I no longer have you or your name in mind. The day when I finally realize these were just all fake attachments and are plain infatuations. I’m waiting for the day when I finally learn that some things I’ve invested on you which are my time and effort, chances and opportunties, the words I’ve written for you and the pages I’ve dedicated to you, the attention you’re getting, the love, care and respect, my appreciation to all of your efforts, the I love you’s and I miss you’s, the apologies and reasons, the disappointments and arguments we usually have, the lies and truth, the kisses, hugs and cuddles, these things were all part of the lesson, that I’m growing and so are you. I’m waiting for the day when I can finally say no to love and yes to my priorities and dreams. I’m waiting for the day when I finally get to think that you’ve given me so much experience and that you were neither a mistake nor a wrong choice. I’m waiting for the day until I won’t regret these things, and that things are meant to happen because I’ve let them be. I’m waiting until our feelings both decide to finally let go without bitterness or anger between each other. I’m waiting for the day when we finally get to have the very last closure we needed in the first place. I’m waiting for it. And sooner or later, it will come someday—and that day might be today.
—  14 February 2017: A Sad Valentine’s Day piece.
Vodka Shots

Originally posted by garisanee

Wonho (Monsta X), for anon

Type: Smut, College!AU

Words: 1,777

Summary: There’s something about vodka and frat parties that bring out a side of your boyfriend you’ve never seen…

“Yo! Y/N, take another shot! You’re not drunk enough yet!” Minhyuk yelled over the blaring party music, slinging his arm around your neck. He was sloppy drunk at this point, his whole body and the air surrounding him reeking incredibly of vodka. He leaned against your frame a little too much, sloshing a bit of his beer over the sides of his solo cup as he did so.

You were in a huddle mass of over incredibly drunk people, most of which were fraternity boys. Dating a fraternity boy yourself, you seemingly found yourself in this situation more often than not: the stench of alcohol coating the hair, sweaty bodies of Greek kids milling about and constantly brushing against you. The Pi Kappa Alpha, PIKE for short, house was really quite spacious, more so than most of the other fraternity houses you’d been to, but that space just left room for more party-goers.

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